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第45章

  Mary’seyeshadfallenbeneaththatpenetratinggaze,inwhichtheagonyofmemoryseemedeveryminutetofindfullervent。“Isitadream?“themotheraskedatlastinalowvoice。“No!“repliedMary,inthesametone。MrsWilsonhidherfaceinthepillow。Shewasfullyconsciousofeverythingthismorning;itwasevidentthatthestunningeffectofthesubpoena,whichhadaffectedhersomuchlastnightinherweak,worn-outstate,hadpassedaway。Maryofferednooppositionwhensheindicatedbylanguidgestureandactionthatshewishedtorise。
  Asleeplessbedisahauntedplace。WhenshewasdressedwithMary’shelp,shestoodbyAliceforaminuteortwo,lookingattheslumberer。“Howhappysheis!“saidshe,quietlyandsadly。AllthetimethatMarywasgettingbreakfastready,andperformingeveryotherlittledomesticofficeshecouldthinkof,toaddtothecomfortofJem’smother,MrsWilsonsatstillinthearm-chair,watchinghersilently。
  Heroldirritationoftemperandmannerseemedtohavesuddenlydisappeared,orperhapsshewastoodepressedinbodyandmindtoshowit。MarytoldherallthathadbeendonewithregardtoMrBridgenorth;allherownplansforseekingoutWill;allherhopes;andconcealedaswellasshecouldallthedoubtsandfearsthatwouldariseunbidden。TothisMrsWilsonlistenedwithoutmuchremark,butwithdeepinterestandperfectcomprehension。WhenMaryceased,shesighedandsaid,“Ohwench!Iamhismother,andyetIdosolittle,Icandosolittle!That’swhatfretsme!
  Iseemlikeachildasseesitsmammyill,andmoansandcriesitslittleheartout,yetdoesnoughttohelp。Ithinkmysensehasleftmeallatonce,andIcan’tevenfindstrengthtocrylikethelittlechild。“Hereuponshebrokeintoafeeblewailofself-reproach,thatheroutwardshowofmiserywasnotgreater;asifanycries,ortears,orloud-spokenwordscouldhavetoldofsuchpangsattheheartasthatlook,andthatthin,piping,alteredvoice!ButthinkofMaryandwhatshewasenduring。PicturetoyourselfforI
  cannottellyouthearmiesofthoughtsthatmetandclashedinherbrain;
  andthenimaginetheeffortitcosthertobecalm,andquiet,andeveninafaintway,cheerfulandsmilingattimes。Afterawhileshebegantostiraboutinherownmindforsomemeansofsparingthepoormotherthetrialofappearingasawitnessinthematterofthegun。Theyhadmadenoallusiontohersummonsthismorning,andMaryalmostthoughtshemusthaveforgottenit;andsurelysomemeansmightbefoundtopreventthatadditionalsorrow。ShemustseeJobaboutit;
  nay,ifnecessary,shemustseeMrBridgenorth,withallhistruth-compellingpowers;for,indeed,shehadsostruggledandtriumphedthoughasadly-bleedingvictoratheartoverherselfthesetwolastdays,hadsoconcealedagony,andhiddenherinwardwoeandbewilderment,thatshebegantotakeconfidence,andtohavefaithinherownpowersofmeetinganyonewithapassablyfairshow,whatevermightberendingherlifebeneaththecloakofherdeception。Accordingly,assoonasMrsDavenportcameinaftermorningchurch,toaskafterthetwolonewomen,andshehadheardthereportMaryhadtogivesomuchbetterasregardedMrsWilsonthanwhattheyhadfearedthenightbeforeitwouldhavebeen——assoonasthiskind-hearted,gratefulwomancamein,Mary,tellingherherpurpose,wentofftofetchthedoctorwhoattendedAlice。Hewasshakinghimselfafterhismorning’sround,andhappyintheanticipationofhisSunday’sdinner;buthewasagood-temperedman,whofounditdifficulttokeepdownhisjovialeasinessevenbythebedofsicknessordeath。
  Hehadmischosenhisprofession:foritwashisdelighttoseeeveryonearoundhiminfullenjoymentoflife。However,hesubduedhisfacetotheroperexpressionofsympathy,befittingadoctorlisteningtoapatient,orapatient’sfriendandMary’ssad,pale,anxiousface,mightbetakenforeithertheone,ortheother。“Well,mygirl!andwhatbringsyouhere?“saidhe,asheenteredhissurgery。
