Blanche,inMrs。Inchbare’sbestgown——anancientandhigh-waistedsilkgarment,ofthehuecalled“bottle-green,“
pinnedupinfront,andtrailingfarbehindher——withashort,orange-coloredshawloverhershoulders,andatoweltiedturbanfashionroundherhead,todryherwethair,lookedatoncethestrangestandtheprettiesthumananomalythateverwasseen。
“Forheaven’ssake,“shesaid,gayly,“don’ttellyourhusbandI
aminMrs。Inchbare’sclothes!Iwanttoappearsuddenly,withoutawordtowarnhimofwhatafigureIam!Ishouldhavenothinglefttowishforinthisworld,“sheadded,“ifArnoldcouldonlyseemenow!“
Lookingintheglass,shenoticedAnne’sfacereflectedbehindher,andstartedatthesightofit。
“What_is_thematter?“sheasked。“Yourfacefrightensme。“
Itwasuselesstoprolongthepainoftheinevitablemisunderstandingbetweenthem。Theonecoursetotakewastosilenceallfurtherinquiriesthenandthere。Stronglyasshefeltthis,Anne’sinbredloyaltytoBlanchestillshrankfromdeceivinghertoherface。“Imightwriteit,“shethought。“I
can’tsayit,withArnoldBrinkworthinthesamehousewithher!
“Writeit?Asshereconsideredtheword,asuddenideastruckher。Sheopenedthebedroomdoor,andledthewaybackintothesitting-room。
“Goneagain!“exclaimedBlanche,lookinguneasilyroundtheemptyroom。“Anne!there’ssomethingsostrangeinallthis,thatI
neithercan,norwill,putupwithyoursilenceanylonger。It’snotjust,it’snotkind,toshutmeoutofyourconfidence,afterwehavelivedtogetherlikesistersallourlives!“
Annesighedbitterly,andkissedherontheforehead。“YoushallknowallIcantellyou——allI_dare_tellyou,“shesaid,gently。“Don’treproachme。Ithurtsmemorethanyouthink。“
Sheturnedawaytothesidetable,andcamebackwithaletterinherhand。“Readthat,“shesaid,andhandedittoBlanche。
Blanchesawherownname,ontheaddress,inthehandwritingofAnne。
“Whatdoesthismean?“sheasked。
“Iwrotetoyou,afterSirPatrickhadleftme,“Annereplied。“I
meantyoutohavereceivedmyletterto-morrow,intimetopreventanylittleimprudenceintowhichyouranxietymighthurryyou。AllthatI_can_saytoyouissaidthere。Sparemethedistressofspeaking。Readit,Blanche。“
Blanchestillheldtheletter,unopened。
“Aletterfromyoutome!whenwearebothtogether,andbothaloneinthesameroom!It’sworsethanformal,Anne!It’sasiftherewasaquarrelbetweenus。Whyshoulditdistressyoutospeaktome?“
Anne’seyesdroppedtotheground。Shepointedtotheletterforthesecondtime。
Blanchebroketheseal。
Shepassedrapidlyovertheopeningsentences,anddevotedallherattentiontothesecondparagraph。
“Andnow,mylove,youwillexpectmetoatoneforthesurpriseanddistressthatIhavecausedyou,byexplainingwhatmysituationreallyis,andbytellingyouallmyplansforthefuture。DearestBlanche!don’tthinkmeuntruetotheaffectionwebeartowardeachother——don’tthinkthereisanychangeinmyhearttowardyou——believeonlythatIamaveryunhappywoman,andthatIaminapositionwhichforcesme,againstmyownwill,tobesilentaboutmyself。Silenteventoyou,thesisterofmylove——theonepersonintheworldwhoisdearesttome!AtimemaycomewhenIshallbeabletoopenmyhearttoyou。Oh,whatgooditwilldome!whatareliefitwillbe!Forthepresent,I
mustbesilent。Forthepresent,wemustbeparted。Godknowswhatitcostsmetowritethis。Ithinkofthedearolddaysthataregone;IrememberhowIpromisedyourmothertobeasistertoyou,whenherkindeyeslookedatme,forthelasttime——_your_
mother,whowasanangelfromheavento_mine!_Allthiscomesbackonmenow,andbreaksmyheart。Butitmustbe!myownBlanche,forthepresent。itmustbe!Iwillwriteoften——Iwillthinkofyou,mydarling,nightandday,tillahappierfutureunitesusagain。Godbless_you,_mydearone!AndGodhelp_
me!“_
