Thismanisreallyveryhandsome。Hetalksadmirably,andhasremarkableintellectualpower。Mydear,heisaveryBossuetinforceandpersuasivenesswhenheexplainsthemechanism,notonlyoftheSpanishtongue,butalsoofhumanthoughtandofalllanguage。HismothertongueseemstobeFrench。WhenIexpressedsurpriseatthis,herepliedthathecametoFrancewhenquiteaboy,followingtheKingofSpaintoValencay。
Whathaspassedwithinthisenigmaticbeing?Heisnolongerthesameman。Hecame,dressedquitesimply,butjustasanygentlemanwouldforamorningwalk。Heputforthallhiseloquence,andflashedwit,likeraysfromabeacon,allthroughthelesson。Likeamanrousedfromlethargy,herevealedtomeanewworldofthoughts。HetoldmethestoryofsomepoordevilofavaletwhogaveuphislifeforasingleglancefromaqueenofSpain。
“Whatcouldhedobutdie?“Iexclaimed。
Thisdelightedhim,andhelookedatmeinawaywhichwastrulyalarming。
IntheeveningIwenttoaballattheDuchessedeLenoncourt’s。ThePrincedeTalleyrandhappenedtobethere;andIgotM。deVandenesse,acharmingyoungman,toaskhimwhether,amongtheguestsathiscountry-placein1809,herememberedanyoneofthenameofHenarez。
VandenessereportedthePrince’sreply,wordforword,asfollows:
“HenarezistheMoorishnameoftheSoriafamily,whoare,theysay,descendantsoftheAbencerrages,convertedtoChristianity。TheoldDukeandhistwosonswerewiththeKing。Theeldest,thepresentDukedeSoria,hasjusthadallhisproperty,titles,anddignitiesconfiscatedbyKingFerdinand,whointhiswayavengesalong-standingfeud。TheDukemadeahugemistakeinconsentingtoformaconstitutionalministrywithValdez。Happily,heescapedfromCadizbeforethearrivaloftheDucd’Angouleme,who,withthebestwillintheworld,couldnothavesavedhimfromtheKing’swrath。“
Thisinformationgavememuchfoodforreflection。IcannotdescribetoyouthesuspenseinwhichIpassedthetimetillmynextlesson,whichtookplacethismorning。
DuringthefirstquarterofanhourIexaminedhimclosely,debatinginwardlywhetherheweredukeorcommoner,withoutbeingabletocometoanyconclusion。Heseemedtoreadmyfanciesastheyaroseandtotakepleasureinthwartingthem。AtlastIcouldendureitnolonger。
Puttingdownmybooksuddenly,IbrokeoffthetranslationIwasmakingofitaloud,andsaidtohiminSpanish:
“Youaredeceivingus。Youarenopoormiddle-classLiberal。YouaretheDukedeSoria!“
“Mademoiselle,“hereplied,withagestureofsorrow,“unhappily,IamnottheDucdeSoria。“
Ifeltallthedespairwithwhichheutteredtheword“unhappily。“Ah!
mydear,nevershouldIhaveconceiveditpossibletothrowsomuchmeaningandpassionintoasingleword。Hiseyeshaddropped,andhedarednolongerlookatme。
“M。deTalleyrand,“Isaid,“inwhosehouseyouspentyouryearsofexile,declaresthatanyonebearingthenameofHenarezmusteitherbethelateDucdeSoriaoralacquey。“
Helookedatmewitheyesliketwoblackburningcoals,atonceblazingandashamed。Themanmighthavebeeninthetorture-chamber。
Allhesaidwas:
“MyfatherwasintruththeservantoftheKingofSpain。“
Griffithcouldmakenothingofthissortoflesson。Anawkwardsilencefollowedeachquestionandanswer。
“Inoneword,“Isaid,“areyouanoblemanornot?“
“YouknowthatinSpainevenbeggarsarenoble。“
Thisreticenceprovokedme。SincethelastlessonIhadgivenplaytomyimaginationinalittlepracticaljoke。IhaddrawnanidealportraitofthemanwhomIshouldwishformyloverinaletterwhichIdesignedgivingtohimtotranslate。Sofar,IhadonlyputSpanishintoFrench,notFrenchintoSpanish;Ipointedthisouttohim,andbeggedGriffithtobringmethelastletterIhadreceivedfromafriendofmine。
“Ishallfindout,“Ithought,fromtheeffectmysketchhasonhim,“whatsortofbloodrunsinhisveins。“
ItookthepaperfromGriffith’shands,saying:
