andIsaidthemovertoher,holdingherhandsfirmlyinmine.Shegazedatmeasifinadream,andthelightslowlyfadedfromhereyesasshesaid,tearingherhandsfrommineandwavingthemtowardsthemountainsandthewoods——
’"Butnevermorehere?Nevermorehere?"
’Ibelieveinheavenandtheotherlife,butIconfessthatforamomentitallseemedshadowybesidetherealityofthiswarm,brightworld,fulloflifeandlove.Shewasveryillfortwonights,andwhenthecoffinwasclosedanewbabylayinthefather’sarms.
’Sheslowlycamebacktolife,buttherewerenomoresongs.Theminersstillcomeabouthershop,andtalktoherbaby,andbringhertheirsorrowsandtroubles;butthoughsheisalwaysgentle,almosttender,withthem,nomaneversays"Sing."AndthatiswhyIamgladshesanglastweek;itwillbegoodforherandgoodforthem.’
’Whydoesshestay?’Iasked.
’Mavor’speoplewantedhertogotothem,’hereplied.
’Theyhavemoney——shetoldmeaboutit,butherheartisinthegraveupthereunderthepines;andbesides,shehopestodosomethingfortheminers,andshewillnotleavethem.’
IamafraidIsnortedalittleimpatientlyasIsaid,’Nonsense!
why,withherface,andmanner,andvoiceshecouldbeanythingshelikedinEdinburghorinLondon.’
’AndwhyEdinburghorLondon?’heaskedcoolly.
’Why?’Irepeatedalittlehotly.’Youthinkthisisbetter?’
’NazarethwasgoodenoughfortheLordofglory,’heanswered,withasmilenonetoobright;butitdrewmyhearttohim,andmyheatwasgone.
’Howlongwillshestay?’Iasked.
’Tillherworkisdone,’hereplied.
’Andwhenwillthatbe?’Iaskedimpatiently.
’WhenGodchooses,’heansweredgravely;’anddon’tyoueverthinkbutthatitisworthwhile.Onevalueofworkisnotthatcrowdsstareatit.Readhistory,man!’
Heroseabruptlyandbegantowalkabout.’Anddon’tmissthewholemeaningoftheLifethatliesatthefoundationofyourreligion.Yes,’headdedtohimself,’theworkisworthdoing——
worthevenherdoing.’
Icouldnotthinksothen,butthelightoftheafteryearsprovedhimwiserthanI.Aman,toseefar,mustclimbtosomeheight,andIwastoomuchupontheplaininthosedaystocatchevenaglimpseofdistantsunlituplandsoftriumphantachievementthatliebeyondthevalleyofself—sacrifice.
CHAPTERV
THEMAKINGOFTHELEAGUE
ThursdaymorningfoundCraiganxious,evengloomy,butwithfightineverylineofhisface.ItriedtocheerhiminmyclumsywaybychaffinghimabouthisLeague.Buthedidnotblazeupasheoftendid.Itwasathingtoonearhisheartforthat.Heonlyshrankalittlefrommystupidchaffandsaid——
’Don’t,oldchap;thisisagooddealtome.I’vetriedfortwoyearstogetthis,andifitfallsthroughnow,Ishallfindithardtobear.’
ThenIrepentedmylightwordsandsaid,’Why!thethingwillgosureenough:afterthatsceneinthechurchtheywon’tgoback.’
’Poorfellows!’hesaidasiftohimself;’whiskyisabouttheonlyexcitementtheyhave,andtheyfinditprettytoughtogiveitup;
andalotofthemenareagainstthetotalabstinenceidea.Itseemsrottothem.’
’Itisprettysteep,’Isaid.’Can’tyoudowithoutit?’
’No;Ifearnot.Thereisnothingelseforit.Someofthemtalkofcompromise.Theywanttoquitthesaloonanddrinkquietlyintheirshacks.Themoderatedrinkermayhavehisplaceinothercountries,thoughIcan’tseeit.Ihaven’tthoughtthatout,butheretheonlysafemanisthemanwhoquitsitdeadandfightsitstraight;anythingelseissheeresthumbugandnonsense.’
Ihadnotgoneinmuchfortotalabstinenceuptothistime,chieflybecauseitsadvocatesseemedforthemostparttobesomewhatill—balanced;butasIlistenedtoCraig,Ibegantofeelthatperhapstherewasatotalabstinencesidetothetemperancequestion;andastoBlackRock,Icouldseehowitmustbeonethingortheother.
WefoundMrs.Mavorbraveandbright.ShesharedMr.Craig’sanxietybutnothisgloom.Hercouragewasofthatserenekindthatrefusestobelievedefeatpossible,andliftsthespiritintothetriumphoffinalvictory.Throughthepastweekshehadbeencarefullydisposingherforcesandwinningrecruits.Andyetsheneverseemedtourgeorpersuadethemen;butaseveningaftereveningtheminersdroppedintothecosyroomdownstairs,withhertalkandhersongsshecharmedthemtilltheywerewhollyhers.
Shetookforgrantedtheirloyalty,trustedthemutterly,andsomadeitdifficultforthemtobeotherthantruemen.
ThatnightMrs.Mavor’slargestoreroom,whichhadbeenfittedupwithseats,wascrowdedwithminerswhenMr.CraigandIentered.
Afteraglanceoverthecrowd,Craigsaid,’There’sthemanager;
thatmeanswar.’AndIsawatallman,veryfair,whosechinfellawaytothevanishingpoint,andwhosehairwaspartedinthemiddle,talkingtoMrs.Mavor.Shewasdressedinsomerichsoftstuffthatbecameherwell.Shewaslookingbeautifulasever,buttherewassomethingquitenewinhermanner.Herairofgood—
fellowshipwasgone,andshewasthehigh—bredlady,whosegentledignityandsweetgrace,whileverywinning,madefamiliarityimpossible.
Themanagerwasdoinghisbest,andappearedtobewellpleasedwithhimself.’She’llgethimifanyonecan.Ifailed,’saidCraig.
Istoodlookingatthemen,andafinelotoffellowstheywere.
Free,easy,boldintheirbearing,theygavenosignofrudeness;
and,fromtheirfrequentglancestowardMrs.Mavor,Icouldseetheywerealwaysconsciousofherpresence.NomenaresotrulygentleasaretheWesternersinthepresenceofagoodwoman.Theywereevidentlyofallclassesandranksoriginally,butnow,andinthiscountryofrealmeasurements,theyrankedsimplyaccordingtothe’man’inthem.’Seethathandsome,youngchapofdissipatedappearance?’saidCraig;’that’sVernonWinton,anOxfordgraduate,blueblood,awfullyplucky,butquitegone.Whenhegetsrepentant,insteadofshootinghimself,hecomestoMrs.Mavor.
Fact.’
’FromOxfordUniversitytoBlackRockminingcampissomethingofastep,’Ireplied.
’Thatqueer—lookinglittlechapinthecornerisBillyBreen.Howintheworldhashegothere?’wentonMr.Craig.Queer—lookinghewas.Alittleman,withasmallheadsetonheavysquareshoulders,longarms,andhugehandsthatsprawledalloverhisbody;altogetheramostungainlyspecimenofhumanity.
