“That’sright;andinLondon,ofcourse,ahouseofyourown:nolongerwiththeAdmiral。MydearestHenry,theadvantagetoyouofgettingawayfromtheAdmiralbeforeyourmannersarehurtbythecontagionofhis,beforeyouhavecontractedanyofhisfoolishopinions,orlearnedtositoveryourdinnerasifitwerethebestblessingoflife!_You_arenotsensibleofthegain,foryourregardforhimhasblindedyou;but,inmyestimation,yourmarryingearlymaybethesavingofyou。TohaveseenyougrowliketheAdmiralinwordordeed,lookorgesture,wouldhavebrokenmyheart。“
“Well,well,wedonotthinkquitealikehere。
TheAdmiralhashisfaults,butheisaverygoodman,andhasbeenmorethanafathertome。Fewfatherswouldhaveletmehavemyownwayhalfsomuch。YoumustnotprejudiceFannyagainsthim。Imusthavethemloveoneanother。“
Maryrefrainedfromsayingwhatshefelt,thattherecouldnotbetwopersonsinexistencewhosecharactersandmannerswerelessaccordant:timewoulddiscoverittohim;
butshecouldnothelp_this_reflectionontheAdmiral。
“Henry,IthinksohighlyofFannyPrice,thatifIcouldsupposethenextMrs。Crawfordwouldhavehalfthereasonwhichmypoorill-usedaunthadtoabhortheveryname,Iwouldpreventthemarriage,ifpossible;butIknowyou:
Iknowthatawifeyou_loved_wouldbethehappiestofwomen,andthatevenwhenyouceasedtolove,shewouldyetfindinyoutheliberalityandgood-breedingofagentleman。“
TheimpossibilityofnotdoingeverythingintheworldtomakeFannyPricehappy,orofceasingtoloveFannyPrice,wasofcoursethegroundworkofhiseloquentanswer。
“Hadyouseenherthismorning,Mary,“hecontinued,“attendingwithsuchineffablesweetnessandpatiencetoallthedemandsofheraunt’sstupidity,workingwithher,andforher,hercolourbeautifullyheightenedassheleantoverthework,thenreturningtoherseattofinishanotewhichshewaspreviouslyengagedinwritingforthatstupidwoman’sservice,andallthiswithsuchunpretendinggentleness,somuchasifitwereamatterofcoursethatshewasnottohaveamomentatherowncommand,herhairarrangedasneatlyasitalwaysis,andonelittlecurlfallingforwardasshewrote,whichshenowandthenshookback,andinthemidstofallthis,stillspeakingatintervalsto_me_,orlistening,andasifshelikedtolisten,towhatIsaid。
Hadyouseenherso,Mary,youwouldnothaveimpliedthepossibilityofherpowerovermyhearteverceasing。“
“MydearestHenry,“criedMary,stoppingshort,andsmilinginhisface,“howgladIamtoseeyousomuchinlove!
Itquitedelightsme。ButwhatwillMrs。RushworthandJuliasay?“
“Icareneitherwhattheysaynorwhattheyfeel。
Theywillnowseewhatsortofwomanitisthatcanattachme,thatcanattachamanofsense。Iwishthediscoverymaydothemanygood。Andtheywillnowseetheircousintreatedassheoughttobe,andIwishtheymaybeheartilyashamedoftheirownabominableneglectandunkindness。
Theywillbeangry,“headded,afteramoment’ssilence,andinacoolertone;“Mrs。Rushworthwillbeveryangry。
Itwillbeabitterpilltoher;thatis,likeotherbitterpills,itwillhavetwomoments’illflavour,andthenbeswallowedandforgotten;forIamnotsuchacoxcombastosupposeherfeelingsmorelastingthanotherwomen’s,though_I_wastheobjectofthem。Yes,Mary,myFannywillfeeladifferenceindeed:adaily,hourlydifference,inthebehaviourofeverybeingwhoapproachesher;
anditwillbethecompletionofmyhappinesstoknowthatIamthedoerofit,thatIamthepersontogivetheconsequencesojustlyherdue。Nowsheisdependent,helpless,friendless,neglected,forgotten。“
“Nay,Henry,notbyall;notforgottenbyall;notfriendlessorforgotten。HercousinEdmundneverforgetsher。“
“Edmund!True,Ibelieveheis,generallyspeaking,kindtoher,andsoisSirThomasinhisway;butitisthewayofarich,superior,long-worded,arbitraryuncle。
WhatcanSirThomasandEdmundtogetherdo,whatdothey_do_forherhappiness,comfort,honour,anddignityintheworld,towhatI_shall_do?“
HenryCrawfordwasatMansfieldParkagainthenextmorning,andatanearlierhourthancommonvisitingwarrants。
Thetwoladiesweretogetherinthebreakfast-room,and,fortunatelyforhim,LadyBertramwasontheverypointofquittingitasheentered。Shewasalmostatthedoor,andnotchusingbyanymeanstotakesomuchtroubleinvain,shestillwenton,afteracivilreception,ashortsentenceaboutbeingwaitedfor,anda“LetSirThomasknow“
totheservant。
Henry,overjoyedtohavehergo,bowedandwatchedheroff,andwithoutlosinganothermoment,turnedinstantlytoFanny,and,takingoutsomeletters,said,withamostanimatedlook,“Imustacknowledgemyselfinfinitelyobligedtoanycreaturewhogivesmesuchanopportunityofseeingyoualone:
Ihavebeenwishingitmorethanyoucanhaveanyidea。
KnowingasIdowhatyourfeelingsasasisterare,IcouldhardlyhavebornethatanyoneinthehouseshouldsharewithyouinthefirstknowledgeofthenewsInowbring。
Heismade。Yourbrotherisalieutenant。Ihavetheinfinitesatisfactionofcongratulatingyouonyourbrother’spromotion。Herearetheletterswhichannounceit,thismomentcometohand。Youwill,perhaps,liketoseethem。“
Fannycouldnotspeak,buthedidnotwanthertospeak。
Toseetheexpressionofhereyes,thechangeofhercomplexion,theprogressofherfeelings,theirdoubt,confusion,andfelicity,wasenough。
Shetookthelettersashegavethem。ThefirstwasfromtheAdmiraltoinformhisnephew,inafewwords,ofhishavingsucceededintheobjecthehadundertaken,thepromotionofyoungPrice,andenclosingtwomore,onefromtheSecretaryoftheFirstLordtoafriend,whomtheAdmiralhadsettoworkinthebusiness,theotherfromthatfriendtohimself,bywhichitappearedthathislordshiphadtheverygreathappinessofattendingtotherecommendationofSirCharles;
thatSirCharleswasmuchdelightedinhavingsuchanopportunityofprovinghisregardforAdmiralCrawford,andthatthecircumstanceofMr。WilliamPrice’scommissionasSecondLieutenantofH。M。SloopThrushbeingmadeoutwasspreadinggeneraljoythroughawidecircleofgreatpeople。
Whileherhandwastremblingundertheseletters,hereyerunningfromonetotheother,andherheartswellingwithemotion,Crawfordthuscontinued,withunfeignedeagerness,toexpresshisinterestintheevent——
“Iwillnottalkofmyownhappiness,“saidhe,“greatasitis,forIthinkonlyofyours。Comparedwithyou,whohasarighttobehappy?Ihavealmostgrudgedmyselfmyownpriorknowledgeofwhatyououghttohaveknownbeforealltheworld。Ihavenotlostamoment,however。
Thepostwaslatethismorning,buttherehasnotbeensinceamoment’sdelay。Howimpatient,howanxious,howwildIhavebeenonthesubject,Iwillnotattempttodescribe;howseverelymortified,howcruellydisappointed,innothavingitfinishedwhileIwasinLondon!
Iwaskepttherefromdaytodayinthehopeofit,fornothinglessdeartomethansuchanobjectwouldhavedetainedmehalfthetimefromMansfield。
ButthoughmyuncleenteredintomywisheswithallthewarmthIcoulddesire,andexertedhimselfimmediately,thereweredifficultiesfromtheabsenceofonefriend,andtheengagementsofanother,whichatlastIcouldnolongerbeartostaytheendof,andknowinginwhatgoodhandsI
leftthecause,IcameawayonMonday,trustingthatmanypostswouldnotpassbeforeIshouldbefollowedbysuchverylettersasthese。Myuncle,whoistheverybestmanintheworld,hasexertedhimself,asIknewhewould,afterseeingyourbrother。Hewasdelightedwithhim。
Iwouldnotallowmyselfyesterdaytosayhowdelighted,ortorepeathalfthattheAdmiralsaidinhispraise。
Ideferreditalltillhispraiseshouldbeprovedthepraiseofafriend,asthisday_does_proveit。
_Now_ImaysaythatevenIcouldnotrequireWilliamPricetoexciteagreaterinterest,orbefollowedbywarmerwishesandhighercommendation,thanweremostvoluntarilybestowedbymyuncleaftertheeveningtheyhadpassedtogether。“
“Hasthisbeenall_your_doing,then?“criedFanny。
“Goodheaven!howvery,verykind!Haveyoureally——
wasitby_your_desire?Ibegyourpardon,butI
ambewildered。DidAdmiralCrawfordapply?Howwasit?
Iamstupefied。“
Henrywasmosthappytomakeitmoreintelligible,bybeginningatanearlierstage,andexplainingveryparticularlywhathehaddone。HislastjourneytoLondonhadbeenundertakenwithnootherviewthanthatofintroducingherbrotherinHillStreet,andprevailingontheAdmiraltoexertwhateverinteresthemighthaveforgettinghimon。Thishadbeenhisbusiness。
Hehadcommunicatedittonocreature:hehadnotbreathedasyllableofiteventoMary;whileuncertainoftheissue,hecouldnothaveborneanyparticipationofhisfeelings,butthishadbeenhisbusiness;andhespokewithsuchaglowofwhathissolicitudehadbeen,andusedsuchstrongexpressions,wassoaboundinginthe_deepest__interest_,in_twofold__motives_,in_views__and__wishes__more__than__could__be__told_,thatFannycouldnothaveremainedinsensibleofhisdrift,hadshebeenabletoattend;butherheartwassofullandhersensesstillsoastonished,thatshecouldlistenbutimperfectlyeventowhathetoldherofWilliam,andsayingonlywhenhepaused,“Howkind!howverykind!
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