Heraweofheruncle,andherdreadoftakingalibertywithhim,madeitinstantlyplaintoherwhatshehadtodo。Shemustabsolutelydeclinetheproposal。
Ifhewanted,hewouldsendforher;andeventoofferanearlyreturnwasapresumptionwhichhardlyanythingwouldhaveseemedtojustify。ShethankedMissCrawford,butgaveadecidednegative。“Heruncle,sheunderstood,meanttofetchher;andashercousin’sillnesshadcontinuedsomanyweekswithoutherbeingthoughtatallnecessary,shemustsupposeherreturnwouldbeunwelcomeatpresent,andthatsheshouldbefeltanencumbrance。“
Herrepresentationofhercousin’sstateatthistimewasexactlyaccordingtoherownbeliefofit,andsuchasshesupposedwouldconveytothesanguinemindofhercorrespondentthehopeofeverythingshewaswishingfor。
Edmundwouldbeforgivenforbeingaclergyman,itseemed,undercertainconditionsofwealth;andthis,shesuspected,wasalltheconquestofprejudicewhichhewassoreadytocongratulatehimselfupon。Shehadonlylearnttothinknothingofconsequencebutmoney。
AsFannycouldnotdoubtthatheranswerwasconveyingarealdisappointment,shewasratherinexpectation,fromherknowledgeofMissCrawford’stemper,ofbeingurgedagain;andthoughnosecondletterarrivedforthespaceofaweek,shehadstillthesamefeelingwhenitdidcome。
Onreceivingit,shecouldinstantlydecideonitscontaininglittlewriting,andwaspersuadedofitshavingtheairofaletterofhasteandbusiness。
Itsobjectwasunquestionable;andtwomomentswereenoughtostarttheprobabilityofitsbeingmerelytogivehernoticethattheyshouldbeinPortsmouththatveryday,andtothrowherintoalltheagitationofdoubtingwhatsheoughttodoinsuchacase。
Iftwomoments,however,cansurroundwithdifficulties,athirdcandispersethem;andbeforeshehadopenedtheletter,thepossibilityofMr。andMissCrawford’shavingappliedtoheruncleandobtainedhispermissionwasgivingherease。Thiswastheletter——
“Amostscandalous,ill-naturedrumourhasjustreachedme,andIwrite,dearFanny,towarnyouagainstgivingtheleastcredittoit,shoulditspreadintothecountry。
Dependuponit,thereissomemistake,andthatadayortwowillclearitup;atanyrate,thatHenryisblameless,andinspiteofamoment’s_etourderie_,thinksofnobodybutyou。Saynotawordofit;hearnothing,surmisenothing,whispernothingtillIwriteagain。
Iamsureitwillbeallhushedup,andnothingprovedbutRushworth’sfolly。Iftheyaregone,IwouldlaymylifetheyareonlygonetoMansfieldPark,andJuliawiththem。Butwhywouldnotyouletuscomeforyou?
Iwishyoumaynotrepentit——Yours,etc。“
Fannystoodaghast。Asnoscandalous,ill-naturedrumourhadreachedher,itwasimpossibleforhertounderstandmuchofthisstrangeletter。ShecouldonlyperceivethatitmustrelatetoWimpoleStreetandMr。Crawford,andonlyconjecturethatsomethingveryimprudenthadjustoccurredinthatquartertodrawthenoticeoftheworld,andtoexciteherjealousy,inMissCrawford’sapprehension,ifsheheardit。MissCrawfordneednotbealarmedforher。ShewasonlysorryforthepartiesconcernedandforMansfield,ifthereportshouldspreadsofar;
butshehopeditmightnot。IftheRushworthsweregonethemselvestoMansfield,aswastobeinferredfromwhatMissCrawfordsaid,itwasnotlikelythatanythingunpleasantshouldhaveprecededthem,oratleastshouldmakeanyimpression。
AstoMr。Crawford,shehopeditmightgivehimaknowledgeofhisowndisposition,convincehimthathewasnotcapableofbeingsteadilyattachedtoanyonewomanintheworld,andshamehimfrompersistinganylongerinaddressingherself。
Itwasverystrange!Shehadbeguntothinkhereallylovedher,andtofancyhisaffectionforhersomethingmorethancommon;andhissisterstillsaidthathecaredfornobodyelse。Yettheremusthavebeensomemarkeddisplayofattentionstohercousin,theremusthavebeensomestrongindiscretion,sincehercorrespondentwasnotofasorttoregardaslightone。
Veryuncomfortableshewas,andmustcontinue,tillsheheardfromMissCrawfordagain。Itwasimpossibletobanishtheletterfromherthoughts,andshecouldnotrelieveherselfbyspeakingofittoanyhumanbeing。
MissCrawfordneednothaveurgedsecrecywithsomuchwarmth;
shemighthavetrustedtohersenseofwhatwasduetohercousin。
Thenextdaycameandbroughtnosecondletter。