BythistimeMrs.Mavorhadfinishedwiththemanager,andwasinthecentreofagroupofminers.Hergrandairwasallgone,andshewastheircomrade,theirfriend,oneofthemselves.Nordidsheassumetheroleofentertainer,butratherdidshe,withhalf—
shyair,castherselfupontheirchivalry,andtheyweretootrulygentlementofailher.ItishardtomakeWesternmen,andespeciallyold—timers,talk.Butthisgiftwashers,anditstirredmyadmirationtoseeherdrawonagrizzledveterantotellhow,twentyyearsago,hehadcrossedtheGreatDivide,andhadseenanddonewhatnolongerfelltomentoseeordointhesenewdays.Andsoshewontheold—timer.ButitwasbeautifultoseetheinnocentguilewithwhichshecaughtBillyBreen,anddrewhimtohercornerneartheorgan.WhatshewassayingIknewnot,butpoorBillywasprotesting,wavinghisbighands.
Themeetingcametoorder,withShawinthechair,andthehandsomeyoungOxfordmansecretary.Shawstatedtheobjectofthemeetinginafewhaltingwords;butwhenhecametospeakofthepleasureheandallfeltinbeingtogetherinthatroom,hiswordsflowedinastream,warmandfull.Thentherewasapause,andMr.Craigwascalled.Butheknewbetterthantospeakatthatpoint.FinallyNixonrosehesitatingly;but,ashecaughtabrightsmilefromMrs.
Mavor,hestraightenedhimselfasifforafight.
’Iain’tnogoodatmakin’speeches,’hebegan;’butitain’tspeecheswewant.We’vegotsomethin’todo,andwhatwewanttoknowishowtodoit.Andtoberightplain,wewanttoknowhowtodrivethiscursedwhiskyoutofBlackRock.Youallknowwhatit’sdoingforus——atleastforsomeofus.Andit’stimetostopitnow,orforsomeofusit’llmightysoonbetoolate.Andtheonlywaytostopitsworkistoquitdrinkin’itandhelpotherstoquit.IhearsometalkofaLeague,andwhatIsayis,ifit’saLeagueoutandoutagainstwhisky,aTotalAbstinencerighttotheground,thenI’mwithit——that’smytalk——ImovewemakethatkindofLeague.’
Nixonsatdownamidcheersandachorusofremarks,’Goodman!’
’That’sthetalk!’’Staywithit!’buthewaitedforthesmileandtheglancethatcametohimfromthebeautifulfaceinthecorner,andwiththatheseemedcontent.
Againtherewassilence.Thenthesecretaryrosewithaslightflushuponhishandsome,delicateface,andsecondedthemotion.
Iftheywouldpardonapersonalreferencehewouldgivethemhisreasons.Hehadcometothiscountrytomakehisfortune;nowhewasanxioustomakeenoughtoenablehimtogohomewithsomedegreeofhonour.Hishomeheldeverythingthatwasdeartohim.
Betweenhimandthathome,betweenhimandallthatwasgoodandbeautifulandhonourable,stoodwhisky.’Iamashamedtoconfess,’
andtheflushdeepenedonhischeek,andhislipsgrewthinner,’thatIfeeltheneedofsomesuchleague.’Hishandsomeface,hisperfectstyleofaddress,learnedpossiblyinthe’Union,’but,morethanall,hisshowofnerve——forthesemenknewhowtovaluethat——madeastrongimpressiononhisaudience;buttherewerenofollowingcheers.
Mr.Craigappearedhopeful;butonMrs.Mavor’sfacetherewasalookofwistful,tenderpity,forsheknewhowmuchthewordshadcostthelad.
Thenuproseasturdy,hard—featuredman,withaburrinhisvoicethatproclaimedhisbirth.HisnamewasGeorgeCrawford,I
afterwardslearned,buteveryonecalledhimGeordie.Hewasacharacterinhisway,fondofhisglass;butthoughhewasneverknowntorefuseadrink,hewasneverknowntobedrunk.Hetookhisdrink,forthemostpart,withbreadandcheeseinhisownshack,orwithafriendortwoinasober,respectableway,butnevercouldbeinducedtojointhewildcarousalsinSlavin’ssaloon.Hemadethehighestwages,butwasfartootrueaScottospendhismoneyrecklessly.EveryonewaitedeagerlytohearGeordie’smind.Hespokesolemnly,asbefittedaScotsmanexpressingadeliberateopinion,andcarefully,asifchoosinghisbestEnglish,forwhenGeordiebecameexcitednooneinBlackRockcouldunderstandhim.
’MaisterChairman,’saidGeordie,’I’mayefortemperanceina’
things.’Therewasashoutoflaughter,atwhichGeordiegazedroundinpainedsurprise.’I’llno’deny,’hewentoninanexplanatorytone,’thatItakmamornin’,an’maybeanipatnoon;
an’aweedrapaifterwarkintheevenin’,an’whilesasipo’
toddywi’afreenthaecauldnichts.ButI’mno’aguzzler,an’I
dinnaganginwi’thaeloonsflingin’abootguidmoney.’
’Andthat’sthrueforyou,mebye,’interruptedarichIrishbrogue,tothedelightofthecrowdandtheamazementofGeordie,whowentcalmlyon——
’An’Icannabideyonsaloonwhaurtheysellsicawfu’—likestuff——
it’smairlikelyenorguidwhisky,——andwhaurye’reneversureo’
yerrichtchange.It’sanawfu’—likeplace;man!’——andGeordiebegantowarmup——’yecanjuistsmellthesulphurwhenyegangin.
ButIdinnacareabootthaeTemperanceSoceeities,wi’theirpledgesan’havers;an’Icannaseewhathairmcancometillamanbytakin’abottleo’guidGlenlivethamewi’him.Icannabidethaeteetotalbuddies.’
Geordie’sspeechwasfollowedbyloudapplause,partlyappreciativeofGeordiehimself,butlargelysympatheticwithhisposition.
Twoorthreemenfollowedinthesamestrainadvocatingaleagueformutualimprovementandsocialpurposes,butwithouttheteetotalpledge;theywereagainstthesaloon,butdidn’tseewhytheyshouldnottakeadrinknowandthen.
Finallythemanagerrosetosupporthis’friend,Mistah——ah——
Cwafoad,’ridiculingtheideaofatotalabstinencepledgeasfanaticalandindeed’absuad.’Hewasopposedtothesaloon,andwouldliketoseeaclubformed,withacomfortableclub—room,books,magazines,pictures,games,anything,’dontcheknow,tomakethetimepasspleasantly’;butitwas’absuadtoaskmentoabstainfwomapwopahuseof——aw——nouwishingdwinks,’becausesomemenmadebeastsofthemselves.Heconcludedbyoffering$50.00towardsthesupportofsuchaclub.
Thecurrentoffeelingwassettingstronglyagainstthetotalabstinenceidea,andCraig’sfacewashardandhiseyesgleamedlikecoals.Thenhedidabitofgeneralship.Heproposedthatsincetheyhadthetwoplansclearlybeforethemtheyshouldtakeafewminutes’intermissioninwhichtomakeuptheirminds,andhewassuretheywouldbegladtohaveMrs.Mavorsing.Intheintervalthementalkedingroups,eagerly,evenfiercely,hamperedseriouslyintheforcefulexpressionoftheiropinionbythepresenceofMrs.Mavor,whoglidedfromgrouptogroup,droppingawordhereandasmilethere.Sheremindedmeofageneralridingalongtheranks,bracinghismenforthecomingbattle.ShepausedbesideGeordie,spokeearnestlyforafewmoments,whileGeordiegazedsolemnlyather,andthenshecamebacktoBillyinthecornernearme.WhatshewassayingIcouldnothear,butpoorBillywasprotesting,spreadinghishandsoutaimlesslybeforehim,butgazingatherthewhileindumbadmiration.Thenshecametome.’PoorBilly,hewasgoodtomyhusband,’shesaidsoftly,’andhehasagoodheart.’
