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第32章

  “Ishallwalkdownimmediatelyafterbreakfast,“saidhe,“andamsureofgivingpleasurethere。Andnow,dearFanny,Iwillnotinterruptyouanylonger。Youwanttobereading。
  ButIcouldnotbeeasytillIhadspokentoyou,andcometoadecision。Sleepingorwaking,myheadhasbeenfullofthismatterallnight。Itisanevil,butIamcertainlymakingitlessthanitmightbe。
  IfTomisup,Ishallgotohimdirectlyandgetitover,andwhenwemeetatbreakfastweshallbeallinhighgood-humourattheprospectofactingthefooltogetherwithsuchunanimity。_You_,inthemeanwhile,willbetakingatripintoChina,Isuppose。HowdoesLordMacartneygoon?“——openingavolumeonthetableandthentakingupsomeothers。“AndhereareCrabbe’sTales,andtheIdler,athandtorelieveyou,ifyoutireofyourgreatbook。
  Iadmireyourlittleestablishmentexceedingly;andassoonasIamgone,youwillemptyyourheadofallthisnonsenseofacting,andsitcomfortablydowntoyourtable。
  Butdonotstayheretobecold。“
  Hewent;buttherewasnoreading,noChina,nocomposureforFanny。Hehadtoldherthemostextraordinary,themostinconceivable,themostunwelcomenews;
  andshecouldthinkofnothingelse。Tobeacting!
  Afterallhisobjections——objectionssojustandsopublic!
  Afterallthatshehadheardhimsay,andseenhimlook,andknownhimtobefeeling。Coulditbepossible?
  Edmundsoinconsistent!Washenotdeceivinghimself?
  Washenotwrong?Alas!itwasallMissCrawford’sdoing。
  Shehadseenherinfluenceineveryspeech,andwasmiserable。
  Thedoubtsandalarmsastoherownconduct,whichhadpreviouslydistressedher,andwhichhadallsleptwhileshelistenedtohim,werebecomeoflittleconsequencenow。Thisdeeperanxietyswallowedthemup。Thingsshouldtaketheircourse;
  shecarednothowitended。Hercousinsmightattack,butcouldhardlyteaseher。Shewasbeyondtheirreach;
  andifatlastobligedtoyield——nomatter——itwasallmiserynow。
  Itwas,indeed,atriumphantdaytoMr。BertramandMaria。
  SuchavictoryoverEdmund’sdiscretionhadbeenbeyondtheirhopes,andwasmostdelightful。Therewasnolongeranythingtodisturbthemintheirdarlingproject,andtheycongratulatedeachotherinprivateonthejealousweaknesstowhichtheyattributedthechange,withallthegleeoffeelingsgratifiedineveryway。
  Edmundmightstilllookgrave,andsayhedidnotliketheschemeingeneral,andmustdisapprovetheplayinparticular;
  theirpointwasgained:hewastoact,andhewasdriventoitbytheforceofselfishinclinationsonly。
  Edmundhaddescendedfromthatmoralelevationwhichhehadmaintainedbefore,andtheywerebothasmuchthebetterasthehappierforthedescent。
  Theybehavedverywell,however,to_him_ontheoccasion,betrayingnoexultationbeyondthelinesaboutthecornersofthemouth,andseemedtothinkitasgreatanescapetobequitoftheintrusionofCharlesMaddox,asiftheyhadbeenforcedintoadmittinghimagainsttheirinclination。
  “Tohaveitquiteintheirownfamilycirclewaswhattheyhadparticularlywished。Astrangeramongthemwouldhavebeenthedestructionofalltheircomfort“;
  andwhenEdmund,pursuingthatidea,gaveahintofhishopeastothelimitationoftheaudience,theywereready,inthecomplaisanceofthemoment,topromiseanything。
  Itwasallgood-humourandencouragement。Mrs。Norrisofferedtocontrivehisdress,Mr。YatesassuredhimthatAnhalt’slastscenewiththeBaronadmittedagooddealofactionandemphasis,andMr。Rushworthundertooktocounthisspeeches。
  “Perhaps,“saidTom,“Fannymaybemoredisposedtoobligeusnow。Perhapsyoumaypersuade_her_。“
  “No,sheisquitedetermined。Shecertainlywillnotact。“
  “Oh!verywell。“Andnotanotherwordwassaid;butFannyfeltherselfagainindanger,andherindifferencetothedangerwasbeginningtofailheralready。
  TherewerenotfewersmilesattheParsonagethanattheParkonthischangeinEdmund;MissCrawfordlookedverylovelyinhers,andenteredwithsuchaninstantaneousrenewalofcheerfulnessintothewholeaffairascouldhavebutoneeffectonhim。“Hewascertainlyrightinrespectingsuchfeelings;hewasgladhehaddeterminedonit。“
