’Andyoumaytakeme,ifyouplease,beforethegreatLordJeffreys。Ihavedonenomorethanduty,thoughI
diditcrookedly,andtoldaheapoflies,foryoursake。AndprettygratitudeIgets。’
’Muchgratitudeyouhaveshown,’repliedLorna,’toMasterRidd,forallhiskindnessandhisgoodnesstoyou。Whowasitthatwentdown,attheperilofhislife,andbroughtyourfathertoyou,whenyouhadlosthimformonthsandmonths?Whowasit?Answerme,Gwenny?’
’GirtJanRidd,’saidthehandmaid,verysulkily。
’Whatmadeyoutreatmeso,littleGwenny?’Iasked,forLornawouldnotasklestthereplyshouldvexme。
’Because’eebe’estbelowherso。Hershanna’haveapoorfarmeringchap,notevenifherwereaCarnishman。
Allherland,andallherbirth——andwhobeyou,I’dliketoknow?’
’Gwenny,youmaygo,’saidLorna,reddeningwithquietanger;’andrememberthatyoucomenotnearmeforthenextthreedays。Itistheonlywaytopunishher,’
shecontinuedtome,whenthemaidwasgone,inastormofsobbingandweeping。’Now,forthenextthreedays,shewillscarcelytouchamorseloffood,andscarcelydoathingbutcry。Makeupyourmindtoonething,John;ifyoumeantotakeme,forbetterforworse,youwillhavetotakeGwennywithme。
’IwouldtakeyouwithfiftyGwennies,’saidI,’althougheveryoneofthemhatedme,whichIdonotbelievethislittlemaiddoes,inthebottomofherheart。’
’Noonecanpossiblyhateyou,John,’sheansweredverysoftly;andIwasbetterpleasedwiththis,thanifshehadcalledmethemostnobleandgloriousmaninthekingdom。
Afterthis,wespokeofourselvesandthewaypeoplewouldregardus,supposingthatwhenLornacametobeherownfreemistressasshemustdointhecourseoftimesheweretothrowherrankaside,andrefusehertitle,andcaringnotafigforfolkwhocaredlessthanafig-stalkforher,shouldshapehermindtoitsnativebent,andtomyperfecthappiness。Itwasnotmyplacetosaymuch,lestIshouldappeartouseanimproperandselfishinfluence。Andofcoursetoallmenofcommonsense,andtoeverybodyofmiddleagewhomustknowbestwhatisgoodforyouth,thethoughtswhichmyLornaentertainedwouldbeenoughtoprovehermadness。
Notthatwecouldnotkeepherwell,comfortably,andwithniceclothes,andplentyofflowers,andfruit,andlandscape,andtheknowledgeofourneighbours’
affairs,andtheirkindinterestinourown。Stillthiswouldnotbeasifsheweretheownerofacounty,andahaughtytitle;andabletoleadthefirstmenoftheage,byhermind,andface,andmoney。
ThereforewasIquiteresolvednottohaveawordtosay,whilethisyoungqueenofwealthandbeauty,andofnoblemen’sdesire,madeherminduphowtoactforherpuresthappiness。Buttodoherjustice,thiswasnotthefirstthingshewasthinkingof:thetestofherjudgmentwasonlythis,’Howwillmylovebehappiest?’
’Now,John,’shecried;forshewassoquickthatshealwayshadmythoughtsbeforehand;’whywillyoubebackward,asifyoucarednotforme?DoyoudreamthatIamdoubting?Mymindhasbeenmadeup,goodJohn,thatyoumustbemyhusband,for——well,Iwillnotsayhowlong,lestyoushouldlaughatmyfolly。
ButIbelieveitwaseversinceyoucame,withyourstockingsoff,andtheloaches。Rightearlyformetomakeupmymind;butyouknowthatyoumadeupyours,John;and,ofcourse,Iknewit;andthathadagreateffectonme。Now,afterallthisageofloving,shallatrifleseverus?’
Itoldherthatitwasnotrifle,butamostimportantthing,toabandonwealth,andhonour,andthebrillianceofhighlife,andbedespisedbyeveryoneforsuchabundantfolly。Moreover,thatIshouldappearaknavefortakingadvantageofheryouth,andboundlessgenerosity,andruiningasmenwouldsayanoblemaidbymyselfishness。AndItoldheroutright,havingworkedmyselfupbymyownconversation,thatshewasboundtoconsultherguardian,andthatwithouthisknowledge,Iwouldcomenomoretoseeher。Herflashofprideattheselastwordsmadeherlooklikeanempress;andIwasabouttoexplainmyselfbetter,butsheputforthherhandandstoppedme。
’Ithinkthatconditionshouldratherhaveproceededfromme。Youaremistaken,MasterRidd,insupposingthatIwouldthinkofreceivingyouinsecret。ItwasadifferentthinginGlenDoone,whereallexceptyourselfwerethieves,andwhenIwasbutasimplechild,andoppressedwithconstantfear。Youarequiterightinthreateningtovisitmethusnomore;butI
thinkyoumighthavewaitedforaninvitation,sir。’
’Andyouarequiteright,LadyLorna,inpointingoutmypresumption。Itisafaultthatmusteverbefoundinanyspeechofminetoyou。’
ThisIsaidsohumbly,andnotwithanybitterness——forIknewthatIhadgonetoofar——andmadehersopoliteabow,thatsheforgavemeinamoment,andwebeggedeachother’spardon。
’Now,willyouallowmejusttoexplainmyownviewofthismatter,John?’saidshe,oncemoremydarling。
’Itmaybeaveryfoolishview,butIshallneverchangeit。Pleasenottointerruptme,dear,untilyouhaveheardmetotheend。Inthefirstplace,itisquitecertainthatneitheryounorIcanbehappywithouttheother。Thenwhatstandsbetweenus?
