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第11章

  Hestoppedinthehopethatshewouldspeak。Buthergreyhairwasnotmoreimmovableinitstwofolds,thanwereherfirmlips。
  ’Ifreparationcanbemadetoanyone,ifrestitutioncanbemadetoanyone,letusknowitandmakeit。Nay,mother,ifwithinmymeans,letMEmakeit。Ihaveseensolittlehappinesscomeofmoney;ithasbroughtwithinmyknowledgesolittlepeacetothishouse,ortoanyonebelongingtoit,thatitisworthlesstomethantoanother。Itcanbuymenothingthatwillnotbeareproachandmiserytome,ifIamhauntedbyasuspicionthatitdarkenedmyfather’slasthourswithremorse,andthatitisnothonestlyandjustlymine。’
  Therewasabell-ropehangingonthepanelledwall,sometwoorthreeyardsfromthecabinet。Byaswiftandsuddenactionofherfoot,shedroveherwheeledchairrapidlybacktoitandpulleditviolently——stillholdingherarmupinitsshield-likeposture,asifhewerestrikingather,andshewardingofftheblow。
  Agirlcamehurryingin,frightened。
  ’SendFlintwinchhere!’
  Inamomentthegirlhadwithdrawn,andtheoldmanstoodwithinthedoor。’What!You’rehammerandtongs,already,youtwo?’hesaid,coollystrokinghisface。’Ithoughtyouwouldbe。Iwasprettysureofit。’
  ’Flintwinch!’saidthemother,’lookatmyson。Lookathim!’
  ’Well,IAMlookingathim,’saidFlintwinch。
  Shestretchedoutthearmwithwhichshehadshieldedherself,andasshewenton,pointedattheobjectofheranger。
  ’Intheveryhourofhisreturnalmost——beforetheshoeuponhisfootisdry——heasperseshisfather’smemorytohismother!Askshismothertobecome,withhim,aspyuponhisfather’stransactionsthroughalifetime!Hasmisgivingsthatthegoodsofthisworldwhichwehavepainfullygottogetherearlyandlate,withwearandtearandtoilandself-denial,aresomuchplunder;
  andaskstowhomtheyshallbegivenup,asreparationandrestitution!’
  Althoughshesaidthisraging,shesaiditinavoicesofarfrombeingbeyondhercontrolthatitwasevenlowerthanherusualtone。Shealsospokewithgreatdistinctness。
  ’Reparation!’saidshe。’Yes,truly!Itiseasyforhimtotalkofreparation,freshfromjourneyingandjunketinginforeignlands,andlivingalifeofvanityandpleasure。Butlethimlookatme,inprison,andinbondshere。Iendurewithoutmurmuring,becauseitisappointedthatIshallsomakereparationformysins。Reparation!Istherenoneinthisroom?Hastherebeennoneherethisfifteenyears?’
  ThuswasshealwaysbalancingherbargainswiththeMajestyofheaven,postinguptheentriestohercredit,strictlykeepingherset-off,andclaimingherdue。Shewasonlyremarkableinthis,fortheforceandemphasiswithwhichshedidit。Thousandsuponthousandsdoit,accordingtotheirvaryingmanner,everyday。
  ’Flintwinch,givemethatbook!’
