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第104章

  SoonafterthistimeDr。JohnsonhadthemortificationofbeinginformedbyMrs。Thrale,that,’whatshesupposedheneverbelieved,’wastrue;namely,thatshewasactuallygoingtomarrySignorPiozzi,anItalianmusick-master。Heendeavouredtopreventit;butinvain。IfshewouldpublishthewholeofthecorrespondencethatpassedbetweenDr。Johnsonandheronthesubject,weshouldhaveafullviewofhisrealsentiments。Asitis,ourjudgementmustbebiassedbythatcharacteristickspecimenwhichSirJohnHawkinshasgivenus:’PoorThrale!Ithoughtthateitherhervirtueorhervicewouldhaverestrainedherfromsuchamarriage。Sheisnowbecomeasubjectforherenemiestoexultover;andforherfriends,ifshehasanyleft,toforget,orpity。’
  ItmustbeadmittedthatJohnsonderivedaconsiderableportionofhappinessfromthecomfortsandelegancieswhichheenjoyedinMr。
  Thrale’sfamily;butMrs。Thraleassuresushewasindebtedforthesetoherhusbandalone,whocertainlyrespectedhimsincerely。
  HavingleftthePIOUSNEGOCIATION,asIcalledit,inthebesthands,Ishallhereinsertwhatrelatestoit。JohnsonwrotetoSirJoshuaReynoldsonJuly6,asfollows:——
  ’Iamgoing,Ihope,inafewdays,totrytheairofDerbyshire,buthopetoseeyoubeforeIgo。Letme,however,mentiontoyouwhatIhavemuchatheart。IftheChancellorshouldcontinuehisattentiontoMr。Boswell’srequest,andconferwithyouonthemeansofrelievingmylanguidstate,Iamverydesiroustoavoidtheappearanceofaskingmoneyuponfalsepretences。IdesireyoutorepresenttohisLordship,what,assoonasitissuggested,hewillperceivetobereasonable,——That,ifIgrowmuchworse,I
  shallbeafraidtoleavemyphysicians,tosuffertheinconveniencesoftravel,andpineinthesolitudeofaforeigncountry;That,ifIgrowmuchbetter,ofwhichindeedthereisnowlittleappearance,Ishallnotwishtoleavemyfriendsandmydomestickcomforts;forIdonottravel,forpleasureorcuriosity;
  yetifIshouldrecover,curiositywouldrevive。Inmypresentstate,Iamdesiroustomakeastruggleforalittlelongerlife,andhopetoobtainsomehelpfromasofterclimate。Doformewhatyoucan。’
  ByaletterfromSirJoshuaReynoldsIwasinformed,thattheLordChancellorhadcalledonhim,andacquaintedhimthattheapplicationhadnotbeensuccessful;butthathisLordship,afterspeakinghighlyinpraiseofJohnson,asamanwhowasanhonourtohiscountry,desiredSirJoshuatolethimknow,thatongrantingamortgageofhispension,heshoulddrawonhisLordshiptotheamountoffiveorsixhundredpounds;andthathisLordshipexplainedthemeaningofthemortgagetobe,thathewishedthebusinesstobeconductedinsuchamanner,thatDr。Johnsonshouldappeartobeundertheleastpossibleobligation。SirJoshuamentioned,thathehadbythesamepostcommunicatedallthistoDr。Johnson。
  HowJohnsonwasaffectedupontheoccasionwillappearfromwhathewrotetoSirJoshuaReynolds:——
  ’Ashbourne,Sept。9。ManywordsIhopearenotnecessarybetweenyouandme,toconvinceyouwhatgratitudeisexcitedinmyheartbytheChancellor’sliberality,andyourkindoffices……
  ’IhaveenclosedalettertotheChancellor,which,whenyouhavereadit,youwillbepleasedtosealwithahead,oranyothergeneralseal,andconveyittohim:hadIsentitdirectlytohim,Ishouldhaveseemedtooverlookthefavourofyourintervention。’
  ’TOTHELORDHIGHCHANCELLOR。
