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第144章

  ’MrRugg,’saidArthur,inhisdejection,’myonlywishis,thatitshouldbeover。Iwillgoon,andtakemychance。’
  ’Anotherwordofreason,sir!’criedMrRugg。’Now,thisisreason。Theothermaybetaste;butthisisreason。Ifyoushouldbetakenonalittleone,sir,youwouldgototheMarshalsea。
  Now,youknowwhattheMarshalseais。Veryclose。Excessivelyconfined。WhereasintheKing’sBench——’MrRuggwavedhisrighthandfreely,asexpressingabundanceofspace。
  ’Iwouldrather,’saidClennam,’betakentotheMarshalseathantoanyotherprison。’
  ’Doyousaysoindeed,sir?’returnedMrRugg。’Thenthisistaste,too,andwemaybewalking。’
  Hewasalittleoffendedatfirst,buthesoonoverlookedit。TheywalkedthroughtheYardtotheotherend。TheBleedingHeartsweremoreinterestedinArthursincehisreversesthanformerly;nowregardinghimasonewhowastruetotheplaceandhadtakenuphisfreedom。Manyofthemcameouttolookafterhim,andtoobservetooneanother,withgreatunctuousness,thathewas’pulleddownbyit。’MrsPlornishandherfatherstoodatthetopofthestepsattheirownend,muchdepressedandshakingtheirheads。
  TherewasnobodyvisiblyinwaitingwhenArthurandMrRuggarrivedattheCounting-house。ButanelderlymemberoftheJewishpersuasion,preservedinrum,followedthemclose,andlookedinattheglassbeforeMrRugghadopenedoneoftheday’sletters。
  ’Oh!’saidMrRugg,lookingup。’Howdoyoudo?Stepin——MrClennam,IthinkthisisthegentlemanIwasmentioning。’
  Thisgentlemanexplainedtheobjectofhisvisittobe’atyflingmadderobbithznithz,’andexecutedhislegalfunction。
  ’ShallIaccompanyyou,MrClennam?’askedMrRuggpolitely,rubbinghishands。
  ’Iwouldrathergoalone,thankyou。Besogoodassendmemyclothes。’MrRugginalightairywayrepliedintheaffirmative,andshookhandswithhim。Heandhisattendantthenwentdown-
  stairs,gotintothefirstconveyancetheyfound,anddrovetotheoldgates。
  ’WhereIlittlethought,Heavenforgiveme,’saidClennamtohimself,’thatIshouldeverenterthus!’
  MrChiverywasontheLock,andYoungJohnwasintheLodge:eithernewlyreleasedfromit,orwaitingtotakehisownspellofduty。
  Bothweremoreastonishedonseeingwhotheprisonerwas,thanonemighthavethoughtturnkeyswouldhavebeen。TheelderMrChiveryshookhandswithhiminashame-facedkindofway,andsaid,’I
  don’tcalltomind,sir,asIwaseverlessgladtoseeyou。’TheyoungerMrChivery,moredistant,didnotshakehandswithhimatall;hestoodlookingathiminastateofindecisionsoobservablethatitevencamewithintheobservationofClennamwithhisheavyeyesandheavyheart。Presentlyafterwards,YoungJohndisappearedintothejail。
  AsClennamknewenoughoftheplacetoknowthathewasrequiredtoremainintheLodgeacertaintime,hetookaseatinacorner,andfeignedtobeoccupiedwiththeperusaloflettersfromhispocket。
  Theydidnotsoengrosshisattention,butthathesaw,withgratitude,howtheelderMrChiverykepttheLodgeclearofprisoners;howhesignedtosome,withhiskeys,nottocomein,howhenudgedotherswithhiselbowstogoout,andhowhemadehismiseryaseasytohimashecould。
  Arthurwassittingwithhiseyesfixedonthefloor,recallingthepast,broodingoverthepresent,andnotattendingtoeither,whenhefelthimselftouchedupontheshoulder。ItwasbyYoungJohn;
  andhesaid,’Youcancomenow。’
  HegotupandfollowedYoungJohn。Whentheyhadgoneasteportwowithintheinneriron-gate,YoungJohnturnedandsaidtohim:
  ’Youwantaroom。Ihavegotyouone。’
  ’Ithankyouheartily。’
  YoungJohnturnedagain,andtookhiminattheolddoorway,uptheoldstaircase,intotheoldroom。Arthurstretchedouthishand。
  YoungJohnlookedatit,lookedathim——sternly——swelled,choked,andsaid:
  ’Idon’tknowasIcan。No,IfindIcan’t。ButIthoughtyou’dliketheroom,andhereitisforyou。’
  SurpriseatthisinconsistentbehaviouryieldedwhenhewasgonehewentawaydirectlytothefeelingswhichtheemptyroomawakenedinClennam’swoundedbreast,andtothecrowdingassociationswiththeonegoodandgentlecreaturewhohadsanctifiedit。Herabsenceinhisalteredfortunesmadeit,andhiminit,soverydesolateandsomuchinneedofsuchafaceofloveandtruth,thatheturnedagainstthewalltoweep,sobbingout,ashisheartrelieveditself,’OmyLittleDorrit!’
