Atanyrate,Isobel,whothought,likemostotheryoungpeople,thatwhentheyoncehavewrittensomething,itisconveyedbyamagicalagencytotheaddressee,evenifleftbetweentheleavesofablotter,acceptedtheassuranceasconclusive。Withoutdoubttheletterhadgoneanddulyarrived,onlyGodfreydidnotchoosetoanswerit,thatwasall。Perhapsthismightbebecausehewasstillangryonaccountoftheknightinarmour——oh!howshehopedthatthiswasthereason,but,ashercold,commonsense,ofwhichshehadanunusualshare,convincedher,muchmoreprobablytheexplanationwasthathewasengagedotherwise,anddidnotthinkitworthwhiletotakethetroubletowrite。
Lateron,itistrue,shedidmeantoaskMrs。Parsonswhethershehadforwardedtheletter。Butasitchanced,beforeshedidso,thatgoodwomanburstintoafloodofconversationaboutGodfrey,sayinghowhappyheseemedtobeinhisnewhomewithsuchniceladiesaround,whoitwasplain,thoughtsomuchofhim,andsoforth。ThisgarrulityIsobeltookasanintendedhintandceasedfromhercontemplatedqueries。WhensomemonthslaterMr。KnightbroughtherGodfrey’sepistlewhichannouncedhisinheritance,needlesstosay,everythingbecameplainasapikestafftoherexperiencedintelligence。
Soitcameaboutthattwoyoungpeople,whoadoredeachother,wereestrangedforaconsiderablelengthoftime。ForIsobelwrotenomoreletters,andtheproudandoutragedGodfreywouldratherhavediedthanattempttoopenacorrespondence——afterwhathehadseeninthatLondonsquare。Itistruethatinhisbriefepistleshome,whichwerealladdressedtohisfather,sinceMrs。Parsonswaswhatiscalled“apoorscholar,“hedidtryinaroundaboutwaytolearnsomethingaboutIsobel,buttheseinquiries,forreasonsofhisown,hisparentcompletelyignored。Inshort,shemighthavebeendeadforallthatGodfreyheardofher,ashebelievedthatshewasdead——tohim。
Meanwhile,Isobelhadotherthingstooccupyher。Hermother,asshehadsaidintheletterwhichMr。Knight’ssenseofdutycompelledhimtosteal,becameveryillwithlungtrouble。ThedoctorsannouncedthatsheoughttobetakentoEgyptorsomeotherwarmclimate,suchasAlgeria,forthewintermonths。SirJohnwouldhearnothingofthesort。Foryearspasthehadchosentoconsiderthathiswifewashypochondriacal,andallthemedicalopinionsinLondonwouldnothaveinducedhimtochangethatview。Thefactwas,asmaybeguessed,thatitdidnotsuithimtoleaveEngland,andthatforsundryreasonswhichneednotbedetailed,hedidnotwishthatIsobelshouldaccompanyhermothertowhathecalled“foreignparts。“InhissecrethearthereflectedthatifLadyJanedied,well,shedied,andwhileheavengainedasaint,earth,oratanyrate,SirJohnBlake,wouldbenoloser。Shehadplayedherpartinhislife,therewasnothingmoretobemadeofhereitherasawomanasasocialasset。Whatwoulditmatterifonemorepale,uninterestingladyoftitlejoinedthemajority?
