“Iwonderifonelittleliewouldbeasin,asthingsstand?Itwouldhappengivehersleep,andshewon’thavesleepformanyandmanyanightnottocallsleep,ifthingsgoeswrongto-morrow。I’llchanceit,anyway。““Job!areyouthere?“askedsheagain,withatremblingimpatiencethattoldineverytoneofhervoice。“Aye!sure!Ithoughtthou’dha’beenasleepbythistime。““Asleep!HowcouldIsleeptillIknow’difWillwerefound?““Nowforit,“mutteredJobtohimself。Theninaloudervoice,“Neverfear!
he’sfound,andsafe,readyforto-morrow。““Andhe’llprovethatthingformypoorlad;willhe?He’llbearwitnessthatJemwerewithhim?Oh,Job,speak!tellmeall!““Inforapenny,inforapound,“thoughtJob。“Happenoneprayerwilldoforthesumtotal。Anyrate,Imustgoonnow。Aye,aye,“shoutedhethroughthedoor。“Hecanproveall;andJemwillcomeoffasclearasanew-bornbabe。“HecouldhearMrsWilson’srustlingmovementsandinaninstantguessedshewasonherknees,forheheardhertremblingvoiceupliftedinthanksgivingandpraisetoGod,stoppedattimesbysobsofgladnessandrelief。Andwhenheheardthis,hisheartmisgavehim;forhethoughtoftheawfulenlightening,theterriblerevulsionoffeelingthatawaitedherinthemorning。Hesawtheshort-sightednessoffalsehood;butwhatcouldhedonow?Whilehelistened,sheendedhergratefulprayers。“AndMary?Thou’stfoundheratMrsJones’s,Job?“saidshe,continuingherinquiries。Hegaveagreatsigh。“Yes,shewasthere,safeenough,secondtimeofgoing。Godforgiveme!“
mutteredhe,“who’dha’thoughtofmyturningoutsuchanarrantliarinmyolddays。““Blessthewench!Isshehere?Whydoesnotshecometobed?I’msureshe’sneed。“Jobcoughedawayhisremainsofconscience,andmadeanswer,“Shewasabitweary,ando’erdonewithhersail;andMrsJonesaxedhertostaythereallnight。Itwasnighathandtothecourts,whereshewillhavetobeinthemorning。““Itcomeseasyenoughafterawhile,“groanedoutJob。“Thefatheroflieshelpsone,Isuppose,fornowmyspeechcomesasnaturalastruth。She’sdonequestioningnow,that’sonegoodthing。I’llbeoffbeforeSatanandsheareatmeagain。“Hereturnedtothehouse-place,wherethelandladystood,wearilywaiting。
Herhusbandwasinbed,andasleeplongago。ButJobhadnotyetmadeuphismindwhattodo。Hecouldnotgotosleep,withallhisanxieties,ifhewereputintothebestbedinLiverpool。“Thou’ltletmesitupinthisarm-chair,“saidheatlength,tothewoman,whostood,expectinghisdeparture。Hewasanoldfriend,soshelethimdoashewished。But,indeed,shewastoosleepytohaveopposedhim。Shewastoogladtobereleased,andgotobed。
TothinkThatallthislonginterminablenight,WhichIhavepassedinthinkingontwowords——’Guilty’——’NotGuilty!’——likeonehappymomentO’ermanyaheadhathflownunheededby;O’erhappysleepersdreamingintheirblissOfbrightto-morrows——orfarhappierstill,Withdeepbreathburiedinforgetfulness。OallthedismallestimagesofdeathDidswimbeforemyeyes!WILSON。Andnow,wherewasMary?HowJob’sheartwouldhavebeenrelievedofoneofitscaresifhecouldhaveseenherforhewasinamiserablestateofanxietyabouther;andmanyandmanyatimethroughthatlongnight,hescoldedherandhimself;
herforherobstinacy,andhimselfforhisweaknessinyieldingtoherobstinacywhensheinsistedonbeingtheonetofollowandfindoutWill。ShedidnotpassthatnightinbedanymorethanJob;butshewasunderarespectableroof,andamongkind,thoughrough,people。Shehadofferednoresistancetotheoldboatman,whenhehadclutchedherarm,inordertoinsureherfollowinghim,ashethreadedthecrowdeddock-ways,anddivedupstrangebye-streets。Shecameonmeeklyafterhim,scarcelythinkinginherstuporwhereshewasgoing,andgladinadead,heavywaythatsomeonewasdecidingthingsforher。