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第84章

  ’Iamafraidheis,’saidWinifred,’yetmyheartwarmstothepoorlad,heseemssoforlorn。’
  CHAPTERLXXIII
  Morninghymn-Muchalone-JohnBunyan-Beholdentonobody-
  Sixty-five-Sobergreeting-EarlySabbaths-Finnybrood-Theporch-Nofortune-telling-Themaster’sniece-Doinggood-Twoorthreethings-Groansandvoices-PechodYspryddGlan。
  ISLEPTsoundlyduringthatnight,partlyowingtotheinfluenceoftheopiate。EarlyinthemorningIwasawakenedbythevoicesofPeterandhiswife,whoweresingingamorninghymnintheirownlanguage。Bothsubsequentlyprayedlongandfervently。Ilaystilltilltheirdevotionswerecompleted,andthenleftmytent。
  ’Goodmorning,’saidPeter,’howdostthoufeel?’’Muchbetter,’
  saidI,’thanIcouldhaveexpected。’’Iamgladofit,’saidPeter。’Artthouhungry?yondercomesourbreakfast,’pointingtothesameyoungwomanIhadseentheprecedingnight,whowasagaindescendingthehillbearingthetrayuponherhead。
  ’Whatdustthouintendtodo,youngman,thisday?’saidPeter,whenwehadabouthalffinishedbreakfast。’Do,’saidI;’asIdootherdays,whatIcan。’’Anddostthoupassthisdayasthoudostotherdays?’saidPeter。’Whynot?’saidI;’whatisthereinthisdaydifferentfromtherest?itseemstobeofthesamecolourasyesterday。’’Artthouaware,’saidthewife,interposing,’whatdayitis?thatitisSabbath?thatitisSunday?’’No,’saidI,’IdidnotknowthatitwasSunday。’’Andhowdidthathappen?’
  saidWinifred,withasigh。’Totellyouthetruth,’saidI,’I
  liveverymuchalone,andpayverylittleheedtothepassingoftime。’’Andyetofwhatinfiniteimportanceistime,’saidWinifred。’Artthounotawarethateveryyearbringstheenearertothyend?’’Idonotthink,’saidI,’thatIamsonearmyendasIwasyesterday。’’Yes,thouart,’saidthewoman;’thouwastnotdoomedtodieyesterday;aninvisiblehandwaswatchingovertheeyesterday;butthydaywillcome,thereforeimprovethetime;
  begratefulthatthouwastsavedyesterday;and,oh!reflectononething;ifthouhadstdiedyesterday,wherewouldstthouhavebeennow?’’Castintotheearth,perhaps,’saidI。’IhaveheardMr。
  Petulengrosaythattobecastintotheearthisthenaturalendofman。’’WhoisMr。Petulengro?’saidPeter,interruptinghiswife,asshewasabouttospeak。’Masterofthehorse-shoe,’saidI;
  ’and,accordingtohisownaccount,kingofEgypt。’’I
  understand,’saidPeter,’headofsomefamilyofwanderingEgyptians-theyarearaceutterlygodless。Artthouofthem?-
  butno,thouartnot,thouhastnottheiryellowblood。Isupposethoubelongesttothefamilyofwanderingartisanscalled。Idonotlikeyoutheworseforbelongingtothem。Amightyspeakerofoldsprangupfromamidstthatfamily。’’Whowashe?’saidI。
  ’JohnBunyan,’repliedPeter,reverently,’andthementionofhisnameremindsmethatIhavetopreachthisday;wiltthougoandhear?thedistanceisnotgreat,onlyhalfamile。’’No,’saidI,’Iwillnotgoandhear。’’Wherefore?’saidPeter。’Ibelongtothechurch,’saidI,’andnottothecongregations。’’Oh!theprideofthatchurch,’saidPeter,addressinghiswifeintheirowntongue,’exemplifiedeveninthelowestandmostignorantofitsmembers。Thenthou,doubtless,meanesttogotochurch,’saidPeter,againaddressingme;’thereisachurchontheothersideofthatwoodedhill。’’No,’saidI,’Idonotmeantogotochurch。’
  ’MayIasktheewherefore?’saidPeter。’Because,’saidI,’I
  preferremainingbeneaththeshadeofthesetrees,listeningtothesoundoftheleavesandthetinklingofthewaters。’
  ’Thenthouintendesttoremainhere?’saidPeter,lookingfixedlyatme。’IfIdonotintrude,’saidI;’butifIdo,Iwillwanderaway;Iwishtobebeholdentonobody-perhapsyouwishmetogo?’
