Shehad,moreover,tocontendwithonedisagreeableemotionentirelynewtoher——jealousy。HisfriendMr。Owenhadsisters;
hemightfindthemattractive。But,atanyrate,hisstayingawayatatimewhen,accordingtoallprecedingplans,shewastoremovetoLondon,meantsomethingthatshecouldnotbear。HadHenryreturned,ashetalkedofdoing,attheendofthreeorfourdays,sheshouldnowhavebeenleavingMansfield。ItbecameabsolutelynecessaryforhertogettoFannyandtrytolearnsomethingmore。
Shecouldnotliveanylongerinsuchsolitarywretchedness;
andshemadeherwaytothePark,throughdifficultiesofwalkingwhichshehaddeemedunconquerableaweekbefore,forthechanceofhearingalittleinaddition,forthesakeofatleasthearinghisname。
Thefirsthalf-hourwaslost,forFannyandLadyBertramweretogether,andunlessshehadFannytoherselfshecouldhopefornothing。ButatlastLadyBertramlefttheroom,andthenalmostimmediatelyMissCrawfordthusbegan,withavoiceaswellregulatedasshecould——“Andhowdo_you_likeyourcousinEdmund’sstayingawaysolong?
Beingtheonlyyoungpersonathome,Iconsider_you_
asthegreatestsufferer。Youmustmisshim。Doeshisstayinglongersurpriseyou?“
“Idonotknow,“saidFannyhesitatingly。“Yes;Ihadnotparticularlyexpectedit。“
“Perhapshewillalwaysstaylongerthanhetalksof。
Itisthegeneralwayallyoungmendo。“
“Hedidnot,theonlytimehewenttoseeMr。Owenbefore。“
“Hefindsthehousemoreagreeable_now_。Heisavery——
averypleasingyoungmanhimself,andIcannothelpbeingratherconcernedatnotseeinghimagainbeforeI
gotoLondon,aswillnowundoubtedlybethecase。
IamlookingforHenryeveryday,andassoonashecomestherewillbenothingtodetainmeatMansfield。
Ishouldliketohaveseenhimoncemore,Iconfess。
Butyoumustgivemycomplimentstohim。Yes;Ithinkitmustbecompliments。Isnotthereasomethingwanted,MissPrice,inourlanguage——asomethingbetweencomplimentsand——
andlove——tosuitthesortoffriendlyacquaintancewehavehadtogether?Somanymonths’acquaintance!Butcomplimentsmaybesufficienthere。Washisletteralongone?
Doeshegiveyoumuchaccountofwhatheisdoing?
IsitChristmasgaietiesthatheisstayingfor?“
“Ionlyheardapartoftheletter;itwastomyuncle;
butIbelieveitwasveryshort;indeedIamsureitwasbutafewlines。AllthatIheardwasthathisfriendhadpressedhimtostaylonger,andthathehadagreedtodoso。A_few_dayslonger,or_some_dayslonger;
Iamnotquitesurewhich。“
“Oh!ifhewrotetohisfather;butIthoughtitmighthavebeentoLadyBertramoryou。Butifhewrotetohisfather,nowonderhewasconcise。WhocouldwritechattoSirThomas?Ifhehadwrittentoyou,therewouldhavebeenmoreparticulars。Youwouldhaveheardofballsandparties。Hewouldhavesentyouadescriptionofeverythingandeverybody。HowmanyMissOwensarethere?“
“Threegrownup。“
“Aretheymusical?“
“Idonotatallknow。Ineverheard。“
“Thatisthefirstquestion,youknow,“saidMissCrawford,tryingtoappeargayandunconcerned,“whicheverywomanwhoplaysherselfissuretoaskaboutanother。
Butitisveryfoolishtoaskquestionsaboutanyyoungladies——aboutanythreesistersjustgrownup;
foroneknows,withoutbeingtold,exactlywhattheyare:
allveryaccomplishedandpleasing,andoneverypretty。
Thereisabeautyineveryfamily;itisaregularthing。
Twoplayonthepianoforte,andoneontheharp;
andallsing,orwouldsingiftheyweretaught,orsingallthebetterfornotbeingtaught;orsomethinglikeit。“
“IknownothingoftheMissOwens,“saidFannycalmly。
“Youknownothingandyoucareless,aspeoplesay。
