Theygraduallycametotalkingmorefrequentlyofmattersoutsidetheirlove,andinthelettersthatEmmawrotehimshespokeofflowers,verses,themoonandthestars,naiveresourcesofawaningpassionstrivingtokeepitselfalivebyallexternalaids。Shewasconstantlypromisingherselfaprofoundfelicityonhernextjourney。Thensheconfessedtoherselfthatshefeltnothingextraordinary。Thisdisappointmentquicklygavewaytoanewhope,andEmmareturnedtohimmoreinflamed,moreeagerthanever。Sheundressedbrutally,tearingoffthethinlacesofhercorsetthatnestledaroundherhipslikeaglidingsnake。Shewentontiptoe,barefooted,toseeoncemorethatthedoorwasclosed,then,pale,serious,and,withoutspeaking,withonemovement,shethrewherselfuponhisbreastwithalongshudder。
Yettherewasuponthatbrowcoveredwithcolddrops,onthosequiveringlips,inthosewildeyes,inthestrainofthosearms,somethingvagueanddrearythatseemedtoLeontoglidebetweenthemsubtlyasiftoseparatethem。
Hedidnotdaretoquestionher;but,seeinghersoskilled,shemusthavepassed,hethought,througheveryexperienceofsufferingandofpleasure。Whathadoncecharmednowfrightenedhimalittle。Besides,herebelledagainsthisabsorption,dailymoremarked,byherpersonality。HebegrudgedEmmathisconstantvictory。Heevenstrovenottoloveher;then,whenheheardthecreakingofherboots,heturnedcoward,likedrunkardsatthesightofstrongdrinks。
Shedidnotfail,intruth,tolavishallsortsofattentionsuponhim,fromthedelicaciesoffoodtothecoquettriesofdressandlanguishinglooks。ShebroughtrosestoherbreastfromYonville,whichshethrewintohisface;wasanxiousabouthishealth,gavehimadviceastohisconduct;and,inorderthemoresurelytokeepherholdonhim,hopingperhapsthatheavenwouldtakeherpart,shetiedamedaloftheVirginroundhisneck。Sheinquiredlikeavirtuousmotherabouthiscompanions。Shesaidtohim——
“Don’tseethem;don’tgoout;thinkonlyofourselves;loveme!“
Shewouldhavelikedtobeabletowatchoverhislife;andtheideaoccurredtoherofhavinghimfollowedinthestreets。Nearthehoteltherewasalwaysakindofloaferwhoaccostedtravellers,andwhowouldnotrefuse。Butherpriderevoltedatthis。
“Bah!somuchtheworse。Lethimdeceiveme!Whatdoesitmattertome?AsIfIcaredforhim!“
Oneday,whentheyhadpartedearlyandshewasreturningalonealongtheboulevard,shesawthewallsofherconvent;thenshesatdownonaformintheshadeoftheelm-trees。Howcalmthattimehadbeen!Howshelongedfortheineffablesentimentsoflovethatshehadtriedtofiguretoherselfoutofbooks!Thefirstmonthofhermarriage,herridesinthewood,theviscountthatwaltzed,andLagardysinging,allrepassedbeforehereyes。
AndLeonsuddenlyappearedtoherasfaroffastheothers。
“YetIlovehim,“shesaidtoherself。
Nomatter!Shewasnothappy——sheneverhadbeen。Whencecamethisinsufficiencyinlife——thisinstantaneousturningtodecayofeverythingonwhichsheleant?Butifthereweresomewhereabeingstrongandbeautiful,avaliantnature,fullatonceofexaltationandrefinement,apoet’sheartinanangel’sform,alyrewithsoundingchordsringingoutelegiacepithalamiatoheaven,why,perchance,shouldshenotfindhim?Ah!howimpossible!Besides,nothingwasworththetroubleofseekingit;
everythingwasalie。Everysmilehidayawnofboredom,everyjoyacurse,allpleasuresatiety,andthesweetestkissesleftuponyourlipsonlytheunattainabledesireforagreaterdelight。
Ametallicclangdronedthroughtheair,andfourstrokeswereheardfromtheconvent-clock。Fouro’clock!Anditseemedtoherthatshehadbeenthereonthatformaneternity。Butaninfinityofpassionsmaybecontainedinaminute,likeacrowdinasmallspace。
Emmalivedallabsorbedinhers,andtroublednomoreaboutmoneymattersthananarchduchess。
Once,however,awretched-lookingman,rubicundandbald,cametoherhouse,sayinghehadbeensentbyMonsieurVincartofRouen。
Hetookoutthepinsthatheldtogethertheside-pocketsofhislonggreenovercoat,stuckthemintohissleeve,andpolitelyhandedherapaper。
