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第159章

  GoneOnahealthyautumnday,theMarshalseaprisoner,weakbutotherwiserestored,satlisteningtoavoicethatreadtohim。Onahealthyautumnday;whenthegoldenfieldshadbeenreapedandploughedagain,whenthesummerfruitshadripenedandwaned,whenthegreenperspectivesofhopshadbeenlaidlowbythebusypickers,whentheapplesclusteringintheorchardswererusset,andtheberriesofthemountainashwerecrimsonamongtheyellowingfoliage。Alreadyinthewoods,glimpsesofthehardywinterthatwascomingweretobecaughtthroughunaccustomedopeningsamongtheboughswheretheprospectshonedefinedandclear,freefromthebloomofthedrowsysummerweather,whichhadrestedonitasthebloomliesontheplum。So,fromtheseashoretheoceanwasnolongertobeseenlyingasleepintheheat,butitsthousandsparklingeyeswereopen,anditswholebreadthwasinjoyfulanimation,fromthecoolsandonthebeachtothelittlesailsonthehorizon,driftingawaylikeautumn-tintedleavesthathaddriftedfromthetrees。
  Changelessandbarren,lookingignorantlyatalltheseasonswithitsfixed,pinchedfaceofpovertyandcare,theprisonhadnotatouchofanyofthesebeautiesonit。Blossomwhatwould,itsbricksandbarsboreuniformlythesamedeadcrop。YetClennam,listeningtothevoiceasitreadtohim,heardinitallthatgreatNaturewasdoing,heardinitallthesoothingsongsshesingstoman。AtnoMother’skneebuthershadheeverdweltinhisyouthonhopefulpromises,onplayfulfancies,ontheharvestsoftendernessandhumilitythatliehiddenintheearly-fosteredseedsoftheimagination;ontheoaksofretreatfromblightingwinds,thathavethegermsoftheirstrongrootsinnurseryacorns。
  But,inthetonesofthevoicethatreadtohim,therewerememoriesofanoldfeelingofsuchthings,andechoesofeverymercifulandlovingwhisperthathadeverstolentohiminhislife。
  Whenthevoicestopped,heputhishandoverhiseyes,murmuringthatthelightwasstronguponthem。
  LittleDorritputthebookby,andpresentlyarosequietlytoshadethewindow。Maggysatatherneedleworkinheroldplace。Thelightsoftened,LittleDorritbroughtherchairclosertohisside。
  ’Thiswillsoonbeovernow,dearMrClennam。NotonlyareMrDoyce’sletterstoyousofulloffriendshipandencouragement,butMrRuggsayshisletterstohimaresofullofhelp,andthateverybodynowalittleangerispastissoconsiderate,andspeakssowellofyou,thatitwillsoonbeovernow。’
  ’Deargirl。Dearheart。Goodangel!’
  ’Youpraisemefartoomuch。Andyetitissuchanexquisitepleasuretometohearyouspeaksofeelingly,andto——andtosee,’
  saidLittleDorrit,raisinghereyestohis,’howdeeplyyoumeanit,thatIcannotsayDon’t。’
  Heliftedherhandtohislips。
  ’Youhavebeenheremany,manytimes,whenIhavenotseenyou,LittleDorrit?’
  ’Yes,IhavebeenheresometimeswhenIhavenotcomeintotheroom。’
  ’Veryoften?’
  ’Ratheroften,’saidLittleDorrit,timidly。
  ’Everyday?’
  ’Ithink,’saidLittleDorrit,afterhesitating,’thatIhavebeenhereatleasttwiceeveryday。’
  Hemighthavereleasedthelittlelighthandafterferventlykissingitagain;butthat,withaverygentlelingeringwhereitwas,itseemedtocourtbeingretained。Hetookitinbothofhis,anditlaysoftlyonhisbreast。
  ’DearLittleDorrit,itisnotmyimprisonmentonlythatwillsoonbeover。Thissacrificeofyoumustbeended。Wemustlearntopartagain,andtotakeourdifferentwayssowideasunder。Youhavenotforgottenwhatwesaidtogether,whenyoucameback?’
  ’Ono,Ihavenotforgottenit。Butsomethinghasbeen——Youfeelquitestrongto-day,don’tyou?’
  ’Quitestrong。’
  Thehandheheldcreptupalittlenearerhisface。
  ’DoyoufeelquitestrongenoughtoknowwhatagreatfortuneI
  havegot?’
  ’Ishallbeverygladtobetold。NofortunecanbetoogreatorgoodforLittleDorrit。’
  ’Ihavebeenanxiouslywaitingtotellyou。Ihavebeenlongingandlongingtotellyou。Youaresureyouwillnottakeit?’
  ’Never!’
  ’Youarequitesureyouwillnottakehalfofit?’
  ’Never,dearLittleDorrit!’