’He’snotmuchtolookat,’Icouldnothelpsaying.
’Theoysterhidesitspearl,’sheanswered,alittlereproachfully.
’Theshellisapparentenough,’Ireplied,forthemischiefwasinme.
’Ahyes,’sherepliedsoftly,’butitisthepearlwelove.’
ImovedoverbesideBilly,whoseeyeswerefollowingMrs.MavorasshewenttospeaktoMr.Craig.’Well,’Isaid;’youallseemtohaveahighopinionofher.’
’An’ighhopinion,’hereplied,indeepscorn.’An’ighhopinion,youcallsit.’
’Whatwouldyoucallit?’Iasked,wishingtodrawhimout.
’Oidon’tcallitnothink,’hereplied,spreadingouthisroughhands.
’Sheseemsverynice,’Isaidindifferently.
HedrewhiseyesawayfromMrs.Mavor,andgaveattentiontomeforthefirsttime.
’Nice!’herepeatedwithfinecontempt;andthenheaddedimpressively,’Themasdon’tknowshouldn’tsaynothink.’
’Youareright,’Iansweredearnestly,’andIamquiteofyouropinion.’
Hegavemeaquickglanceoutofhislittle,deep—set,dark—blueeyes,andopenedhishearttome.Hetoldme,inhisquaintspeech,howagainandagainshehadtakenhiminandnursedhim,andencouragedhim,andsenthimoutwithanewheartforhisbattle,until,forveryshame’ssakeathisownmiserableweakness,hehadkeptoutofherwayformanymonths,goingsteadilydown.
’Now,oihain’tgotnogrip;butwhenshesaystometo—night,saysshe,"Oh,Billy"——shecallsmeBillytomyself’(thiswithatouchofpride)——’"oh,Billy,"saysshe,"wemust’aveatotalhabstinenceleagueto—night,andoiwantyouto’elp!"andshekeepsa—lookin’atmewiththoseheyeso’herntill,ifyoubelieveme,sir,’loweringhisvoicetoanemphaticwhisper,’thoughoiknowedoicouldn’t’elpnone,aforeoiknowedoipromised’eroiwould.It’s’erheyes.Whenthemheyessays"do,"hupyoustepsand"does."’
Irememberedmyfirstlookintohereyes,andIcouldquiteunderstandBilly’ssubmission.JustasshebegantosingIwentovertoGeordieandtookmyseatbesidehim.ShebeganwithanEnglishslumbersong,’Sleep,Baby,Sleep’——oneofBarryCornwall’s,Ithink,——andthensangalove—songwiththerefrain,’Loveonceagain’;butnothrillscametome,andIbegantowonderifherspellovermewasbroken.Geordie,whohadbeenlisteningsomewhatindifferently,encouragedme,however,bysaying,’She’sjustpittin’afftimewiththaefecklesssangs;man,there’snaegruptillthem.’Butwhen,afterafewminutes’pause,shebegan’MyAinFireside,’Geordiegaveasighofsatisfaction.’Ay,that’ssomethin’like,’andwhenshefinishedthefirstversehegavemeadigintheribswithhiselbowthattookmybreathaway,sayinginawhisper,’Man,heartillyon,wullye?’AndagainI
foundthespelluponme.Itwasnotthevoiceafterall,butthegreatsoulbehindthatthrilledandcompelled.Shewasseeing,feeling,livingwhatshesang,andhervoiceshowedusherheart.
Thecosyfireside,withitsbonnie,blitheblink,wherenocarecouldabide,butonlypeaceandlove,wasvividlypresenttoher,andasshesangwesawittoo.Whenshecametothelastverse——
’WhenIdrawinmystoolOnmycosyhearth—stane,MyheartloupssaelichtIscarceken’tformyain,’
therewasafeelingoftearsintheflowingsong,andweknewthewordshadbroughtherapictureofthefiresidethatwouldalwaysseemempty.Ifeltthetearsinmyeyes,and,wonderingatmyself,Icastastealthyglanceatthemenaboutme;andIsawthatthey,too,werelookingthroughtheirhearts’windowsuponfiresidesandingle—neuksthatgleamedfromfar.
Andthenshesang’TheAuldHoose,’andGeordie,givingmeanotherpoke,said,’That’smaainsang,’andwhenIaskedhimwhathemeant,hewhisperedfiercely,’Wheesht,man!’andIdid,forhisfacelookeddangerous.
InapausebetweentheversesIheardGeordiesayingtohimself,’Ay,Imaungieitup,Idoot.’
’What?’Iventured.
’Naethingava.’Andthenheaddedimpatiently,’Man,butye’reaninqueesitivebuddie,’afterwhichIsubsidedintosilence.
Immediatelyuponthemeetingbeingcalledtoorder,Mr.Craigmadehisspeech,anditwasafinebitofwork.Beginningwithaclearstatementoftheobjectinview,hesetincontrastthetwokindsofleaguesproposed.One,aleagueofmenwhowouldtakewhiskyinmoderation;theother,aleagueofmenwhowerepledgedtodrinknonethemselves,andtopreventineveryhonourablewayothersfromdrinking.Therewasnolongargument,buthespokeatwhiteheat;
andasheappealedtothementothink,eachnotofhimselfalone,butoftheothersaswell,theyearning,bornofhislongmonthsofdesireandoftoil,vibratedinhisvoiceandreachedtotheheart.
Manymenlookeduncomfortableanduncertain,andeventhemanagerlookednonetoocheerful.
Atthiscriticalmomentthecrowdgotashock.BillyBreenshuffledouttothefront,and,inavoiceshakingwithnervousnessandemotion,begantospeak,hislarge,coarsehandswanderingtremulouslyabout.
’Oihain’tnobloomin’temperancehorator,andmayhapoihain’tnorighttospeak’ere,butoigotsomethin’tosaigh(say)andoi’magoin’tosaighit.
’Parson,’eesaysisitwiskyornowiskyinthis’ereclub?Ifyehaskme,wich(which)yedon’t,thennowisky,saysoi;andifyehaskwhy?——lookatme!Onceoicouldminemorecoalthanhanymaninthecamp;nowoihain’tfittobeasorter.Onceoi’adsomeprideandhambition;nowoi’angsroundawaitin’forsomeonetosaigh,"Ere,Billy,’avesummat."Onceoimadegoodpaigh(pay),andsentit’omeregulartomypooroldmother(she’sinthewukusnow,sheis);oihain’tsent’erhanyforayearanda’alf.OnceBillywasagoodfellowand’adplentyo’friends;nowSlavin’isselfkicksunhout,’eedoes.Why?why?’Hisvoicerosetoashriek.’BecausewhenBilly’admoneyin’ispocket,heverymaninthisbloomin’campasmeetsunatheverycornersays,"’Ello,Billy,wat’llye’ave?"Andthere’swiskyatSlavin’s,andthere’swiskyintheshacks,andhevery’olidayandheverySundaythere’swisky,andw’enyefeelbadit’swisky,andw’enyefeelgoodit’swisky,andheverywhereandhalwaysit’swisky,wisky,wisky!Andnowye’regoin’tostopit,and’ow?T’manager,’eesayspictersandmagazines.’Eetakes’iswineand’isbeerlikeagentleman,’eedoes,and’eedon’t’avenouseforBillyBreen.Billy,’ee’sabeast,andt’manager,’eekicksunhout.Butsupposin’Billywantstostopbein’abeast,andstartsa—tryin’tobeamanagain,andw’en’eegetsgoodan’dry,alongcomessomeunandsays,"’Ello,Billy,’aveasmile,"ithain’tpictersnormagazines’udstopunthen.Pictersandmagazines!Gawd’elpthemanashain’tnothin’butpictersandmagazinesto’elpunw’en’ee’sgotadevilhinsideandadevilhoutsidea—shovin’anda—drawin’ofundownto’ell.Andthat’sw’ereoi’ma—goin’straight,andyerbloomin’
League,wiskyornowisky,can’thelpme.But,’andheliftedhistremblinghandsabovehishead,’ifyestopthewiskya—flowin’
roundthiscamp,ye’llstopsomeoftheseladsthat’sa—followin’
me’ard.Yes,you!andyou!andyou!’andhisvoicerosetoawildscreamasheshookatremblingfingeratoneandanother.
