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第40章

  andthethingsbringinghiminagoodthirdattheleast,thisoughtintwelvemonthstogivehimaprofitofahundredandthirtyfrancs。Hehopedthatthebusinesswouldnotstopthere;
  thatthebillswouldnotbepaid;thattheywouldberenewed;andthathispoorlittlemoney,havingthrivenatthedoctor’sasatahospital,wouldcomebacktohimonedayconsiderablymoreplump,andfatenoughtobursthisbag。
  Everything,moreover,succeededwithhim。HewasadjudicatorforasupplyofcidertothehospitalatNeufchatel;MonsieurGuillauminpromisedhimsomesharesintheturf-pitsofGaumesnil,andhedreamtofestablishinganewdiligenceservicebetweenArcueilandRouen,whichnodoubtwouldnotbelonginruiningtheramshacklevanofthe“Liond’Or,“andthat,travellingfaster,atacheaperrate,andcarryingmoreluggage,wouldthusputintohishandsthewholecommerceofYonville。
  Charlesseveraltimesaskedhimselfbywhatmeansheshouldnextyearbeabletopaybacksomuchmoney。Hereflected,imaginedexpedients,suchasapplyingtohisfatherorsellingsomething。
  Buthisfatherwouldbedeaf,andhe——hehadnothingtosell。
  Thenheforesawsuchworriesthathequicklydismissedsodisagreeableasubjectofmeditationfromhismind。HereproachedhimselfwithforgettingEmma,asif,allhisthoughtsbelongingtothiswoman,itwasrobbingherofsomethingnottobeconstantlythinkingofher。
  Thewinterwassevere,MadameBovary’sconvalescenceslow。Whenitwasfinetheywheeledherarm-chairtothewindowthatoverlookedthesquare,forshenowhadanantipathytothegarden,andtheblindsonthatsidewerealwaysdown。Shewishedthehorsetobesold;whatsheformerlylikednowdispleasedher。
  Allherideasseemedtobelimitedtothecareofherself。Shestayedinbedtakinglittlemeals,rangfortheservanttoinquireabouthergruelortochatwithher。Thesnowonthemarket-roofthrewawhite,stilllightintotheroom;thentherainbegantofall;andEmmawaiteddailywithamindfullofeagernessfortheinevitablereturnofsometriflingeventswhichneverthelesshadnorelationtoher。Themostimportantwasthearrivalofthe“Hirondelle“intheevening。Thenthelandladyshoutedout,andothervoicesanswered,whileHippolyte’slantern,ashefetchedtheboxesfromtheboot,waslikeastarinthedarkness。Atmid-dayCharlescamein;thenhewentoutagain;nextshetooksomebeef-tea,andtowardsfiveo’clock,asthedaydrewin,thechildrencomingbackfromschool,draggingtheirwoodenshoesalongthepavement,knockedtheclapperoftheshutterswiththeirrulersoneaftertheother。
  ItwasatthishourthatMonsieurBournisiencametoseeher。Heinquiredafterherhealth,gavehernews,exhortedhertoreligion,inacoaxinglittleprattlethatwasnotwithoutitscharm。Themerethoughtofhiscassockcomfortedher。
  Oneday,whenattheheightofherillness,shehadthoughtherselfdying,andhadaskedforthecommunion;and,whiletheyweremakingthepreparationsinherroomforthesacrament,whiletheywereturningthenighttablecoveredwithsyrupsintoanaltar,andwhileFelicitewasstrewingdahliaflowersonthefloor,Emmafeltsomepowerpassingoverherthatfreedherfromherpains,fromallperception,fromallfeeling。Herbody,relieved,nolongerthought;anotherlifewasbeginning;itseemedtoherthatherbeing,mountingtowardGod,wouldbeannihilatedinthatlovelikeaburningincensethatmeltsintovapour。Thebed-clothesweresprinkledwithholywater,thepriestdrewfromtheholypyxthewhitewafer;anditwasfaintingwithacelestialjoythatsheputoutherlipstoacceptthebodyoftheSaviourpresentedtoher。Thecurtainsofthealcovefloatedgentlyroundherlikeclouds,andtheraysofthetwotapersburningonthenight-tableseemedtoshinelikedazzlinghalos。Thensheletherheadfallback,fancyingsheheardinspacethemusicofseraphicharps,andperceivedinanazuresky,onagoldenthroneinthemidstofsaintsholdinggreenpalms,GodtheFather,resplendentwithmajesty,whowithasignsenttoearthangelswithwingsoffiretocarryherawayintheirarms。
