首页 >出版文学> MARY BARTON>第28章

第28章

  Jem,too,wenttotheclosettermedhisbedroom。Therewasnobolttothedoor;butbyonestrongeffortofhisrightarm,aheavychestwasmovedagainstitandhecouldsitdownonthesideofhisbed,andthink。Marylovedanother!Thatideawouldriseuppermostinhismind,andhadtobecombatedinallitsformsofpain。Itwas,perhaps,nogreatwonderthatsheshouldpreferonesomuchaboveJemintheexternalthingsoflife。Butthegentleman;whydidhe,withhisrangeofchoiceamongtheladiesoftheland,whydidhestoopdowntocarryoffthepoorman’sdarling?
  Withallthegloriesofthegardenathishand,whydidheprefertocullthewild-rose,——Jem’sownfragrantwild-rose?Hisown!Oh!nevernowhisown!——Goneforevermore!Thenuprosetheguiltylongingforblood’!——TheIfrenzyofjealousy!——Someoneshoulddie。HewouldratherMaryweredead,coldinhergrave,thanthatshewereanother’s。Avisionofherpale,sweetface,withherbrighthair,allbedabbledwithgore,seemedtofloatconstantlybeforehisachingeyes。Butherswereeveropen,andcontained,intheirsoft,deathlylook,suchmutereproach!Whathadshedonetodeservesuchcrueltreatmentfromhim?ShehadbeenwooedbyonewhomJemknewtobehandsome,gay,andbright,andshehadgivenhimherlove。Thatwasall!Itwasthewooerwhoshoulddie。Yes,die,knowingthecauseofhisdeath。Jempicturedhimandgloatedonthepicture,lyingsmitten,yetconscious;andlisteningtotheupbraidingaccusationofhismurderer。Howhehadlefthisownrank,anddaredtoloveamaidenoflowdegree;andoh!stingingagonyofall——howshe,inreturn,hadlovedhim!Thentheothernaturespokeup,andbadehimremembertheanguishheshouldsoprepareforMary!Atfirstherefusedtolistentothatbettervoice;orlistenedonlytopervert。Hewouldgloryinherwailinggrief!hewouldtakepleasureinherdesolationofheart!No!hecouldnot,saidthestillsmallvoice。Itwouldbeworse,farworse,tohavecausedsuchwoe,thanitwasnowtobearhispresentheavyburden。Butitwastooheavy,toogrievoustobeborne,andlive。Hewouldslayhimself,andtheloversshouldloveon,andthesunshinebright,andhewithhisburning,wofulheartwouldbeatrest。“RestthatisreservedforthepeopleofGod。“Hadhenotpromisedwithsuchearnestpurposeofsoul,asmakeswordsmoreSolemnthanoaths,tosaveMaryfrombecomingsuchasEsther?Shouldheshrinkfromthedutiesoflife,intothecowardlinessofdeath?WhowouldthenguardMary,withherloveandherinnocence?Woulditnotbeagoodlythingtoserveher,althoughshelovedhimnot;tobeherpreservingangel,throughtheperilsoflife;andshe,unconsciousallthewhile?Hebraceduphissoul,andsaidtohimself,thatwithGod’shelphewouldbethatearthlykeeper。Andnowthemistsandthestormsseemedclearingawayfromhispath,thoughitstillwasfullofstingingthorns。Havingdonethedutynearesttohimofreducingthetumultofhisownhearttosomethinglikeorder,thesecondbecamemoreplainbeforehim。PoorEsther’sexperiencehadledher,perhapstoohastily,totheconclusionthatMrCarson’sintentionswereeviltowardsMary;atleastshehadgivennojustgroundforthefearsshehadentertainedthatsuchwasthecase。
  Itwaspossible,nay,toJem’sheartveryprobable,thathemightonlybetoohappytomarryher。Shewasaladybyrightofnature,Jemthought;
  inmovement,grace,andspirit。WhatwasbirthtoaManchestermanufacturer,manyofwhomglory,andjustlytoo,inbeingthearchitectsoftheirownfortunes?And,asfaraswealthwasconcerned,judginganotherbyhimself,Jemcouldonlyimagineitagreatprivilegetolayitatthefeetofthelovedone。HarryCarson’smotherhadbeenafactorygirl;so,afterall,whatwasthegreatreasonfordoubtinghisintentionstowardsMary?Theremightprobablybesomelittleawkwardnessabouttheaffairatfirst:
  Mary’sfatherhavingsuchstrongprejudicesontheonehand;andsomethingofthesamekindbeinglikelytoexistonthepartofMrCarson’sfamily。