Itwasabillforsevenhundredfrancs,signedbyher,andwhichLheureux,inspiteofallhisprofessions,hadpaidawaytoVincart。Shesentherservantforhim。Hecouldnotcome。Thenthestranger,whohadremainedstanding,castingrightandleftcuriousglances,thathisthick,faireyebrowshid,askedwithanaiveair——
“WhatansweramItotakeMonsieurVincart?“
“Oh,“saidEmma,“tellhimthatIhaven’tit。Iwillsendnextweek;hemustwait;yes,tillnextweek。“
Andthefellowwentwithoutanotherword。
Butthenextdayattwelveo’clockshereceivedasummons,andthesightofthestampedpaper,onwhichappearedseveraltimesinlargeletters,“MaitreHareng,bailiffatBuchy,“sofrightenedherthatsherushedinhothastetothelinendraper’s。
Shefoundhiminhisshop,doingupaparcel。
“Yourobedient!“hesaid;“Iamatyourservice。“
ButLheureux,allthesame,wentonwithhiswork,helpedbyayounggirlofaboutthirteen,somewhathunch-backed,whowasatoncehisclerkandhisservant。
Then,hisclogsclatteringontheshop-boards,hewentupinfrontofMadameBovarytothefirstdoor,andintroducedherintoanarrowcloset,where,inalargebureauinsapon-wood,laysomeledgers,protectedbyahorizontalpadlockedironbar。Againstthewall,undersomeremnantsofcalico,oneglimpsedasafe,butofsuchdimensionsthatitmustcontainsomethingbesidesbillsandmoney。MonsieurLheureux,infact,wentinforpawnbroking,anditwastherethathehadputMadameBovary’sgoldchain,togetherwiththeearringsofpooroldTellier,who,atlastforcedtosellout,hadboughtameagrestoreofgroceryatQuincampoix,wherehewasdyingofcatarrhamongsthiscandles,thatwerelessyellowthanhisface。
Lheureuxsatdowninalargecanearm-chair,saying:“Whatnews?“
“See!“
Andsheshowedhimthepaper。
“WellhowcanIhelpit?“
Thenshegrewangry,remindinghimofthepromisehehadgivennottopayawayherbills。Heacknowledgedit。
“ButIwaspressedmyself;theknifewasatmyownthroat。“
“Andwhatwillhappennow?“shewenton。
“Oh,it’sverysimple;ajudgmentandthenadistraint——that’saboutit!“
Emmakeptdownadesiretostrikehim,andaskedgentlyiftherewasnowayofquietingMonsieurVincart。
“Idaresay!QuietVincart!Youdon’tknowhim;he’smoreferociousthananArab!“
StillMonsieurLheureuxmustinterfere。
“Well,listen。ItseemstomesofarI’vebeenverygoodtoyou。“
Andopeningoneofhisledgers,“See,“hesaid。Thenrunningupthepagewithhisfinger,“Let’ssee!let’ssee!August3d,twohundredfrancs;June17th,ahundredandfifty;March23d,forty-six。InApril——“
Hestopped,asifafraidofmakingsomemistake。
“NottospeakofthebillssignedbyMonsieurBovary,oneforsevenhundredfrancs,andanotherforthreehundred。Astoyourlittleinstallments,withtheinterest,why,there’snoendto’em;onegetsquitemuddledover’em。I’llhavenothingmoretodowithit。“
Shewept;sheevencalledhim“hergoodMonsieurLheureux。“Buthealwaysfellbackupon“thatrascalVincart。“Besides,hehadn’tabrassfarthing;noonewaspayinghimnow-a-days;theywereeatinghiscoatoffhisback;apoorshopkeeperlikehimcouldn’tadvancemoney。
Emmawassilent,andMonsieurLheureux,whowasbitingthefeathersofaquill,nodoubtbecameuneasyathersilence,forhewenton——
“UnlessoneofthesedaysIhavesomethingcomingin,Imight——“
“Besides,“saidshe,“assoonasthebalanceofBarneville——“
“What!“
AndonhearingthatLangloishadnotyetpaidheseemedmuchsurprised。Theninahoniedvoice——
“Andweagree,yousay?“
“Oh!toanythingyoulike。“
Onthisheclosedhiseyestoreflect,wrotedownafewfigures,anddeclaringitwouldbeverydifficultforhim,thattheaffairwasshady,andthathewasbeingbled,hewroteoutfourbillsfortwohundredandfiftyfrancseach,tofallduemonthbymonth。
“ProvidedthatVincartwilllistentome!However,it’ssettled。
Idon’tplaythefool;I’mstraightenough。“
Nexthecarelesslyshowedherseveralnewgoods,notoneofwhich,however,wasinhisopinionworthyofmadame。
“WhenIthinkthatthere’sadressatthreepence-halfpennyayard,andwarrantedfastcolours!Andyettheyactuallyswallowit!Ofcourseyouunderstandonedoesn’ttellthemwhatitreallyis!“Hehopedbythisconfessionofdishonestytootherstoquiteconvinceherofhisprobitytoher。
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