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第61章

  “Saynothing,oralltheblamewillfallonyourmaster。“
  Thenshewenthome,suddenlycalmed,andwithsomethingoftheserenityofonethathadperformedaduty。
  WhenCharles,distractedbythenewsofthedistraint,returnedhome,Emmahadjustgoneout。Hecriedaloud,wept,fainted,butshedidnotreturn。Wherecouldshebe?HesentFelicitetoHomais,toMonsieurTuvache,toLheureux,tothe“Liond’Or,“
  everywhere,andintheintervalsofhisagonyhesawhisreputationdestroyed,theirfortunelost,Berthe’sfutureruined。
  Bywhat?——Notaword!Hewaitedtillsixintheevening。Atlast,unabletobearitanylonger,andfancyingshehadgonetoRouen,hesetoutalongthehighroad,walkedamile,metnoone,againwaited,andreturnedhome。Shehadcomeback。
  “Whatwasthematter?Why?Explaintome。“
  Shesatdownatherwriting-tableandwrotealetter,whichshesealedslowly,addingthedateandthehour。Thenshesaidinasolemntone:
  “Youaretoreaditto-morrow;tillthen,Iprayyou,donotaskmeasinglequestion。No,notone!“
  “But——“
  “Oh,leaveme!“
  Shelaydownfulllengthonherbed。Abittertastethatshefeltinhermouthawakenedher。ShesawCharles,andagainclosedhereyes。
  Shewasstudyingherselfcuriously,toseeifshewerenotsuffering。Butno!nothingasyet。Sheheardthetickingoftheclock,thecracklingofthefire,andCharlesbreathingashestooduprightbyherbed。
  “Ahlitisbutalittlething,death!“shethought。“Ishallfallasleepandallwillbeover。“
  Shedrankamouthfulofwaterandturnedtothewall。Thefrightfultasteofinkcontinued。
  “Iamthirsty;oh!sothirsty,“shesighed。
  “Whatisit?“saidCharles,whowashandingheraglass。
  “Itisnothing!Openthewindow;Iamchoking。“
  Shewasseizedwithasicknesssosuddenthatshehadhardlytimetodrawoutherhandkerchieffromunderthepillow。
  “Takeitaway,“shesaidquickly;“throwitaway。“
  Hespoketoher;shedidnotanswer。Shelaymotionless,afraidthattheslightestmovementmightmakehervomit。Butshefeltanicycoldcreepingfromherfeettoherheart。
  “Ah!itisbeginning,“shemurmured。
  “Whatdidyousay?“
  Sheturnedherheadfromsidetosidewithagentlemovementfullofagony,whileconstantlyopeninghermouthasifsomethingveryheavywereweighinguponhertongue。Ateighto’clockthevomitingbeganagain。
  Charlesnoticedthatatthebottomofthebasintherewasasortofwhitesedimentstickingtothesidesoftheporcelain。
  “Thisisextraordinary——verysingular,“herepeated。
  Butshesaidinafirmvoice,“No,youaremistaken。“
  Thengently,andalmostascaressingher,hepassedhishandoverherstomach。Sheutteredasharpcry。Hefellbackterror-stricken。
  Thenshebegantogroan,faintlyatfirst。Hershoulderswereshakenbyastrongshuddering,andshewasgrowingpalerthanthesheetsinwhichherclenchedfingersburiedthemselves。Herunequalpulsewasnowalmostimperceptible。
  Dropsofsweatoozedfromherbluishface,thatseemedasifrigidintheexhalationsofametallicvapour。Herteethchattered,herdilatedeyeslookedvaguelyabouther,andtoallquestionssherepliedonlywithashakeofthehead;sheevensmiledonceortwice。Gradually,hermoaninggrewlouder;ahollowshriekburstfromher;shepretendedshewasbetterandthatshewouldgetuppresently。Butshewasseizedwithconvulsionsandcriedout——
  “Ah!myGod!Itishorrible!“
  Hethrewhimselfonhiskneesbyherbed。
  “Tellme!whathaveyoueaten?Answer,forheaven’ssake!“
  Andhelookedatherwithatendernessinhiseyessuchasshehadneverseen。
