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第49章

  Lords,squires,andcockneysmaypassaway,butatimewillscarcelycomewhenChildeHaroldandthatodewillbeforgotten。
  Hewasapoet,afterall,andhemusthaveknownit;arealpoet,equalto-to-whatadestiny!Rank,beauty,fashion,immortality,-hecouldnotbeunhappy;whatadifferenceinthefateofmen-IwishIcouldthinkhewasunhappy……
  Iturnedaway。
  ’Greatpoet,sir,’saidthedapperman,turningawaytoo,’butunhappy-fateofgenius,sir;I,too,amfrequentlyunhappy。’
  Hurryingdownastreettotheright,IencounteredFrancisArdry。
  ’Whatmeansthemultitudeyonder?’hedemanded。
  ’TheyarelookingafterthehearsewhichiscarryingtheremainsofByronupTottenhamRoad。’
  ’Ihaveseentheman,’saidmyfriend,asheturnedbackthewayhehadcome,’soIcandispensewithseeingthehearse-IsawthelivingmanatVenice-ah,agreatpoet。’
  ’Yes,’saidI,’agreatpoet,itmustbeso,everybodysaysso-
  whatadestiny!Whatadifferenceinthefateofmen;but’tissaidhewasunhappy;youhaveseenhim,howdidhelook?’
  ’Oh,beautiful!’
  ’Butdidhelookhappy?’
  ’Why,Ican’tsayhelookedveryunhappy;Isawhimwithtwo……
  veryfairladies;butwhatisittoyouwhetherthemanwasunhappyornot?Come,whereshallwego-toJoey’s?Hishugestbear-’
  ’Oh,Ihavehadenoughofbears,Ihavejustbeenworriedbyone。’
  ’Thepublisher?’
  ’Yes。’
  ’ThencometoJoey’s,threedogsaretobelaunchedathisbear:
  astheypinhim,imaginehimtobethepublisher。’
  ’No,’saidI,’Iamgoodfornothing;IthinkIshallstrolltoLondonBridge。’
  ’That’stoofarforme-farewell。’
  CHAPTERXL
  LondonBridge-Whynot?-Everyhearthasitsbitters-Wickedboys-Givememybook-Suchafright-Honourbright。
  SOIwenttoLondonBridge,andagaintookmystationonthespotbytheboothwhereIhadstoodontheformeroccasion。Thebooth,however,wasempty;neithertheapple-womannorherstallwastobeseen。Ilookedoverthebalustradeupontheriver;thetidewasnow,asbefore,rollingbeneaththearchwithfrightfulimpetuosity。AsIgazedupontheeddiesofthewhirlpool,I
  thoughtwithinmyselfhowsoonhumanlifewouldbecomeextinctthere;aplunge,aconvulsiveflounder,andallwouldbeover。
  WhenIlaststoodoverthatabyssIhadfeltakindofimpulse-afascination;Ihadresistedit-Ididnotplungeintoit。AtpresentIfeltakindofimpulsetoplunge;buttheimpulsewasofadifferentkind;itproceededfromaloathingoflife,Ilookedwistfullyattheeddies-whathadItolivefor?-what,indeed!
  IthoughtofBrandtandStruensee,andYeomanPatch-shouldI
  yieldtotheimpulse-whynot?Myeyeswerefixedontheeddies。
  AllofasuddenIshuddered;IthoughtIsawheadsinthepool;
  humanbodieswallowingconfusedly;eyesturneduptoheavenwithhopelesshorror;wasthatwateror-?Wherewastheimpulsenow?
  Iraisedmyeyesfromthepool,Ilookednomoreuponit-Ilookedforward,fardownthestreaminthefardistance。’Ha!whatisthat?IthoughtIsawakindofFataMorgana,greenmeadows,wavinggroves,arustichome;butinthefardistance-Istared-
  Istared-aFataMorgana-itwasgone……“
  Ileftthebalustradeandwalkedtothefartherendofthebridge,whereIstoodforsometimecontemplatingthecrowd;Ithenpassedovertotheothersidewithanintentionofreturninghome;justhalf-wayoverthebridge,inaboothimmediatelyoppositetotheoneinwhichIhadformerlybeheldher,satmyfriend,theoldapple-woman,huddledupbehindherstall。
  ’Well,mother,’saidI,’howareyou?’Theoldwomanliftedherheadwithastartledlook。
  ’Don’tyouknowme?’saidI。
  ’Yes,IthinkIdo。Ah,yes,’saidshe,asherfeaturesbeamedwithrecollection,’Iknowyou,dear;youaretheyoungladthatgavemethetanner。Well,child,gotanythingtosell?’