  Thissplendidvisiondweltinhermemoryasthemostbeautifulthingthatitwaspossibletodream,sothatnowshestrovetorecallhersensation。Thatstilllasted,however,butinalessexclusivefashionandwithadeepersweetness。Hersoul,torturedbypride,atlengthfoundrestinChristianhumility,and,tastingthejoyofweakness,shesawwithinherselfthedestructionofherwill,thatmusthaveleftawideentrancefortheinroadsofheavenlygrace。Thereexisted,then,intheplaceofhappiness,stillgreaterjoys——anotherlovebeyondallloves,withoutpauseandwithoutend,onethatwouldgroweternally!Shesawamidtheillusionsofherhopeastateofpurityfloatingabovetheearthminglingwithheaven,towhichsheaspired。Shewantedtobecomeasaint。Sheboughtchapletsandworeamulets;
  shewishedtohaveinherroom,bythesideofherbed,areliquarysetinemeraldsthatshemightkissiteveryevening。
  Thecuremarvelledatthishumour,althoughEmma’sreligion,hethought,might,fromitsfervour,endbytouchingonheresy,extravagance。Butnotbeingmuchversedinthesematters,assoonastheywentbeyondacertainlimithewrotetoMonsieurBoulard,booksellertoMonsignor,tosendhim“somethinggoodforaladywhowasveryclever。“Thebookseller,withasmuchindifferenceasifhehadbeensendingoffhardwaretoniggers,packedup,pellmell,everythingthatwasthenthefashioninthepiousbooktrade。Therewerelittlemanualsinquestionsandanswers,pamphletsofaggressivetoneafterthemannerofMonsieurdeMaistre,andcertainnovelsinrose-colouredbindingsandwithahoniedstyle,manufacturedbytroubadourseminaristsorpenitentblue-stockings。Therewerethe“Thinkofit;theManoftheWorldatMary’sFeet,byMonsieurde***,decoratedwithmanyOrders“;
  “TheErrorsofVoltaire,fortheUseoftheYoung,“etc。
  MadameBovary’smindwasnotyetsufficientlycleartoapplyherselfseriouslytoanything;moreover,shebeganthisreadingintoomuchhurry。Shegrewprovokedatthedoctrinesofreligion;thearroganceofthepolemicwritingsdispleasedherbytheirinveteracyinattackingpeopleshedidnotknow;andthesecularstories,relievedwithreligion,seemedtoherwritteninsuchignoranceoftheworld,thattheyinsensiblyestrangedherfromthetruthsforwhoseproofshewaslooking。Nevertheless,shepersevered;andwhenthevolumeslippedfromherhands,shefanciedherselfseizedwiththefinestCatholicmelancholythatanetherealsoulcouldconceive。
  AsforthememoryofRodolphe,shehadthrustitbacktothebottomofherheart,anditremainedtheremoresolemnandmoremotionlessthanaking’smummyinacatacomb。Anexhalationescapedfromthisembalmedlove,that,penetratingthrougheverything,perfumedwithtendernesstheimmaculateatmosphereinwhichshelongedtolive。WhenshekneltonherGothicprie-Dieu,sheaddressedtotheLordthesamesuavewordsthatshehadmurmuredformerlytoherloverintheoutpouringsofadultery。Itwastomakefaithcome;butnodelightsdescendedfromtheheavens,andshearosewithtiredlimbsandwithavaguefeelingofagiganticdupery。
  Thissearchingafterfaith,shethought,wasonlyonemeritthemore,andintheprideofherdevoutnessEmmacomparedherselftothosegrandladiesoflongagowhosegloryshe,haddreamedofoveraportraitofLaValliere,andwho,trailingwithsomuchmajestythelace-trimmedtrainsoftheirlonggowns,retiredintosolitudestoshedatthefeetofChristallthetearsofheartsthatlifehadwounded。
