you’realmostasgoodaspapa;butstillyouknowyoudidgoandforgettoaskBiglandforthatrose,thatnewrosetheysayhehasgot。““No,Amy,Ididnotforget。Iaskedhim,andhehasgottheRose,sansreproche;butdoyouknow,littleMissExtravagance,averysmalloneishalfaguinea?““Oh,Idon’tmind。Papawillgiveitme,won’tdearfather?Heknowshislittledaughtercan’tlivewithoutflowersandscents?“MrCarsontriedtorefusehisdarling,butshecoaxedhimintoacquiescence,sayingshemusthaveit,itwasoneofhernecessaries。Lifewasnotworthhavingwithoutflowers。“Then,Amy,“saidherbrother,“tryandbecontentwithpeoniesanddandelions““Oh,youwretch!Idon’tcallthemflowers。Besides,youreeverybitasextravagant。Whogavehalf-a-crownforabunchofliliesofthevalleyatYates’,amonthago,andthenwouldnotlethispoorlittlesisterhavethem,thoughshewentonherkneestobegthem?Answermethat,MasterHal。““Notoncompulsion,“repliedherbrother,smilingwithhismouth,whilehiseyeshadanirritatedexpression,andhewentfirstred,thenpale,withvexedembarrassment。“Ifyouplease,sir,“saidaservant,enteringtheroom,“here’soneofthemillpeoplewantingtoseeyou;hisnameisWilson,hesays。““I’llcometohimdirectly;stay,tellhimtocomeinhere。“Amydancedoffintotheconservatorywhichopenedoutoftheroom,beforethegaunt,pale,unwashed,unshavenweaverwasusheredin。Therehe,stoodatthedoor,sleekinghishairwitholdcountryhabit,andeverynowandthenstealingaglanceroundatthesplendouroftheapartment。“Well,Wilson,andwhatdoyouwantto-day,man?““Please,sir,Davenport’sillofthefever,andI’mcometoknowifyou’vegotaninfirmaryorderforhim?““Davenport——Davenport;whoisthefellow?Idon’tknowthename?““He’sworkedinyourfactorybetternorthreeyear,sir。““Verylikely;Idon’tpretendtoknowthenamesofthemenIemploy;thatIleavetotheoverlooker。Sohe’sill,eh?““Aye,sir,he’sverybad;wewanttogethiminattheFeverWards。““IdoubtifI’veanin-patient’sordertospareatpresent;butI’llgiveyouanout-patient’sandwelcome。“Sosaying,beroseup,unlockedadrawer,ponderedaminute,andthengaveWilsonanout-patient’sordertobepresentedthefollowingMonday。Monday!HowmanydaystherewerebeforeMonday!Meanwhile,theyoungerMrCarsonhadendedhisreview,andbegantolistentowhatwasgoingon。Hefinishedhisbreakfast,gotupandpulledfiveshillingsoutofhispocket,whichhegavetoWilsonashepassedhim,forthe“poorfellow。“Hewentpastquickly,andcallingforhishorse,mountedgaily,androdeaway。HewasanxioustobeintimetohavealookandasmilefromlovelyMaryBarton,asshewenttoMissSimmonds’。Butto-dayhewastobedisappointed。Wilsonleftthehouse,notknowingwhethertobepleasedorgrieved。ItwaslongtoMonday,buttheyhadallspokenkindlytohim,andwhocouldtelliftheymightnotrememberthis,anddosomethingbeforeMonday。Besides,thecook,who,whenshehadhadtimetothink,afterbreakfastwassentin,hadnoticedhispaleness,hadhadmeatandbreadreadytoputinhishandwhenhecameoutoftheparlour;
andafullstomachmakeseveryoneofusmorehopeful。WhenhereachedBerryStreet,hehadpersuadedhimselfheboregoodnews,andfeltalmostelatedinhisheart。Butitfellwhenheopenedthecellar-door,andsawBartonandthewifebothbendingoverthesickman’scouchwithawe-struck,saddenedlook。“Comehere,“saidBarton。“There’sachangecomedoverhimsin’yoleft,istherenot?“Wilsonlooked。Thefleshwassunk,thefeaturesprominent,bony,andrigid。
