Williamwasalmostashappyintheplanashissister。
Itwouldbethegreatestpleasuretohimtohavehertheretothelastmomentbeforehesailed,andperhapsfindhertherestillwhenhecameinfromhisfirstcruise。
Andbesides,hewantedhersoverymuchtoseetheThrushbeforeshewentoutofharbour——theThrushwascertainlythefinestsloopintheservice——andtherewereseveralimprovementsinthedockyard,too,whichhequitelongedtoshewher。
Hedidnotscrupletoaddthatherbeingathomeforawhilewouldbeagreatadvantagetoeverybody。
“Idonotknowhowitis,“saidhe;“butweseemtowantsomeofyournicewaysandorderlinessatmyfather’s。Thehouseisalwaysinconfusion。Youwillsetthingsgoinginabetterway,Iamsure。Youwilltellmymotherhowitalloughttobe,andyouwillbesousefultoSusan,andyouwillteachBetsey,andmaketheboysloveandmindyou。
Howrightandcomfortableitwillallbe!“
BythetimeMrs。Price’sanswerarrived,thereremainedbutaveryfewdaysmoretobespentatMansfield;
andforpartofoneofthosedaystheyoungtravellerswereinagooddealofalarmonthesubjectoftheirjourney,forwhenthemodeofitcametobetalkedof,andMrs。Norrisfoundthatallheranxietytosaveherbrother-in-law’smoneywasvain,andthatinspiteofherwishesandhintsforalessexpensiveconveyanceofFanny,theyweretotravelpost;whenshesawSirThomasactuallygiveWilliamnotesforthepurpose,shewasstruckwiththeideaoftherebeingroomforathirdinthecarriage,andsuddenlyseizedwithastronginclinationtogowiththem,togoandseeherpoordearsisterPrice。
Sheproclaimedherthoughts。Shemustsaythatshehadmorethanhalfamindtogowiththeyoungpeople;
itwouldbesuchanindulgencetoher;shehadnotseenherpoordearsisterPriceformorethantwentyyears;
anditwouldbeahelptotheyoungpeopleintheirjourneytohaveherolderheadtomanageforthem;andshecouldnothelpthinkingherpoordearsisterPricewouldfeelitveryunkindofhernottocomebysuchanopportunity。
WilliamandFannywerehorror-struckattheidea。
Allthecomfortoftheircomfortablejourneywouldbedestroyedatonce。Withwoefulcountenancestheylookedateachother。Theirsuspenselastedanhourortwo。Nooneinterferedtoencourageordissuade。
Mrs。Norriswaslefttosettlethematterbyherself;
anditended,totheinfinitejoyofhernephewandniece,intherecollectionthatshecouldnotpossiblybesparedfromMansfieldParkatpresent;thatshewasagreatdealtoonecessarytoSirThomasandLadyBertramforhertobeabletoanswerittoherselftoleavethemevenforaweek,andthereforemustcertainlysacrificeeveryotherpleasuretothatofbeingusefultothem。
Ithad,infact,occurredtoher,thatthoughtakentoPortsmouthfornothing,itwouldbehardlypossibleforhertoavoidpayingherownexpensesbackagain。
SoherpoordearsisterPricewaslefttoallthedisappointmentofhermissingsuchanopportunity,andanothertwentyyears’absence,perhaps,begun。
Edmund’splanswereaffectedbythisPortsmouthjourney,thisabsenceofFanny’s。HetoohadasacrificetomaketoMansfieldParkaswellashisaunt。Hehadintended,aboutthistime,tobegoingtoLondon;buthecouldnotleavehisfatherandmotherjustwheneverybodyelseofmostimportancetotheircomfortwasleavingthem;
andwithaneffort,feltbutnotboastedof,hedelayedforaweekortwolongerajourneywhichhewaslookingforwardtowiththehopeofitsfixinghishappinessforever。
HetoldFannyofit。Sheknewsomuchalready,thatshemustknoweverything。ItmadethesubstanceofoneotherconfidentialdiscourseaboutMissCrawford;
andFannywasthemoreaffectedfromfeelingittobethelasttimeinwhichMissCrawford’snamewouldeverbementionedbetweenthemwithanyremainsofliberty。
Onceafterwardsshewasalludedtobyhim。LadyBertramhadbeentellinghernieceintheeveningtowritetohersoonandoften,andpromisingtobeagoodcorrespondentherself;
andEdmund,ataconvenientmoment,thenaddedinawhisper,“And_I_shallwritetoyou,Fanny,whenIhaveanythingworthwritingabout,anythingtosaythatIthinkyouwillliketohear,andthatyouwillnothearsosoonfromanyotherquarter。“Hadshedoubtedhismeaningwhileshelistened,theglowinhisface,whenshelookedupathim,wouldhavebeendecisive。
Forthislettershemusttrytoarmherself。ThataletterfromEdmundshouldbeasubjectofterror!
