Godfreymanagedtobelateagain,andonlyreachedhomefiveminutesafterhisfather,whohadbicycledinsteadofwalkingfromthestationashesupposedthathewoulddo。
“Iforgottogiveordersaboutyourlunch,“saidMr。Knighttentatively。“Ihopethatyoumanagedtogetsome。“
“Oh,yes,Father;thatis,Ilunchedout,attheHall。“
“Indeed!IdidnotknowthatSirJohnhadarrived。“
“No,hehasn’t;atleastIhavenotseenhim。IlunchedwithIsobel。“
“Indeed!“remarkedMr。Knightagain,andthesubjectdropped。
Nextday,Godfrey,oncemorearrayedinhisbestclothes,attendedtheprize-givinganddulywasmadetolookfoolish,onlygettinghomejustintimefordinner,afterwhichhisfatherrequestedhimtocheckcertainexaminationpapers。ThencameSundayandchurchatwhichIsobeldidnotappear;twochurchesinfact,andaftertheseateapartytothechurchwardensandtheirwives,towhomGodfreywasexpectedtoexplainthewondersoftheAlps。Beforeitwasover,ifhecouldhavemanagedit,thesestolidfarmerswiththeirfamilieswouldhavelainatthebottomofthedeepestmorainethatexistsamidthosefamousmountains。Buttheretheywere,swallowingteaandmunchingcakewhiletheygazedonhimwithox-likeeyes,andheplungedintowildexplanationsastothemovementsofglaciers。
“Somethinglikeoneofthemnew-fangledmachineswhatcarryhayupontothetopofstacks,“saidChurchwardenNo。1atlength。
“Didyoueversitonaglacierwhileitslidedfromthetoptothebottomofamountain,MasterGodfrey,andifso,howeverdidyougetupagain?“askedChurchwardenNo。2。
“Isaglaciersocalledafterthetradesmanwhatcutsglass,becauseglassandicearebothclear-like?“inquiredChurchwardenNo。1,filledwithsuddeninspiration。
ThenGodfrey,indespair,saidthathethoughtitwasandfledaway,onlytobereproachedafterwardsbyhisfatherforhavingtriedtopuzzlethoseexcellentandpiousmen。
OnMondayhisluckwasbetter,sinceMr。Knightwascalledawayimmediatelyafterlunchtotakeafuneralinadistantparishofwhichtheincumbentwasabsentattheseaside。Godfrey,byakindofinstinct,spedatoncetothewillowlogbythestream,where,throughanoutreachingofthelongarmofcoincidence,hefoundIsobelseated。
Aftercasuallyremarkingthattheswallowswereflyingneitherhighnorlowthatday,butasitwereinmid-air,sheaddedthatshehadnotseenhimforalongwhile。
“No,youhaven’t——sayforthreeyears,“heanswered,anddetailedhistribulations。
“Ah!“saidIsobel,“that’salwaystheway;oneisneverleftatleisuretofollowone’sownfanciesinthisworld。To-morrow,forinstance,myfatherandallhishorriblefriends——Idon’tknowanyofthem,exceptone,butfrompastexperienceIpresumethemtobehorrible——arecomingdowntolunch,andaregoingtostopforthreedays’partridgeshooting。Theirfemalebelongingsaregoingtostopalso,orsomeofthemare,whichmeansthatIshallhavetolookafterthem。“
“It’sallbadnewsto-day,“remarkedGodfrey,shakinghishead。“I’vejusthadatelegramsayingthatImustreportmyselfonWednesday,goodnessknowswhy,forIexpectedtogetamonth’sleave。“
“Oh!“saidIsobel,lookingalittledismayed。“Thenletusmakethebestofto-day,forwhoknowswhatto-morrowmaybringforth?“
Whoindeed?Certainlynoteitheroftheseyoungpeople。
Theytalkedawhileseatedbytheriver;thenbegantowalkthroughcertainancientgrazinggroundswherethemonksusedtoruntheircattle。Theirconversation,fluentenoughatfirst,grewsomewhatconstrainedandartificial,sincebothofthemwerethinkingofmattersdifferentfromthosethattheyweretryingtodressoutinwords;intimate,pressing,burningmattersthatseemedtodevourtheirintelligencesofeverydaywithakindofeatingfire。Theygrewalmostsilent,talkingonlyatrandomandlisteningtothebeatingoftheirownheartsratherthantothewordsthatfellfromeachot[www.kanbaapp.com]her’slips。
Theskycloudedover,andsomeheavydropsofrainbegantofall。
“Isupposethatwemustgoin,“saidIsobel,“weshallbesoakedpresently,“andsheglancedatherlightsummerattire。
“Where?“exclaimedGodfrey。“TheAbbey?No,myfatherwillbebackbynow;itmustbetheHall。“
“Verywell,butIdaresay/my/fatheristherebynow,forI
understandthatheiscomingdownthisafternoontoarrangeabouttheshooting。“
“Greatheavens!“groanedGodfrey,“andIwantedto——tellyouastorywhichIthoughtperhapsmightinterestyou,andIdon’tknowwhenI
shallgetanotherchance——now。“
“Thenwhydidyounottellyourstorybefore?“sheinquiredwithsomeirritation。
“Oh!becauseIhaveonlyjustthoughtofit,“herepliedratherwildly。