Thefearfulclay-colourofdeathwasoverall。Buttheeyeswereopenandsensitive,thoughthefilmsofthegraveweresettlinguponthem。“Hewakenedfra’hissleep,asyolefthimin,andbegantomutterandmoan;buthesoonwentoffagain,andweneverknewhewereawaketillhecalledhiswife,butnowshe’sherehe’sgottennoughttosaytoher。“Mostprobably,astheyallfelt,hecouldnotspeak,forhisstrengthwasfastebbing。Theystoodroundhimstillandsilent;eventhewifecheckedhersobs,thoughherheartwasliketobreak。Sheheldherchildtoherbreast,totryandkeephimquiet。Theireyeswereallfixedontheyetlivingone,whosemomentsoflifewerepassingsorapidlyaway。Atlengthhebroughtwithjerkingconvulsiveefforthistwohandsintotheattitudeofprayer。Theysawhislipsmove,andbenttocatchthewords,whichcameingasps,andnotintones。“OhLordGod!Ithankthee,thatthehardstruggleoflivingisover。““Oh,BenBen!“wailedforthhiswife,“haveyounothoughtforme?Oh,Ben!Ben!dosayonewordtohelpmethroughlife。“Hecouldnotspeakagain。Thetrumpofthearchangelwouldsethistonguefree;butnotawordmorewouldituttertillthen。Yetheheard,heunderstood,andthoughsightfailed,hemovedhishandgropinglyoverthecovering。
Theyknewwhathemeant,andguidedittoherhead,bowedandhiddeninherhands,whenshehadsunkinherwoe。Itrestedtherewithafeeblepressureofendearment。Thefacegrewbeautiful,asthesoulnearedGod。
Apeacebeyondunderstandingcameoverit。Thehandwasaheavystiffweightonthewife’shead。Nomoregrieforsorrowforhim。Theyreverentlylaidoutthecorpse——Wilsonfetchinghisonlyspareshirttoarrayitin。Thewifestilllayhiddenintheclothes,inastuporofagony。Therewasaknockatthedoor,andBartonwenttoopenit。ItwasMary,whobadreceivedamessagefromherfather,throughaneighbour,tellingherwherehewas;andshehadsetoutearlytocomeandhaveawordwithhimbeforeherday’swork;butsomeerrandsshehadtodoforMissSimmondshaddetainedheruntilnow。“Comein,wench!“saidherfather。“Tryifthoucanstcomfortyonpoor,poorwoman,kneelingdownthere。Godhelpher!“Marydidnotknowwhattosay,orhowtocomfort;butshekneltdownbyher,andputherarmroundherneck,andinalittlewhilefelltocryingherselfsobitterlythatthesourceoftearswasopenedbysympathyinthewidow,andherfullheartwas,foratime,relieved。AndMaryforgotallpurposedmeetingwithhergaylover,HarryCarson;
forgotMissSimmonds’errands,andheranger,intheanxiousdesiretocomfortthepoorlonewoman。Neverhadhersweetfacelookedmoreangelic,neverhadhergentlevoiceseemedsomusicalaswhenshemurmuredherbrokensentencesofcomfort。“Oh,don’tcryso,dearMrsDavenport,praydon’ttakeonso。Surehe’sgonewherehe’llneverknowcareagain。Yes,Iknowhowlonesomeyoumustfeel;butthinkofyourchildren。Oh!we’llallhelptoearnfoodfor’em。
Thinkhowsorryhe’dbe,ifheseesyoufrettingso。Don’tcryso,pleasedon’t。“Andsheendedbycryingherselfaspassionatelyasthepoorwidow。Itwasagreedthatthetownmustburyhim;hehadpaidtoaburialclubaslongashecould,butbyafewweeks’omission,hehadforfeitedhisclaimtoasumofmoneynow。WouldMrsDavenportandthelittlechildgohomewithMary?Thelatterbrightenedupassheurgedthisplan;butno!