’Man,it’sfairgruesometaehearhim,’saidGeordie;’he’sno’
canny’;andreachingoutforBillyashewentstumblingpast,hepulledhimdowntoaseatbesidehim,saying,’Sitdoon,lad,sitdoon.We’llmakamano’yeyet.’Thenheroseand,usingmanyr’s,said,’MaisterChairman,a’dootwe’lljuisthaetogieitup.’
’Giveitup?’calledoutNixon.’GiveuptheLeague?’
’Na!na!lad,butjuisttheweedrapwhusky.It’snaethatguidonyway,andit’saterribleprice.Man,ginyegangtaeHenderson’sinBuchananStreet,inGleska,yeken,ye’llgetmairforthree—an’—saxpencethanyewullatSlavin’sforfivedollars.
An’it’llno’pityemadlikeyonstuff,butitgangsdoonsmoothan’saft—like.But’(regretfully)’ye’llno’cangetithere;an’
a’mthinkin’a’lljuistsignyonteetotalthing.’AnduphestrodetothetableandputhisnamedowninthebookCraighadready.
ThentoBillyhesaid,’Come’awa,lad!pityernamedoon,an’
we’llstan’byye.’
PoorBillylookedaroundhelplessly,hisnerveallgone,andsatstill.Therewasaswiftrustleofgarments,andMrs.Mavorwasbesidehim,and,inavoicethatonlyBillyandIcouldhear,said,’You’llsignwith,me,Billy?’
Billygazedatherwithahopelesslookinhiseyes,andshookhislittle,head.Sheleanedslightlytowardhim,smilingbrightly,and,touchinghisarmgently,said——
’Come,Billy,there’snofear,’andinalowervoice,’Godwillhelpyou.’
AsBillywentup,followingMrs.Mavorclose,ahushfellonthemenuntilhehadputhisnametothepledge;thentheycameup,manbyman,andsigned.ButCraigsatwithhisheaddowntillI
touchedhisshoulder.Hetookmyhandandhelditfast,sayingoverandover,underhisbreath,’ThankGod,thankGod!’
AndsotheLeaguewasmade.
CHAPTERVI
BLACKROCKRELIGION
WhenIgrowwearywiththeconventionsofreligion,andsickinmysoulfromfeedinguponhusks,thatthechurchestoooftenofferme,intheshapeofelaborateserviceandeloquentdiscourses,sothatinmysicknessIdoubtanddoubt,thenIgobacktothecommunioninBlackRockandthedaysprecedingit,andthefeverandthewearinessleaveme,andIgrowhumbleandstrong.Thesimplicityandruggedgrandeurofthefaith,thehumblegratitudeoftheroughmenIseeaboutthetable,andthecalmradianceofonesaintlyface,restandrecallme.
NotitsmostenthusiasticapologistwouldcallBlackRockareligiouscommunity,butitpossessedinamarkeddegreethateminentChristianvirtueoftolerance.Allcreeds,allshadesofreligiousopinion,wereallowed,anditwasgenerallyconcededthatonewasasgoodasanother.Itisfairtosay,however,thatBlackRock’scatholicitywasnegativeratherthanpositive.Theonlyreligionobjectionablewasthatinsisteduponasanecessity.Itneveroccurredtoanyonetoconsiderreligionotherthanasarespectable,ifnotornamental,additiontolifeinolderlands.
DuringtheweeksfollowingthemakingoftheLeague,however,thisnegativeattitudetowardsthingsreligiousgaveplacetooneofkeeninvestigationandcriticism.Theindifferencepassedaway,andwithit,inalargemeasure,thetolerance.Mr.Craigwasresponsiblefortheformerofthesechanges,buthardly,infairness,couldhebeheldresponsibleforthelatter.Ifanyone,morethananother,wastobeblamedfortheriseofintoleranceinthevillage,thatmanwasGeordieCrawford.Hehadhis’lines’
fromtheEstablishedKirkofScotland,andwhenMr.CraigannouncedhisintentionofhavingtheSacramentoftheLord’sSupperobserved,Geordieproducedhis’lines’andpromptlyhandedthemin.
Asnoothermaninthevillagewasequippedwithlikespiritualcredentials,Geordieconstitutedhimselfakindofkirk—session,chargedwiththedoubledutyofguardingtheentrancetotheLord’sTable,andofkeepinganeyeuponthetheologicalopinionsofthecommunity,andmoreparticularlyuponsuchmembersofitasgaveevidenceofpossessinganyopinionsdefiniteenoughforstatement.
ItcametobeMr.Craig’shabittodropintotheLeague—room,andtowardthecloseoftheeveningtohaveashortScripturelessonfromtheGospels.Geordie’sopportunitycameafterthemeetingwasoverandMr.Craighadgoneaway.Themenwouldhangaboutandtalkthelessonover,expressingopinionsfavourableorunfavourableasappearedtothemgood.Thenitwasthatallsortsofviews,religiousandotherwise,wereairedandexamined.Theoriginalityoftheideas,theabsolutedisregardoftheauthorityofchurchorcreed,thefranknesswithwhichopinionswerestated,andtheforcefulnessofthelanguageinwhichtheywereexpressed,combinedtomakethediscussionsaltogethermarvellous.ThepassagebetweenAbeBaker,thestage—driver,andGeordiewasparticularlyrich.ItfolloweduponaverytellinglessonontheparableofthePhariseeandthePublican.
ThechiefactorsinthatwonderfulstoryweretransferredtotheBlackRockstage,andwerepresentedinminer’scostume.Abewasparticularlywellpleasedwiththescoringofthe’blankedoldroosterwhocrowedsoblankedhigh,’andsomewhatincensedatthequietremarkinterjectedbyGeordie,’thatitwasnaecredittillamantaebeasinner’;andwhenGeordiewentontourgetheimportanceofrightconductandrespectability,AbewasledtopourforthvialsofcontemptuouswrathuponthePhariseesandhypocriteswhothoughtthemselvesbetterthanotherpeople.ButGeordiewasquiteunruffled,andlamentedtheignoranceofmenwho,broughtupin’EpeescopawlyunorMethody’churches,couldhardlybeexpectedtodetecttheAntinomianorArminianheresies.