  ’Nothingatall,’saidI。
  ’Badluck?’
  ’Yes,’saidI,’badenough,andillusage。’
  ’Ah,Isupposetheycaughtye;well,child,nevermind,betterlucknexttime;Iamgladtoseeyou。’
  ’Thankyou,’saidI,sittingdownonthestonebench;’Ithoughtyouhadleftthebridge-whyhaveyouchangedyourside?’
  Theoldwomanshook。
  ’Whatisthematterwithyou,’saidI;’areyouill?’
  ’No,child,no;only-’
  ’Onlywhat?Anybadnewsofyourson?’
  ’No,child,no;nothingaboutmyson。Onlylow,child-everyhearthasitsbitters。’
  ’That’strue,’saidI;’well,Idon’twanttoknowyoursorrows;
  come,where’sthebook?’
  Theapple-womanshookmoreviolentlythanbefore,bentherselfdown,anddrewhercloakmorecloselyaboutherthanbefore。
  ’Book,child,whatbook?’
  ’Why,blessedMary,tobesure。’
  ’Oh,that;Iha’n’tgotit,child-Ihavelostit,haveleftitathome。’
  ’Lostit,’saidI;’leftitathome-whatdoyoumean?Come,letmehaveit。’
  ’Iha’n’tgotit,child。’
  ’Ibelieveyouhavegotitunderyourcloak。’
  ’Don’ttellanyone,dear;don’t-don’t,’andtheapple-womanburstintotears。
  ’What’sthematterwithyou?’saidI,staringather。
  ’Youwanttotakemybookfromme?’
  ’NotI,Icarenothingaboutit;keepit,ifyoulike,onlytellmewhat’sthematter?’
  ’Why,allaboutthatbook。’
  ’Thebook?’
  ’Yes,theywantedtotakeitfromme。’
  ’Whodid?’
  ’Why,somewickedboys。I’lltellyouallaboutit。Eightortendaysago,Isatbehindmystall,readingmybook;allofasuddenI
  feltitsnatchedfrommyhand,upIstarted,andseethreerascalsofboysgrinningatme;oneofthemheldthebookinhishand。
  “Whatbookisthis?“saidhe,grinningatit。“Whatdoyouwantwithmybook?“saidI,clutchingatitovermystall;“givememybook。““Whatdoyouwantabookfor?“saidhe,holdingitback;“I
  haveagoodmindtoflingitintotheThames。““Givememybook,“
  Ishrieked;and,snatchingatit,Ifellovermystall,andallmyfruitwasscatteredabout。Offrantheboys-offrantherascalwithmybook。Ohdear,IthoughtIshouldhavedied;upIgot,however,andranafterthemaswellasIcould;Ithoughtofmyfruit,butIthoughtmoreofmybook。Ileftmyfruitandranaftermybook。“Mybook!mybook!“Ishrieked,“murder!theft!
  robbery!“Iwasnearbeingcrushedunderthewheelsofacart;butIdidn’tcare-Ifollowedtherascals。“Stopthem!stopthem!“I
  rannearlyasfastasthey-theycouldn’trunveryfastonaccountofthecrowd。Atlastsomeonestoppedtherascal,whereuponheturnedround,andflingingthebookatme,itfellintothemud;
  well,Ipickeditupandkissedit,allmuddyasitwas。“Hasherobbedyou?“saidtheman。“Robbedme,indeed;whyhehadgotmybook。““Oh,yourbook,“saidtheman,andlaughed,andlettherascalgo。Ah,hemightlaugh,but-’
  ’Well,goon。’