“LetmeseeifIhavecopieditrightly。“
Foritwasallinmywriting。Ihandedhimthepaper,or,ifyouwill,thesnare,andIwatchedhimwhilehereadasfollows:
“Hewhoistowinmyheart,mydear,mustbeharshandunbendingwithmen,butgentlewithwomen。Hiseagleeyemusthavepowertoquellwithasingleglancetheleastapproachtoridicule。Hewillhaveapityingsmileforthosewhowouldjeeratsacredthings,aboveall,atthatpoetryoftheheart,withoutwhichlifewouldbebutadrearycommonplace。Ihavethegreatestscornforthosewhowouldrobusofthelivingfountainofreligiousbeliefs,sorichinsolace。Hisfaith,therefore,shouldhavethesimplicityofachild,thoughunitedtothefirmconvictionofanintelligentman,whohasexaminedthefoundationsofhiscreed。Hisfreshandoriginalwayoflookingatthingsmustbeentirelyfreefromaffectationordesiretoshowoff。
Hiswordswillbefewandfit,andhismindsorichlystored,thathecannotpossiblybecomeaboretohimselfanymorethantoothers。
“Allhisthoughtsmusthaveahighandchivalrouscharacter,withoutalloyofself-seeking;whilehisactionsshouldbemarkedbyatotalabsenceofinterestedorsordidmotives。Anyweakpointshemayhavewillarisefromtheveryelevationofhisviewsabovethoseofthecommonherd,forineveryrespectIwouldhavehimsuperiortohisage。Evermindfulofthedelicateattentionsduetotheweak,hewillbegentletoallwomen,butnotpronelightlytofallinlovewithany;forlovewillseemtohimtooserioustoturnintoagame。
“Thusitmighthappenthathewouldspendhislifeinignoranceoftruelove,whileallthetimepossessingthosequalitiesmostfittedtoinspireit。Butifeverhefindtheidealwomanwhohashauntedhiswakingdreams,ifhemeetwithanaturecapableofunderstandinghisown,onewhocouldfillhissoulandpoursunlightoverhislife,couldshineasastarthroughthemistsofthischillandgloomyworld,lendfreshcharmtoexistence,anddrawmusicfromthehithertosilentchordsofhisbeing——needlesstosay,hewouldrecognizeandwelcomehisgoodfortune。
“Andshe,too,wouldbehappy。Never,bywordorlook,wouldhewoundthetenderheartwhichabandoneditselftohim,withtheblindtrustofachildreposinginitsmother’sarms。Forwerethevisionshattered,itwouldbethewreckofherinnerlife。Tothemightywatersofloveshewouldconfideherall!
“ThemanIpicturemustbelong,inexpression,inattitude,ingait,inhiswayofperformingalikethesmallestandthegreatestactions,tothatraceofthetrulygreatwhoarealwayssimpleandnatural。Heneednotbegood-looking,buthishandsmustbebeautiful。Hisupperlipwillcurlwithacareless,ironicsmileforthegeneralpublic,whilsthereservesforthosehelovestheheavenly,radiantglanceinwhichheputshissoul。“
“Willmademoiselleallowme,“hesaidinSpanish,inavoicefullofagitation,“tokeepthiswritinginmemoryofher?ThisisthelastlessonIshallhavethehonorofgivingher,andthatwhichIhavejustreceivedinthesewordsmayservemeforanabidingruleoflife。
IleftSpain,afugitiveandpenniless,butIhaveto-dayreceivedfrommyfamilyasumsufficientformyneeds。YouwillallowmetosendsomepoorSpaniardinmyplace。“
Inotherwords,heseemedtometosay,“Thislittlegamemuststop。“
Herosewithanairofmarvelousdignity,andleftmequiteupsetbysuchunheard-ofdelicacyinamanofhisclass。Hewentdownstairsandaskedtospeakwithmyfather。
Atdinnermyfathersaidtomewithasmile:
“Louise,youhavebeenlearningSpanishfromanex-ministerandamancondemnedtodeath。“
“TheDucdeSoria,“Isaid。
“Duke!“repliedmyfather。“No,heisnotthatanylonger;hetakesthetitlenowofBarondeMacumerfromapropertywhichstillremainstohiminSardinia。Heissomethingofanoriginal,Ithink。“
“Don’tbrandwiththatword,whichwithyoualwaysimpliessomemockeryandscorn,amanwhoisyourequal,andwho,Ibelieve,hasanoblenature。“