  ButJemknewhehadpoweroverJohnBarton’smind;anditwouldbesomethingtoexertthatpowerinpromotingMary’shappiness,andtorelinquishallthoughtofselfinsodoing。Oh!whyhadEstherchosenhimforthisoffice?Itwasbeyondhisstrengthtoactrightly!Whyhadshesingledhimout?Theanswercamewhenhewascalmenoughtolistenforit。BecauseMaryhadnootherfriendcapableofthedutyrequiredofhim;thedutyofabrother,asEstherimaginedhimtobeinfeeling,fromhislongfriendship。
  Hewouldbeuntoherasabrother。Assuch,hethoughttoascertainHarryCarson’sintentionstowardsherinwinningheraffections。Hewouldaskhimstraightforwardly,asbecamemanspeakingtoman,notconcealing,ifneedwere,theinteresthefeltinMary。Then,withtheresolvetodohisdutytothebestofhispower,peacecameintohissoul;hehadleftthewindystormandtempestbehind。Twohoursbeforeday-dawnhefellasleep。
  WhatthoughtfulheartcanlookintothisgulfThatdarklyyawns’twixtrichandpoor,Andnotfindfoodforsaddestmeditation!Cansee,withoutapangofkeenestgrief,ThemfiercelybattlinglikesomenaturalfoesWhomGodhathmade,withhelpandsympathy,Tostandasbrothers,sidebyside,united!Whereisthewisdomthatshallbridgethisgulf,Andbindthemonceagainintrustandlove?Love-Truths。WemustreturntoJohnBarton。PoorJohn!HenevergotoverhisdisappointingjourneytoLondon。Thedeepmortificationhethenexperiencedwith,perhaps,aslittleselfishnessforitscauseasmortificationeverbadwasofnotemporarynature;indeedfewofhisfeelingswere。Thencamealongperiodofbodilyprivation;ofdailyhungerafterfood;
  andthoughhetriedtopersuadehimselfhecouldbearwanthimselfwithstoicalindifference,anddidcareaboutitaslittleasmostmen,yetthebodytookitsrevengeforitsuneasyfeelings。Themindbecamesouredandmorose,andlostmuchofitsequipoise。Itwasnolongerelastic,asinthedaysofyouth,orintimesofcomparativehappiness;itceasedtohope。Anditishardtoliveonwhenonecannolongerhope。ThesamestateoffeelingwhichJohnBartonentertained,ifbelongingtoonewhohadhadleisuretothinkofsuchthings,andphysicianstogivenamestothemwouldhavebeencalledmonomania;sohaunting,soincessant,werethethoughtsthatpresseduponhim。IhavesomewherereadaforciblydescribedpunishmentamongtheItalians,worthyofaBorgia。Thesupposedorrealcriminalwasshutupinaroom,suppliedwitheveryconvenienceandluxury;andatfirstmournedlittleoverhisimprisonment。Butdaybydayhebecameawarethatthespacebetweenthewallsofhisapartmentwasnarrowing,andthenheunderstoodtheend。Thosepaintedwallswouldcomeintohideousnearness,andatlastcrushthelifeoutofhim。Andsodaybyday,nearerandnearer,camethediseasedthoughtsofJohnBarton。Theyexcludedthelightofheaven,thecheeringsoundsofearth。
  Theywerepreparinghisdeath。Itistruemuchoftheirmorbidpowermightbeascribedtotheuseofopium。
  Butbeforeyoublametooharshlythisuse,orratherabuse,tryahopelesslife,withdailycravingsofthebodyforfood。Try,notalonebeingwithouthopeyourself,butseeingallaroundyoureducedtothesamedespair,arisingfromthesamecircumstances;allaroundyoutellingthoughtheyusenowordsorlanguage,bytheirlooksandfeebleactions,thattheyaresufferingandsinkingunderthepressureofwant。Wouldyounotbegladtoforgetlife,anditsburdens?Andopiumgivesforgetfulnessforatime。Itistruetheywhothuspurchaseitpaydearlyfortheiroblivion;butcanyouexpecttheuneducatedtocountthecostoftheirwhistle?Poorwretches!Theypayaheavyprice。Daysofoppressivewearinessandlanguor,whoserealitieshavethefeeblesicklinessofdreams;nights,whosedreamsarefiercerealitiesofagony;sinkinghealth,totteringframes,incipientmadness,andworse,theconsciousnessofincipientmadness;thisisthepriceoftheirwhistle。Buthaveyoutaughtthemthescienceofconsequences?JohnBarton’soverpoweringthought,whichwastoworkouthisfateonearth,wasrichandpoor;whyaretheysoseparate,sodistinct,whenGodhasmadethemall?ItisnotHiswillthattheirinterestsaresofarapart。
