Amilefartherontheyhadtostoptomendwithsomestringthetracesthathadbroken。
ButCharles,givingalastlooktotheharness,sawsomethingonthegroundbetweenhishorse’slegs,andhepickedupacigar-casewithagreensilkborderandbeblazonedinthecentrelikethedoorofacarriage。
“Thereareeventwocigarsinit,“saidhe;“they’lldoforthiseveningafterdinner。“
“Why,doyousmoke?“sheasked。
“Sometimes,whenIgetachance。“
Heputhisfindinhispocketandwhippedupthenag。
Whentheyreachedhomethedinnerwasnotready。Madamelosthertemper。Nastasieansweredrudely。
“Leavetheroom!“saidEmma。“Youareforgettingyourself。Igiveyouwarning。“
Fordinnertherewasonionsoupandapieceofvealwithsorrel。
Charles,seatedoppositeEmma,rubbedhishandsgleefully。
“Howgooditistobeathomeagain!“
Nastasiecouldbeheardcrying。Hewasratherfondofthepoorgirl。Shehadformerly,duringthewearisometimeofhiswidowhood,kepthimcompanymanyanevening。Shehadbeenhisfirstpatient,hisoldestacquaintanceintheplace。
“Haveyougivenherwarningforgood?“heaskedatlast。
“Yes。Whoistopreventme?“shereplied。
Thentheywarmedthemselvesinthekitchenwhiletheirroomwasbeingmadeready。Charlesbegantosmoke。Hesmokedwithlipsprotruding,spittingeverymoment,recoilingateverypuff。
“You’llmakeyourselfill,“shesaidscornfully。
Heputdownhiscigarandrantoswallowaglassofcoldwateratthepump。Emmaseizingholdofthecigarcasethrewitquicklytothebackofthecupboard。
Thenextdaywasalongone。Shewalkedaboutherlittlegarden,upanddownthesamewalks,stoppingbeforethebeds,beforetheespalier,beforetheplastercurate,lookingwithamazementatallthesethingsofonce-on-a-timethatsheknewsowell。Howfarofftheballseemedalready!Whatwasitthatthussetsofarasunderthemorningofthedaybeforeyesterdayandtheeveningofto-day?HerjourneytoVaubyessardhadmadeaholeinherlife,likeoneofthosegreatcrevicesthatastormwillsometimesmakeinonenightinmountains。Stillshewasresigned。
Shedevoutlyputawayinherdrawersherbeautifuldress,downtothesatinshoeswhosesoleswereyellowedwiththeslipperywaxofthedancingfloor。Herheartwaslikethese。Initsfrictionagainstwealthsomethinghadcomeoveritthatcouldnotbeeffaced。
Thememoryofthisball,then,becameanoccupationforEmma。
WhenevertheWednesdaycameroundshesaidtoherselfassheawoke,“Ah!Iwasthereaweek——afortnight——threeweeksago。“
Andlittlebylittlethefacesgrewconfusedinherremembrance。
Sheforgotthetuneofthequadrilles;shenolongersawtheliveriesandappointmentssodistinctly;somedetailsescapedher,buttheregretremainedwithher。
ChapterNineOftenwhenCharleswasoutshetookfromthecupboard,betweenthefoldsofthelinenwhereshehadleftit,thegreensilkcigarcase。Shelookedatit,openedit,andevensmelttheodourofthelining——amixtureofverbenaandtobacco。Whosewasit?
TheViscount’s?Perhapsitwasapresentfromhismistress。Ithadbeenembroideredonsomerosewoodframe,aprettylittlething,hiddenfromalleyes,thathadoccupiedmanyhours,andoverwhichhadfallenthesoftcurlsofthepensiveworker。A
breathoflovehadpassedoverthestitchesonthecanvas;eachprickoftheneedlehadfixedthereahopeoramemory,andallthoseinterwoventhreadsofsilkwerebutthecontinuityofthesamesilentpassion。AndthenonemorningtheViscounthadtakenitawaywithhim。Ofwhathadtheyspokenwhenitlayuponthewide-mantelledchimneysbetweenflower-vasesandPompadourclocks?ShewasatTostes;hewasatParisnow,faraway!WhatwasthisParislike?Whatavaguename!Sherepeateditinalowvoice,forthemerepleasureofit;itranginherearslikeagreatcathedralbell;itshonebeforehereyes,evenonthelabelsofherpomade-pots。
Atnight,whenthecarrierspassedunderherwindowsintheircartssingingthe“Marjolaine,“sheawoke,andlistenedtothenoiseoftheiron-boundwheels,which,astheygainedthecountryroad,wassoondeadenedbythesoil。“Theywillbethereto-morrow!“shesaidtoherself。
Andshefollowedtheminthoughtupanddownthehills,traversingvillages,glidingalongthehighroadsbythelightofthestars。Attheendofsomeindefinitedistancetherewasalwaysaconfusedspot,intowhichherdreamdied。
SheboughtaplanofParis,andwiththetipofherfingeronthemapshewalkedaboutthecapital。Shewentuptheboulevards,stoppingateveryturning,betweenthelinesofthestreets,infrontofthewhitesquaresthatrepresentedthehouses。Atlastshewouldclosethelidsofherwearyeyes,andseeinthedarknessthegasjetsflaringinthewindandthestepsofcarriagesloweredwithmuchnoisebeforetheperistylesoftheatres。