  ’Onthecontrary,’saidPeter,’Iwishyoutostay。Ibegintoseesomethingintheewhichhasmuchinterestforme;butwemustnowbidtheefarewellfortherestoftheday,thetimeisdrawingnighforustorepairtotheplaceofpreaching;beforeweleavetheealone,however,Ishouldwishtoasktheeaquestion-Didstthouseekthyowndestructionyesterday,anddidstthouwilfullytakethatpoison?’’No,’saidI;’hadIknowntherehadbeenpoisoninthecakeIcertainlyshouldnothavetakenit。’’Andwhogaveitthee?’saidPeter。’Anenemyofmine,’Ireplied。’Whoisthyenemy?’’AnEgyptiansorceressandpoison-monger。’’Thyenemyisafemale。Ifearthouhadstgivenhercausetohatethee-ofwhatdidshecomplain?’’ThatIhadstolenthetongueoutofherhead。’
  ’Idonotunderstandthee-issheyoung?’’Aboutsixty-five。’
  HereWinifredinterposed。’Thoudidstcallherjustnowbyhardnames,youngman,’saidshe;’Itrustthoudostbearnomaliceagainsther。’’No,’saidI,’Ibearnomaliceagainsther。’’Thouartnotwishingtodeliverherintothehandofwhatiscalledjustice?’’Bynomeans,’saidI;’Ihavelivedlongenoughupontheroadsnottocryoutfortheconstablewhenmyfingerisbroken。Iconsiderthispoisoningasanaccidentoftheroads;oneofthosetowhichthosewhotravelareoccasionallysubject。’’Inshort,thouforgivestthineadversary?’’Bothnowandforever,’
  saidI。’Truly,’saidWinifred,’thespiritwhichtheyoungmandisplayethpleasesmemuch;Ishouldbeloththatheleftusyet。
  Ihavenodoubtthat,withtheblessingofGod,andalittleofthyexhortation,hewillturnoutatrueChristianbeforeheleavethus。’’Myexhortation!’saidPeter,andadarkshadepassedoverhiscountenance;’thouforgettestwhatIam-I-I-butIamforgettingmyself;theLord’swillbedone;andnowputawaythethings,forIperceivethatourfriendsarecomingtoattendustotheplaceofmeeting。’
  AgainthefamilywhichIhadseenthenightbeforedescendedthehillfromtheirabode。TheywerenowdressedintheirSunday’sbest。Themasterofthehouseledtheway。Theypresentlyjoinedus,whenaquietsobergreetingensuedoneachside。AfteralittletimePetershookmebythehandandbademefarewelltilltheevening;Winifreddidthesame,addingthatshehopedIshouldbevisitedbysweetandholythoughts。Thewholepartythenmovedoffinthedirectionbywhichwehadcometheprecedingnight,Peterandthemasterleadingtheway,followedbyWinifredandthemistressofthefamily。AsIgazedontheirdepartingforms,I
  feltalmostinclinedtofollowthemtotheirplaceofworship。I
  didnotstir,however,butremainedleaningagainstmyoakwithmyhandsbehindme。
  AndafteratimeIsatmedownatthefootoftheoakwithmyfaceturnedtowardsthewater,and,foldingmyhands,Ifellintodeepmeditation。IthoughtontheearlySabbathsofmylife,andthemannerinwhichIwaswonttopassthem。HowcarefullyIsaidmyprayerswhenIgotupontheSabbathmorn,andhowcarefullyI
  combedmyhairandbrushedmyclothesinorderthatImightdocredittotheSabbathday。IthoughtoftheoldchurchatprettyD-,thedignifiedrector,andyetmoredignifiedclerk。IthoughofEngland’sgrandLiturgy,andTateandBrady’ssonorousminstrelsy。IthoughtoftheHolyBook,portionsofwhichIwasinthehabitofreadingbetweenservice。Ithought,too,oftheeveningwalkwhichIsometimestookinfineweatherlikethepresent,withmymotherandbrother-aquietsoberwalk,duringwhichIwouldnotbreakintoarun,eventochaseabutterfly,oryetmoreahoney-bee,beingfullyconvincedofthedreadimportanceofthedaywhichGodhadhallowed。AndhowgladIwaswhenIhadgotovertheSabbathdaywithouthavingdoneanythingtoprofaneit。AndhowsoundlyIsleptontheSabbathnightafterthetoilofbeingverygoodthroughouttheday。
  AndwhenIhadmusedonthosetimesalongwhile,Isighedandsaidtomyself,Iammuchalteredsincethen;amIalteredforthebetter?AndthenIlookedatmyhandsandmyapparel,andsighedagain。IwasnotwontofyoretoappearthusontheSabbathday。