  “Notonyourownaccount,Ihope。““IwantedyoutocomeandseeAliceWilson,——andthenIthoughtyouwouldmaybetakealookatMrsWilson。“Hebustledonhishatandcoat,andfollowedMary,instantly。AftershakinghisheadoverAliceasifitwasamournfulthingforonesopureandgood,sotrue,althoughsohumbleaChristian,tobenearingherdesiredhaven,andmutteringtheaccustomedwordsintendedtodestroyhope,andprepareanticipation,hewentincompliancewithMary’slooktoasktheusualquestionsofMrsWilson,whosatpassivelyinherarm-chair。Sheansweredhisquestions,andsubmittedtohisexamination。“Howdoyouthinkher?“askedMary,eagerly。“Why——a,“beganhe,perceivingthathewasdesiredtotakeonesideinhisanswer,andunabletofindoutwhetherhislistenerwasanxiousforafavourableverdictorotherwise;butthinkingitmostprobablethatshewoulddesiretheformer,hecontinued,“Sheisweak,certainly;thenaturalresultofsuchashockasthearrestofhersonwouldbe,——forIunderstandthisJamesWilson,whomurderedMrCarson,washerson。Sadthingtohavesuchareprobateinthefamily。““Yousay’whomurdered,’sir!“saidMary,indignantly。“Heisonlytakenuponsuspicion,andmanyhavenodoubtofhisinnocence——thosewhoknowhim,sir。““Ah,well,well!doctorshaveseldomtimetoreadnewspapers,andIdaresayI’mnotverycorrectinmystory。Idaresayhe’sinnocent;I’msureI
  hadnorighttosayotherwise,——onlywordsslipout——Noindeed,youngwoman,Iseenocauseforapprehensionaboutthispoorcreatureinthenextroom;——weak——certainly;
  butadayortwo’sgoodnursingwillsetherup,andI’msureyou’reagoodnurse,mydear,fromyourprettykind-heartedface,——I’llsendacoupleofpillsandadraught,butdon’talarmyourself——there’snooccasion,Iassureyou。““Butyoudon’tthinkherfittogotoLiverpool?“askedMary,stillintheanxioustoneofonewhowishesearnestlyforsomeparticulardecision。“ToLiverpool——yes,“repliedhe。“Ashortjourneylikethatcouldn’tfatigue,andmightdistractherthoughts。Lethergobyallmeans,——itwouldbetheverythingforher。““Oh,sir!“burstoutMary,almostsobbing;“Ididsohopeyouwouldsayshewastooilltogo。““Whew——“saidhe,withaprolongedwhistle,tryingtounderstandthecase;
  but,being,ashesaid,noreaderofnewspapers,utterlyunawareofthepeculiarreasonstheremightbeforsoapparentlyunfeelingawish,——“Whydidyounottellmesosooner?Itmightcertainlydoherharminherweakstate!thereisalwayssomeriskattendingjourneys——draughts,andwhatnot。Tohertheymightproveveryinjurious,——very。Idisapproveofjourneysorexcitement,inallcaseswherethepatientisinthelow,flutteredstateinwhichMrsWilsonis。Ifyoutakemyadvice,youwillcertainlyputastoptoallthoughtsofgoingtoLiverpool。“Hereallyhadcompletelychangedhisopinion,thoughquiteunconsciously;sodesirouswashetocomplywiththewishesofothers。“Oh,sir,thankyou!Andwillyougivemeacertificateofherbeingunabletogo,ifthelawyersayswemusthaveone?Thelawyer,youknow,“continuedshe,seeinghimlookpuzzled,“whoistodefendJem,——itwasasawitnessagainsthim——““Mydeargirl!“saidhe,almostangrily,“whydidyounotstatethecasefullyatfirst?oneminutewouldhavedoneit,——andmydinnerwaitingallthistime。Tobesure,shecan’tgo,——itwouldbemadnesstothinkofit;
  ifherevidencecouldhavedonegood,itwouldhavebeenadifferentthing。
  Cometomeforthecertificateanytime;thatistosay,ifthelawyeradvisesyou。Isecondthelawyer;takecounselwithboththelearnedprofessions——ha,ha,ha。“Andlaughingathisownjoke,hedeparted,leavingMaryaccusingherselfofstupidityinhavingimaginedthateveryonewasaswellacquaintedwiththefactsconcerningthetrialasshewasherself;forindeedshehadneverdoubtedthatthedoctorwouldhavebeenawareofthepurposeofpoorMrsWilson’sjourneytoLiverpool。PresentlyshewenttoJobtheeverreadyMrsDavenportkeepingwatchoverthetwooldwomen,andtoldhimherfears,herplans,andherproceedings。Tohersurpriseheshookhishead,doubtfully。“Itmayhaveanawkwardlook,ifwekeepherback。Lawyersisuptotricks。““Butitisnotrick,“saidMary。“Sheissopoorly,shewaslastnightso,atleast;andto-dayshe’ssofadedandweak。““Poorsoul!Idaresay。IonlymeanforJem’ssake;andsomuchisknown,itwon’tdonowtohangback。ButI’llaskMrBridgenorth。I’lle’entakeyourdoctor’sadvice。Yotarryathome,andI’llcometoyoinanhour’stime。Goyourways,wench。“
