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第26章

  ’There!’saidMrMeagles,’nowyouknowallaboutDoyce。Except,whichIowndoesnotimprovemystateofmind,thatevennowyoudon’thearhimcomplain。’
  ’Youmusthavegreatpatience,’saidArthurClennam,lookingathimwithsomewonder,’greatforbearance。’
  ’No,’hereturned,’Idon’tknowthatIhavemorethananotherman。’
  ’BytheLord,youhavemorethanIhave,though!’criedMrMeagles。
  Doycesmiled,ashesaidtoClennam,’Yousee,myexperienceofthesethingsdoesnotbeginwithmyself。Ithasbeeninmywaytoknowalittleaboutthemfromtimetotime。Mineisnotaparticularcase。Iamnotworseusedthanahundredotherswhohaveputthemselvesinthesameposition——thanalltheothers,I
  wasgoingtosay。’
  ’Idon’tknowthatIshouldfindthataconsolation,ifitweremycase;butIamverygladthatyoudo。’
  ’Understandme!Idon’tsay,’herepliedinhissteady,planningway,andlookingintothedistancebeforehimasifhisgreyeyeweremeasuringit,’thatit’srecompenseforaman’stoilandhope;
  butit’sacertainsortofrelieftoknowthatImighthavecountedonthis。’
  Hespokeinthatquietdeliberatemanner,andinthatundertone,whichisoftenobservableinmechanicswhoconsiderandadjustwithgreatnicety。Itbelongedtohimlikehissupplenessofthumb,orhispeculiarwayoftiltinguphishatatthebackeverynowandthen,asifhewerecontemplatingsomehalf-finishedworkofhishandandthinkingaboutit。
  ’Disappointed?’hewenton,ashewalkedbetweenthemunderthetrees。’Yes。NodoubtIamdisappointed。Hurt?Yes。NodoubtIamhurt。That’sonlynatural。ButwhatImeanwhenIsaythatpeoplewhoputthemselvesinthesamepositionaremostlyusedinthesameway——’
  ’InEngland,’saidMrMeagles。
  ’Oh!ofcourseImeaninEngland。Whentheytaketheirinventionsintoforeigncountries,that’squitedifferent。Andthat’sthereasonwhysomanygothere。’
  MrMeaglesveryhotindeedagain。
  ’WhatImeanis,thathoweverthiscomestobetheregularwayofourgovernment,itisitsregularway。Haveyoueverheardofanyprojectororinventorwhofailedtofinditallbutinaccessible,andwhomitdidnotdiscourageandill-treat?’
  ’IcannotsaythatIeverhave。’
  ’Haveyoueverknownittobebeforehandintheadoptionofanyusefulthing?Everknownittosetanexampleofanyusefulkind?’
  ’Iamagooddealolderthanmyfriendhere,’saidMrMeagles,’andI’llanswerthat。Never。’
  ’Butweallthreehaveknown,Iexpect,’saidtheinventor,’aprettymanycasesofitsfixeddeterminationtobemilesuponmiles,andyearsuponyears,behindtherestofus;andofitsbeingfoundoutpersistingintheuseofthingslongsuperseded,evenafterthebetterthingswerewellknownandgenerallytakenup?’
  Theyallagreeduponthat。
  ’Wellthen,’saidDoyce,withasigh,’asIknowwhatsuchametalwilldoatsuchatemperature,andsuchabodyundersuchapressure,soImayknowifIwillonlyconsider,howthesegreatlordsandgentlemenwillcertainlydealwithsuchamatterasmine。
  Ihavenorighttobesurprised,withaheaduponmyshoulders,andmemoryinit,thatIfallintotherankswithallwhocamebeforeme。Ioughttohaveletitalone。Ihavehadwarningenough,Iamsure。’
  Withthatheputuphisspectacle-case,andsaidtoArthur,’IfI
  don’tcomplain,MrClennam,Icanfeelgratitude;andIassureyouthatIfeelittowardsourmutualfriend。Many’stheday,andmany’sthewayinwhichhehasbackedme。’
  ’Stuffandnonsense,’saidMrMeagles。
  ArthurcouldnotbutglanceatDanielDoyceintheensuingsilence。
  Thoughitwasevidentlyinthegrainofhischaracter,andofhisrespectforhisowncase,thatheshouldabstainfromidlemurmuring,itwasevidentthathehadgrowntheolder,thesterner,andthepoorer,forhislongendeavour。Hecouldnotbutthinkwhatablessedthingitwouldhavebeenforthisman,ifhehadtakenalessonfromthegentlemenwhoweresokindastotakeanation’saffairsincharge,andhadlearntHownottodoit。
  MrMeagleswashotanddespondentforaboutfiveminutes,andthenbegantocoolandclearup。
  ’Come,come!’saidhe。’Weshallnotmakethisthebetterbybeinggrim。Wheredoyouthinkofgoing,Dan?’
  ’Ishallgobacktothefactory,’saidDan。
  ’Whythen,we’llallgobacktothefactory,orwalkinthatdirection,’returnedMrMeaglescheerfully。’MrClennamwon’tbedeterredbyitsbeinginBleedingHeartYard。’
  ’BleedingHeartYard?’saidClennam。’Iwanttogothere。’
  ’Somuchthebetter,’criedMrMeagles。’Comealong!’