  Whosedoingisit?Andsoonintotheproblemsandmysteriesoflife,until,bewilderedandlost,unhappyandsuffering,theonlyfeelingthatremainedclearandundisturbedinthetumultofhisheart,washatredtotheoneclass,andkeensympathywiththeother。Butwhatavailedhissympathy?Noeducationhadgivenhimwisdom;andwithoutwisdom,evenlove,withallitseffects,toooftenworksbutharm。Heactedtothebestofhisjudgement,butitwasawidelyerringjudgement。TheactionsoftheuneducatedseemtometypifiedinthoseofFrankenstein,thatmonsterofmanyhumanqualities,ungiftedwithasoul,aknowledgeofthedifferencebetweengoodandevil。Thepeopleriseuptolife;theyirritateus,theyterrifyus,andwebecometheirenemies。Then,inthesorrowfulmomentofourtriumphantpower,theireyesgazeonuswithmutereproach。Whyhavewemadethemwhattheyare;
  apowerfulmonster,yetwithouttheinnermeansforpeaceandhappiness?JohnBartonbecameaChartist,aCommunist;allthatiscommonlycalledwildandvisionary。Aye!butbeingvisionaryissomething。Itshowsasoul,abeingnotaltogethersensual;acreaturewholooksforwardforothers,ifnotforhimself。Andwithallhisweaknesshehadasortofpracticalpower,whichmadehimusefultothebodiesofmentowhomhebelonged。HehadareadykindofroughLancashireeloquence,arisingoutofthefulnessofhisheart,whichwasverystirringtomensimilarlycircumstanced,wholikedtoheartheirfeelingsputintowords。Hehadaprettyclearheadattimes,formethodandarrangement;anecessarytalenttolargecombinationsofmen。
  Andwhatperhapsmorethanallmadehimrelieduponandvalued,wastheconsciousnesswhicheveryonewhocameincontactwithhimfelt,thathewasactuatedbynoselfishmotives;thathisclass,hisorder,waswhathestoodby,nottherightsofhisownpaltryself。Foreveningreatandnoblemen,assoonasselfcomesintoprominentexistence,itbecomesameanandpaltrything。Alittletimebeforethis,therehadcomeoneofthoseoccasionsfordeliberationamongtheemployed,whichdeeplyinterestedJohnBarton,andthediscussionsconcerningwhichbadcausedhisfrequentabsencefromhomeoflate。IamnotsureifIcanexpressmyselfinthetechnicaltermsofeithermastersorworkmen,butIwilltrysimplytostatethecaseonwhichthelatterdeliberated。Anorderforcoarsegoodscameinfromanewforeignmarket。Itwasalargeorder,givingemploymenttoallthemillsengagedinthatspeciesofmanufacture;
  butitwasnecessarytoexecuteitspeedily,andataslowpricesaspossible,asthemastershadreasontobelievethataduplicateorderhadbeensenttooneofthecontinentalmanufacturingtowns,wheretherewerenorestrictionsonfood,notaxesonbuildingormachinery,andwhereconsequentlytheydreadedthatthegoodscouldbemadeatamuchlowerpricethantheycouldaffordthemfor;andthat,bysoactingandcharging,therivalmanufacturerswouldobtainundividedpossessionofthemarket。Itwasclearlytheirinteresttobuycottonascheaply,andtobeatdownwagesaslowaspossible。Andinthelongruntheinterestsoftheworkmenwouldhavebeentherebybenefited。
  Distrusteachotherastheymay,theemployersandtheemployedmustriseorfalltogether。Theremaybesomedifferenceastochronology,noneastofact。Butthemastersdidnotchoosetomakeallthesefactsknown。Theystooduponbeingthemasters,andthattheyhadarighttoorderworkattheirownprices,andtheybelievedthatinthepresentdepressionoftrade,andunemploymentofhands,therewouldbenodifficultyingettingitdone。Nowletusturntotheworkmen’sviewofthequestion。Themastersofthetotteringfoundationofwhoseprosperitytheywereignorantseemeddoingwell,and,likegentlemen,“livedathomeinease,“whiletheywerestarving,gaspingonfromdaytoday;andtherewasaforeignordertobeexecuted,theextentofwhich,largeasitwas,wasgreatlyexaggerated;