  Thenshegaveherselfuptoexcessivecharity。Shesewedclothesforthepoor,shesentwoodtowomeninchildbed;andCharlesoneday,oncominghome,foundthreegood-for-nothingsinthekitchenseatedatthetableeatingsoup。Shehadherlittlegirl,whomduringherillnessherhusbandhadsentbacktothenurse,broughthome。Shewantedtoteachhertoread;evenwhenBerthecried,shewasnotvexed。Shehadmadeuphermindtoresignation,touniversalindulgence。Herlanguageabouteverythingwasfullofidealexpressions。Shesaidtoherchild,“Isyourstomach-achebetter,myangel?“
  MadameBovaryseniorfoundnothingtocensureexceptperhapsthismaniaofknittingjacketsfororphansinsteadofmendingherownhouse-linen;but,harassedwithdomesticquarrels,thegoodwomantookpleasureinthisquiethouse,andsheevenstayedtheretillafterEaster,toescapethesarcasmsofoldBovary,whoneverfailedonGoodFridaytoorderchitterlings。
  Besidesthecompanionshipofhermother-in-law,whostrengthenedheralittlebytherectitudeofherjudgmentandhergraveways,Emmaalmosteverydayhadothervisitors。ThesewereMadameLanglois,MadameCaron,MadameDubreuil,MadameTuvache,andregularlyfromtwotofiveo’clocktheexcellentMadameHomais,who,forherpart,hadneverbelievedanyofthetittle-tattleaboutherneighbour。ThelittleHomaisalsocametoseeher;
  Justinaccompaniedthem。Hewentupwiththemtoherbedroom,andremainedstandingnearthedoor,motionlessandmute。OftenevenMadameBovary;takingnoheedofhim,beganhertoilette。Shebeganbytakingouthercomb,shakingherheadwithaquickmovement,andwhenheforthefirsttimesawallthismassofhairthatfelltoherkneesunrollinginblackringlets,itwastohim,poorchild!likeasuddenentranceintosomethingnewandstrange,whosesplendourterrifiedhim。
  Emma,nodoubt,didnotnoticehissilentattentionsorhistimidity。Shehadnosuspicionthatthelovevanishedfromherlifewasthere,palpitatingbyherside,beneaththatcoarsehollandshirt,inthatyouthfulheartopentotheemanationsofherbeauty。Besides,shenowenvelopedallthingswithsuchindifference,shehadwordssoaffectionatewithlookssohaughty,suchcontradictoryways,thatonecouldnolongerdistinguishegotismfromcharity,orcorruptionfromvirtue。Oneevening,forexample,shewasangrywiththeservant,whohadaskedtogoout,andstammeredasshetriedtofindsomepretext。
  Thensuddenly——
  “Soyoulovehim?“shesaid。
  AndwithoutwaitingforanyanswerfromFelicite,whowasblushing,sheadded,“There!runalong;enjoyyourself!“
  Inthebeginningofspringshehadthegardenturnedupfromendtoend,despiteBovary’sremonstrances。However,hewasgladtoseeheratlastmanifestawishofanykind。Asshegrewstrongershedisplayedmorewilfulness。First,shefoundoccasiontoexpelMereRollet,thenurse,whoduringherconvalescencehadcontractedthehabitofcomingtoooftentothekitchenwithhertwonurslingsandherboarder,betteroffforteeththanacannibal。ThenshegotridoftheHomaisfamily,successivelydismissedalltheothervisitors,andevenfrequentedchurchlessassiduously,tothegreatapprovalofthedruggist,whosaidtoherinafriendlyway——
  “Youweregoinginabitforthecassock!“
  Asformerly,MonsieurBournisiendroppedineverydaywhenhecameoutaftercatechismclass。Hepreferredstayingoutofdoorstotakingtheair“inthegrove,“ashecalledthearbour。ThiswasthetimewhenCharlescamehome。Theywerehot;somesweetciderwasbroughtout,andtheydranktogethertomadame’scompleterestoration。