  ’MYLORD,——Afteralongandnotinattentiveobservationofmankind,thegenerosityofyourLordship’sofferraisesinmenotlesswonderthangratitude。Bounty,soliberallybestowed,Ishouldgladlyreceive,ifmyconditionmadeitnecessary;for,tosuchamind,whowouldnotbeproudtoownhisobligations?ButithaspleasedGODtorestoremetosogreatameasureofhealth,thatifIshouldnowappropriatesomuchofafortunedestinedtodogood,Icouldnotescapefrommyselfthechargeofadvancingafalseclaim。Myjourneytothecontinent,thoughIoncethoughtitnecessary,wasnevermuchencouragedbymyphysicians;andIwasverydesirousthatyourLordshipshouldbetoldofitbySirJoshuaReynolds,asaneventveryuncertain;forifIgrewmuchbetter,I
  shouldnotbewilling,ifmuchworse,notable,tomigrate。YourLordshipwasfirstsolicitedwithoutmyknowledge;but,whenIwastoldthatyouwerepleasedtohonourmewithyourpatronage,Ididnotexpecttohearofarefusal;yet,asIhavehadnolongtimetobroodhope,andhavenotriotedinimaginaryopulence,thiscoldreceptionhasbeenscarceadisappointment;and,fromyourLordship’skindness,Ihavereceivedabenefit,whichonlymenlikeyouareabletobestow。Ishallnowlivemihicarior,withahigheropinionofmyownmerit。Iam,myLord,yourLordship’smostobliged,mostgrateful,andmosthumbleservant,’September,1784。’
  ’SAM。JOHNSON。’
  UponthisunexpectedfailureIabstainfrompresumingtomakeanyremarks,ortoofferanyconjectures。
  LetusnowcontemplateJohnsonthirtyyearsafterthedeathofhiswife,stillretainingforherallthetendernessofaffection。
  ’TOTHEREVERENDMR。BAGSHAW,ATBROMLEY。
  ’SIR,——Perhapsyoumayremember,thatintheyear1753,youcommittedtothegroundmydearwife。Inowentreatyourpermissiontolayastoneuponher;andhavesenttheinscription,that,ifyoufinditproper,youmaysignifyyourallowance。
  ’Youwilldomeagreatfavourbyshowingtheplacewhereshelies,thatthestonemayprotectherremains。
  ’Mr。Rylandwillwaitonyoufortheinscription,andprocureittobeengraved。YouwilleasilybelievethatIshrinkfromthismournfuloffice。Whenitisdone,ifIhavestrengthremaining,I
  willvisitBromleyonceagain,andpayyoupartoftherespecttowhichyouhavearightfrom,ReverendSir,yourmosthumbleservant,’July12,1784。’
  ’SAM。JOHNSON。’
  NextdayhesetoutonajaunttoStaffordshireandDerbyshire,flatteringhimselfthathemightbeinsomedegreerelieved。
  DuringhisabsencefromLondonhekeptupacorrespondencewithseveralofhisfriends,fromwhichIshallselectwhatappearstomeproperforpublication,withoutattendingnicelytochronologicalorder。
  TODR。BROCKLESBY,hewrites,Ashbourne,Sept。9:——
  ’DoyouknowtheDukeandDuchessofDevonshire?AndhaveyoueverseenChatsworth?IwasatChatsworthonMonday:Ihadindeedseenitbefore,butneverwhenitsownerswereathome;Iwasverykindlyreceived,andhonestlypressedtostay:butItoldthemthatasickmanisnotafitinmateofagreathouse。ButIhopetogoagainsometime。’
  Sept。11。’Ithinknothinggrowsworse,butallratherbetter,exceptsleep,andthatoflatehasbeenatitsoldpranks。Lastevening,IfeltwhatIhadnotknownforalongtime,aninclinationtowalkforamusement;Itookashortwalk,andcamebackagainneitherbreathlessnorfatigued。Thishasbeenagloomy,frigid,ungenialsummer,butoflateitseemstomend;I
  heartheheatsometimesmentioned,butIdonotfeelit:
  “PraetereaminimusgelidojamincorporesanguisFebrecaletsola——“
  Ihope,however,withgoodhelp,tofindmeansofsupportingawinterathome,andtohearandtellattheClubwhatisdoing,andwhatoughttobedoingintheworld。Ihavenocompanyhere,andshallnaturallycomehomehungryforconversation。Towishyou,dearSir,moreleisure,wouldnotbekind;butwhatleisureyouhave,youmustbestowuponme。’
  Lichfield,Sept。29。’OnonedayIhadthreelettersabouttheair-balloon:yourswasfarthebest,andhasenabledmetoimparttomyfriendsinthecountryanideaofthisspeciesofamusement。