  Theoldmanhandedittoherfromthetable。Sheputtwofingersbetweentheleaves,closedthebookuponthem,andheldituptohersoninathreateningway。
  ’Inthedaysofold,Arthur,treatedofinthiscommentary,therewerepiousmen,belovedoftheLord,whowouldhavecursedtheirsonsforlessthanthis:whowouldhavesentthemforth,andsentwholenationsforth,ifsuchhadsupportedthem,tobeavoidedofGodandman,andperish,downtothebabyatthebreast。ButI
  onlytellyouthatifyoueverrenewthatthemewithme,Iwillrenounceyou;Iwillsodismissyouthroughthatdoorway,thatyouhadbetterhavebeenmotherlessfromyourcradle。Iwillneverseeorknowyoumore。Andif,afterall,youweretocomeintothisdarkenedroomtolookuponmelyingdead,mybodyshouldbleed,ifIcouldmakeit,whenyoucamenearme。’
  Inpartrelievedbytheintensityofthisthreat,andinpartmonstrousasthefactisbyageneralimpressionthatitwasinsomesortareligiousproceeding,shehandedbackthebooktotheoldman,andwassilent。
  ’Now,’saidJeremiah;’premisingthatI’mnotgoingtostandbetweenyoutwo,willyouletmeaskasIhavebeencalledin,andmadeathirdwhatisallthisabout?’
  ’Takeyourversionofit,’returnedArthur,findingitlefttohimtospeak,’frommymother。Letitrestthere。WhatIhavesaid,wassaidtomymotheronly。’
  ’Oh!’returnedtheoldman。’Fromyourmother?Takeitfromyourmother?Well!Butyourmothermentionedthatyouhadbeensuspectingyourfather。That’snotdutiful,MrArthur。Whowillyoubesuspectingnext?’
  ’Enough,’saidMrsClennam,turningherfacesothatitwasaddressedforthemomenttotheoldmanonly。’Letnomorebesaidaboutthis。’
  ’Yes,butstopabit,stopabit,’theoldmanpersisted。’Letusseehowwestand。HaveyoutoldMrArthurthathemustn’tlayoffencesathisfather’sdoor?Thathehasnorighttodoit?
  Thathehasnogroundtogoupon?’
  ’Itellhimsonow。’
  ’Ah!Exactly,’saidtheoldman。’Youtellhimsonow。Youhadn’ttoldhimsobefore,andyoutellhimsonow。Ay,ay!
  That’sright!YouknowIstoodbetweenyouandhisfathersolong,thatitseemsasifdeathhadmadenodifference,andIwasstillstandingbetweenyou。SoIwill,andsoinfairnessIrequiretohavethatplainlyputforward。Arthur,youpleasetohearthatyouhavenorighttomistrustyourfather,andhavenogroundtogoupon。’
  Heputhishandstothebackofthewheeledchair,andmutteringtohimself,slowlywheeledhismistressbacktohercabinet。’Now,’
  heresumed,standingbehindher:’incaseIshouldgoawayleavingthingshalfdone,andsoshouldbewantedagainwhenyoucometotheotherhalfandgetintooneofyourflights,hasArthurtoldyouwhathemeanstodoaboutthebusiness?’
  ’Hehasrelinquishedit。’
  ’Infavourofnobody,Isuppose?’
  MrsClennamglancedatherson,leaningagainstoneofthewindows。
  Heobservedthelookandsaid,’Tomymother,ofcourse。Shedoeswhatshepleases。’
  ’Andifanypleasure,’shesaidafterashortpause,’couldariseformeoutofthedisappointmentofmyexpectationsthatmyson,intheprimeofhislife,wouldinfusenewyouthandstrengthintoit,andmakeitofgreatprofitandpower,itwouldbeinadvancinganoldandfaithfulservant。Jeremiah,thecaptaindesertstheship,butyouandIwillsinkorfloatwithit。’
  Jeremiah,whoseeyesglistenedasiftheysawmoney,dartedasuddenlookattheson,whichseemedtosay,’IoweYOUnothanksforthis;YOUhavedonenothingtowardsit!’andthentoldthemotherthathethankedher,andthatAfferythankedher,andthathewouldneverdeserther,andthatAfferywouldneverdeserther。
  Finally,hehauleduphiswatchfromitsdepths,andsaid,’Eleven。
  Timeforyouroysters!’andwiththatchangeofsubject,whichinvolvednochangeofexpressionormanner,rangthebell。