  Andthemorningworeawayinsatisfactionsverysweet,ifnotverysound。OneadvantageresultedfromittoFanny:attheearnestrequestofMissCrawford,Mrs。Granthad,withherusualgood-humour,agreedtoundertakethepartforwhichFannyhadbeenwanted;
  andthiswasallthatoccurredtogladden_her_heartduringtheday;andeventhis,whenimpartedbyEdmund,broughtapangwithit,foritwasMissCrawfordtowhomshewasobliged——itwasMissCrawfordwhosekindexertionsweretoexcitehergratitude,andwhosemeritinmakingthemwasspokenofwithaglowofadmiration。
  Shewassafe;butpeaceandsafetywereunconnectedhere。
  Hermindhadbeenneverfartherfrompeace。Shecouldnotfeelthatshehaddonewrongherself,butshewasdisquietedineveryotherway。HerheartandherjudgmentwereequallyagainstEdmund’sdecision:shecouldnotacquithisunsteadiness,andhishappinessunderitmadeherwretched。Shewasfullofjealousyandagitation。
  MissCrawfordcamewithlooksofgaietywhichseemedaninsult,withfriendlyexpressionstowardsherselfwhichshecouldhardlyanswercalmly。Everybodyaroundherwasgayandbusy,prosperousandimportant;eachhadtheirobjectofinterest,theirpart,theirdress,theirfavouritescene,theirfriendsandconfederates:
  allwerefindingemploymentinconsultationsandcomparisons,ordiversionintheplayfulconceitstheysuggested。
  Shealonewassadandinsignificant:shehadnoshareinanything;shemightgoorstay;shemightbeinthemidstoftheirnoise,orretreatfromittothesolitudeoftheEastroom,withoutbeingseenormissed。Shecouldalmostthinkanythingwouldhavebeenpreferabletothis。
  Mrs。Grantwasofconsequence:_her_good-naturehadhonourablemention;hertasteandhertimewereconsidered;
  herpresencewaswanted;shewassoughtfor,andattended,andpraised;andFannywasatfirstinsomedangerofenvyingherthecharactershehadaccepted。
  Butreflectionbroughtbetterfeelings,andshewedherthatMrs。Grantwasentitledtorespect,whichcouldneverhavebelongedto_her_;andthat,hadshereceivedeventhegreatest,shecouldneverhavebeeneasyinjoiningaschemewhich,consideringonlyheruncle,shemustcondemnaltogether。
  Fanny’sheartwasnotabsolutelytheonlysaddenedoneamongstthem,asshesoonbegantoacknowledgetoherself。
  Juliawasasufferertoo,thoughnotquitesoblamelessly。
  HenryCrawfordhadtrifledwithherfeelings;butshehadverylongallowedandevensoughthisattentions,withajealousyofhersistersoreasonableasoughttohavebeentheircure;andnowthattheconvictionofhispreferenceforMariahadbeenforcedonher,shesubmittedtoitwithoutanyalarmforMaria’ssituation,oranyendeavouratrationaltranquillityforherself。
  Sheeithersatingloomysilence,wraptinsuchgravityasnothingcouldsubdue,nocuriositytouch,nowitamuse;
  orallowingtheattentionsofMr。Yates,wastalkingwithforcedgaietytohimalone,andridiculingtheactingoftheothers。
  Foradayortwoaftertheaffrontwasgiven,HenryCrawfordhadendeavouredtodoitawaybytheusualattackofgallantryandcompliment,buthehadnotcaredenoughaboutittopersevereagainstafewrepulses;
  andbecomingsoontoobusywithhisplaytohavetimeformorethanoneflirtation,hegrewindifferenttothequarrel,orratherthoughtitaluckyoccurrence,asquietlyputtinganendtowhatmighterelonghaveraisedexpectationsinmorethanMrs。Grant。
  ShewasnotpleasedtoseeJuliaexcludedfromtheplay,andsittingbydisregarded;butasitwasnotamatterwhichreallyinvolvedherhappiness,asHenrymustbethebestjudgeofhisown,andashedidassureher,withamostpersuasivesmile,thatneitherhenorJuliahadeverhadaseriousthoughtofeachother,shecouldonlyrenewherformercautionastotheeldersister,entreathimnottoriskhistranquillitybytoomuchadmirationthere,andthengladlytakehershareinanythingthatbroughtcheerfulnesstotheyoungpeopleingeneral,andthatdidsoparticularlypromotethepleasureofthetwosodeartoher。