backward。Haveyoumuchtodo?““Yes,Ionlygottheorderyesterdayatnoon;andthere’sthreegirlsbesidethemother;andwhatwithtryingonandmatchingthestufffortherewasnotenoughinthepiecetheychosefirst,I’maboveabitbehindhand。
I’vetheskirtsalltomake。Ikeptthatworktillcandlelight;andthesleeves,tosaynothingoflittlebitstothebodies;forthemissisisveryparticular,andIcouldscarcekeepfromsmilingwhiletheywerecryingso,reallytakingonsadlyI’msure,tohearfirstoneandthent’otherclearuptonoticethesitofhergown。Theyweren’ttobemisfits,Ipromiseyou,thoughtheywereinsuchtrouble。““Well,Margaret,you’rerightwelcome,asyouknow,andI’llsitdownandhelpyouwithpleasure,thoughIwastiredenoughofsewingto-nightatMissSimmonds’。“BythistimeMaryhadbrokenuptherakingcoal,andlightedhercandle;
andMargaretsettledherselftoherworkononesideofthetable,whileherfriendhurriedoverherteaattheother。Thethingswerethenliftedenmassetothedresser;anddustinghersideofthetablewiththeapronshealwaysworeathome,Marytookupsomebreadthsandbegantorunthemtogether。“Who’sitallfor,forifyoutoldmeI’veforgotten?““Why,forMrsOgdenaskeepsthegreengrocer’sshopinOxfordRoad。Herhusbanddrankhimselftodeath,andthoughshecriedoverhimandhiswaysallthetimehewasalive,she’sfrettedsadlyforhimnowhe’sdead。““Hashelefthermuchtogoupon?“askedMary,examiningthetextureofthedress。“Thisisbeautifullyfinesoftbombazine。““No,I’mmuchafeardthere’sbutlittle,andthere’sseveralyoungchildren,besidesthethreeMissOgdens。““Ishouldhavethoughtgirlslikethemwouldha’madetheirowngowns,“
observedMary。“SoIdaresaytheydo,manyaone,butnowtheyseemallsobusygettingreadyforthefuneral;forit’stobequiteagrandaffair,well-nightwentypeopletobreakfast,asoneofthelittleonestoldme;thelittlethingseemedtolikethefuss,andIdobelieveitcomfortedpoorMrsOgdentomakeallthepieceo’work。SuchasmellofhamboilingandfowlsroastingwhileIwaitedinthekitchen;itseemedmorelikeaweddingnorafuneral。
Theysaidshe’dspendamattero’sixtypoundonth’burial。““Ithoughtyousaidshewasbutbadlyoff,“saidMary。“Aye,Iknowshe’saskedforcreditatseveralplaces,sayingherhusbandlaidhandsoneveryfarthinghecouldgetfordrink。Butth’undertakersurgeheron,yousee,andtellherthisthing’susual,andthatthing’sonlyacommonmarkofrespect,andthateverybodyhast’otherthing,tillthepoorwomanhasnowillo’herown。Idaresay,too,herheartstrikesheritalwaysdoeswhenaperson’sgoneformanyawordandmanyaslightingdeedtohimwho’sstiffandcoldandshethinkstomakeupmatters,asitwere,byagrandfuneral,thoughsheandallherchildren,too,mayhavetopinchmanyayeartopaytheexpenses,ifevertheypaythematall。““Thismourning,too,willcostaprettypenny,“saidMary。“Ioftenwonderwhyfolkswearmourning;it’snotprettyorbecoming;anditcostsadealofmoneyjustwhenpeoplecanspareitleast;andifwhattheBibletellsusbetrue,weoughtnottobesorrywhenafriend,who’sbeengood,goestohisrest;andasforabadman,one’sgladenoughtogetshutonhim。