Fannywasdisappointed。Shecouldstillthinkoflittleelseallthemorning;but,whenherfathercamebackintheafternoonwiththedailynewspaperasusual,shewassofarfromexpectinganyelucidationthroughsuchachannelthatthesubjectwasforamomentoutofherhead。
Shewasdeepinothermusing。Theremembranceofherfirsteveninginthatroom,ofherfatherandhisnewspaper,cameacrossher。Nocandlewasnowwanted。
Thesunwasyetanhourandhalfabovethehorizon。
Shefeltthatshehad,indeed,beenthreemonthsthere;
andthesun’sraysfallingstronglyintotheparlour,insteadofcheering,madeherstillmoremelancholy,forsunshineappearedtoheratotallydifferentthinginatownandinthecountry。Here,itspowerwasonlyaglare:astifling,sicklyglare,servingbuttobringforwardstainsanddirtthatmightotherwisehaveslept。
Therewasneitherhealthnorgaietyinsunshineinatown。
Shesatinablazeofoppressiveheat,inacloudofmovingdust,andhereyescouldonlywanderfromthewalls,markedbyherfather’shead,tothetablecutandnotchedbyherbrothers,wherestoodthetea-boardneverthoroughlycleaned,thecupsandsaucerswipedinstreaks,themilkamixtureofmotesfloatinginthinblue,andthebreadandbuttergrowingeveryminutemoregreasythanevenRebecca’shandshadfirstproducedit。
Herfatherreadhisnewspaper,andhermotherlamentedovertheraggedcarpetasusual,whiletheteawasinpreparation,andwishedRebeccawouldmendit;
andFannywasfirstrousedbyhiscallingouttoher,afterhumphingandconsideringoveraparticularparagraph:
“What’sthenameofyourgreatcousinsintown,Fan?“
Amoment’srecollectionenabledhertosay,“Rushworth,sir。“
“Anddon’ttheyliveinWimpoleStreet?“
“Yes,sir。“
“Then,there’sthedeviltopayamongthem,that’sall!
There“holdingoutthepapertoher;“muchgoodmaysuchfinerelationsdoyou。Idon’tknowwhatSirThomasmaythinkofsuchmatters;hemaybetoomuchofthecourtierandfinegentlemantolikehisdaughtertheless。But,byG——
!ifshebelongedto_me_,I’dgivehertherope’sendaslongasIcouldstandoverher。Alittlefloggingformanandwomantoowouldbethebestwayofpreventingsuchthings。“
Fannyreadtoherselfthat“itwaswithinfiniteconcernthenewspaperhadtoannouncetotheworldamatrimonial_fracas_inthefamilyofMr。R。ofWimpoleStreet;
thebeautifulMrs。R。,whosenamehadnotlongbeenenrolledinthelistsofHymen,andwhohadpromisedtobecomesobrilliantaleaderinthefashionableworld,havingquittedherhusband’sroofincompanywiththewell-knownandcaptivatingMr。C。,theintimatefriendandassociateofMr。R。,anditwasnotknowneventotheeditorofthenewspaperwhithertheyweregone。“
“Itisamistake,sir,“saidFannyinstantly;“itmustbeamistake,itcannotbetrue;itmustmeansomeotherpeople。“
Shespokefromtheinstinctivewishofdelayingshame;
shespokewitharesolutionwhichsprungfromdespair,forshespokewhatshedidnot,couldnotbelieveherself。
Ithadbeentheshockofconvictionassheread。Thetruthrushedonher;andhowshecouldhavespokenatall,howshecouldevenhavebreathed,wasafterwardsmatterofwondertoherself。
Mr。Pricecaredtoolittleaboutthereporttomakehermuchanswer。“Itmightbeallalie,“heacknowledged;
“butsomanyfineladiesweregoingtothedevilnowadaysthatway,thattherewasnoansweringforanybody。“
“Indeed,Ihopeitisnottrue,“saidMrs。Priceplaintively;
“itwouldbesoveryshocking!IfIhavespokenoncetoRebeccaaboutthatcarpet,IamsureIhavespokeatleastadozentimes;havenotI,Betsey?Anditwouldnotbetenminutes’work。“
ThehorrorofamindlikeFanny’s,asitreceivedtheconvictionofsuchguilt,andbegantotakeinsomepartofthemiserythatmustensue,canhardlybedescribed。
Atfirst,itwasasortofstupefaction;buteverymomentwasquickeningherperceptionofthehorribleevil。
Shecouldnotdoubt,shedarednotindulgeahope,oftheparagraphbeingfalse。MissCrawford’sletter,whichshehadreadsooftenastomakeeverylineherown,wasinfrightfulconformitywithit。Hereagerdefenceofherbrother,herhopeofitsbeing_hushed__up_,herevidentagitation,wereallofapiecewithsomethingverybad;andiftherewasawomanofcharacterinexistence,whocouldtreatasatriflethissinofthefirstmagnitude,whowouldtrytoglossitover,anddesiretohaveitunpunished,shecouldbelieveMissCrawfordtobethewoman!
Nowshecouldseeherownmistakeasto_who_weregone,or_said_tobegone。ItwasnotMr。andMrs。Rushworth;
itwasMrs。RushworthandMr。Crawford。
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