  Astheywentalong,certainlyoneoftheparty,andprobablymorethanone,thoughtthatBleedingHeartYardwasnoinappropriatedestinationforamanwhohadbeeninofficialcorrespondencewithmylordsandtheBarnacles——andperhapshadamisgivingalsothatBritanniaherselfmightcometolookforlodgingsinBleedingHeartYardsomeuglydayorother,ifsheover-didtheCircumlocutionOffice。
  CHAPTER11
  LetLooseAlate,dullautumnnightwasclosinginupontheriverSaone。Thestream,likeasulliedlooking-glassinagloomyplace,reflectedthecloudsheavily;andthelowbanksleanedoverhereandthere,asiftheywerehalfcurious,andhalfafraid,toseetheirdarkeningpicturesinthewater。TheflatexpanseofcountryaboutChalonslayalongheavystreak,occasionallymadealittleraggedbyarowofpoplartreesagainstthewrathfulsunset。OnthebanksoftheriverSaoneitwaswet,depressing,solitary;andthenightdeepenedfast。
  OnemanslowlymovingontowardsChalonswastheonlyvisiblefigureinthelandscape。Cainmighthavelookedaslonelyandavoided。Withanoldsheepskinknapsackathisback,andarough,unbarkedstickcutoutofsomewoodinhishand;miry,footsore,hisshoesandgaiterstroddenout,hishairandbearduntrimmed;
  thecloakhecarriedoverhisshoulder,andtheclotheshewore,soddenwithwet;limpingalonginpainanddifficulty;helookedasifthecloudswerehurryingfromhim,asifthewailofthewindandtheshudderingofthegrassweredirectedagainsthim,asifthelowmysteriousplashingofthewatermurmuredathim,asifthefitfulautumnnightweredisturbedbyhim。
  Heglancedhere,andheglancedthere,sullenlybutshrinkingly;
  andsometimesstoppedandturnedabout,andlookedallroundhim。
  Thenhelimpedonagain,toilingandmuttering。
  ’Tothedevilwiththisplainthathasnoend!Tothedevilwiththesestonesthatcutlikeknives!Tothedevilwiththisdismaldarkness,wrappingitselfaboutonewithachill!Ihateyou!’
  Andhewouldhavevisitedhishatreduponitallwiththescowlhethrewabouthim,ifhecould。Hetrudgedalittlefurther;andlookingintothedistancebeforehim,stoppedagain。
  ’I,hungry,thirsty,weary。You,imbeciles,wherethelightsareyonder,eatinganddrinking,andwarmingyourselvesatfires!I
  wishIhadthesackingofyourtown;Iwouldrepayyou,mychildren!’
  Buttheteethhesetatthetown,andthehandheshookatthetown,broughtthetownnonearer;andthemanwasyethungrier,andthirstier,andwearier,whenhisfeetwereonitsjaggedpavement,andhestoodlookingabouthim。
  Therewasthehotelwithitsgateway,anditssavourysmellofcooking;therewasthecafewithitsbrightwindows,anditsrattlingofdominoes;therewasthedyer’swithitsstripsofredclothonthedoorposts;therewasthesilversmith’swithitsearrings,anditsofferingsforaltars;therewasthetobaccodealer’swithitslivelygroupofsoldiercustomerscomingoutpipeinmouth;therewerethebadodoursofthetown,andtherainandtherefuseinthekennels,andthefaintlampsslungacrosstheroad,andthehugeDiligence,anditsmountainofluggage,anditssixgreyhorseswiththeirtailstiedup,gettingunderweighatthecoachoffice。Butnosmallcabaretforastraitenedtravellerbeingwithinsight,hehadtoseekoneroundthedarkcorner,wherethecabbageleaveslaythickest,troddenaboutthepubliccisternatwhichwomenhadnotyetleftoffdrawingwater。There,inthebackstreethefoundone,theBreakofDay。ThecurtainedwindowscloudedtheBreakofDay,butitseemedlightandwarm,anditannouncedinlegibleinscriptionswithappropriatepictorialembellishmentofbilliardcueandball,thatattheBreakofDayonecouldplaybilliards;thatthereonecouldfindmeat,drink,andlodgings,whetheronecameonhorseback,orcameonfoot;andthatitkeptgoodwines,liqueurs,andbrandy。ThemanturnedthehandleoftheBreakofDaydoor,andlimpedin。
  Hetouchedhisdiscolouredslouchedhat,ashecameinatthedoor,toafewmenwhooccupiedtheroom。Twowereplayingdominoesatoneofthelittletables;threeorfourwereseatedroundthestove,conversingastheysmoked;thebilliard-tableinthecentrewasleftaloneforthetime;thelandladyoftheDaybreaksatbehindherlittlecounteramonghercloudybottlesofsyrups,basketsofcakes,andleadendrainageforglasses,workingatherneedle。
  Makinghiswaytoanemptylittletableinacorneroftheroombehindthestove,heputdownhisknapsackandhiscloakupontheground。Asheraisedhisheadfromstoopingtodoso,hefoundthelandladybesidehim。