’Oh!Youknow!’shereturned。’ThisflameofHenry’s。Thisunfortunatefancy。There!IfitisapointofhonourthatI
shouldoriginatethename——MissMickles——Miggles。’
’MissMeagles,’saidClennam,’isverybeautiful。’
’Menaresooftenmistakenonthosepoints,’returnedMrsGowan,shakingherhead,’thatIcandidlyconfesstoyouIfeelanythingbutsureofit,evennow;thoughitissomethingtohaveHenrycorroboratedwithsomuchgravityandemphasis。HepickedthepeopleupatRome,Ithink?’
Thephrasewouldhavegivennobodymortaloffence。Clennamreplied,’Excuseme,IdoubtifIunderstandyourexpression。’
’Pickedthepeopleup,’saidMrsGowan,tappingthesticksofherclosedfanalargegreenone,whichsheusedasahand-screenonherlittletable。’Cameuponthem。Foundthemout。StumbledUP
againstthem。’
’Thepeople?’
’Yes。TheMigglespeople。’
’Ireallycannotsay,’saidClennam,’wheremyfriendMrMeaglesfirstpresentedMrHenryGowantohisdaughter。’
’IamprettysurehepickedherupatRome;butnevermindwhere——
somewhere。Nowthisisentirelybetweenourselves,issheveryplebeian?’
’Really,ma’am,’returnedClennam,’Iamsoundoubtedlyplebeianmyself,thatIdonotfeelqualifiedtojudge。’
’Veryneat!’saidMrsGowan,coollyunfurlingherscreen。’Veryhappy!FromwhichIinferthatyousecretlythinkhermannerequaltoherlooks?’
Clennam,afteramoment’sstiffness,bowed。
’That’scomforting,andIhopeyoumayberight。DidHenrytellmeyouhadtravelledwiththem?’
’ItravelledwithmyfriendMrMeagles,andhiswifeanddaughter,duringsomemonths。’Nobody’sheartmighthavebeenwrungbytheremembrance。
’Reallycomforting,becauseyoumusthavehadalargeexperienceofthem。Yousee,MrClennam,thisthinghasbeengoingonforalongtime,andIfindnoimprovementinit。Thereforetohavetheopportunityofspeakingtoonesowellinformedaboutitasyourself,isanimmenserelieftome。Quiteaboon。Quiteablessing,Iamsure。’
’Pardonme,’returnedClennam,’butIamnotinMrHenryGowan’sconfidence。Iamfarfrombeingsowellinformedasyousupposemetobe。Yourmistakemakesmypositionaverydelicateone。NowordonthistopichaseverpassedbetweenMrHenryGowanandmyself。’
MrsGowanglancedattheotherendoftheroom,wherehersonwasplayingecarteonasofa,withtheoldladywhowasforachargeofcavalry。
’Notinhisconfidence?No,’saidMrsGowan。’Nowordhaspassedbetweenyou?No。ThatIcanimagine。Butthereareunexpressedconfidences,MrClennam;andasyouhavebeentogetherintimatelyamongthesepeople,Icannotdoubtthataconfidenceofthatsortexistsinthepresentcase。PerhapsyouhaveheardthatIhavesufferedthekeenestdistressofmindfromHenry’shavingtakentoapursuitwhich——well!’shrugginghershoulders,’averyrespectablepursuit,Idaresay,andsomeartistsare,asartists,quitesuperiorpersons;still,weneveryetinourfamilyhavegonebeyondanAmateur,anditisapardonableweaknesstofeelalittle——’
AsMrsGowanbrokeofftoheaveasigh,Clennam,howeverresolutetobemagnanimous,couldnotkeepdownthethoughtthattherewasmightylittledangerofthefamily’severgoingbeyondanAmateur,evenasitwas。
’Henry,’themotherresumed,’isself-willedandresolute;andasthesepeoplenaturallystraineverynervetocatchhim,Icanentertainverylittlehope,MrClennam,thatthethingwillbebrokenoff。Iapprehendthegirl’sfortunewillbeverysmall;
Henrymighthavedonemuchbetter;thereisscarcelyanythingtocompensatefortheconnection:still,heactsforhimself;andifIfindnoimprovementwithinashorttime,Iseenoothercoursethantoresignmyselfandmakethebestofthesepeople。Iaminfinitelyobligedtoyouforwhatyouhavetoldme。’
Assheshruggedhershoulders,Clennamstifflybowedagain。Withanuneasyflushuponhisface,andhesitationinhismanner,hethensaidinastilllowertonethanhehadadoptedyet:
’MrsGowan,IscarcelyknowhowtoacquitmyselfofwhatIfeeltobeaduty,andyetImustaskyouforyourkindconsiderationinattemptingtodischargeit。Amisconceptiononyourpart,averygreatmisconceptionifImayventuretocallitso,seemstorequiresettingright。YouhavesupposedMrMeaglesandhisfamilytostraineverynerve,Ithinkyousaid——’
’Everynerve,’repeatedMrsGowan,lookingathimincalmobstinacy,withhergreenfanbetweenherfaceandthefire。
’TosecureMrHenryGowan?’