Heledhertoanold-fashionedhouse,almostassmallashousecouldbe,whichhadbeenbuiltlongago,beforealltheotherpartofthestreet,andhadacountry-townlookaboutitinthemiddleofthatbustlingbackstreet。Hepulledherintothehouse-place;andrelievedtoacertaindegreeofhisfearoflosingherontheway,heexclaimed,“There!“givingagreatslapofonehandonherback。Theroomwaslightandbright,androusedMaryperhapstheslaponherbackmighthelpalittle,too,andshefelttheawkwardnessofaccountingforherpresencetoalittlebustlingoldwomanwhohadbeenmovingaboutthefireplaceonherentrance。Theboat-mantookitveryquietly,neverdeigningtogiveanyexplanation,butsittingdowninhisownparticularchair,andchewingtobacco,whilehelookedatMarywiththemostsatisfiedairimaginable,halftriumphantlyasifshewerethecaptiveofhisbowandspear,andhalfdefying,asifdaringhertoescape。Theoldwoman,hiswife,stoodstill,pokerinhand,waitingtobetoldwhoitwasthatherhusbandhadbroughthomesounceremoniously;but,asshelookedinamazement,thegirl’scheekflushed,andthenblanchedtoadeadwhiteness;afilmcameoverhereyes,andcatchingatthedresserforsupportinthathotwhirlingroom,shefellinaheaponthefloor。Bothmanandwifecamequicklytoherassistance。Theyraisedherup,stillinsensible,andhesupportedherononeknee,whilehiswifepatteredawayforsomecoldfreshwater。ShethrewitstraightoverMary;butthoughitcausedagreatsob,theeyesstillremainedclosed,andthefaceaspaleasashes。“Whoisshe,Ben?“askedthewomanassherubbedherunresisting,powerlesshands。“HowshouldIknow?“answeredherhusband,gruffly。“Well-a-well“inasoothingtone,suchasyouusetoirritatedchildren,andasifhalftoherself,“Ionlythoughtyoumight,youknow,asyoubroughtherhome。Poorthing!wemustnotaskaughtabouther,butthatsheneedshelp。IwishI’dmysaltsathome,butIlent’emtoMrsBurton,lastSundayinchurch,forshecouldnotkeepawakethroughthesermon。
Dear-a-me,howwhitesheis!““Here!youholdherupabit,“saidherhusband。Shedidashedesired,stillcrooningtoherself,notcaringforhisshort,sharpinterruptionsasshewenton;and,indeed,toherold,lovingheart,hiscrossestwordsfelllikepearlsanddiamonds,forhehadbeenthehusbandofheryouth;andevenhe,roughandcrabbedashewas,wassecretlysoothedbythesoundofhervoice,althoughnotforworlds,ifhecouldhavehelpedit,wouldhehaveshownanyofthelovethatwashiddenbeneathhisroughoutside。“What’stheoldfellowafter?“saidshe,bendingoverMary,soastoaccommodatethedroopinghead。“Takingmypen,asI’vehadforbetternorfiveyear。
Blessus,andsaveus!he’sburningit!Aye,Iseenow,he’shiswitsabouthim;burntfeathersisalwaysgoodforafaint。Buttheydon’tbringherround,poorwench!Nowwhat’sheafternext?Well!heisabrightone,myoldman!ThatIneverthoughtofthat,tobesure!“exclaimedshe,asheproducedabottleofsmuggledspirits,labelled“GoldenWaaser,“fromacornercupboardintheirlittleroom。“That’lldo!“saidshe,asthedosehepouredintoMary’sopenmouthmadeherstartandcough。“Blesstheman!It’sjustlikehimtobesotenderandthoughtful!““Notabit!“snarledhe,ashewasrelievedbyMary’sreturningcolour,andopenedeyes,andwondering,sensiblegaze;“notabit!Ineverwassuchafoolafore。“HiswifehelpedMarytorise,andplacedherinachair。“All’sright,now,youngwoman?“askedtheboat-man,anxiously。“Yes,sir,andthankyou。I’msure,sir,Idon’tknowrightlyhowtothankyou,“falteredMarysoftlyforth。“Behangedtoyouandyourthanks。“Andheshookhimself,tookhispipe,andwentoutwithoutdeigninganotherword;leavinghiswifesorelypuzzledastothecharacterandhistoryofthestrangerwithinherdoors。Marywatchedtheboatmanleavethehouse,andthen,turninghersorrowfuleyestothefaceofherhostess,sheattemptedfeeblytorise,withtheintentionofgoingaway,——wheresheknewnot。“Nay!nay!whoe’erthoube’st,thou’rtnotfittogooutintothestreet。
