Hestoppedinthehopethatshewouldspeak。Buthergreyhairwasnotmoreimmovableinitstwofolds,thanwereherfirmlips。
’Ifreparationcanbemadetoanyone,ifrestitutioncanbemadetoanyone,letusknowitandmakeit。Nay,mother,ifwithinmymeans,letMEmakeit。Ihaveseensolittlehappinesscomeofmoney;ithasbroughtwithinmyknowledgesolittlepeacetothishouse,ortoanyonebelongingtoit,thatitisworthlesstomethantoanother。Itcanbuymenothingthatwillnotbeareproachandmiserytome,ifIamhauntedbyasuspicionthatitdarkenedmyfather’slasthourswithremorse,andthatitisnothonestlyandjustlymine。’
Therewasabell-ropehangingonthepanelledwall,sometwoorthreeyardsfromthecabinet。Byaswiftandsuddenactionofherfoot,shedroveherwheeledchairrapidlybacktoitandpulleditviolently——stillholdingherarmupinitsshield-likeposture,asifhewerestrikingather,andshewardingofftheblow。
Agirlcamehurryingin,frightened。
’SendFlintwinchhere!’
Inamomentthegirlhadwithdrawn,andtheoldmanstoodwithinthedoor。’What!You’rehammerandtongs,already,youtwo?’hesaid,coollystrokinghisface。’Ithoughtyouwouldbe。Iwasprettysureofit。’
’Flintwinch!’saidthemother,’lookatmyson。Lookathim!’
’Well,IAMlookingathim,’saidFlintwinch。
Shestretchedoutthearmwithwhichshehadshieldedherself,andasshewenton,pointedattheobjectofheranger。
’Intheveryhourofhisreturnalmost——beforetheshoeuponhisfootisdry——heasperseshisfather’smemorytohismother!Askshismothertobecome,withhim,aspyuponhisfather’stransactionsthroughalifetime!Hasmisgivingsthatthegoodsofthisworldwhichwehavepainfullygottogetherearlyandlate,withwearandtearandtoilandself-denial,aresomuchplunder;
andaskstowhomtheyshallbegivenup,asreparationandrestitution!’
Althoughshesaidthisraging,shesaiditinavoicesofarfrombeingbeyondhercontrolthatitwasevenlowerthanherusualtone。Shealsospokewithgreatdistinctness。
’Reparation!’saidshe。’Yes,truly!Itiseasyforhimtotalkofreparation,freshfromjourneyingandjunketinginforeignlands,andlivingalifeofvanityandpleasure。Butlethimlookatme,inprison,andinbondshere。Iendurewithoutmurmuring,becauseitisappointedthatIshallsomakereparationformysins。Reparation!Istherenoneinthisroom?Hastherebeennoneherethisfifteenyears?’
ThuswasshealwaysbalancingherbargainswiththeMajestyofheaven,postinguptheentriestohercredit,strictlykeepingherset-off,andclaimingherdue。Shewasonlyremarkableinthis,fortheforceandemphasiswithwhichshedidit。Thousandsuponthousandsdoit,accordingtotheirvaryingmanner,everyday。
’Flintwinch,givemethatbook!’
Theoldmanhandedittoherfromthetable。Sheputtwofingersbetweentheleaves,closedthebookuponthem,andheldituptohersoninathreateningway。
’Inthedaysofold,Arthur,treatedofinthiscommentary,therewerepiousmen,belovedoftheLord,whowouldhavecursedtheirsonsforlessthanthis:whowouldhavesentthemforth,andsentwholenationsforth,ifsuchhadsupportedthem,tobeavoidedofGodandman,andperish,downtothebabyatthebreast。ButI
onlytellyouthatifyoueverrenewthatthemewithme,Iwillrenounceyou;Iwillsodismissyouthroughthatdoorway,thatyouhadbetterhavebeenmotherlessfromyourcradle。Iwillneverseeorknowyoumore。Andif,afterall,youweretocomeintothisdarkenedroomtolookuponmelyingdead,mybodyshouldbleed,ifIcouldmakeit,whenyoucamenearme。’
Inpartrelievedbytheintensityofthisthreat,andinpartmonstrousasthefactisbyageneralimpressionthatitwasinsomesortareligiousproceeding,shehandedbackthebooktotheoldman,andwassilent。
’Now,’saidJeremiah;’premisingthatI’mnotgoingtostandbetweenyoutwo,willyouletmeaskasIhavebeencalledin,andmadeathirdwhatisallthisabout?’
’Takeyourversionofit,’returnedArthur,findingitlefttohimtospeak,’frommymother。Letitrestthere。WhatIhavesaid,wassaidtomymotheronly。’
’Oh!’returnedtheoldman。’Fromyourmother?Takeitfromyourmother?Well!Butyourmothermentionedthatyouhadbeensuspectingyourfather。That’snotdutiful,MrArthur。Whowillyoubesuspectingnext?’
’Enough,’saidMrsClennam,turningherfacesothatitwasaddressedforthemomenttotheoldmanonly。’Letnomorebesaidaboutthis。’
’Yes,butstopabit,stopabit,’theoldmanpersisted。’Letusseehowwestand。HaveyoutoldMrArthurthathemustn’tlayoffencesathisfather’sdoor?Thathehasnorighttodoit?
Thathehasnogroundtogoupon?’
’Itellhimsonow。’
’Ah!Exactly,’saidtheoldman。’Youtellhimsonow。Youhadn’ttoldhimsobefore,andyoutellhimsonow。Ay,ay!