Icannotseewhatgoodcomesouto’wearingmourning。““I’lltellyouwhatIthinkthefancywassentfor。OldAlicecallseverything’sentfor,’andIbelieveshe’sright。Itdoesdogood,thoughnotasmuchasitcosts,thatIdobelieve,insettingpeopleasiscastdownbysorrowandfeelsthemselvesunabletosettletoanythingbutcrying
somethingtodo。WhynowItoldyouhowtheyweregrieving;for,perhaps,hewasakindhusbandandfather,inhisthoughtlessway,whenhewasn’tinliquor。ButtheycheeredupwonderfulwhileIwasthere,andIasked’emformoredirectionsthanusual,thattheymighthavesomethingtotalkoverandfixabout;andIleft’emmyfashion-bookthoughitweretwomonthsoldjustapurpose。““Idon’tthinkeveryonewouldgrieveathatway。OldAlicewouldn’t。““OldAliceisoneinathousand。Idoubt,too,ifshewouldfretmuch,howeversorryshemightbe。Shewouldsayitweresent,andfalltotryingtofindoutwhatgooditweretodo。Everysorrowinhermindissentforgood。DidIevertellyou,Mary,whatshesaidonedaywhenshefoundmetakingonaboutsomething?““No;dotellme。Whatwereyoufrettingabout,firstplace?““Ican’ttellyou,justnow;perhapsImaysometime。““When?““Perhapsthisveryevening,ifitrisesinmyheart;perhapsnever。It’safearthatsometimesIcan’tabidetothinkabout,andsometimesIdon’tliketothinkonanythingelse。Well,Iwasfrettingaboutthisfear,andAlicecomesinforsomething,andfindsmecrying。IwouldnottellhernomorethanIwouldyou,Mary;soshesays,’Well,dear,youmustmindthis,whenyou’regoingtofretandbelowaboutanything——Ananxiousmindisneveraholymind。’Oh,Mary,Ihavesooftencheckedmygrumblingsin’shesaidthat“Thewearysoundofstitchingwastheonlysoundheardforalittlewhile,tillMaryinquired,“Doyouexpecttogetpaidforthismourning?““Why,IdonotmuchthinkIshall。I’vethoughtitoveronceortwice,andImeantobringmyselftothinkIshan’t,andtoliketodoitasmybittowardscomfortingthem。Idon’tthinktheycanpay,andyetthey’rejustthesortoffolktohavetheirmindseasierforwearingmourning。
There’sonlyonethingIdislikemakingblackfor,itdoessohurttheeyes。Margaretputdownherworkwithasigh,andshadedhereyes。Thensheassumedacheerfultone,andsaid,“You’llnothavetowaitlong,Mary,formysecret’sonthetipofmytongue。
Mary,doyouknowIsometimesthinkI’mgrowingalittleblind,andthenwhatwouldbecomeofgrandfatherandme?Oh,Godhelpme,Lordhelpme!“Shefellintoanagonyoftears,whileMarykneltbyher,strivingtosootheandtocomforther;but,likeaninexperiencedperson,strivingrathertodenythecorrectnessofMargaret’sfear,thanhelpinghertomeetandovercometheevil。“No,“saidMargaret,quietlyfixinghertearfuleyesonMary;“IknowI’mnotmistaken。Ihavefeltonegoingsometime,longbeforeIeverthoughtwhatitwouldleadto;andlastautumnIwenttoadoctor;andhedidnotmincethematter,butsaidunlessIsatinadarkenedroom,withmyhandsbeforeme,mysightwouldnotlastmemanyyearslonger。ButhowcouldIdothat,Mary?Foronething,grandfatherwouldhaveknowntherewassomewhatthematter;and,oh!itwillgrievehimsorewheneverhe’stold,sothelaterthebetter;andbesides,Mary,we’vesometimeslittleenoughtogoupon,andwhatIearnisagreathelp。Forgrandfathertakesadayhere,andadaythere,forbotanizingorgoingafterinsects,andhe’llthinklittleenoughoffourorfiveshillingsforaspecimen;deargrandfather!