  Asshelookedathimsilently,therewassomethinginheraffectionatefacethathedidnotquitecomprehend:somethingthatcouldhavebrokenintotearsinamoment,andyetthatwashappyandproud。
  ’YouwillbesorrytohearwhatIhavetotellyouaboutFanny。
  PoorFannyhaslosteverything。Shehasnothingleftbutherhusband’sincome。Allthatpapagaveherwhenshemarriedwaslostasyourmoneywaslost。Itwasinthesamehands,anditisallgone。’
  Arthurwasmoreshockedthansurprisedtohearit。’Ihadhopeditmightnotbesobad,’hesaid:’butIhadfearedaheavylossthere,knowingtheconnectionbetweenherhusbandandthedefaulter。’
  ’Yes。Itisallgone。IamverysorryforFanny;very,very,verysorryforpoorFanny。Mypoorbrothertoo!’
  ’Hadhepropertyinthesamehands?’
  ’Yes!Andit’sallgone——Howmuchdoyouthinkmyowngreatfortuneis?’
  AsArthurlookedatherinquiringly,withanewapprehensiononhim,shewithdrewherhand,andlaidherfacedownonthespotwhereithadrested。
  ’Ihavenothingintheworld。IamaspooraswhenIlivedhere。
  WhenpapacameovertoEngland,heconfidedeverythinghehadtothesamehands,anditisallsweptaway。Omydearestandbest,areyouquitesureyouwillnotsharemyfortunewithmenow?’
  Lockedinhisarms,heldtohisheart,withhismanlytearsuponherowncheek,shedrewtheslighthandroundhisneck,andclaspeditinitsfellow-hand。
  ’Nevertopart,mydearestArthur;neveranymore,untilthelast!
  Ineverwasrichbefore,Ineverwasproudbefore,Ineverwashappybefore,Iamrichinbeingtakenbyyou,Iamproudinhavingbeenresignedbyyou,Iamhappyinbeingwithyouinthisprison,asIshouldbehappyincomingbacktoitwithyou,ifitshouldbethewillofGOD,andcomfortingandservingyouwithallmyloveandtruth。Iamyoursanywhere,everywhere!Iloveyoudearly!
  Iwouldratherpassmylifeherewithyou,andgooutdaily,workingforourbread,thanIwouldhavethegreatestfortunethateverwastold,andbethegreatestladythateverwashonoured。O,ifpoorpapamayonlyknowhowblestatlastmyheartis,inthisroomwherehesufferedforsomanyyears!’
  Maggyhadofcoursebeenstaringfromthefirst,andhadofcoursebeencryinghereyesoutlongbeforethis。Maggywasnowsooverjoyedthat,afterhuggingherlittlemotherwithallhermight,shewentdown-stairslikeaclog-hornpipetofindsomebodyorothertowhomtoimparthergladness。WhomshouldMaggymeetbutFloraandMrF。’sAuntopportunelycomingin?Andwhomelse,asaconsequenceofthatmeeting,shouldLittleDorritfindwaitingforherself,when,agoodtwoorthreehoursafterwards,shewentout?
  Flora’seyeswerealittlered,andsheseemedratheroutofspirits。MrF。’sAuntwassostiffenedthatshehadtheappearanceofbeingpastbendingbyanymeansshortofpowerfulmechanicalpressure。Herbonnetwascockedupbehindinaterrificmanner;
  andherstonyreticulewasasrigidasifithadbeenpetrifiedbytheGorgon’shead,andhadgotitatthatmomentinside。Withtheseimposingattributes,MrF。’sAunt,publiclyseatedonthestepsoftheMarshal’sofficialresidence,hadbeenforthetwoorthreehoursinquestionagreatboontotheyoungerinhabitantsoftheBorough,whosesalliesofhumourshehadconsiderablyflushedherselfbyresentingatthepointofherumbrella,fromtimetotime。
  ’Painfullyaware,MissDorrit,Iamsure,’saidFlora,’thattoproposeanadjournmenttoanyplacetoonesofarremovedbyfortuneandsocourtedandcaressedbythebestsocietymusteverappearintrudingevenifnotapie-shopfarbelowyourpresentsphereandaback-parlourthoughacivilmanbutifforthesakeofArthur——cannotovercomeitmoreimpropernowthaneverlateDoyceandClennam——onelastremarkImightwishtomakeonelastexplanationImightwishtoofferperhapsyourgoodnaturemightexcuseunderpretenceofthreekidneyonesthehumbleplaceofconversation。’
  Rightlyinterpretingthisratherobscurespeech,LittleDorritreturnedthatshewasquiteatFlora’sdisposition。Floraaccordinglyledthewayacrosstheroadtothepie-shopinquestion:MrF。’sAuntstalkingacrossintherear,andputtingherselfinthewayofbeingrunover,withaperseveranceworthyofabettercause。
  Whenthe’threekidneyones,’whichweretobeablindtotheconversation,weresetbeforethemonthreelittletinplatters,eachkidneyoneornamentedwithaholeatthetop,intowhichthecivilmanpouredhotgravyoutofaspoutedcanasifhewerefeedingthreelamps,Floratookoutherpocket-handkerchief。