  ButMrsClennam,resolvedtotreatherselfwiththegreaterrigourforhavingbeensupposedtobeunacquaintedwithreparation,refusedtoeatheroysterswhentheywerebrought。Theylookedtempting;eightinnumber,circularlysetoutonawhiteplateonatraycoveredwithawhitenapkin,flankedbyasliceofbutteredFrenchroll,andalittlecompactglassofcoolwineandwater;butsheresistedallpersuasions,andsentthemdownagain——placingtheacttohercredit,nodoubt,inherEternalDay-Book。
  ThisrefectionofoysterswasnotpresidedoverbyAffery,butbythegirlwhohadappearedwhenthebellwasrung;thesamewhohadbeeninthedimly-lightedroomlastnight。Nowthathehadanopportunityofobservingher,Arthurfoundthatherdiminutivefigure,smallfeatures,andslightsparedress,gavehertheappearanceofbeingmuchyoungerthanshewas。Awoman,probablyofnotlessthantwo-and-twenty,shemighthavebeenpassedinthestreetforlittlemorethanhalfthatage。Notthatherfacewasveryyouthful,forintruththerewasmoreconsiderationandcareinitthannaturallybelongedtoherutmostyears;butshewassolittleandlight,sonoiselessandshy,andappearedsoconsciousofbeingoutofplaceamongthethreehardelders,thatshehadallthemannerandmuchoftheappearanceofasubduedchild。
  Inahardway,andinanuncertainwaythatfluctuatedbetweenpatronageandputtingdown,thesprinklingfromawatering-potandhydraulicpressure,MrsClennamshowedaninterestinthisdependent。Eveninthemomentofherentrance,upontheviolentringingofthebell,whenthemothershieldedherselfwiththatsingularactionfromtheson,MrsClennam’seyeshadhadsomeindividualrecognitioninthem,whichseemedreservedforher。Astherearedegreesofhardnessinthehardestmetal,andshadesofcolourinblackitself,so,evenintheasperityofMrsClennam’sdemeanourtowardsalltherestofhumanityandtowardsLittleDorrit,therewasafinegradation。
  LittleDorritletherselfouttodoneedlework。Atsomuchaday——
  oratsolittle——fromeighttoeight,LittleDorritwastobehired。Punctualtothemoment,LittleDorritappeared;punctualtothemoment,LittleDorritvanished。WhatbecameofLittleDorritbetweenthetwoeightswasamystery。
  AnotherofthemoralphenomenaofLittleDorrit。Besidesherconsiderationmoney,herdailycontractincludedmeals。Shehadanextraordinaryrepugnancetodiningincompany;wouldneverdoso,ifitwerepossibletoescape。Wouldalwayspleadthatshehadthisbitofworktobeginfirst,orthatbitofworktofinishfirst;andwould,ofacertainty,schemeandplan——notverycunningly,itwouldseem,forshedeceivednoone——todinealone。
  Successfulinthis,happyincarryingoffherplateanywhere,tomakeatableofherlap,orabox,ortheground,orevenaswassupposed,tostandontip-toe,diningmoderatelyatamantel-shelf;
  thegreatanxietyofLittleDorrit’sdaywassetatrest。
  ItwasnoteasytomakeoutLittleDorrit’sface;shewassoretiring,pliedherneedleinsuchremovedcorners,andstartedawaysoscaredifencounteredonthestairs。Butitseemedtobeapaletransparentface,quickinexpression,thoughnotbeautifulinfeature,itssofthazeleyesexcepted。Adelicatelybenthead,atinyform,aquicklittlepairofbusyhands,andashabbydress——itmustneedshavebeenveryshabbytolookatallso,beingsoneat——wereLittleDorritasshesatatwork。
  FortheseparticularsorgeneralitiesconcerningLittleDorrit,MrArthurwasindebtedinthecourseofthedaytohisowneyesandtoMrsAffery’stongue。IfMrsAfferyhadhadanywillorwayofherown,itwouldprobablyhavebeenunfavourabletoLittleDorrit。