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第97章

  ’Yes,youngman;andasyounowspeaksoftlyandkindly,Iwilltellyoumywholetale。Myfatherwasanofficerofthesea,andwaskilledatseaashewascominghometomarrymymother,IsopelBerners。Hehadbeenacquaintedwithher,andhadlefther;butafterafewmonthshewroteheraletter,tosaythathehadnorest,andthatherepented,andthatassoonashisshipcametoporthewoulddoherallthereparationinhispower。Well,youngman,theverydaybeforetheyreachedporttheymettheenemy,andtherewasafight,andmyfatherwaskilled,afterhehadstruckdownsixoftheenemy’screwontheirowndeck;formyfatherwasabigman,asIhaveheard,andknewtolerablywellhowtousehishands,Andwhenmymotherheardthenews,shebecamehalfdistracted,andranawayintothefieldsandforests,totallyneglectingherbusiness,forshewasasmallmilliner;andsosherandementedaboutthemeadsandforestsforalongtime,nowsittingunderatree,andnowbythesideofariver-atlastsheflungherselfintosomewater,andwouldhavebeendrowned,hadnotsomeonebeenathandandrescuedher,whereuponshewasconveyedtothegreathouse,lestsheshouldattempttodoherselffarthermischief,forshehadneitherfriendsnorparents-andthereshediedthreemonthsafter,havingfirstbroughtmeintotheworld。
  Shewasasweetprettycreature,I’mtold,buthardlyfitforthisworld,beingneitherlarge,norfierce,norabletotakeherownpart。SoIwasbornandbredinthegreathouse,whereIlearnttoreadandsew,tofearGod,andtotakemyownpart。WhenIwasfourteenIwasputouttoservicetoasmallfarmerandhiswife,withwhom,however,Ididnotstaylong,forIwashalf-starved,andotherwiseilltreated,especiallybymymistress,whoonedayattemptingtoknockmedownwithabesom,Iknockedherdownwithmyfist,andwentbacktothegreathouse。’
  ’Andhowdidtheyreceiveyouinthegreathouse?’
  ’Notverykindly,youngman-onthecontrary,Iwasputintoadarkroom,whereIwaskeptafortnightonbreadandwater;Ididnotmuchcare,however,beinggladtohavegotbacktothegreathouseatanyrate-theplacewhereIwasborn,andwheremypoormotherdied;andinthegreathouseIcontinuedtwoyearslonger,readingandsewing,fearingGod,andtakingmyownpartwhennecessary。AttheendofthetwoyearsIwasagainputouttoservice,butthistimetoarichfarmerandhiswife,withwhom,however,Ididnotlivelong,lesstime,Ibelieve,thanwiththepoorones,beingobligedtoleavefor-’
  ’Knockingyourmistressdown?’
  ’No,youngman,knockingmymasterdown,whoconductedhimselfimproperlytowardsme。ThistimeIdidnotgobacktothegreathouse,havingamisgivingthattheywouldnotreceiveme;soI
  turnedmybacktothegreathousewhereIwasborn,andwheremypoormotherdied,andwanderedforseveraldaysIknownotwhither,supportingmyselfonafewhalfpencewhichIchancedtohaveinmypocket。Ithappenedoneday,asIsatunderahedgecrying,havingspentmylastfarthing,thatacomfortable-lookingelderlywomancameupinacart,andseeingthestateinwhichIwas,shestoppedandaskedwhatwasthematterwithme;Itoldhersomepartofmystory,whereuponshesaid,’Cheerup,mydear;ifyoulike,youshallgowithme,andwaituponme。’OfcourseIwantedlittlepersuasion,soIgotintothecartandwentwithher。ShetookmetoLondonandvariousotherplaces,andIsoonfoundthatshewasatravellingwoman,whowentaboutthecountrywithsilksandlinen。
  Iwasofgreatusetoher,moreespeciallyinthoseplaceswherewemetevilcompany。Once,aswewerecomingfromDover,weweremetbytwosailors,whostoppedourcart,andwouldhaverobbedandstrippedus。’Letmegetdown,’saidI;soIgotdown,andfoughtwiththemboth,tilltheyturnedroundandranaway。TwoyearsI