BlanchesilentlycrossedtheroomtothesofaonwhichAnnewassitting,andstoodthereforamoment,lookingather。Shesatdown,andlaidherheadonAnne’sshoulder。Sorrowfullyandquietly,sheputtheletterintoherbosom——andtookAnne’shand,andkissedit。
“Allmyquestionsareanswered,dear。Iwillwaityourtime。“
Itwassimply,sweetly,generouslysaid。
Anneburstintotears。
Therainstillfell,butthestormwasdyingaway。
Blancheleftthesofa,and,goingtothewindow,openedtheshutterstolookoutatthenight。ShesuddenlycamebacktoAnne。
“Iseelights,“shesaid——“thelightsofacarriagecomingupoutofthedarknessofthemoor。Theyaresendingafterme,fromWindygates。Gointothebedroom。It’sjustpossibleLadyLundiemayhavecomeformeherself。“
Theordinaryrelationsofthetwotowardeachotherwerecompletelyreversed。AnnewaslikeachildinBlanche’shands。
Sherose,andwithdrew。
Leftalone,Blanchetooktheletteroutofherbosom,andreaditagain,intheintervalofwaitingforthecarriage。
Thesecondreadingconfirmedherinaresolutionwhichshehadprivatelytaken,whileshehadbeensittingbyAnneonthesofa——aresolutiondestinedtoleadtofarmoreseriousresultsinthefuturethananyprevisionsofherscouldanticipate。SirPatrickwastheonepersonsheknewonwhosediscretionandexperienceshecouldimplicitlyrely。Shedetermined,inAnne’sowninterests,totakeheruncleintoherconfidence,andtotellhimallthathadhappenedattheinn“I’llfirstmakehimforgiveme,“thoughtBlanche。“AndthenI’llseeifhethinksasIdo,whenItellhimaboutAnne。“
Thecarriagedrewupatthedoor;andMrs。Inchbareshowedin——notLadyLundie,butLadyLundie’smaid。
Thewoman’saccountofwhathadhappenedatWindygateswassimpleenough。LadyLundiehad,asamatterofcourse,placedtherightinterpretationonBlanche’sabruptdepartureinthepony-chaise,andhadorderedthecarriage,withthefirmdeterminationoffollowingherstep-daughterherself。Buttheagitationsandanxietiesofthedayhadprovedtoomuchforher。Shehadbeenseizedbyoneoftheattacksofgiddinesstowhichshewasalwayssubjectafterexcessivementalirritation;and,eagerasshewasonmoreaccountsthanonetogototheinnherself,shehadbeencompelled,inSirPatrick’sabsence,tocommitthepursuitofBlanchetoherownmaid,inwhoseageandgoodsenseshecouldplaceeveryconfidence。Thewomanseeingthestateoftheweather——hadthoughtfullybroughtaboxwithher,containingachangeofwearingapparel。InofferingittoBlanche,sheadded,withallduerespect,thatshehadfullpowersfromhermistresstogoon,ifnecessary,totheshooting-cottage,andtoplacethematterinSirPatrick’shands。Thissaid,sheleftittoheryoungladytodecideforherself,whethershewouldreturntoWindygates,underpresentcircumstances,ornot。
Blanchetooktheboxfromthewoman’shands,andjoinedAnneinthebedroom,todressherselfforthedrivehome。
“Iamgoingbacktoagoodscolding,“shesaid。“ButascoldingisnonoveltyinmyexperienceofLadyLundie。I’mnotuneasyaboutthat,Anne——I’muneasyaboutyou。CanIbesureofonething——doyoustayhereforthepresent?“
Theworstthatcouldhappenattheinn_had_happened。Nothingwastobegainednow——andeverythingmightbelost——byleavingtheplaceatwhichGeoffreyhadpromisedtowritetoher。Anneansweredthatsheproposedremainingattheinnforthepresent。
“Youpromisetowritetome?“
“Yes。“
“IfthereisanythingIcandoforyou——?“
“Thereisnothing,mylove。“
“Theremaybe。Ifyouwanttoseeme,wecanmeetatWindygateswithoutbeingdiscovered。Comeatluncheon-time——goaroundbytheshrubbery——andstepinatthelibrarywindow。YouknowaswellasIdothereisnobodyinthelibraryatthathour。Don’tsayit’simpossible——youdon’tknowwhatmayhappen。Ishallwaittenminuteseverydayonthechanceofseeingyou。That’ssettled——andit’ssettledthatyouwrite。BeforeIgo,darling,isthereanythingelsewecanthinkofforthefuture?“
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