Perhaps“sinkinghervoicealittle“thou’rtabadone;Ialmostmisdoubtthee,thou’rtsopretty。Well-a-well!it’sthebadonesashavethebrokenhearts,sureenough;goodfolknevergetutterlycastdown,they’vealwaysgettenhopeintheLord;it’sthesinfulasbearthebitter,bittergriefintheircrushedhearts,poorsouls;it’sthemweought,mostofall,topityandtohelp。Sheshannaleavethehouseto-night,choosewhosheis,——worstwomaninLiverpool,sheshanna。IwishedIknewwhereth’oldmanpickedherup,thatIdo。“Maryhadlistenedfeeblytothissoliloquy,andnowtriedtosatisfyherhostessinweak,brokensentences。“I’mnotabadone,missis,indeed。Yourmastertookmeouttoseaafterashipashadsailed。Therewasamaninitasmightsavealifeatthetrialto-morrow。Thecaptainwouldnotlethimcome,buthesayshe’llcomebackinthepilot-boat。“Shefelltosobbingatthethoughtofherwaninghopes,andtheoldwomantriedtocomforther,beginningwithheraccustomed,“Well-a-well!andhe’llcomeback,I’msure。Iknowhewill;sokeepupyourheart。Don’tfretaboutit。He’ssuretobeback。““Oh!I’mafraid!I’msoreafraidhewon’t,“criedMary,consoled,nevertheless,bythewoman’sassertions,allgroundlessassheknewthemtobe。StilltalkinghalftoherselfandhalftoMary,theoldwomanpreparedtea,andurgedhervisitortoeatandrefreshherself。ButMaryshookherheadattheprofferedfood,andonlydrankacupofteawiththirstyeagerness。
Forthespiritshadthrownherintoaburningheat,andrenderedeachimpressionreceivedthroughhersensesofthemostpainfuldistinctnessandintensity,whileherheadachedinaterriblemanner。Shedislikedspeaking,herpoweroverherwordsseemedsoutterlygone。
Sheusedquitedifferentexpressionstothosesheintended。Soshekeptsilent,whileMrsSturgisforthatwasthenameofherhostesstalkedaway,andputhertea-thingsby,andmovedaboutincessantly,inamannerthatincreasedthedizzinessinMary’shead。Shefeltasifsheoughttotakeleaveforthenight,andgo。Butwhere?Presentlytheoldmancameback;crosserandgrufferthanwhenhewentaway。Hekickedasidethedryshoeshiswifehadpreparedforhim,andsnarledatallshesaid。Maryattributedthistohisfindingherstillthere,andgatheredupherstrengthforanefforttoleavethehouse。Butshewasmistaken。Byandby,hesaidlookingrightintothefireasifaddressingit“Wind’srightagainstthem!““Aye,aye,andisitso?“saidhiswife,who,knowinghimwell,knewthathissurlinessproceededfromsomerepressedsympathy。“Well-a-well,windchangesoftenatnight。Timeenoughbeforemorning。I’dbetapennyithaschangedsin’thoulooked。“Shelookedoutofherlittlewindowataweathercocknear,glitteringinthemoonlight;andasshewasasailor’swife,sheinstantlyrecognisedtheunfavourablepointatwhichtheindicatorseemedstationary,andgivingaheavysigh,turnedintotheroom,andbegantobeataboutinherownmindforsomeothermodeofcomfort。“There’snooneelsewhocanprovewhatyouwantatthetrialto-morrow,isthere?“askedshe。“Noone!“answeredMary。“Andyou’venocluetotheoneasisreallyguilty,ift’otherisnot?“Marydidnotanswer,buttrembledallover。Sturgissawit。“Don’tbotherherwiththyquestions,“saidhetohiswife。“Shemungotobed,forshe’sallinashiverwiththeseaair。I’llseeafterthewind,hangit,andtheweathercocktoo。Tidewillhelp’emwhenitturns。“Marywentup-stairsmurmuringthanksandblessingsonthosewhotookthestrangerin。MrsSturgisledherintoalittleroomredolentoftheseaandforeignlands。Therewasasmallbedforoneson,boundforChina;
andahammockslungaboveforanother,whowasnowtossingintheBaltic。
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