“BaronnedeMacumer?“exclaimedmyfather,withalaughingglanceatme。
Pridekeptmyeyesfixedonthetable。
“But,“saidmymother,“HenarezmusthavemettheSpanishambassadoronthesteps?“
“Yes,“repliedmyfather,“theambassadoraskedmeifIwasconspiringagainsttheKing,hismaster;buthegreetedtheex-grandeeofSpainwithmuchdeference,andplacedhisservicesathisdisposal。“
Allthis,dear,Mme。del’Estorade,happenedafortnightago,anditisafortnightnowsinceIhaveseenthemanwholovesme,forthathelovesmethereisnotadoubt。Whatisheabout?IfonlyIwereafly,oramouse,orasparrow!Iwanttoseehimalone,myselfunseen,athishouse。Onlythink,amanexists,towhomIcansay,“Goanddieforme!“Andheissomadethathewouldgo,atleastIthinkso。
Anyhow,thereisinParisamanwhooccupiesmythoughts,andwhoseglancepourssunshineintomysoul。Isnotsuchamananenemy,whomI
oughttotrampleunderfoot?What?Thereisamanwhohasbecomenecessarytome——amanwithoutwhomIdon’tknowhowtolive!Youmarried,andI——inlove!Fourlittlemonths,andthosetwodoves,whosewingserstborethemsohigh,havefluttereddownupontheflatstretchesofreallife!
Sunday。
Yesterday,attheItalianOpera,Icouldfeelsomeonewaslookingatme;myeyesweredrawn,asbyamagnet,totwowellsoffire,gleaminglikecarbunclesinadimcorneroftheorchestra。Henareznevermovedhiseyesfromme。Thewretchhaddiscoveredtheonespotfromwhichhecouldseeme——andtherehewas。Idon’tknowwhathemaybeasapolitician,butforlovehehasagenius。
Behold,myfairRenee,whereourbusinessnowstands,asthegreatCorneillehassaid。
MME。DEL’ESTORADETOMLLE。DECHAULIEU
LACRAMPADE,February。
MydearLouise,——Iwasboundtowaitsometimebeforewritingtoyou;
butnowIknow,orratherIhavelearned,manythingswhich,forthesakeofyourfuturehappiness,Imusttellyou。Thedifferencebetweenagirlandamarriedwomanissovast,thatthegirlcannomorecomprehenditthanthemarriedwomancangobacktogirlhoodagain。
IchosetomarryLouisdel’Estoraderatherthanreturntotheconvent;thatatleastisplain。SosoonasIrealizedthattheconventwastheonlyalternativetomarryingLouis,Ihad,asgirlssay,to“submit,“andmysubmissiononcemade,thenextthingwastoexaminethesituationandtrytomakethebestofit。
TheseriousnatureofwhatIwasundertakingfilledmeatfirstwithterror。Marriageisamatterconcerningthewholeoflife,whilstloveaimsonlyatpleasure。Ontheotherhand,marriagewillremainwhenpleasureshavevanished,anditisthesourceofinterestsfarmorepreciousthanthoseofthemanandwomanenteringonthealliance。
Mightitnotthereforebethattheonlyrequisiteforahappymarriagewasfriendship——afriendshipwhich,forthesakeoftheseadvantages,wouldshutitseyestomanyoftheimperfectionsofhumanity?NowtherewasnoobstacletotheexistenceoffriendshipbetweenmyselfandLouisdel’Estorade。Havingrenouncedallideaoffindinginmarriagethosetransportsofloveonwhichourmindsusedsooften,andwithsuchperilousrapture,todwell,Ifoundagentlecalmsettlingoverme。“Ifdebarredfromlove,whynotseekforhappiness?“
Isaidtomyself。“Moreover,Iamloved,andtheloveofferedmeI
shallaccept。Mymarriedlifewillbenoslavery,butratheraperpetualreign。Whatistheretosayagainstsuchasituationforawomanwhowishestoremainabsolutemistressofherself?“
TheimportantpointofseparatingmarriagefrommaritalrightswassettledinaconversationbetweenLouisandme,inthecourseofwhichhegaveproofofanexcellenttemperandatenderheart。Darling,mydesirewastoprolongthatfairseasonofhopewhich,neverculminatinginsatisfaction,leavestothesoulitsvirginity。Tograntnothingtodutyorthelaw,tobeguidedentirelybyone’sownwill,retainingperfectindependence——whatcouldbemoreattractive,morehonorable?