  ForalongtimeIcontinuedinastateofdeepmeditation,tillatlastIliftedupmyeyestothesun,which,asusualduringthatglorioussummer,wasshininginuncloudedmajesty;andthenI
  loweredthemtothesparklingwater,inwhichhundredsofthefinnybroodweredisportingthemselves,andthenIthoughtwhatafinethingitwastobeafishonsuchafinesummerday,andIwishedmyselfafish,oratleastamongstthefishes;andthenIlookedatmyhandsagain,andthen,bendingoverthewater,Ilookedatmyfaceinthecrystalmirror,andstartedwhenIsawit,foritlookedsqualidandmiserable。
  ForthwithIstartedup,andsaidtomyself,IshouldliketobatheandcleansemyselffromthesqualorproducedbymylatehardlifeandbyMrs。Herne’sdrow。IwonderifthereisanyharminbathingontheSabbathday。IwillaskWinifredwhenshecomeshome;inthemeantimeIwillbathe,providedIcanfindafittingplace。
  Butthebrook,thoughaverydelightfulplaceforfishtodisportin,wasshallow,andbynomeansadaptedfortherecreationofsolargeabeingasmyself;itwas,moreover,exposed,thoughIsawnobodyathand,norheardasinglehumanvoiceorsound。Followingthewindingofthebrook,Ileftthemeadow,and,passingthroughtwoorthreethickets,cametoaplacewherebetweenloftybanksthewaterrandeepanddark,andthereIbathed,imbibingnewtoneandvigourintomylanguidandexhaustedframe。
  Havingputonmyclothes,IreturnedbythewayIhadcometomyvehiclebeneaththeoaktree。Fromthence,forwantofsomethingbettertodo,Istrolledupthehill,onthetopofwhichstoodthefarm-house;itwasalargeandcommodiousbuildingbuiltprincipallyofstone,andseemingofsomeantiquity,withaporch,oneithersideofwhichwasanoakenbench。Ontherightwasseatedayoungwomanwithabookinherhand,thesamewhohadbroughtthetraytomyfriendsandmyself。
  ’Good-day,’saidI,’prettydamsel,sittinginthefarmporch。’
  ’Good-day,’saidthegirl,lookingatmeforamoment,andthenfixinghereyesonherbook。
  ’That’sanicebookyouarereading,’saidI。
  Thegirllookedatmewithsurprise。’Howdoyouknowwhatbookitis?’saidshe。
  ’HowdoIknow-nevermind;butanicebookitis-nolove,nofortune-tellinginit。’
  Thegirllookedatmehalfoffended。’Fortune-telling!’saidshe,’Ishouldthinknot。Butyouknownothingaboutit’;andshebentherheadoncemoreoverthebook。
  ’Itellyouwhat,youngperson,’saidI,’Iknowallaboutthatbook;whatwillyouwagerthatIdonot?’
  ’Ineverwager,’saidthegirl。
  ’ShallItellyouthenameofit,’saidI,’Odaughterofthedairy?’
  Thegirlhalfstarted。’Ishouldneverhavethought,’saidshe,halftimidly,’thatyoucouldhaveguessedit。’
  ’Ididnotguessit,’saidI,’Iknewit;andmeetandproperitisthatyoushouldreadit。’
  ’Whyso?’saidthegirl。
  ’CanthedaughterofthedairyreadamorefittingbookthantheDAIRYMAN’SDAUGHTER?’
  ’Wheredoyoucomefrom?’saidthegirl。
  ’Outofthewater,’saidI。’Don’tstart,Ihavebeenbathing;areyoufondofthewater?’
  ’No,’saidthegirl,heavingasigh;’Iamnotfondofthewater,thatis,ofthesea’;andhereshesighedagain。
  ’Theseaisawidegulf,’saidI,’andfrequentlyseparateshearts。’
  Thegirlsobbed。
  ’Whyareyoualonehere?’saidI。
  ’Itakemyturnwiththerest,’saidthegirl,’tokeepathomeonSunday。’
  ’Andyouare-’saidI。
  ’Themaster’sniece!’saidthegirl。’Howcameyoutoknowit?
  Butwhydidyounotgowiththerestandwithyourfriends?’
  ’Whoarethoseyoucallmyfriends?’saidI。
  ’Peterandhiswife。’
  ’Andwhoarethey?’saidI。
  ’Doyounotknow?’saidthegirl;’youcamewiththem。’
  ’Theyfoundmeillbytheway,’saidI;’andtheyrelievedme:I
  knownothingaboutthem。’
  ’Ithoughtyoukneweverything,’saidthegirl。
  ’TherearetwoorthreethingswhichIdonotknow,andthisisoneofthem。Whoarethey?’