  Inamusement,mereamusement,Iamafraiditmustend,forIdonotfindthatitscoursecanbedirectedsoasthatitshouldserveanypurposesofcommunication;anditcangivenonewintelligenceofthestateoftheairatdifferentheights,tilltheyhaveascendedabovetheheightofmountains,whichtheyseemneverlikelytodo。
  Icamehitheronthe27th。HowlongIshallstayIhavenotdetermined。Mydropsyisgone,andmyasthmamuchremitted,butI
  havefeltmyselfalittledecliningthesetwodays,oratleastto-
  day;butsuchvicissitudesmustbeexpected。Onedaymaybeworsethananother;butthislastmonthisfarbetterthantheformer;ifthenextshouldbeasmuchbetterthanthis,Ishallrunaboutthetownonmyownlegs。’
  October25。’Youwritetomewithazealthatanimates,andatendernessthatmeltsme。IamnotafraideitherofajourneytoLondon,oraresidenceinit。Icamedownwithlittlefatigue,andamnownotweaker。InthesmokyatmosphereIwasdeliveredfromthedropsy,whichIconsiderastheoriginalandradicaldisease。
  Thetownismyelement*;therearemyfriends,therearemybooks,towhichIhavenotyetbidfarewell,andtherearemyamusements。
  SirJoshuatoldmelongagothatmyvocationwastopublicklife,andIhopestilltokeepmystation,tillGodshallbidmeGoinpeace。’
  *HisloveofLondoncontinuallyappears。InaletterfromhimtoMrs。Smart,wifeofhisfriendthePoet,whichispublishedinawell-writtenlifeofhim,prefixedtoaneditionofhisPoems,in1791,thereisthefollowingsentence:——’ToonethathaspassedsomanyyearsinthepleasuresandopulenceofLondon,therearefewplacesthatcangivemuchdelight。’
  Once,uponreadingthatlineinthecuriousepitaphquotedinTheSpectator,’BorninNew-England,didinLondondie;’
  helaughedandsaid,’Idonotwonderatthis。Itwouldhavebeenstrange,ifborninLondon,hehaddiedinNew-England。’——BOSWELL。
  TOSIRJOSHUAREYNOLDS:——
  Ashbourne,Sept。2。’……IstillcontinuebyGod’smercytomend。Mybreathiseasier,mynightsarequieter,andmylegsarelessinbulk,andstrongerinuse。Ihave,however,yetagreatdealtoovercome,beforeIcanyetattainevenanoldman’shealth。
  Write,dowritetomenowandthen;wearenowoldacquaintance,andperhapsfewpeoplehavelivedsomuchandsolongtogether,withlesscauseofcomplaintoneitherside。Theretrospectionofthisisverypleasant,andIhopeweshallneverthinkoneachotherwithlesskindness。’
  Sept。9。’Icouldnotansweryourletterbeforethisday,becauseIwentonthesixthtoChatsworth,anddidnotcomebacktillthepostwasgone。Manywords,Ihope,arenotnecessarybetweenyouandme,toconvinceyouwhatgratitudeisexcitedinmyheart,bytheChancellor’sliberalityandyourkindoffices。IdidnotindeedexpectthatwhatwasaskedbytheChancellorwouldhavebeenrefused,butsinceithas,wewillnottellthatanythinghasbeenasked。IhaveenclosedalettertotheChancellorwhich,whenyouhavereadit,youwillbepleasedtosealwithahead,orothergeneralseal,andconveyittohim;hadIsentitdirectlytohim,Ishouldhaveseemedtooverlookthefavourofyourintervention。
  IdonotdespairofsupportinganEnglishwinter。AtChatsworth,I
  metyoungMr。Burke,wholedmeverycommodiouslyintoconversationwiththeDukeandDuchess。Wehadaverygoodmorning。Thedinnerwaspublick。’
  Sept。18。’Ihavethreelettersthisday,allabouttheballoon,I
  couldhavebeencontentwithone。Donotwriteabouttheballoon,whateverelseyoumaythinkpropertosay。’
  Itmaybeobserved,thathiswritingineveryway,whetherforthepublick,orprivatelytohisfriends,wasbyfitsandstarts;forweseefrequently,thatmanylettersarewrittenonthesameday。
  Whenhehadonceovercomehisaversiontobegin,hewas,Isuppose,desiroustogoon,inordertorelievehismindfromtheuneasyreflectionofdelayingwhatheoughttodo。