  chapter25CHAPTERXXVMRSWILSON’SDETERMINATIONSomethingtherewas,what,nonepresumedtosay,Cloudslightlypassingonasmilingday,——Whispersandhintswhichwentfromeartoear,Andmixedreportsnojudgeonearthcouldclear。CRABBE。Curiousconjectureshemayalwaysmake,Andeithersideofdubiousquestionstake。CRABBE。Marywenthome。Oh!howherheaddidache,andhowdizzyherbrainwasgrowing!Buttherewouldbetimeenoughshefeltforgivingwayhereafter。Soshesatquietandstillbyaneffort;sittingnearthewindow,andlookingoutofit,butseeingnothing,whenallatonceshecaughtsightofsomethingwhichrousedherup,andmadeherdrawback。Butitwastoolate。Shehadbeenseen。SallyLeadbitterflauntedintothelittledingyroom,makingitgaudywiththeSundayexcessofcolouringinherdress。ShewasreallycurioustoseeMary;herconnectionwithamurdererseemedtohavemadeherintoasortoflususnaturae,andwasalmost,bysome,expectedtohavemadeachangeinherpersonalappearance,soearnestlydidtheystareather。ButMaryhadbeentoomuchabsorbedthelastdayortwotonoticethis。NowSallyhadagrandview,andlookedheroverandoveraverydifferentthingfromlookingherthroughandthrough,andalmostlearntheroffbyheart:——“Herevery-daygownHoyle’sprintyouknow,thatlilacthingwiththehighbodyshewassofondof;alittleblacksilkhandkerchiefjustknottedroundherneck,likeaboy;herhairalltakenbackfromherface,asifshewantedtokeepherheadcool——shewouldalwayskeepthathairofherssolong;andherhandstwitchingcontinuallyabout——“SuchparticularswouldmakeSallyintoaGazetteExtraordinarythenextmorningatthework-room,andwereworthcomingfor,eveniflittleelsecouldbeextractedfromMary。“Why,Mary!“shebegan。“Wherehaveyouhiddenyourself?YounevershowedyourfaceallyesterdayatMissSimmonds’s。Youdon’tfancywethinkanytheworseofyouforwhat’scomeandgone。Someonus,indeed,wereabitsorryforthepooryoungman,asliesstiffandcoldforyoursake,Mary;
  butweshallne’ercastitupagainstyou。MissSimmonds,too,willbemightyputoutifyoudon’tcome,forthere’sadealofmourning,agait。““Ican’t,“Marysaid,inalowvoice。“Idon’tmeanevertocomeagain。““Why,Mary!“saidSally,inunfeignedsurprise。“Tobesure,you’llhavetobeinLiverpool,Tuesday,andmaybeWednesday;butafterthatyou’llsurelycome,andtellusallaboutit。MissSimmondsknowsyou’llhavetobeoffthosetwodays。Butbetweenyouandme,she’sabitofagossip,andwilllikehearingallhowandaboutthetrial,wellenoughtoletyouoffveryeasyforyourbeingabsentadayortwo。Besides,BetsyMorganwassayingyesterday,sheshouldn’twonderbutyou’dprovequiteanattractiontocustomers。ManyaonewouldcomeandhavetheirgownsmadebyMissSimmondsjusttocatchaglimpseatyou,atafterthetrial’sover。Really,Mary,you’llturnoutquiteaheroine。“Thelittlefingerstwitchedworsethanever;thelargesofteyeslookeduppleadinglyintoSally’sface;butshewentoninthesamestrain,notfromanyunkindorcruelfeelingtowardsMary,butsolelybecauseshewasincapableofcomprehendinghersuffering。Shehadbeenshocked,ofcourse,atMrCarson’sdeath,thoughatthesametimetheexcitementwasratherpleasantthanotherwise;anddearlynowwouldshehaveenjoyedtheconspicuousnoticewhichMarywassuretoreceive。“Howshallyoulikebeingcross-examined,Mary?““Notatall,“answeredMary,whenshefoundshemustanswer。“La!whatimpudentfellowsthoselawyersareAndtheirclerks,too,notabitbetter。Ishouldn’twonder“inacomfortingtone,andreallybelievingshewasgivingcomfort“ifyoupickedupanewsweetheartinLiverpool。