IsobelhadoneofherstormyinterviewswithSirJohnuponthismatterofhermother’shealth。
“Sheoughttogoabroad,“shesaid。
“Whotoldyouthat?“askedherfather。
“Thedoctors。Iwaitedforthemandaskedthem。“
“Thenyouhadnobusinesstodoso。Youareanimpertinentandinterferingchit。“
“Isitimpertinentandinterferingtobeanxiousaboutone’smother’shealth,evenifoneisachit?“inquiredIsobel,lookinghimstraightintheeyes。
Thenhebrokeoutinhiscoarseway,sayingthingstohisdaughterofwhichheshouldhavebeenashamed。
Shewaiteduntilheceased,red-faced,andgasping,andreplied:
“Wereitnotformymother,whomyouabuse,althoughsheissuchanangelandhasalwaysbeensokindtoyou,Iwouldleaveyou,Father,andearnmyownliving,orgowithmyuncleEdgartoMexico,whereheistobeappointedMinister,asheandAuntMargaretaskedmeto。AsitisIshallstophere,thoughifanythinghappenstoMother,becauseyouwillnotsendherabroad,IshallgoifIhavetorunaway。Whywon’tyoulethergo?“sheaddedwithachangeofvoice。“Youneednotcome;Icouldlookafterher。IfyouthinkthatEgyptortheotherplaceistoofar,youknowthedoctorssaythatperhapsSwitzerlandwoulddohergood,andthatisquitenear。“
Hecaughtholdofthissuggestion,andexclaimed,withasneer:
“IknowwhyyouwanttogotoSwitzerland,Miss。Torunafterthatwhipper-snapperofaparson’sson,eh?Well,youshan’t。AndasforwhyIwon’tlethergo,it’sbecauseIdon’tbelievethosedoctors,whosayoneminutethatsheshouldgotoEgypt,whichishot,andthenexttoSwitzerland,whichiscold。Moreover,ImeanyoutostopinEngland,andnotgofoolingaboutwithalotofstrangemenintheseforeignplaces。Youaregrownupnowandout,andIhavemyownplansforyourfuture,whichcan’tcomeoffifyouareaway。WestopheretillChristmas,andthengotoLondon。There,that’sall,sohavedone。“
Attheseinsults,especiallythatwhichhadtodowithGodfrey,Isobelturnedperfectlyscarletandbitherliptillthebloodran。Thenwithoutanotherwordshewentaway,leavinghim,ifthetruthwereknown,alittlefrightened。Still,hewouldnotalterhisdecision,partlybecausetodosomustinterferewithhisplans,andhewasaveryobstinateman,andpartlybecauseherefusedtobebeatenbyIsobel。Thiswas,hefelt,atrialofstrengthbetweenthem,andifhegavewaynow,shewouldbemaster。Hiswife’swelfaredidnotenterintohiscalculations。
SotheystoppedinEssex,wherematterswentasthedoctorshadforetold,onlymorequicklythantheyexpected。LadyJane’scomplaintgrewrapidlyworse,sorapidlythatsoontherewasnoquestionofhergoingabroad。AtthelastmomentSirJohngrewfrightened,asbulliesareapttodo,andonreceiptofanindignantletterfromLordLynfield,nowanoldman,whohadbeeninformedofthefactsbyhisgrand-daughter,offeredtosendhiswifetoEgypt,oranywhereelse。
Againthedoctorswerecalledintoreport,andtoldhimwithbrutalfranknessthatiftheiradvicehadbeentakenwhenitwasfirstgiven,probablyshewouldhavelivedforsomeyears。Asitwas,itwasimpossibleforhertotravel,sincetheexertionmightcauseherdeathuponthejourney,especiallyifshebecameseasick。
ThisverdictcametoIsobel’sknowledgeasthefirsthaddone。Indeed,inhisconfusion,emphasizedbyseveralglassesofport,herfatherblurteditouthimself。
“Iwonderwhetheryouwilleverbesorry,“washersolecomment。
Thenshesatdowntowatchhermotherdie,andtothink。CouldtherebeanygoodGod,shewondered,ifHeallowedsuchthingstohappen。