  ThePupiloftheMarshalseaThedaywassunny,andtheMarshalsea,withthehotnoonstrikinguponit,wasunwontedlyquiet。ArthurClennamdroppedintoasolitaryarm-chair,itselfasfadedasanydebtorinthejail,andyieldedhimselftohisthoughts。
  Intheunnaturalpeaceofhavinggonethroughthedreadedarrest,andgotthere,——thefirstchangeoffeelingwhichtheprisonmostcommonlyinduced,andfromwhichdangerousresting-placesomanymenhadslippeddowntothedepthsofdegradationanddisgracebysomanyways,——hecouldthinkofsomepassagesinhislife,almostasifhewereremovedfromthemintoanotherstateofexistence。
  Takingintoaccountwherehewas,theinterestthathadfirstbroughthimtherewhenhehadbeenfreetokeepaway,andthegentlepresencethatwasequallyinseparablefromthewallsandbarsabouthimandfromtheimpalpableremembrancesofhislaterlifewhichnowallsorbarscouldimprison,itwasnotremarkablethateverythinghismemoryturneduponshouldbringhimroundagaintoLittleDorrit。Yetitwasremarkabletohim;notbecauseofthefactitself,butbecauseofthereminderitbroughtwithit,howmuchthedearlittlecreaturehadinfluencedhisbetterresolutions。
  Noneofusclearlyknowtowhomortowhatweareindebtedinthiswise,untilsomemarkedstopinthewhirlingwheeloflifebringstherightperceptionwithit。Itcomeswithsickness,itcomeswithsorrow,itcomeswiththelossofthedearlyloved,itisoneofthemostfrequentusesofadversity。ItcametoClennaminhisadversity,stronglyandtenderly。’WhenIfirstgatheredmyselftogether,’hethought,’andsetsomethinglikepurposebeforemyjadedeyes,whomhadIbeforeme,toilingon,foragoodobject’ssake,withoutencouragement,withoutnotice,againstignobleobstaclesthatwouldhaveturnedanarmyofreceivedheroesandheroines?Oneweakgirl!WhenItriedtoconquermymisplacedlove,andtobegeneroustothemanwhowasmorefortunatethanI,thoughheshouldneverknowitorrepaymewithagraciousword,inwhomhadIwatchedpatience,self-denial,self-subdual,charitableconstruction,thenoblestgenerosityoftheaffections?Inthesamepoorgirl!IfI,aman,withaman’sadvantagesandmeansandenergies,hadslightedthewhisperinmyheart,thatifmyfatherhaderred,itwasmyfirstdutytoconcealthefaultandtorepairit,whatyouthfulfigurewithtenderfeetgoingalmostbareonthedampground,withsparehandseverworking,withitsslightshapebuthalfprotectedfromthesharpweather,wouldhavestoodbeforemetoputmetoshame?LittleDorrit’s。’Soalwaysashesataloneinthefadedchair,thinking。Always,LittleDorrit。Untilitseemedtohimasifhemettherewardofhavingwanderedawayfromher,andsufferedanythingtopassbetweenhimandhisremembranceofhervirtues。
  Hisdoorwasopened,andtheheadoftheelderChiverywasputinaverylittleway,withoutbeingturnedtowardshim。
  ’IamofftheLock,MrClennam,andgoingout。CanIdoanythingforyou?’