Neverdidtoneexpressindifferenceplainer。Indeed,howcanonecareforthoseonehasneverseen?Well,whenyourcousincomesback,hewillfindMansfieldveryquiet;
allthenoisyonesgone,yourbrotherandmineandmyselfIdonotliketheideaofleavingMrs。Grantnowthetimedrawsnear。Shedoesnotlikemygoing。“
Fannyfeltobligedtospeak。“’Youcannotdoubtyourbeingmissedbymany,“saidshe。“Youwillbeverymuchmissed。“
MissCrawfordturnedhereyeonher,asifwantingtohearorseemore,andthenlaughinglysaid,“Ohyes!missedaseverynoisyevilismissedwhenitistakenaway;
thatis,thereisagreatdifferencefelt。ButIamnotfishing;don’tcomplimentme。IfI_am_missed,itwillappear。Imaybediscoveredbythosewhowanttoseeme。Ishallnotbeinanydoubtful,ordistant,orunapproachableregion。“
NowFannycouldnotbringherselftospeak,andMissCrawfordwasdisappointed;forshehadhopedtohearsomepleasantassuranceofherpowerfromonewhoshethoughtmustknow,andherspiritswerecloudedagain。
“TheMissOwens,“saidshe,soonafterwards;“supposeyouweretohaveoneoftheMissOwenssettledatThorntonLacey;
howshouldyoulikeit?Strangerthingshavehappened。
Idaresaytheyaretryingforit。Andtheyarequiteinthelight,foritwouldbeaveryprettyestablishmentforthem。Idonotatallwonderorblamethem。Itiseverybody’sdutytodoaswellforthemselvesastheycan。
SirThomasBertram’ssonissomebody;andnowheisintheirownline。Theirfatherisaclergyman,andtheirbrotherisaclergyman,andtheyareallclergymentogether。
Heistheirlawfulproperty;hefairlybelongstothem。
Youdon’tspeak,Fanny;MissPrice,youdon’tspeak。
Buthonestlynow,donotyouratherexpectitthanotherwise?“
“No,“saidFannystoutly,“Idonotexpectitatall。“
“Notatall!“criedMissCrawfordwithalacrity。
“Iwonderatthat。ButIdaresayyouknowexactly——
Ialwaysimagineyouare——perhapsyoudonotthinkhimlikelytomarryatall——ornotatpresent。“
“No,Idonot,“saidFannysoftly,hopingshedidnoterreitherinthebeliefortheacknowledgmentofit。
Hercompanionlookedatherkeenly;andgatheringgreaterspiritfromtheblushsoonproducedfromsuchalook,onlysaid,“Heisbestoffasheis,“andturnedthesubject。
MissCrawford’suneasinesswasmuchlightenedbythisconversation,andshewalkedhomeagaininspiritswhichmighthavedefiedalmostanotherweekofthesamesmallpartyinthesamebadweather,hadtheybeenputtotheproof;butasthatveryeveningbroughtherbrotherdownfromLondonagaininquite,ormorethanquite,hisusualcheerfulness,shehadnothingfarthertotryherown。Hisstillrefusingtotellherwhathehadgoneforwasbutthepromotionofgaiety;adaybeforeitmighthaveirritated,butnowitwasapleasantjoke——
suspectedonlyofconcealingsomethingplannedasapleasantsurprisetoherself。Andthenextday_did_bringasurprisetoher。HenryhadsaidheshouldjustgoandasktheBertramshowtheydid,andbebackintenminutes,buthewasgoneaboveanhour;andwhenhissister,whohadbeenwaitingforhimtowalkwithherinthegarden,methimatlastmostimpatientlyinthesweep,andcriedout,“MydearHenry,wherecanyouhavebeenallthistime?“
hehadonlytosaythathehadbeensittingwithLadyBertramandFanny。
“Sittingwiththemanhourandahalf!“exclaimedMary。
Butthiswasonlythebeginningofhersurprise。
“Yes,Mary,“saidhe,drawingherarmwithinhis,andwalkingalongthesweepasifnotknowingwherehewas:
“Icouldnotgetawaysooner;Fannylookedsolovely!
Iamquitedetermined,Mary。Mymindisentirelymadeup。
Willitastonishyou?No:youmustbeawarethatIamquitedeterminedtomarryFannyPrice。“
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