  livedwiththeoldgentlewoman,whowasverykindtome,almostaskindasamother;atlastshefellsickataplaceinLincolnshire,andafterafewdaysdied,leavingmehercartandstockintrade,prayingmeonlytoseeherdecentlyburied-whichIdid,givingherafuneralfitforagentlewoman。AfterwhichItravelledthecountry-melancholyenoughforwantofcompany,butsofarfortunate,thatIcouldtakemyownpartwhenanybodywasunciviltome。Atlast,passingthroughthevalleyofTodmorden,IformedtheacquaintanceofBlazingBosvilleandhiswife,withwhomI
  occasionallytookjourneysforcompany’ssake,foritismelancholytotravelaboutalone,evenwhenonecantakeone’sownpart。I
  soonfoundtheywereevilpeople;but,uponthewhole,theytreatedmecivilly,andIsometimeslentthemalittlemoney,sothatwegotontolerablywelltogether。HeandI,itistrue,hadonceadispute,andnearlycametoblows;foronce,whenwewerealone,hewantedmetomarryhim,promising,ifIwould,toturnoffGreyMoll,or,ifIlikeditbetter,tomakeherwaituponmeasamaid-
  servant;Ineverlikedhimmuch,butfromthathourlessthanever。
  Ofthetwo,IbelieveGreyMolltobethebest,forsheisatanyratetrueandfaithfultohim,andIliketruthandconstancy-
  don’tyou,youngman?’
  ’Yes,’saidI,’theyareverynicethings。Ifeelverystrangely。’
  ’Howdoyoufeel,youngman?
  ’Verymuchafraid。’
  ’Afraid,atwhat?AttheFlamingTinman?Don’tbeafraidofhim。
  Hewon’tcomeback,andifhedid,heshouldn’ttouchyouinthisstate,I’dfighthimforyou;buthewon’tcomeback,soyouneedn’tbeafraidofhim。’
  ’I’mnotafraidoftheFlamingTinman。’
  ’What,then,areyouafraidof?’
  ’Theevilone。’
  ’Theevilone!’saidthegirl,’whereishe?’
  ’Cominguponme。’
  ’Neverheed,’saidthegirl,’I’llstandbyyou。’
  CHAPTERLXXXVII
  Hubbubofvoices-Nooffence-Nodding-Theguests。
  THEkitchenofthepublic-housewasalargeone,andmanypeopleweredrinkinginit;therewasaconfusedhubbubofvoices。
  Isatdownonabenchbehindadealtable,ofwhichtherewerethreeorfourinthekitchen;presentlyabulkyman,inagreencoatoftheNewmarketcut,andwithoutahat,entered,andobservingme,cameup,andinratheragrufftonecried,’Wantanything,youngfellow?’
  ’Bringmeajugofale,’saidI,’ifyouarethemaster,asI
  supposeyouare,bythatsamecoatofyours,andyourhavingnohatonyourhead。’
  ’Don’tbesaucy,youngfellow,’saidthelandlord,forsuchhewas;
  ’don’tbesaucy,or-’Whateverheintendedtosayheleftunsaid,forfixinghiseyesupononeofmyhands,whichIhadplacedbychanceuponthetable,hebecamesuddenlystill。
  Thiswasmylefthand,whichwasrawandswollen,fromtheblowsdealtonacertainhardskullinarecentcombat。’Whatdoyoumeanbystaringatmyhandso?’saidI,with-drawingitfromthetable。
  ’Nooffence,youngman,nooffence,’saidthelandlord,inaquitealteredtone;’butthesightofyourhand-’thenobservingthatourconversationbegantoattractthenoticeoftheguestsinthekitchen,heinterruptedhimself,sayinginanundertone,’Butmum’sthewordforthepresent,Iwillgoandfetchtheale。’
  Inaboutaminutehereturned,withajugofalefoaminghigh。
  ’Here’syourhealth,’saidhe,blowingoffthefoam,anddrinking;
  butperceivingthatIlookedratherdissatisfied,hemurmured,’All’sright,Igloryinyou;butmum’stheword。’Then,placingthejugonthetable,hegavemeaconfidentialnod,andswaggeredoutoftheroom。