  ’Manythanks。Nothing。’
  ’You’llexcusemeopeningthedoor,’saidMrChivery;’butI
  couldn’tmakeyouhear。’
  ’Didyouknock?’
  ’Half-a-dozentimes。’
  Rousinghimself,Clennamobservedthattheprisonhadawakenedfromitsnoontidedoze,thattheinmateswereloiteringabouttheshadyyard,andthatitwaslateintheafternoon。Hehadbeenthinkingforhours。
  ’Yourthingsiscome,’saidMrChivery,’andmysonisgoingtocarry’emup。Ishouldhavesent’emupbutforhiswishingtocarry’emhimself。Indeedhewouldhave’emhimself,andsoI
  couldn’tsend’emup。MrClennam,couldIsayawordtoyou?’
  ’Praycomein,’saidArthur;forMrChivery’sheadwasstillputinatthedooraverylittleway,andMrChiveryhadbutoneearuponhim,insteadofbotheyes。ThiswasnativedelicacyinMrChivery——truepoliteness;thoughhisexteriorhadverymuchofaturnkeyaboutit,andnottheleastofagentleman。
  ’Thankyou,sir,’saidMrChivery,withoutadvancing;’it’snooddsmecomingin。MrClennam,don’tyoutakenonoticeofmysonifyou’llbesogoodincaseyoufindhimcutupanywaysdifficult。
  Mysonhasa’art,andmyson’s’artisintherightplace。Meandhismotherknowswheretofindit,andwefinditsitiwatedcorrect。’
  Withthismysteriousspeech,MrChiverytookhisearawayandshutthedoor。Hemighthavebeengonetenminutes,whenhissonsucceededhim。
  ’Here’syourportmanteau,’hesaidtoArthur,puttingitcarefullydown。
  ’It’sverykindofyou。Iamashamedthatyoushouldhavethetrouble。’
  Hewasgonebeforeitcametothat;butsoonreturned,sayingexactlyasbefore,’Here’syourblackbox:’whichhealsoputdownwithcare。
  ’Iamverysensibleofthisattention。Ihopewemayshakehandsnow,MrJohn。’
  YoungJohn,however,drewback,turninghisrightwristinasocketmadeofhisleftthumbandmiddle-fingerandsaidashehadsaidatfirst,’Idon’tknowasIcan。No;IfindIcan’t!’Hethenstoodregardingtheprisonersternly,thoughwithaswellinghumourinhiseyesthatlookedlikepity。
  ’Whyareyouangrywithme,’saidClennam,’andyetsoreadytodomethesekindservices?Theremustbesomemistakebetweenus。IfIhavedoneanythingtooccasionitIamsorry。’
  ’Nomistake,sir,’returnedJohn,turningthewristbackwardsandforwardsinthesocket,forwhichitwasrathertight。’Nomistake,sir,inthefeelingswithwhichmyeyesbeholdyouatthepresentmoment!IfIwasatallfairlyequaltoyourweight,MrClennam——whichIamnot;andifyouweren’tunderacloud——whichyouare;andifitwasn’tagainstallrulesoftheMarshalsea——
  whichitis;thosefeelingsaresuch,thattheywouldstimulateme,moretohavingitoutwithyouinaRoundonthepresentspotthantoanythingelseIcouldname。’
  Arthurlookedathimforamomentinsomewonder,andsomelittleanger。’Well,well!’hesaid。’Amistake,amistake!’Turningaway,hesatdownwithaheavysighinthefadedchairagain。
  YoungJohnfollowedhimwithhiseyes,and,afterashortpause,criedout,’Ibegyourpardon!’