’AuntyNomyunorUncleNomyun,’repliedAbe,boilinghot,’mymotherwasaMethodist,andI’llbackanyblankedMethodistagainstanyblanketyblanklong—faced,lantern—jawed,skinflintPresbyterian,’andthishewaseagertomaintaintoanyman’ssatisfactionifhewouldstepoutside.
Geordiewasquiteunmoved,buthastenedtoassureAbethathemeantnodisrespecttohismother,whohehad’naedootwasacleverenoughbuddie,taejudgebyherson.’Abewasspeedilyappeased,andofferedtosetupthedrinksallround.ButGeordie,withevidentreluctance,hadtodecline,saying,’Na,na,lad,I’maLeaguemanyeken,’andIwassurethatGeordieatthatmomentfeltthatmembershipintheLeaguehaditsdrawbacks.
NorwasGeordietoosureofCraig’sorthodoxy;whileastoMrs.
Mavor,whoseslavehewas,hewasinthehabitoflamentingherdoctrinalcondition——
’She’safinewumman,naedoot;but,puircratur,she’sfaircarriedawawi’theerrorso’thaeEpeescopawlyuns.’
ItfelltoGeordie,therefore,asasacredduty,inviewofthelaxityofthosewhoseemedtobethepillarsoftheChurch,tobeallthemorewatchfulandunyielding.Buthewasdelightfullyinconsistentwhenconfrontedwithparticulars.Inconversationwithhimonenightafteroneofthemeetings,whenhehadbeenspeciallyhardupontheignorantandgodless,IinnocentlychangedthesubjecttoBillyBreen,whomGeordiehadtakentohisshacksincethenightoftheLeague.HewasveryproudofBilly’ssuccessinthefightagainstwhisky,thecreditofwhichhedividedunevenlybetweenMrs.Mavorandhimself.
’He’sfairdaftaboother,’heexplainedtome,’an’I’llno’denybutshe’sagreathelp,ay,averraconseederableasseestance;but,man,shedoesnakenthewhusky,an’theinsideo’amanthat’swantin’it.Ay,puirbuddie,shedizherpairt,an’whenye’reabitrestlessanthrawnaifteryerday’swark,it’slikeawalkinabonnieglenonasimmereve,withthebirdsliltin’aboot,taesitinyonroomieandhearhersing;butwhenthenightison,an’yecannasleep,butwaukenwi’an’awfu’thurstandwi’dreamso’cosyfiresides,andthebonniesparklin’glosses,asitiswi’puirBilly,ay,it’sthenyeneedamanwi’aguidgrupbesideye.’
’Whatdoyoudothen,Geordie?’Iasked.
’Ooay,Ijuistgangforabitwalkwi’thelad,andthenpitsthekettleonan’maksacupo’teaorcoffee,an’affhegangstaesleeplikeabairn.’
’PoorBilly,’Isaidpityingly,’there’snohopeforhiminthefuture,Ifear.’
’Hootawa,man,’saidGeordiequickly.’Yewadnakeepootapuircraturfraecreepin’in,that’sdaein’hisbest?’
’But,Geordie,’Iremonstrated,’hedoesn’tknowanythingofthedoctrines.Idon’tbelievehecouldgiveus"TheChiefEndofMan."’
’An’wha’staeblameforthat?’saidGeordie,withfineindignation.’An’maybeyouremembertheproodPhariseeandthepuirwummanthatcam’creepin’inahinttheMaister.’
ThemingledtendernessandindignationinGeordie’sfacewerebeautifultosee,soImeeklyanswered,’Well,IhopeMr.Craigwon’tbetoostrictwiththeboys.’
Geordieshotasuspiciousglanceatme,butIkeptmyfacelikeasummermorn,andherepliedcautiously——
’Ay,he’sno’thatstreect:buthemaunexerceesediscreemination.’
Geordiewasnonethelessdetermined,however,thatBillyshould’comeforrit’;butastothemanager,whowasamemberoftheEnglishChurch,andsomeotherswhohadbeenconfirmedyearsago,andhadforgottenmuchanddeniedmore,hewasextremelydoubtful,andexpressedhimselfinverydecidedwordstotheminister——
’Ye’llno’beaskin’forritthaeEpeescopawlyunbuddies.Theyjuistkennaethingava.’
ButMr.Craiglookedathimforamomentandsaid,"HimthatcomethuntoMeIwillinnowisecastout,"’andGeordiewassilent,thoughhecontinueddoubtful.
Withallthesesomewhatfantasticfeatures,however,therewasnomistakingtheearnestspiritofthemen.Themeetingsgrewlargereverynight,andtheinterestbecamemoreintense.Thesingingbecamedifferent.Themennolongersimplyshouted,butasMr.
Craigwouldcallattentiontothesentimentofthehymn,thevoiceswouldattunethemselvestothewords.Insteadofencouraginganythinglikeemotionalexcitement,Mr.Craigseemedtofearit.
’Thesechapsareeasilystirredup,’hewouldsay,’andIamanxiousthattheyshouldknowexactlywhattheyaredoing.Itisfartooseriousabusinesstotriflewith.’
AlthoughGraemedidnotgodownstairstothemeetings,hecouldnotbutfeelthethroboftheemotionbeatingintheheartofthecommunity.Iusedtodetailforhisbenefit,andsometimesforhisamusement,theincidentsofeachnight.ButIneverfeltquiteeasyindwellinguponthehumorousfeaturesinMrs.Mavor’spresence,althoughCraigdidnotappeartomind.HismannerwithGraemewasperfect.Openlyanxioustowinhimtohisside,hedidnotimprovetheoccasionandvexhimwithexhortation.Hewouldnottakehimatadisadvantage,though,asIafterwardsfound,thiswasnothissolereasonforhismethod.Mrs.Mavor,too,showedherselfinwiseandtenderlight.Shemighthavebeenhissister,sofrankwassheandsoopenlyaffectionate,laughingathisfretfulnessandsoothinghisweariness.
Neverwerebettercomradesthanwefour,andthebrightdaysspeedingsoswiftlyondrewusnearertooneanother.
Butthebrightdayscametoanend;forGraeme,whenoncehewasabletogoabout,becameanxioustogetbacktothecamp.Andsothelastdaycame,adayIrememberwell.Itwasabright,crispwinterday.
Theairwasshimmeringinthefrostylight.Themountains,withtheirshiningheadspiercingthroughlightcloudsintothatwonderfulblueofthewesternsky,andtheirfeetpushedintothepinemasses,gazeddownuponBlackRockwithcalm,kindlylooksontheiroldgreyfaces.Howonegrowstolovethem,steadfastoldfriends!Farupamongthepineswecouldseethesmokeoftheengineattheworks,andsostillandsoclearwasthemountainairthatwecouldhearthepuffofthesteam,andfromfardowntheriverthemurmuroftherapids.Themajesticsilence,thetenderbeauty,thepeace,theloneliness,too,camestealinginuponus,aswethree,leavingMrs.Mavorbehindus,marchedarm—in—armdownthestreet.Wehadnotgonefaronourway,whenGraeme,turninground,stoodamomentlookingback,thenwavedhishandinfarewell.Mrs.Mavorwasatherwindow,smilingandwavinginreturn.Theyhadgrowntobegreatfriendsthesetwo;andseemedtohavearrivedatsomeunderstanding.Certainly,Graeme’smannertoherwasnotthatheboretootherwomen.Hishalf—quizzical,somewhatsuperiorairofmockingdevotiongaveplacetoasimple,earnest,almosttender,respect,verynewtohim,butverywinning.