Atthismomenttheywerepassingthechurch,andtherainbegantofallinearnest。Bysomemutualimpulsetheyenteredthroughthechanceldoorwhichwasalwaysunlocked,andbysomemutualfolly,leftitopen。
AdvancinginstinctivelytothetombsoftheunknownPlantagenetladyandherknightwhichweresointimatelyconnectedwiththelittleeventsoftheirlittlelives,theylistenedforawhiletotherushoftherainupontheleadenroof,sayingnothing,tillthesilencegrewirksomeindeed。Eachwaitedfortheothertobreakit,butwithawoman’sinfinitepatienceIsobelwaitedthelonger。Thereshestood,staringatthebrassofthePlantagenetlady,stillasthebonesofthatladywhichlaybeneath。
“Mystory,“saidGodfreyatlastwithagasp,andstopped。
“Yes,“saidIsobel。“Whatisit?“
“Oh!“heexclaimedinanagony,“averyshortone。Iloveyou,that’sall。“
Alittlequiverranthroughher,causingherdresstoshakeandthegoldMexicangodsonhernecklacetotinkleagainsteachother。Thenshegrewstillasastone,andraisingthoselargeandsteadyeyesofhers,lookedhimupanddown,finallyfixingthemuponhisown。
“Isthattrue?“sheasked。
“True!Itisastrueaslifeanddeath,orasHeavenandHell。“
“Idon’tknowanythingaboutHeavenandHell;theyarehypothetical,aretheynot?Lifeanddeathareenoughforme,“andshestopped。
“Thenbylifeanddeath,forlifeanddeath,andforever,Iloveyou,Isobel。“
“Thankyou,“shesaid,andstoppedoncemore。
“Youdon’thelponemuch。Haveyounothingtosay?“
“Whatistheretosay?YoumadeastatementforwhichIthankedyou。
Youaskednoquestion。“
“Itisaquestion,“heexclaimedindignantly。“IfIloveyou,ofcourseIwanttoknowifyouloveme。“
“Thenwhydidyounotsayso?But,“sheaddedverydeliberately,“sinceyouwanttoknow,Idoandalwayshaveandalwaysshall,inlifeordeath——andforever——ifthatmeansanything。“
Hestaredather,triedtouttersomethingandfailed。Thenhefellbackuponanotherveryprimitiveandancientexpedient。Flinginghisarmsabouther,hepressedhertohisheartandkissedheragainandagainandagain;nor,inhermomentofcompletesurrender,didshescrupletokisshimback。
Itwaswhiletheywerethusengaged,offeringawonderfulspectacleoflovetriumphantandrejoicinginitstriumph,thatanotherpersonwhowaspassingthechurchbethoughthimofitsshelterasarefugefromthepouringrain。Seeingtheopendoor,Mr。Knight,foritwashe,slippedintothegreatbuildinginhisquiet,rathercat-likefashion,butonitsthresholdsaw,andstopped。Notwithstandingtheshadows,herecognisedtheminamoment。More,thesightofthispair,thesonwhomhedislikedandthewomanwhomhehated,thusembraced,thuslostinaseaofpassion,movedhimtowhitefury,sothatheliftedhisclenchedhandsabovehisheadandshookthem,muttering:
“Andinmychurch,/my/church!“
Thenunabletobearmoreofthisspectacle,heslippedawayagain,heedlessofthepouringskies。
Bynature,althoughinobediencetoarashpromiseoncehehadmarried,Mr。Knightwasatruewoman-hater。Thatsexandeverythingtodowithitwererepellenttohim。Eventhemostharmlessmanifestationsofnaturalaffectionbetweenmaleandfemaleheconsidereddisgusting,indeedindecent,andifthesewerecarriedanyfurtherheheldittobeamongthegreatestofcrimes。Hewasoneofthosewho,ifhehadthepower,wouldhavehoundedanypoorgirlwho,inthecountryphrase,“hadgotintotrouble,“totheriverbrinkandoverit,asacreaturenotfittolive;orifsheescapeddestruction,wouldhave,andindeedoftenhad,pursuedherwithunceasingmalignity,thinkingthattherebyhedidGodservice。HisattitudetowardssuchapersonwasthatofanInquisitortowardsafallennun。
Moreover,hecoulddothiswithaclearconscience,sincehecouldtrulysaythathewasqualifiedtothrowthefirststone,beingofthosewhomistakepersonalaversionforpersonalvirtue。Becausehiscold-heartednaturerejectedit,heloathedthiskindofhumanfailingandfeltgoodintheloathing。Nordiditeveroccurtohimtoreflectthatothers,suchassecretmalice,jealousyandalluncharitablenessonwhichhisheartfed,mightbemuchworsethantheoutrushofhumanpassioninobediencetothealmightydecreeofNaturethatisdeterminednottodie。
Thesebeinghisviews,thefeelingsthatthesightawokeinhimofthispairdeclaringtheirholyloveintheaccustomed,humanfashion,canscarcelybemeasuredandarecertainlybeyonddescription。Hadhebeenanothersortofmanwhohadfoundsomedevilfloggingachildtodeath,therageandindignationarousedinhisbreastcouldnothavebeengreater,evenifitwerehisownchild。
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