Poorgirl!itwasherfirstexperienceofthesort,andasyetshedidnotknowwhatthingsareallowedtohappeninthisworldinobediencetotheworkingsofunalterablelawsbywhoeverandforwhateverpurposethesemaybedecreed。
Beingignorant,however,andstillveryyounganduntaughtoflife,shecouldnotbeexpectedtotaketheselargeviews,ortoguessattheHandofMercywhichholdsthecupofhumanwoes。Shesawhermotherfadingawaybecauseofherfather’sobstinacyandself-seeking,anditwasinconceivabletoherthatsuchanunnecessarythingcouldbeallowedbyagentleandlovingProvidence。Therefore,sheturnedherbackonProvidence,asmanyastrongsoulhasdonebeforeher,rejectingitforthereasonthatshecouldnotunderstand。
Hadshebutguessed,thisattitudeofhers,whichcouldnotbeconcealedentirelyinthecaseofanaturesofrank,wasthebitterestdropinhermother’sdraughtofdeath。She,poorgentlecreature,madenocomplaints,butonlyexcusesforherhusband’sconduct。Nor,saveforIsobel’ssakedidshedesiretolive。Hersimplefaithupboreherthroughthefearsofdeparture,andassuredherofforgivenessforallerrors,andofhappinessbeyondinalandwheretherewasoneatleastwhomshewishedtomeet。
“Iwon’ttrytoarguewithyou,becauseIamnotwiseenoughtounderstandsuchthings,“shesaidtoIsobel,“butIwish,dearest,thatyouwouldnotbesocertainastomatterswhicharetoohighforus。“
“Ican’thelpit,Mother,“sheanswered。
LadyJanelookedatherandsmiled,andthensaid:
“No,darling,youcan’thelpitnow,butIamsurethatatimemustcomewhenyouwillthinkdifferently。Isaythisbecausesomethingtellsmethatitisso,andtheknowledgemakesmeveryhappy。Youseewemustallofusgothroughdarknessandstormsinlife;thatisifweareworthanything,for,ofcourse,therearepeoplewhodonotfeel。Yetattheendthereislight,andlove,andpeace,foryouaswellasforme,Isobel;yes,andforallofuswhohavetriedtotrustandtorepentofwhatwehavedonewrong。“
“AsyoubelieveitIhopethatitistrue;indeed,Ithinkthatitmustbetrue,Motherdear,“saidIsobelwithalittlesob。
Thesubjectwasneverdiscussedbetweenthemagain,butalthoughIsobelshowednooutwardchangeofattitude,fromthattimeforwardtilltheend,hermotherseemedmucheasierinhermindaboutherandherviews。
“Itwillallcomeright。Weshallmeetagain。Iknowit。Iknowit,“
wereherlastwords。
Shediedquitesuddenlyonthe27thofDecember,thedayuponwhichSirJohnhadannouncedthattheyweretomovetoLondon。
Asamatteroffact,oneofthesurvivorsofthistriowastomovemuchfurtherthantoLondon,namely,Isobelherself。Ithappenedthus。
Thefuneralwasover;therelativesandthefewfriendswhoattendedithaddepartedtotheirroomsiftheywerestoppinginthehouse,orelsewhere;Isobelandherfatherwereleftalone。Sheconfrontedhim,atall,slimfigure,whosethickblondehairandpalefacecontrastedstrikinglywithherblackdress。Enormousinshape,forsoSirJohnhadgrown,carmine-colouredshadingtopurleabouttheshavedchinandlipswhichwerealsoofratheracurioushue,bald-headed,boldyetshifty-eyed,alsocladinblack,withabandofcrapeliketothatofaVictorianmute,abouthisshiningtallhat,heleanedagainsttheflorid,marblemantelpiece,ahugeobeseblotuponitswhiteness。Theywereaqueercontrast,asdissimilarperhapsastwohumanbeingswellcouldbe。
Forawhiletherewassilencebetweenthem,whichhe,whosenerveswerenotsoyoungorstrongashisdaughter’s,wasthefirsttobreak。
“Well,she’sdead,poordear,“hesaid。
“Yes,“answeredIsobel,herpent-upindignationburstingforth,“andyoukilledher。“
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