Ashestoodtherewavinghisfarewell,IglancedathisfaceandsawforamomentwhatIhadnotseenforyears,afaintflushonGraeme’scheekandalightofsimple,earnestfaithinhiseyes.
Itremindedmeofmyfirstlookofhimwhenhehadcomeupforhismatriculationtothe’Varsity.Hestoodonthecampuslookingupatthenobleoldpile,andtherewasthesamebright,trustful,earnestlookonhisboyishface.
Iknownotwhatspiritpossessedme;itmayhavebeenthepainofthememoryworkinginme,butIsaid,coarselyenough,’It’snouse,Graeme,myboy;Iwouldfallinlovewithhermyself,buttherewouldbenochanceevenforme.’
Theflushslowlydarkenedasheturnedandsaiddeliberately——
’It’snotlikeyou,Connor,tobeanassofthatpeculiarkind.
Love!——notexactly!Shewon’tfallinloveunless——’andhestoppedabruptlywithhiseyesuponCraig.
ButCraigmethimwithunshrinkinggaze,quietlyremarking,’Herheartisunderthepines’;andwemovedon,eachthinkinghisownthoughts,andguessingatthethoughtsoftheothers.
WewereonourwaytoCraig’sshack,andaswepassedthesaloonSlavinsteppedfromthedoorwithasalutation.Graemepaused.
’Hello,Slavin!Igotrathertheworstofit,didn’tI?’
Slavincamenear,andsaidearnestly,’Itwasadirtythrickaltogether;you’llnotthinkitwasmoine,Mr.Graeme.’
’No,no,Slavin!youstooduplikeaman,’saidGraemecheerfully.
’Andyoubatemefair;an’bedaditwasanateonethatlaidmeout;an’there’snogrudgeinmehearttillye.’
’Allright,Slavin;we’llperhapsunderstandeachotherbetterafterthis.’
’An’that’sthrueforyez,sor;an’I’llseethatyourbyesdon’tgetanymorethantheyaskfor,’repliedSlavin,backingaway.
’AndIhopethatwon’tbemuch,’putinMr.Craig;butSlavinonlygrinned.
WhenwecametoCraig’sshackGraemewasgladtorestinthebigchair.
Craigmadehimacupoftea,whileIsmoked,admiringmuchthedeftneatnessoftheminister’shousekeeping,andthegentle,almostmotherly,wayhehadwithGraeme.
Inourtalkwedriftedintothefuture,andCraigletusseewhatwerehisambitions.Therailwaywassoontocome;theresourceswere,asyet,unexplored,butenoughwasknowntoassureagreatfutureforBritishColumbia.Ashetalkedhisenthusiasmgrew,andcarriedusaway.Withtheeyeofageneralhesurveyedthecountry,fixedthestrategicpointswhichtheChurchmustseizeupon.EightgoodmenwouldholdthecountryfromFortSteeletothecoast,andfromKootenaytoCariboo.
’TheChurchmustbeinwiththerailway;shemusthaveahandintheshapingofthecountry.Ifsocietycrystalliseswithoutherinfluence,thecountryislost,andBritishColumbiawillbeanothertrap—doortothebottomlesspit.’
’Whatdoyoupropose?’Iasked.
’OrganisingalittlecongregationhereinBlackRock.’
’Howmanywillyouget?’
’Don’tknow.’
’Prettyhopelessbusiness,’Isaid.
’Hopeless!hopeless!’hecried;’therewereonlytwelveofusatfirsttofollowHim,andratherapoorlottheywere.ButHebracedthemup,andtheyconqueredtheworld.’
’Butsurelythingsaredifferent,’saidGraeme.
’Things?Yes!yes!ButHeisthesame.’Hisfacehadanexaltedlook,andhiseyesweregazingintofar—awayplaces.
’AdozenmeninBlackRockwithsomerealgripofHimwouldmakethingsgo.We’llgetthem,too,’hewentoningrowingexcitement.
’Ibelieveinmysoulwe’llgetthem.’
’Lookhere,Craig;ifyouorganiseI’dliketojoin,’saidGraemeimpulsively.’Idon’tbelievemuchinyourcreedoryourChurch,butI’llbeblowedifIdon’tbelieveinyou.’
Craiglookedathimwithwistfuleyes,andshookhishead.’Itwon’tdo,oldchap,youknow.Ican’tholdyou.You’vegottohaveagripofsomeonebetterthanIam;andthen,besides,I
hardlylikeaskingyounow’;hehesitated——’well,tobeout—and—
out,thisstepmustbetakennotformysake,norforanyman’ssake,andIfancythatperhapsyoufeellikepleasingmejustnowalittle.’
’ThatIdo,oldfellow,’saidGraeme,puttingouthishand.’I’llbehangedifIwon’tdoanythingyousay.’
’That’swhyIwon’tsay,’repliedCraig.Thenreverentlyheadded,’theorganisationisnotmine.ItismyMaster’s.’
’Whenareyougoingtobegin?’askedGraeme.
’Weshallhaveourcommunionserviceintwoweeks,andthatwillbeourroll—call.’
’Howmanywillanswer?’Iaskeddoubtfully.
’Iknowofthree,’hesaidquietly.
’Three!Therearetwohundredminersandonehundredandfiftylumbermen!Three!’andGraemelookedathiminamazement.’Youthinkitworthwhiletoorganisethree?’
’Well,’repliedCraig,smilingforthefirsttime,’theorganisationwon’tbeelaborate,butitwillbeeffective,and,besides,loyaltydemandsobedience.’
Wesatlongthatafternoontalking,shrinkingfromthebreakingup;
forweknewthatwewereabouttoturndownachapterinourliveswhichweshoulddelighttolingeroverinafterdays.Andinmylifethereisbutonebrighter.Atlastwesaidgood—byeanddroveaway;andthoughmanyfarewellshavecomeinbetweenthatdayandthis,noneissovividlypresenttomeasthatbetweenusthreemen.Craig’smannerwithmewassolemnenough.’"Hethatlovethhislife";good—bye,don’tfoolwiththis,’waswhathesaidtome.
ButwhenheturnedtoGraemehiswholefacelitup.Hetookhimbytheshouldersandgavehimalittleshake,lookingintohiseyes,andsayingoverandoverinalow,sweettone——
’You’llcome,oldchap,you’llcome,you’llcome.Tellmeyou’llcome.’
AndGraemecouldsaynothinginreply,butonlylookedathim.
Thentheysilentlyshookhands,andwedroveoff.Butlongafterwehadgotoverthemountainandintothewindingforestroadonthewaytothelumber—campthevoicekeptvibratinginmyheart,’You’llcome,you’llcome,’andtherewasahotpaininmythroat.
Wesaidlittleduringthedrivetothecamp.Graemewasthinkinghard,andmadenoanswerwhenIspoketohimtwoorthreetimes,tillwecametothedeepshadowsofthepineforest,whenwithalittleshiverhesaid——
’Itisallatangle——ahopelesstangle.’
’Meaningwhat?’Iasked.
’Thisbusinessofreligion——whatquaintvarieties——Nelson’s,Geordie’s,BillyBreen’s——ifhehasany——thenMrs.Mavor’s——sheisasaint,ofcourse——andthatfellowCraig’s.Whatatrumpheis!——
andwithouthisreligionhe’dbeprettymuchliketherestofus.