andI’msoloathtothinkheshouldbestintedofwhatgiveshimsuchpleasure。
SoIwenttoanotherdoctortotryandgethimtosaysomethingdifferent,andhesaid,’Oh,itwasonlyweakness,’andgivedmeabottleoflotion;
butI’veusedthreebottlesandeachof’emcosttwoshillings,andmyeyeissomuchworse,nothurtingsomuch,butIcan’tseeabitwithit。
Therenow,Mary,“continuedshe,shuttingoneeye,“nowyouonlylooklikeagreatblackshadow,withtheedgesdancingandsparkling。““Andcanyouseeprettywellwithth’other?““Yes,prettynearaswellasever。Th’onlydifferenceis,thatifIsewalongtimetogether,abrightspotliketh’suncomesrightwhereI’mlooking;alltherestisquiteclearbutjustwhereIwanttosee。I’vebeentobothdoctorsagain,andnowthey’rebotho’thesamestory;andIsupposeI’mgoingdarkasfastasmaybe。Plainworkpayssobad,andmourninghasbeensoplentifulthiswinter,thatIweretemptedtotakeinanyblackworkIcould;andnowI’msufferingfromit。““Andyet,Margaret,you’regoingontakingitin;that’swhatyou’dcallfoolishinanother。““Itis,Mary!andyetwhatcanIdo?Folkmunlive;andIthinkIshouldgoblindanyway,andIdarn’ttellgrandfather,elseIwouldleaveitoff;buthewillsofret。“Margaretrockedherselfbackwardandforwardtostillheremotion。“Oh,Mary!“shesaid,“Itrytogethisfaceoffbyheart,andIstareathimsowhenhe’snotlooking,andthenshutmyeyestoseeifIcanrememberhisdearface。There’sonething,Mary,thatservesabittocomfortme。You’llhaveheardofoldJacobButter-worth,thesingingweaver?Well,Iknow’dhimabit,soIwenttohim,andsaidhowIwishedhe’dteachmetherightwayo’singing;andhesaysI’veararefinevoice,andI
goonceaweek,andtakealessonfra’him。He’sbeenagrandsingerinhisday。He’sledth’chorusesattheFestivals,andgotthankedmanyatimebyLondonfolk;andoneforeignsinger,MadameCatalani,turnedroundandshookhimbyth’handbeforetheOudChurchfullo’people。HesaysImaygaineversomuchmoneybysinging;butIdon’tknow。Anyrate,it’ssadwork,beingblind。“Shetookuphersewing,Rayinghereyeswererestednow,andforsometimetheysewedoninsilence。Suddenlytherewerestepsheardinthelittlepavedcourt;personafterpersonranpastthecurtainedwindow。“Something’sup,“saidMary。Shewenttothedoor,andstoppingthefirstpersonshesaw,inquiredthecauseofthecommotion。“Eh,wench!donnayeseethefire-light?Carsons’millisblazingawaylikefun;“andawayherinformantran。“Come,Margaret,onwi’yourbonnet,andlet’sgotoseeCarsons’mill;
it’safire,andtheysayaburningmillissuchagrandsight。Ineversawone。“Well,Ithinkit’safearfulsight。Besides,I’veallthisworktodo。“ButMarycoaxedinhersweetmanner,andwithhergentlecaresses,promisingtohelpwiththegownsallnightlongifnecessary,nay,sayingsheshouldquiteenjoyit。Thetruthwas,Margaret’ssecretweighedheavilyandpainfullyonhermind,andshefeltherinabilitytocomfort;besides,shewantedtochangethecurrentofMargaret’sthoughts;andinadditiontotheseunselfishfeelings,camethedesireshehadhonestlyexpressed,ofseeingafactoryonfire。Sointwominutestheywereready。AtthethresholdofthehousetheymetJohnBarton,towhomtheytoldtheirerrand。“Carsons’mill!Aye,thereisamillonfiresomewhere,sureenoughbythelight,anditwillbearareblaze,forthere’snotadropo’watertobegot。AndmuchCarsonswillcare,forthey’rewellinsured,andthemachinesarea’th’oud-fashionedkind。Seeiftheydon’tthinkitafinethingforthemselves。They’llnotthankthemastriestoputitout。“Hegavefortheimpatientgirlstopass。Guidedbytheruddylightmorethanbyanyexactknowledgeofthestreetsthatledtothemill,theyscamperedalongwithbentheads,facingtheterribleeastwindasbesttheymight。Carsons’millranlengthwaysfromeasttowest。AlongitwentoneoftheoldestthoroughfaresinManchester。Indeed,allthatpartofthetownwascomparativelyold;itwastherethatthefirstcottonmillswerebuilt,andthecrowdedalleysandbackstreetsoftheneighbourhoodmadeafirethereparticularlytobedreaded。Thestaircaseofthemillascendedfromtheentranceatthewesternend,whichfacedintoawide,dingy-lookingstreet,consistingprincipallyofpublic-houses,pawnbrokers’shops,ragandbonewarehouses,anddirtyprovisionshopsTheother,theeastendofthefactory,frontedintoaverynarrowbackstreet,nottwentyfeetwide,andmiserablylightedandpaved。Rightagainstthisendofthefactorywerethegableendsofthelasthouseintheprincipalstreet——ahousewhichfromitssize,itshandsomestonefacings,andtheattemptatornamentinthefront,hadprobablybeenonceagentleman’shouse;butnowthelightwhichstreamedfromitsenlargedfrontwindowsmadecleartheinteriorofthesplendidlyfitted-uproom,withitspaintedwalls,itspillaredrecesses,itsgildedandgorgeousfittings-up,itsmiserablesqualidinmates。
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