Theladyplacidlyassented。
’Nowthatissofar,’saidArthur,’frombeingthecase,thatI
knowMrMeaglestobeunhappyinthismatter;andtohaveinterposedallreasonableobstacleswiththehopeofputtinganendtoit。’
MrsGowanshutuphergreatgreenfan,tappedhimonthearmwithit,andtappedhersmilinglips。’Why,ofcourse,’saidshe。
’JustwhatImean。’
Arthurwatchedherfaceforsomeexplanationofwhatshedidmean。
’Areyoureallyserious,MrClennam?Don’tyousee?’
Arthurdidnotsee;andsaidso。
’Why,don’tIknowmyson,anddon’tIknowthatthisisexactlythewaytoholdhim?’saidMrsGowan,contemptuously;’anddonottheseMigglespeopleknowit,atleastaswellasI?Oh,shrewdpeople,MrClennam:evidentlypeopleofbusiness!IbelieveMigglesbelongedtoaBank。ItoughttohavebeenaveryprofitableBank,ifhehadmuchtodowithitsmanagement。Thisisverywelldone,indeed。’
’Ibegandentreatyou,ma’am——’Arthurinterposed。
’Oh,MrClennam,canyoureallybesocredulous?’
Itmadesuchapainfulimpressionuponhimtohearhertalkinginthishaughtytone,andtoseeherpattinghercontemptuouslipswithherfan,thathesaidveryearnestly,’Believeme,ma’am,thisisunjust,aperfectlygroundlesssuspicion。’
’Suspicion?’repeatedMrsGowan。’Notsuspicion,MrClennam,Certainty。Itisveryknowinglydoneindeed,andseemstohavetakenYOUincompletely。’Shelaughed;andagainsattappingherlipswithherfan,andtossingherhead,asifsheadded,’Don’ttellme。Iknowsuchpeoplewilldoanythingforthehonourofsuchanalliance。’
Atthisopportunemoment,thecardswerethrownup,andMrHenryGowancameacrosstheroomsaying,’Mother,ifyoucanspareMrClennamforthistime,wehavealongwaytogo,andit’sgettinglate。’MrClennamthereuponrose,ashehadnochoicebuttodo;
andMrsGowanshowedhim,tothelast,thesamelookandthesametappedcontemptuouslips。
’Youhavehadaportentouslylongaudienceofmymother,’saidGowan,asthedoorcloseduponthem。’Iferventlyhopeshehasnotboredyou?’
’Notatall,’saidClennam。
Theyhadalittleopenphaetonforthejourney,andweresooninitontheroadhome。Gowan,driving,lightedacigar;Clennamdeclinedone。Dowhathewould,hefellintosuchamoodofabstractionthatGowansaidagain,’Iamverymuchafraidmymotherhasboredyou?’Towhichherousedhimselftoanswer,’Notatall!’andsoonrelapsedagain。
Inthatstateofmindwhichrenderednobodyuneasy,histhoughtfulnesswouldhaveturnedprincipallyonthemanathisside。Hewouldhavethoughtofthemorningwhenhefirstsawhimrootingoutthestoneswithhisheel,andwouldhaveaskedhimself,’Doeshejerkmeoutofthepathinthesamecareless,cruelway?’
Hewouldhavethought,hadthisintroductiontohismotherbeenbroughtaboutbyhimbecauseheknewwhatshewouldsay,andthathecouldthusplacehispositionbeforearivalandloftilywarnhimoff,withouthimselfreposingawordofconfidenceinhim?Hewouldhavethought,eveniftherewerenosuchdesignasthat,hadhebroughthimtheretoplaywithhisrepressedemotions,andtormenthim?Thecurrentofthesemeditationswouldhavebeenstayedsometimesbyarushofshame,bearingaremonstrancetohimselffromhisownopennature,representingthattosheltersuchsuspicions,evenforthepassingmoment,wasnottoholdthehigh,unenviouscoursehehadresolvedtokeep。Atthosetimes,thestrivingwithinhimwouldhavebeenhardest;andlookingupandcatchingGowan’seyes,hewouldhavestartedasifhehaddonehimaninjury。
Then,lookingatthedarkroadanditsuncertainobjects,hewouldhavegraduallytrailedoffagainintothinking,’Wherearewedriving,heandI,Iwonder,onthedarkerroadoflife?Howwillitbewithus,andwithher,intheobscuredistance?’Thinkingofher,hewouldhavebeentroubledanewwithareproachfulmisgivingthatitwasnotevenloyaltohertodislikehim,andthatinbeingsoeasilyprejudicedagainsthimhewaslessdeservingofherthanatfirst。
’Youareevidentlyoutofspirits,’saidGowan;’Iamverymuchafraidmymothermusthaveboredyoudreadfully。’
’Believeme,notatall,’saidClennam。’It’snothing——nothing!’
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