Itistoomuchforme.’
Hismysterywasnotmine.TheBlackRockvarietiesofreligionwerecertainlystartling;buttherewasundoubtedlythestreakofrealitythoughthemall,andthatdiscoveryIfelttobeadistinctgain.
CHAPTERVII
THEFIRSTBLACKROCKCOMMUNION
Thegleamofthegreatfirethroughthewindowsofthegreatcampgaveakindlywelcomeaswedroveintotheclearinginwhichtheshantiesstood.Graemewasgreatlytouchedathisenthusiasticwelcomebythemen.Atthesupper—tablehemadealittlespeechofthanksfortheirfaithfulnessduringhisabsence,speciallycommendingthecareandefficiencyofMr.Nelson,whohadhadchargeofthecamp.Themencheeredwildly,Baptiste’sshrillvoiceleadingall.Nelsonbeingcalledupon,expressedinafewwordshispleasureatseeingtheBossback,andthankedthemenfortheirsupportwhilehehadbeenincharge.
Themenwereformakinganightofit;butfearingtheeffectuponGraeme,IspoketoNelson,whopassedtheword,andinashorttimethecampwasquiet.Aswesaunteredfromthegrub—camptotheofficewherewasourbed,wepausedtotakeinthebeautyofthenight.Themoonrodehighoverthepeaksofthemountains,floodingthenarrowvalleywithmellowlight.Underhermagictheruggedpeakssoftenedtheirharshlinesandseemedtoleanlovinglytowardus.Thedarkpinemassesstoodsilentasinbreathlessadoration;thedazzlingsnowlaylikeagarmentoveralltheopenspacesinsoft,wavingfolds,andcrownedeverystumpwithaquaintlyshapednightcap.Abovethecampsthesmokecurledupfromthecamp—fires,standinglikepillarsofcloudthatkeptwatchwhilemenslept.Andhighoverallthedeepbluenightsky,withitsstarjewels,sprangliketheroofofagreatcathedralfromrangetorange,coveringusinitskindlyshelter.Howhomelikeandsafeseemedthevalleywithitsmountain—sides,itssentineltreesandarchingroofofjewelledsky!Eventhenightseemedkindly,andfriendlythestars;andthelonecryofthewolffromthedeepforestseemedlikethevoiceofacomrade.
’Howbeautiful!toobeautiful!’saidGraeme,stretchingouthisarms.’Anightlikethistakestheheartoutofme.’
Istoodsilent,drinkinginateverysensethenightwithitswealthofloveliness.
’WhatisitIwant?’hewenton.’Whydoesthenightmakemyheartache?Therearethingstoseeandthingstohearjustbeyondme;I
cannotgettothem.’Thegay,carelesslookwasgonefromhisface,hisdarkeyeswerewistfulwithyearning.
’Ioftenwonderiflifehasnothingbetterforme,’hecontinuedwithhisheartachevoice.
Isaidnoword,butputmyarmwithinhis.Alightappearedinthestable.Gladofadiversion,Isaid,’Whatisthelight?Letusgoandsee.’
’Sandy,takingalastlookathisteam,likeenough.’
Wewalkedslowlytowardthestable,speakingnoword.Aswenearedthedoorweheardthesoundofavoiceinthemonotoneofonereading.Isteppedforwardandlookedthroughachinkbetweenthelogs.Graemewasabouttoopenthedoor,butIheldupmyhandandbeckonedhimtome.Inavacantstall,wherewasapileofstraw,anumberofmenweregrouped.Sandy,leaningagainstthetying—
postuponwhichthestable—lanternhung,wasreading;Nelsonwaskneelinginfrontofhimandgazingintothegloombeyond;Baptistelayuponhisstomach,hischininhishandsandhisupturnedeyesfasteneduponSandy’sface;LachlanCampbellsatwithhishandsclaspedabouthisknees,andtwoothermensatnearhim.SandywasreadingtheundyingstoryoftheProdigal,Nelsonnowandthenstoppinghimtomakearemark.ItwasasceneIhaveneverbeenabletoforget.To—dayIpauseinmytale,andseeitasclearlyaswhenIlookedthroughthechinkuponityearsago.Thelong,lowstable,withlogwallsanduprighthitching—poles;thedimoutlinesofthehorsesinthegloomofthebackground,andthelittlegroupofrough,almostsavage—lookingmen,withfaceswonderingandreverent,litbythemistylightofthestable—
lantern.
Afterthereading,SandyhandedthebooktoNelson,whoputitinhispocket,saying,’That’sforus,boys,ain’tit?’
’Ay,’saidLachlan;’itisoftenthathasbeenreadinmyhearing,butIamafraiditwillnotbeformewhatever,’andheswayedhimselfslightlyashespoke,andhisvoicewasfullofpain.
’TheministersaidImightcome,’saidoldNelson,earnestlyandhopefully.
’Ay,butyouarenotLachlanCampbell,andyouhefnothadhisprivileges.MyfatherwasagodlyelderintheFreeChurchofScotland,andneveranightormorningbutwetooktheBooks.’
’Yes,butHesaid"anyman,"’persistedNelson,puttinghishandonLachlan’sknee.ButLachlanshookhishead.
’Datyoungfeller,’saidBaptiste;’wha’sheesnem,heh?’
’Hehasnoname.Itisjustaparable,’explainedSandy.
’He’sgotnonem?He’sjustaparom’ble?Dasnoyoungfeller?’
askedBaptisteanxiously;’dasmeannoting?’
ThenNelsontookhiminhandandexplainedtohimthemeaning,whileBaptistelistenedevenmoreeagerly,ejaculatingsoftly,’ah,voila!bon!bygar!’WhenNelsonhadfinishedhebrokeout,’Datyoungfeller,hisnameBaptiste,heh?anddeoldFadderhe’slebonDieu?Bon!dasgoodstoryforme.Howyougoback?Yougotodepries’?’
’Thebookdoesn’tsaypriestoranyoneelse,’saidNelson.’Yougobackinyourself,yousee?’
’Non;dasso,surenuff.Ah!’——asifalightbrokeinuponhim——
’yougoinyourownself.Youmakeoneleetleprayer.Yousay,"LebonFadder,oh!Iwantcomeback,Isotire,sohongree,sosorree"?He,say,"Comeright’long."Ah!dasfuss—rate.Nelson,youmakeoneleetleprayerforSandyandme.’
AndNelsonlifteduphisfaceandsaid:’Father,we’reallgonefaraway;wehavespentall,wearepoor,wearetiredofitall;wewanttofeeldifferent,tobedifferent;wewanttocomeback.
Jesuscametosaveusfromoursins;andhesaidifwecameHewouldn’tcastusout,nomatterhowbadwewere,ifweonlycametoHim.Oh,JesusChrist’——andhisold,ironfacebegantowork,andtwobigtearsslowlycamefromunderhiseyelids——’weareapoorlot,andI’mtheworstofthelot,andwearetryingtofindtheway.Showushowtogetback.Amen.’
’Bon!’saidBaptiste.’DasfetchHimsure!’
Graemepulledmeaway,andwithoutawordwewentintotheofficeanddrewuptothelittlestove.Graemewasgreatlymoved.
’Didyoueverseeanythinglikethat?’heasked.’OldNelson!thehardest,savagest,toughestoldsinnerinthecamp,onhiskneesbeforealotofmen!’