  “Well,there——there!“shesaidinafaintvoice。Heflewtothewriting-table,toreopentheseal,andreadaloud:“Accusenoone。“Hestopped,passedhishandsacrosshiseyes,andreaditoveragain。
  “What!help——help!“
  Hecouldonlykeeprepeatingtheword:“Poisoned!poisoned!“
  FeliciterantoHomais,whoproclaimeditinthemarket-place;
  MadameLefrancoishearditatthe“Liond’Or“;somegotuptogoandtelltheirneighbours,andallnightthevillagewasonthealert。
  Distraught,faltering,reeling,Charleswanderedabouttheroom。
  Heknockedagainstthefurniture,torehishair,andthechemisthadneverbelievedthattherecouldbesoterribleasight。
  HewenthometowritetoMonsieurCanivetandtoDoctorLariviere。Helosthishead,andmademorethanfifteenroughcopies。HippolytewenttoNeufchatel,andJustinsospurredBovary’shorsethatheleftitfounderedandthreepartsdeadbythehillatBois-Guillaume。
  Charlestriedtolookuphismedicaldictionary,butcouldnotreadit;thelinesweredancing。
  “Becalm,“saidthedruggist;“wehaveonlytoadministerapowerfulantidote。Whatisthepoison?“
  Charlesshowedhimtheletter。Itwasarsenic。
  “Verywell,“saidHomais,“wemustmakeananalysis。“
  Forheknewthatincasesofpoisoningananalysismustbemade;
  andtheother,whodidnotunderstand,answered——
  “Oh,doanything!saveher!“
  Thengoingbacktoher,hesankuponthecarpet,andlaytherewithhisheadleaningagainsttheedgeofherbed,sobbing。
  “Don’tcry,“shesaidtohim。“SoonIshallnottroubleyouanymore。“
  “Whywasit?Whodroveyoutoit?“
  Shereplied。“Ithadtobe,mydear!“
  “Weren’tyouhappy?Isitmyfault?IdidallIcould!“
  “Yes,thatistrue——youaregood——you。“
  Andshepassedherhandslowlyoverhishair。Thesweetnessofthissensationdeepenedhissadness;hefelthiswholebeingdissolvingindespairatthethoughtthathemustloseher,justwhenshewasconfessingmoreloveforhimthanever。Andhecouldthinkofnothing;hedidnotknow,hedidnotdare;theurgentneedforsomeimmediateresolutiongavethefinishingstroketotheturmoilofhismind。
  Soshehaddone,shethought,withallthetreachery;andmeanness,andnumberlessdesiresthathadtorturedher。Shehatednoonenow;atwilightdimnesswassettlinguponherthoughts,and,ofallearthlynoises,Emmaheardnonebuttheintermittentlamentationsofthispoorheart,sweetandindistinctliketheechoofasymphonydyingaway。
  “Bringmethechild,“shesaid,raisingherselfonherelbow。
  “Youarenotworse,areyou?“askedCharles。
  “No,no!“
  Thechild,serious,andstillhalf-asleep,wascarriedinontheservant’sarminherlongwhitenightgown,fromwhichherbarefeetpeepedout。Shelookedwonderinglyatthedisorderedroom,andhalf-closedhereyes,dazzledbythecandlesburningonthetable。Theyremindedher,nodoubt,ofthemorningofNewYear’sdayandMid-Lent,whenthusawakenedearlybycandle-lightshecametohermother’sbedtofetchherpresents,forshebegansaying——
  “Butwhereisit,mamma?“Andaseverybodywassilent,“ButI
  can’tseemylittlestocking。“
  Feliciteheldheroverthebedwhileshestillkeptlookingtowardsthemantelpiece。
  “Hasnursetakenit?“sheasked。
  Andatthisname,thatcarriedherbacktothememoryofheradulteriesandhercalamities,MadameBovaryturnedawayherhead,asattheloathingofanotherbittererpoisonthatrosetohermouth。ButBertheremainedperchedonthebed。
  “Oh,howbigyoureyesare,mamma!Howpaleyouare!howhotyouare!“
  Hermotherlookedather。“Iamfrightened!“criedthechild,recoiling。
  Emmatookherhandtokissit;thechildstruggled。