wherethepoor,fondlylovedremainswere,therewouldthemournerbe;
andallthattheycoulddowastomakeherascomfortableastheirfundswouldallow,andtobeganeighbourtolookinandsayawordattimes。
Soshewasleftalonewithherdead,andtheywenttoworkthathadwork,andhewhohadnone,tookuponhimthearrangementsforthefuneral。MaryhadmanyascoldingfromMissSimmondsthatdayforherabsenceofmind。TobesureMissSimmondswasmuchputoutbyMary’snon-appearanceinthemorningwithcertainbitsofmuslin,andshadesofsilkwhichwerewantedtocompleteadresstobewornthatnight;butitwastrueenoughthatMarydidnotmindwhatshewasabout;shewastoobusyplanninghowheroldblackgownherbestwhenhermotherdiedmightbesponged,andturned,andlengthenedintosomethinglikedecentmourningforthewidow。
Andwhenshewenthomeatnightthoughitwasverylate,asasortofretributionforhermorning’snegligence,shesettoworkatonce,andwassobusyandsogladoverhertask,thatshehad,everynowandthen,tocheckherselfinsingingmerryditties,whichshefeltlittleaccordedwiththesewingonwhichshewasengaged。Sowhenthefuneraldaycame,MrsDavenportwasneatlyarrayedinblack,asatisfactiontoherpoorheartinthemidstofhersorrow。BartonandWilsonbothaccompaniedher,assheledhertwoelderboys,andfollowedthecoffin。itwasasimplewalkingfuneral,withnothingtograteonthefeelingsofany;farmoreinaccordancewithitspurpose,tomymind,thanthegorgeoushearses,andnoddingplumes,whichformthegrotesquefuneralpompofrespectablepeople。Therewasno“rattlingthebonesoverthestones,“
ofthepauper’sfuneral。Decentlyandpatientlywashefollowedtothegravebyonedeterminedtoendureherwoemeeklyforhissake。Theonlymarkofpauperismattendantontheburialconcernedthelivingandjoyous,farmorethanthedead,orthesorrowful。Whentheyarrivedinthechurchyard,theyhaltedbeforearaisedandhandsometombstone;inrealityawoodenmockeryofstonerespectabilitieswhichadornedtheburial-ground。itwaseasilyraisedinaveryfewminutes,andbelowwasthegraveinwhichpauperbodieswere,pileduntilwithinafootortwoofthesurface;whenthesoilwasshovelledover,andstampeddown,andthewoodencoverwenttodotemporarydutyoveranotherhole。Butlittlereckedtheyofthiswhonowgaveuptheirdead。
HowinfinitethewealthofloveandhopeGarneredinthesesametinytreasure-houses!Andoh!whatbankruptsintheworldwefeel,WhenDeath,likesomeremorselesscreditor,Seizesonallwefondlythoughtourown。TheTwins。Theghoul-likefeverwasnottobebravedwithimpunity,andbalkedofitsprey。Thewidowhadreclaimedherchildren;herneighbours,inthegoodSamaritansenseoftheword,hadpaidherlittlearrearsofrent,andmadeherafewshillingsbeforehandwiththeworld。Shedeterminedtoflitfromthatcellartoanotherlessfullofpainfulassociations,lesshauntedbymournfulmemories。Theboard,notsoformidableasshehadimagined,hadinquiredintohercase;and,insteadofsendinghertoStokeClaypole,herhusband’sBuckinghamshireparish,asshehaddreaded,hadagreedtopayherrent。Sofoodforfourmouthswasallshewasnowrequiredtofind;onlyforthreeshewouldhavesaid;forherselfandtheunweanedchildwerebutreckonedasoneinhercalculation。Shehadastrongheart,nowherbodilystrengthhadbeenrecruitedbyaweekortwooffood,andshewouldnotdespair。Soshetookinsomelittlechildrentonurse,whobroughttheirdailyfoodwiththem,whichshecookedforthem,withoutwrongingtheirhelplessnessofacrumb;andwhenshehadrestoredthemtotheirmothersatnight,shesettoworkatplainsewing,“seam,andgusset,andband,“andsatthinkinghowshemightbestcheatthefactoryinspector,andpersuadehimthatherstrong,big,hungryBen,wasabovethirteen。Herplanoflivingwassofararranged,whensheheard,withkeensorrow,thatWilson’stwinladswereillofthefever。Theyhadneverbeenstrong。Theywerelikemanyapairoftwins,andseemedtohavebutonelifedividedbetweenthem。Onelife,onestrength,andinthisinstance,Imightalmostsay,onebrain;fortheywerehelpless,gentle,sillychildren,butnotthelessdeartotheirparentsandtotheirstrong,active,manly,elderbrother。Theywerelateontheirfeet,lateintalking,lateeveryway;hadtobenursedandcaredforwhenotherladsoftheirageweretumblingaboutinthestreet,andlosingthemselves,andbeingtakentothepolice-officemilesawayfromhome。Stillwanthadneveryetcomeinatthedoortomakelovefortheseinnocentsflyoutofthewindow。Norwasthisthecaseevennow,whenJemWilsonsearnings,andhismother’soccasionalcharings,werebarelysufficienttogiveallthefamilytheirfilloffood。Butwhenthetwins,afterailingmanydays,andcaringlittlefortheirmeat,fellsickonthesameafter-noon,withthesameheavystuporofsuffering,thethreeheartsthatlovedthemso,eachfelt,thoughnoneacknowledgedtotheother,thattheyhadlittlechanceforlife。ItwasnearlyaweekbeforethetaleoftheirillnessspreadasfarasthecourtwheretheWilsonshadoncedwelt,andtheBartonsyetlived。Alicehadheardofthesicknessofherlittlenephewsseveraldaysbefore,andhadlockedhercellardoor,andgoneoffstraighttoherbrother’shouse,inAncoats;butshewasoftenabsentfordays,sentfor,asherneighboursknew,tohelpinsomesuddenemergencyofillnessordistress,sothatoccasionednosurprise。MargaretmetJemWilsonseveraldaysafterhisbrotherswere
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