’BeforeGod,’Icouldnothelpsaying,forthethingseemedveryrealtome.Theoldmanevidentlyfelthimselftalkingtosomeone.
’Yes,Isupposeyou’reright,’saidGraemedoubtfully;’butthere’salotofstuffIcan’tswallow.’
’Whenyoutakemedicineyoudon’tswallowthebottle,’Ireplied,forhistroublewasnotmine.
’IfIweresureofthemedicine,Iwouldn’tmindthebottle,andyetitactswellenough,’hewenton.’Idon’tmindLachlan;he’saHighlandmystic,andhasvisions,andSandy’salmostasbad,andBaptisteisanimpulsivelittlechap.Thosedon’tcountmuch.ButoldmanNelsonisacool—blooded,level—headedoldfellow;hasseenalotoflife,too.Andthenthere’sCraig.HehasabetterheadthanIhave,andisashot—blooded,andyetheislivingandslavingawayinthathole,andreallyenjoysit.Theremustbesomethinginit.’
’Oh,lookhere,Graeme,’Iburstoutimpatiently;’what’stheuseofyourtalkinglikethat?Ofcoursethere’ssomethinginit.I
here’severythinginit.ThetroublewithmeisIcan’tfacethemusic.Itcallsforalifewhereafellowmustgoinforstraight,steadywork,self—denial,andthatsortofthing;andI’mtooBohemianforthat,andtoolazy.ButthatfellowCraigmakesonefeelhorriblyuncomfortable.’
Graemeputhisheadononeside,andexaminedmecuriously.
’Ibelieveyou’rerightaboutyourself.Youalwayswerealuxuriousbeggar.Butthat’snotwhereitcatchesme.’
Wesatandsmokedandtalkedofotherthingsforanhour,andthenturnedin.AsIwasdroppingoffIwasrousedbyGraeme’svoice——
’AreyougoingtothepreparatoryserviceonFridaynight?’
’Don’tknow,’Irepliedrathersleepily.
’Isay,doyourememberthepreparatoryserviceathome?’Therewassomethinginhisvoicethatsetmewideawake.
’Yes.Ratherterrific,wasn’tit?ButIalwaysfeltbetterafterit,’Ireplied.
’Tome’——hewassittingupinbednow——’tomeitwaslikeacalltoarms,orratherlikeacallforaforlornhope.Nonebutvolunteerswanted.Doyourememberthethrillintheoldgovernor’svoiceashedaredanybuttherightstufftocomeon?’
’We’llgoinonFridaynight,’Isaid.
Andsowedid.Sandytookaloadofmenwithhisteam,andGraemeandIdroveinthelightsleigh.
Themeetingwasinthechurch,andoverahundredmenwerepresent.
Therewassomesingingoffamiliarhymnsatfirst,andthenMr.
Craigreadthesamestoryaswehadheardinthestable,thatmostperfectofallparables,theProdigalSon.BaptistenudgedSandyindelight,andwhisperedsomething,butSandyheldhisfacesoabsolutelyexpressionlessthatGraemewasmovedtosay——
’LookatSandy!Didyoueverseesuchagravenimage?Somethinghashithimhard.’
Themenwereheldfastbythestory.Thevoiceofthereader,low,earnest,andthrillingwiththetenderpathosofthetale,carriedthewordstoourhearts,whileaglance,agesture,amovementofthebodygaveusthevisionofitallashewasseeingit.
Then,insimplestofwords,hetolduswhatthestorymeant,holdingusthewhilewitheyes,andvoice,andgesture.Hecompelledusscornthegay,heartlessselfishnessoftheyoungfoolsettingforthsojauntilyfromthebrokenhome;hemovedourpityandoursympathyfortheyoungprofligate,who,brokenanddeserted,hadstillpluckenoughtodeterminetoworkhiswayback,andwho,inutterdesperation,atlastgaveitup;andthenheshowedusthehomecoming——theragged,heart—sicktramp,withhesitatingsteps,stumblingalongthedustyroad,andthentherushoftheoldfather,hisgarmentsfluttering,andhisvoiceheardinbrokencries.Iseeandhearitallnow,wheneverthewordsareread.
Heannouncedthehymn,’JustasIam,’readthefirstverse,andthenwenton:’Thereyouare,men,everymanofyou,somewhereontheroad.Someofyouaretoolazy’——hereGraemenudgedme——’andsomeofyouhaven’tgotenoughyetofthefarcountrytocomeback.
Maytherebeachanceforyouwhenyouwanttocome!Men,youallwanttogobackhome,andwhenyougoyou’llwanttoputonyoursoftclothes,andyouwon’tgotillyoucangoingoodstyle;butwheredidtheprodigalgethisgoodclothes?’QuickcametheanswerinBaptiste’sshrillvoice——
’Fromdeoldfadder!’
Noonewassurprised,andtheministerwenton——
’Yes!andthat’swherewemustgetthegood,cleanheart,thegood,clean,braveheart,fromourFather.Don’twait,but,justasyouare,come.Sing.’
Theysang,notloud,astheywould’StandUp,’oreven’TheSweetByandBy,’butinvoicessubdued,holdingdownthepowerinthem.
Afterthesinging,Craigstoodamomentgazingdownatthemen,andthensaidquietly——
’Anymanwanttocome?Youallmightcome.Weallmustcome.’
Then,sweepinghisarmovertheaudience,andturninghalfroundasiftomoveoff,hecried,inavoicethatthrilledtotheheart’score——
’Oh!comeon!Let’sgoback!’
Theeffectwasoverpowering.Itseemedtomethatthewholecompanyhalfrosetotheirfeet.Oftheprayerthatimmediatelyfollowed,Ionlycaughttheopeningsentence,’Father,wearecomingback,’formyattentionwassuddenlyabsorbedbyAbe,thestage—driver,whowassittingnextme.Icouldhearhimswearingapprovalandadmiration,sayingtohimself——
’Ain’theaclinker!I’llbegee—whizzly—gol—dustedifheain’tamalleable—iron—double—back—actionself—adjustingcorn—cracker.’
Andtheprayercontinuedtobepunctuatedwithlikeadmiringandevenmoresulphurousexpletives.Itwasanincongruousmedley.
Theearnest,reverentprayer,andtheearnest,admiringprofanity,renderedchaoticone’sideasofreligiouspropriety.Thefeelingsinbothwereakin;themethodofexpressionsomewhatwidelydiverse.
Afterprayer,Craig’stonechangedutterly.Inaquiet,matter—of—
fact,businesslikewayhestatedhisplanoforganisation,andcalledforallwhowishedtojointoremainafterthebenediction.
Somefiftymenwereleft,amongthemNelson,Sandy,LachlanCampbell,Baptiste,Shaw,Nixon,Geordie,andBillyBreen,whotriedtogetout,butwasheldfastbyGeordie.
Graemewaspassingout,butIsignedhimtoremain,sayingthatI
wished’toseethethingout.’Abesatstillbesideme,swearingdisgustedlyatthefellows’whoweregoingbackonthepreacher.’
Craigappearedamazedatthenumberofmenremaining,andseemedtofearthatsomethingwaswrong.Heputbeforethemthetermsofdiscipleship,astheMasterputthemtotheeagerscribe,andhedidnotmakethemeasy.Hepicturedthekindofworktobedone,andthekindofmenneededforthedoingofit.Abegrewuneasyastheministerwentontodescribethecompletenessofthesurrender,theintensityoftheloyaltydemanded.
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