Shetookin“LaCorbeille,“alady’sjournal,andthe“SylphedesSalons。“Shedevoured,withoutskippingawork,alltheaccountsoffirstnights,races,andsoirees,tookinterestinthedebutofasinger,intheopeningofanewshop。Sheknewthelatestfashions,theaddressesofthebesttailors,thedaysoftheBoisandtheOpera。InEugeneSueshestudieddescriptionsoffurniture;shereadBalzacandGeorgeSand,seekinginthemimaginarysatisfactionforherowndesires。Evenattableshehadherbookbyher,andturnedoverthepageswhileCharlesateandtalkedtoher。ThememoryoftheViscountalwaysreturnedassheread。Betweenhimandtheimaginarypersonagesshemadecomparisons。Butthecircleofwhichhewasthecentregraduallywidenedroundhim,andtheaureolethathebore,fadingfromhisform,broadenedoutbeyond,lightingupherotherdreams。
Paris,morevaguethantheocean,glimmeredbeforeEmma’seyesinanatmosphereofvermilion。Themanylivesthatstirredamidthistumultwere,however,dividedintoparts,classedasdistinctpictures。Emmaperceivedonlytwoorthreethathidfromheralltherest,andinthemselvesrepresentedallhumanity。Theworldofambassadorsmovedoverpolishedfloorsindrawingroomslinedwithmirrors,roundovaltablescoveredwithvelvetandgold-fringedcloths。Thereweredresseswithtrains,deepmysteries,anguishhiddenbeneathsmiles。Thencamethesocietyoftheduchesses;allwerepale;allgotupatfouro’clock;thewomen,poorangels,woreEnglishpointontheirpetticoats;andthemen,unappreciatedgeniusesunderafrivolousoutwardseeming,rodehorsestodeathatpleasureparties,spentthesummerseasonatBaden,andtowardsthefortiesmarriedheiresses。Intheprivateroomsofrestaurants,whereonesupsaftermidnightbythelightofwaxcandles,laughedthemotleycrowdofmenoflettersandactresses。Theywereprodigalaskings,fullofideal,ambitious,fantasticfrenzy。Thiswasanexistenceoutsidethatofallothers,betweenheavenandearth,inthemidstofstorms,havingsomethingofthesublime。Fortherestoftheworlditwaslost,withnoparticularplaceandasifnon-existent。Thenearerthingswere,moreover,themoreherthoughtsturnedawayfromthem。Allherimmediatesurroundings,thewearisomecountry,themiddle-classimbeciles,themediocrityofexistence,seemedtoherexceptional,apeculiarchancethathadcaughtholdofher,whilebeyondstretched,asfaraseyecouldsee,animmenselandofjoysandpassions。Sheconfusedinherdesirethesensualitiesofluxurywiththedelightsoftheheart,eleganceofmannerswithdelicacyofsentiment。Didnotlove,likeIndianplants,needaspecialsoil,aparticulartemperature?Signsbymoonlight,longembraces,tearsflowingoveryieldedhands,allthefeversofthefleshandthelanguorsoftendernesscouldnotbeseparatedfromthebalconiesofgreatcastlesfullofindolence,fromboudoirswithsilkencurtainsandthickcarpets,well-filledflower-stands,abedonaraiseddias,norfromtheflashingofpreciousstonesandtheshoulder-knotsofliveries。
Theladfromthepostinghousewhocametogroomthemareeverymorningpassedthroughthepassagewithhisheavywoodenshoes;
therewereholesinhisblouse;hisfeetwerebareinlistslippers。Andthiswasthegroominknee-britcheswithwhomshehadtobecontent!Hisworkdone,hedidnotcomebackagainallday,forCharlesonhisreturnputuphishorsehimself,unsaddledhimandputonthehalter,whiletheservant-girlbroughtabundleofstrawandthrewitasbestshecouldintothemanger。
ToreplaceNastasiewholeftTostessheddingtorrentsoftears
Emmatookintoherserviceayounggirloffourteen,anorphanwithasweetface。Sheforbadeherwearingcottoncaps,taughthertoaddressherinthethirdperson,tobringaglassofwateronaplate,toknockbeforecomingintoaroom,toiron,starch,andtodressher——wantedtomakealady’s-maidofher。Thenewservantobeyedwithoutamurmur,soasnottobesentaway;andasmadameusuallyleftthekeyinthesideboard,Feliciteeveryeveningtookasmallsupplyofsugarthatsheatealoneinherbedaftershehadsaidherprayers。
Sometimesintheafternoonshewenttochatwiththepostilions。
Madamewasinherroomupstairs。Sheworeanopendressinggownthatshowedbetweentheshawlfacingsofherbodiceapleatedchamisettewiththreegoldbuttons。Herbeltwasacordedgirdlewithgreattassels,andhersmallgarnetcolouredslippershadalargeknotofribbonthatfelloverherinstep。Shehadboughtherselfablottingbook,writingcase,pen-holder,andenvelopes,althoughshehadnoonetowriteto;shedustedherwhat-not,lookedatherselfintheglass,pickedupabook,andthen,dreamingbetweenthelines,letitdroponherknees。Shelongedtotravelortogobacktoherconvent。ShewishedatthesametimetodieandtoliveinParis。
Charlesinsnowandraintrottedacrosscountry。Heateomelettesonfarmhousetables,pokedhisarmintodampbeds,receivedthetepidspurtofblood-lettingsinhisface,listenedtodeath-rattles,examinedbasins,turnedoveragooddealofdirtylinen;buteveryeveninghefoundablazingfire,hisdinnerready,easy-chairs,andawell-dressedwoman,charmingwithanodouroffreshness,thoughnoonecouldsaywhencetheperfumecame,orifitwerenotherskinthatmadeodorousherchemise。
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