That’sright!YouknowIstoodbetweenyouandhisfathersolong,thatitseemsasifdeathhadmadenodifference,andIwasstillstandingbetweenyou。SoIwill,andsoinfairnessIrequiretohavethatplainlyputforward。Arthur,youpleasetohearthatyouhavenorighttomistrustyourfather,andhavenogroundtogoupon。’
Heputhishandstothebackofthewheeledchair,andmutteringtohimself,slowlywheeledhismistressbacktohercabinet。’Now,’
heresumed,standingbehindher:’incaseIshouldgoawayleavingthingshalfdone,andsoshouldbewantedagainwhenyoucometotheotherhalfandgetintooneofyourflights,hasArthurtoldyouwhathemeanstodoaboutthebusiness?’
’Hehasrelinquishedit。’
’Infavourofnobody,Isuppose?’
MrsClennamglancedatherson,leaningagainstoneofthewindows。
Heobservedthelookandsaid,’Tomymother,ofcourse。Shedoeswhatshepleases。’
’Andifanypleasure,’shesaidafterashortpause,’couldariseformeoutofthedisappointmentofmyexpectationsthatmyson,intheprimeofhislife,wouldinfusenewyouthandstrengthintoit,andmakeitofgreatprofitandpower,itwouldbeinadvancinganoldandfaithfulservant。Jeremiah,thecaptaindesertstheship,butyouandIwillsinkorfloatwithit。’
Jeremiah,whoseeyesglistenedasiftheysawmoney,dartedasuddenlookattheson,whichseemedtosay,’IoweYOUnothanksforthis;YOUhavedonenothingtowardsit!’andthentoldthemotherthathethankedher,andthatAfferythankedher,andthathewouldneverdeserther,andthatAfferywouldneverdeserther。
Finally,hehauleduphiswatchfromitsdepths,andsaid,’Eleven。
Timeforyouroysters!’andwiththatchangeofsubject,whichinvolvednochangeofexpressionormanner,rangthebell。
ButMrsClennam,resolvedtotreatherselfwiththegreaterrigourforhavingbeensupposedtobeunacquaintedwithreparation,refusedtoeatheroysterswhentheywerebrought。Theylookedtempting;eightinnumber,circularlysetoutonawhiteplateonatraycoveredwithawhitenapkin,flankedbyasliceofbutteredFrenchroll,andalittlecompactglassofcoolwineandwater;butsheresistedallpersuasions,andsentthemdownagain——placingtheacttohercredit,nodoubt,inherEternalDay-Book。
ThisrefectionofoysterswasnotpresidedoverbyAffery,butbythegirlwhohadappearedwhenthebellwasrung;thesamewhohadbeeninthedimly-lightedroomlastnight。Nowthathehadanopportunityofobservingher,Arthurfoundthatherdiminutivefigure,smallfeatures,andslightsparedress,gavehertheappearanceofbeingmuchyoungerthanshewas。Awoman,probablyofnotlessthantwo-and-twenty,shemighthavebeenpassedinthestreetforlittlemorethanhalfthatage。Notthatherfacewasveryyouthful,forintruththerewasmoreconsiderationandcareinitthannaturallybelongedtoherutmostyears;butshewassolittleandlight,sonoiselessandshy,andappearedsoconsciousofbeingoutofplaceamongthethreehardelders,thatshehadallthemannerandmuchoftheappearanceofasubduedchild。
Inahardway,andinanuncertainwaythatfluctuatedbetweenpatronageandputtingdown,thesprinklingfromawatering-potandhydraulicpressure,MrsClennamshowedaninterestinthisdependent。Eveninthemomentofherentrance,upontheviolentringingofthebell,whenthemothershieldedherselfwiththatsingularactionfromtheson,MrsClennam’seyeshadhadsomeindividualrecognitioninthem,whichseemedreservedforher。Astherearedegreesofhardnessinthehardestmetal,andshadesofcolourinblackitself,so,evenintheasperityofMrsClennam’sdemeanourtowardsalltherestofhumanityandtowardsLittleDorrit,therewasafinegradation。
LittleDorritletherselfouttodoneedlework。Atsomuchaday——
oratsolittle——fromeighttoeight,LittleDorritwastobehired。Punctualtothemoment,LittleDorritappeared;punctualtothemoment,LittleDorritvanished。WhatbecameofLittleDorritbetweenthetwoeightswasamystery。
AnotherofthemoralphenomenaofLittleDorrit。Besidesherconsiderationmoney,herdailycontractincludedmeals。Shehadanextraordinaryrepugnancetodiningincompany;wouldneverdoso,ifitwerepossibletoescape。Wouldalwayspleadthatshehadthisbitofworktobeginfirst,orthatbitofworktofinishfirst;andwould,ofacertainty,schemeandplan——notverycunningly,itwouldseem,forshedeceivednoone——todinealone。
Successfulinthis,happyincarryingoffherplateanywhere,tomakeatableofherlap,orabox,ortheground,orevenaswassupposed,tostandontip-toe,diningmoderatelyatamantel-shelf;
thegreatanxietyofLittleDorrit’sdaywassetatrest。
ItwasnoteasytomakeoutLittleDorrit’sface;shewassoretiring,pliedherneedleinsuchremovedcorners,andstartedawaysoscaredifencounteredonthestairs。Butitseemedtobeapaletransparentface,quickinexpression,thoughnotbeautifulinfeature,itssofthazeleyesexcepted。Adelicatelybenthead,atinyform,aquicklittlepairofbusyhands,andashabbydress——itmustneedshavebeenveryshabbytolookatallso,beingsoneat——wereLittleDorritasshesatatwork。
FortheseparticularsorgeneralitiesconcerningLittleDorrit,MrArthurwasindebtedinthecourseofthedaytohisowneyesandtoMrsAffery’stongue。IfMrsAfferyhadhadanywillorwayofherown,itwouldprobablyhavebeenunfavourabletoLittleDorrit。
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