Shebegantofeelthatshehadnotyetgonethroughallthechangesofopinionandsentimentwhichtheprogressoftimeandvariationofcircumstancesoccasioninthisworldofchanges。Thevicissitudesofthehumanmindhadnotyetbeenexhaustedbyher。
PoorFanny!thoughgoingasshedidwillinglyandeagerly,thelasteveningatMansfieldParkmuststillbewretchedness。Herheartwascompletelysadatparting。
Shehadtearsforeveryroominthehouse,muchmoreforeverybelovedinhabitant。Sheclungtoheraunt,becauseshewouldmissher;shekissedthehandofherunclewithstrugglingsobs,becauseshehaddispleasedhim;
andasforEdmund,shecouldneitherspeak,norlook,northink,whenthelastmomentcamewith_him_;anditwasnottillitwasoverthatsheknewhewasgivinghertheaffectionatefarewellofabrother。
Allthispassedovernight,forthejourneywastobeginveryearlyinthemorning;andwhenthesmall,diminishedpartymetatbreakfast,WilliamandFannyweretalkedofasalreadyadvancedonestage。
Thenoveltyoftravelling,andthehappinessofbeingwithWilliam,soonproducedtheirnaturaleffectonFanny’sspirits,whenMansfieldParkwasfairlyleftbehind;
andbythetimetheirfirststagewasended,andtheyweretoquitSirThomas’scarriage,shewasabletotakeleaveoftheoldcoachman,andsendbackpropermessages,withcheerfullooks。
Ofpleasanttalkbetweenthebrotherandsistertherewasnoend。EverythingsuppliedanamusementtothehighgleeofWilliam’smind,andhewasfulloffrolicandjokeintheintervalsoftheirhigher-tonedsubjects,allofwhichended,iftheydidnotbegin,inpraiseoftheThrush,conjectureshowshewouldbeemployed,schemesforanactionwithsomesuperiorforce,whichsupposingthefirstlieutenantoutoftheway,andWilliamwasnotverymercifultothefirstlieutenant
wastogivehimselfthenextstepassoonaspossible,orspeculationsuponprize-money,whichwastobegenerouslydistributedathome,withonlythereservationofenoughtomakethelittlecottagecomfortable,inwhichheandFannyweretopassalltheirmiddleandlaterlifetogether。
Fanny’simmediateconcerns,asfarastheyinvolvedMr。Crawford,madenopartoftheirconversation。
Williamknewwhathadpassed,andfromhisheartlamentedthathissister’sfeelingsshouldbesocoldtowardsamanwhomhemustconsiderasthefirstofhumancharacters;
buthewasofanagetobeallforlove,andthereforeunabletoblame;andknowingherwishonthesubject,hewouldnotdistressherbytheslightestallusion。
ShehadreasontosupposeherselfnotyetforgottenbyMr。Crawford。ShehadheardrepeatedlyfromhissisterwithinthethreeweekswhichhadpassedsincetheirleavingMansfield,andineachlettertherehadbeenafewlinesfromhimself,warmanddeterminedlikehisspeeches。ItwasacorrespondencewhichFannyfoundquiteasunpleasantasshehadfeared。
MissCrawford’sstyleofwriting,livelyandaffectionate,wasitselfanevil,independentofwhatshewasthusforcedintoreadingfromthebrother’spen,forEdmundwouldneverresttillshehadreadthechiefofthelettertohim;andthenshehadtolistentohisadmirationofherlanguage,andthewarmthofherattachments。
Therehad,infact,beensomuchofmessage,ofallusion,ofrecollection,somuchofMansfieldineveryletter,thatFannycouldnotbutsupposeitmeantforhimtohear;
andtofindherselfforcedintoapurposeofthatkind,compelledintoacorrespondencewhichwasbringinghertheaddressesofthemanshedidnotlove,andobliginghertoadministertotheadversepassionofthemanshedid,wascruellymortifying。Here,too,herpresentremovalpromisedadvantage。WhennolongerunderthesameroofwithEdmund,shetrustedthatMissCrawfordwouldhavenomotiveforwritingstrongenoughtoovercomethetrouble,andthatatPortsmouththeircorrespondencewoulddwindleintonothing。
Withsuchthoughtsasthese,amongtenhundredothers,Fannyproceededinherjourneysafelyandcheerfully,andasexpeditiouslyascouldrationallybehopedinthedirtymonthofFebruary。TheyenteredOxford,butshecouldtakeonlyahastyglimpseofEdmund’scollegeastheypassedalong,andmadenostopanywheretilltheyreachedNewbury,whereacomfortablemeal,unitingdinnerandsupper,wounduptheenjoymentsandfatiguesoftheday。
Thenextmorningsawthemoffagainatanearlyhour;
andwithnoevents,andnodelays,theyregularlyadvanced,andwereintheenvironsofPortsmouthwhiletherewasyetdaylightforFannytolookaroundher,andwonderatthenewbuildings。Theypassedthedrawbridge,andenteredthetown;andthelightwasonlybeginningtofailas,guidedbyWilliam’spowerfulvoice,theywererattledintoanarrowstreet,leadingfromtheHighStreet,anddrawnupbeforethedoorofasmallhousenowinhabitedbyMr。Price。
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