  Whatcanthesillyimpertinentfellowmean?thoughtI;butthealewasnowbeforeme,andIhastenedtodrink,formyweaknesswasgreat,andmymindwasfullofdarkthoughts,theremainsoftheindescribablehorroroftheprecedingnight。Itmaykillme,thoughtI,asIdrankdeep-butwhocares?anythingisbetterthanwhatIhavesuffered。Idrankdeep,andthenleanedbackagainstthewall:itappearedasifavapourwasstealingupintomybrain,gentleandbenign,soothingandstiflingthehorrorandthefear;higherandhigheritmounted,andIfeltnearlyovercome;butthesensationwasdelicious,comparedwiththatIhadlatelyexperienced,andnowIfeltmyselfnodding;and,bendingdown,I
  laidmyheadonthetableonmyfoldedhands。
  AndinthatattitudeIremainedsometime,perfectlyunconscious。
  Atlength,bydegrees,perceptionreturned,andIliftedupmyhead。Ifeltsomewhatdizzyandbewildered,butthedarkshadowhadwithdrawnitselffromme。AndnowoncemoreIdrankofthejug;thisseconddraughtdidnotproduceanoverpoweringeffectuponme-itrevivedandstrengthenedme-Ifeltanewman。
  Ilookedaroundme;thekitchenhadbeendesertedbythegreaterpartoftheguests;besidesmyself,onlyfourremained;thesewereseatedatthefartherend。Onewasharanguingfiercelyandeagerly;hewasabusingEngland,andpraisingAmerica。Atlastheexclaimed,’SowhenIgetstoNewYork,Iwilltossupmyhat,anddamntheKing。’
  ThatmanmustbeaRadical,thoughtI。
  CHAPTERLXXXVIII
  ARadical-Simple-lookingman-ChurchofEngland-ThePresident-Aristocracy-Ginandwater-Mendingtheroads-PersecutingChurch-SimondeMontfort-Brokenbells-Getup-NotforthePope-QuayofNewYork-Mumpers’Dingle-Nowishtofight-
  Firstdraught-Apoorpipe-Half-a-crownbroke。
  THEindividualwhomIsupposedtobeaRadical,afterashortpause,againupliftedhisvoice;hewasratherastrong-builtfellowofaboutthirty,withanill-favouredcountenance,awhitehatonhishead,asnuff-colouredcoatonhisback,andwhenhewasnotspeaking,apipeinhismouth。’WhowouldliveinsuchacountryasEngland?’heshouted。
  ’ThereisnocountrylikeAmerica,’saidhisnearestneighbour,amanalsoinawhitehat,andofaveryill-favouredcountenance-
  ’thereisnocountrylikeAmerica,’saidhe,withdrawingapipefromhismouth;’IthinkIshall-’andherehetookadraughtfromajug,thecontentsofwhichheappearedtohaveincommonwiththeother,-’gotoAmericaoneofthesedaysmyself。’
  ’PooroldEnglandisnotsuchabadcountry,afterall,’saidathird,asimple-lookingmaninalabouringdress,whosatsmokingapipewithoutanythingbeforehim。’Iftherewasbutalittlemoreworktobegot,Ishouldhavenothingtosayagainsther;Ihope,however-’
  ’Youhope!whocareswhatyouhope?’interruptedthefirst,inasavagetone;’youareoneofthosesneakinghoundswhoaresatisfiedwithdogs’wages-abitofbreadandakick。Work,indeed!who,withthespiritofaman,wouldworkforacountrywherethereisneitherlibertyofspeechnorofaction?alandfullofbeggarlyaristocracy,hungryborough-mongers,insolentparsons,and“their……wivesanddaughters,“asWilliamCobbettsays,inhis“Register。“’
  ’Ah,theChurchofEnglandhasbeenasourceofincalculablemischieftotheserealms,’saidanother。
  Thepersonwhoutteredthesewordssatratheralooffromtherest;
  hewasdressedinalongblacksurtout。Icouldnotseemuchofhisface,partlyowingtohiskeepingitverymuchdirectedtotheground,andpartlyowingtoalargeslouchedhatwhichhewore;I
  observed,however,thathishairwasofareddishtinge。Onthetablenearhimwasaglassandspoon。
  ’Youarequiteright,’saidthefirst,alludingtowhatthislasthadsaid,’theChurchofEnglandhasdoneincalculablemischiefhere。Ivaluenoreligionthreehalfpence,forIbelieveinnone;