  ’IfFancy’sfairdreams,’shebegan,’haveeverpicturedthatwhenArthur——cannotovercomeitprayexcuseme——wasrestoredtofreedomevenapieasfarfromflakyasthepresentandsodeficientinkidneyastobeinthatrespectlikeamincednutmegmightnotproveunacceptableifofferedbythehandoftrueregardsuchvisionshaveforeverfledandalliscancelledbutbeingawarethattenderrelationsareincontemplationbegtostatethatI
  heartilywishwelltobothandfindnofaultwitheithernottheleast,itmaybewitheringtoknowthaterethehandofTimehadmadememuchlessslimthanformerlyanddreadfullyredontheslightestexertionparticularlyaftereatingIwellknowwhenittakestheformofarash,itmighthavebeenandwasnotthroughtheinterruptionofparentsandmentaltorporsucceededuntilthemysteriouscluewasheldbyMrF。stillIwouldnotbeungeneroustoeitherandIheartilywishwelltoboth。’
  LittleDorrittookherhand,andthankedherforallheroldkindness。
  ’Callitnotkindness,’returnedFlora,givingheranhonestkiss,’foryoualwayswerethebestanddearestlittlethingthateverwasifImaytakethelibertyandeveninamoneypointofviewasavingbeingConscienceitselfthoughImustaddmuchmoreagreeablethanmineeverwastomeforthoughnotIhopemoreburdenedthanotherpeople’syetIhavealwaysfounditfarreadiertomakeoneuncomfortablethancomfortableandevidentlytakingagreaterpleasureindoingitbutIamwandering,onehopeIwishtoexpressereyettheclosingscenedrawsinanditisthatIdotrustforthesakeofoldtimesandoldsinceritythatArthurwillknowthatIdidn’tdeserthiminhismisfortunesbutthatIcamebackwardsandforwardsconstantlytoaskifIcoulddoanythingforhimandthatIsatinthepie-shopwheretheyverycivillyfetchedsomethingwarminatumblerfromthehotelandreallyverynicehoursafterhourstokeephimcompanyoverthewaywithouthisknowingit。’
  Florareallyhadtearsinhereyesnow,andtheyshowedhertogreatadvantage。
  ’Overandabovewhich,’saidFlora,’Iearnestlybegyouasthedearestthingthateverwasifyou’llstillexcusethefamiliarityfromonewhomovesinverydifferentcirclestoletArthurunderstandthatIdon’tknowafterallwhetheritwasn’tallnonsensebetweenusthoughpleasantatthetimeandtryingtooandcertainlyMrF。didworkachangeandthespellbeingbrokennothingcouldbeexpectedtotakeplacewithoutweavingitafreshwhichvariouscircumstanceshavecombinedtopreventofwhichperhapsnottheleastpowerfulwasthatitwasnottobe,IamnotpreparedtosaythatifithadbeenagreeabletoArthurandhadbroughtitselfaboutnaturallyinthefirstinstanceIshouldnothavebeenverygladbeingofalivelydispositionandmopedathomewherepapaundoubtedlyisthemostaggravatingofhissexandnotimprovedsincehavingbeencutdownbythehandoftheIncendiaryintosomethingofwhichIneversawthecounterpartinallmylifebutjealousyisnotmycharacternorill-willthoughmanyfaults。’
  WithouthavingbeenablecloselytofollowMrsFinchingthroughthislabyrinth,LittleDorritunderstooditspurpose,andcordiallyacceptedthetrust。
  ’Thewitheredchapletmydear,’saidFlora,withgreatenjoyment,’isthenperishedthecolumniscrumbledandthepyramidisstandingupsidedownuponitswhat’s-his-namecallitnotgiddinesscallitnotweaknesscallitnotfollyImustnowretireintoprivacyandlookupontheashesofdepartedjoysnomorebuttakingafurtherlibertyofpayingforthepastrywhichhasformedthehumblepretextofourinterviewwillforeversayAdieu!’
  MrF。’sAunt,whohadeatenherpiewithgreatsolemnity,andwhohadbeenelaboratingsomegrievousschemeofinjuryinhermindsinceherfirstassumptionofthatpublicpositionontheMarshal’ssteps,tookthepresentopportunityofaddressingthefollowingSibyllicapostrophetotherelictofherlatenephew。
  ’Bringhimfor’ard,andI’llchuckhimouto’winder!’
  Floratriedinvaintosoothetheexcellentwomanbyexplainingthattheyweregoinghometodinner。MrF。’sAuntpersistedinreplying,’Bringhimfor’ardandI’llchuckhimouto’winder!’
  Havingreiteratedthisdemandanimmensenumberoftimes,withasustainedglareofdefianceatLittleDorrit,MrF。’sAuntfoldedherarms,andsatdowninthecornerofthepie-shopparlour;
  steadfastlyrefusingtobudgeuntilsuchtimeas’he’shouldhavebeen’broughtfor’ard,’andthechuckingportionofhisdestinyaccomplished。
  Inthisconditionofthings,FloraconfidedtoLittleDorritthatshehadnotseenMrF。’sAuntsofulloflifeandcharacterforweeks;thatshewouldfinditnecessarytoremainthere’hoursperhaps,’untiltheinexorableoldladycouldbesoftened;andthatshecouldmanageherbestalone。Theyparted,therefore,inthefriendliestmanner,andwiththekindestfeelingonbothsides。