Worldlyposition,andnothingelse。Ihavenomoreeducationthanyouhave,JohnRidd;nay,andnotsomuch。Mybirthandancestryarenotonewhitmorepurethanyours,althoughtheymaybebetterknown。Yourdescentfromancientfreeholders,forfive-and-twentygenerationsofgood,honestmen,althoughyoubearnocoatofarms,isbetterthanthelineageofnineproudEnglishnoblemenoutofeverytenImeetwith。Inmanners,thoughyourmightystrength,andhatredofanymeanness,sometimesbreakoutinviolence——ofwhichI
musttrytocureyou,dear——inmanners,ifkindness,andgentleness,andmodestyarethetruethingswanted,youareimmeasurablyaboveanyofourCourt-gallants;
whoindeedhaveverylittle。Asfordifferenceofreligion,weallowforoneanother,neitherhavingbeenbroughtupinabitterlypiousmanner。’
Here,thoughthetearswereinmyeyes,atthelovingthingslovesaidofme,IcouldnothelpalittlelaughatthenotionofanybitterpietybeingfoundamongtheDoones,oreveninmother,forthatmatter。Lornasmiled,inherslyestmanner,andwentonagain:——
’Now,yousee,Ihaveprovedmypoint;thereisnothingbetweenusbutworldlyposition——ifyoucandefendmeagainsttheDoones,forwhich,Itrow,Imaytrustyou。
Andworldlypositionmeanswealth,andtitle,andtherighttobeingreathouses,andthepleasureofbeingenvied。Ihavenotbeenhereforayear,John,withoutlearningsomething。Oh,Ihateit;howIhateit!OfallthepeopleIknow,therearebuttwo,besidesmyuncle,whodonoteithercovet,ordetestme。Andwhoarethosetwo,thinkyou?’
’Gwenny,forone,’Ianswered。
’Yes,Gwenny,forone。Andthequeen,fortheother。
TheoneistoofarbelowmeImean,inherownopinion,andtheothertoohighabove。Asforthewomenwhodislikeme,withouthavingevenheardmyvoice,Isimplyhavenothingtodowiththem。Asforthemenwhocovetme,formylandandmoney,Imerelycomparethemwithyou,JohnRidd;andallthoughtofthemisover。Oh,John,youmustneverforsakeme,howevercrossIamtoyou。Ithoughtyouwouldhavegone,justnow;andthoughIwouldnotmovetostopyou,myheartwouldhavebroken。’
’Youdon’tcatchmegoinahurry,’Iansweredverysensibly,’whentheloveliestmaideninalltheworld,andthebest,andthedearest,lovesme。Allmyfearofyouisgone,darlingLorna,allmyfear——’
’Isitpossibleyoucouldfearme,John,afterallwehavebeenthroughtogether?Nowyoupromisednottointerruptme;isthisfairbehaviour?Well,letmeseewhereIleftoff——oh,thatmyheartwouldhavebroken。
Uponthatpoint,Iwillsaynomore,lestyoushouldgrowconceited,John;ifanythingcouldmakeyouso。
ButIdoassureyouthathalfLondon——however,uponthatpointalsoIwillcheckmypowerofspeech,lestyouthinkmeconceited。Andnowtoputasideallnonsense;thoughIhavetalkednoneforayear,John,havingbeensounhappy;andnowitissucharelieftome——’
’Thentalkitforanhour,’saidI;’andletmesitandwatchyou。Tomeitistheverysweetestofallsweetestwisdom。’
’Nay,thereisnotime,’sheanswered,glancingatajewelledtimepiece,scarcelylargerthananoyster,whichshedrewfromherwaist-band;andthenshepusheditaway,inconfusion,lestitswealthshouldstartleme。’Myunclewillcomehomeinlessthanhalfanhour,dear:andyouarenottheonetotakeaside-
passage,andavoidhim。Ishalltellhimthatyouhavebeenhere;andthatImeanyoutocomeagain。’
AsLornasaidthis,withamannerasconfidentasneedbe,Isawthatshehadlearnedintownthepowerofherbeauty,andknewthatshecoulddowithmostmenaughtshesethermindupon。Andasshestoodthere,flushedwithprideandfaithinherownloveliness,andradiantwiththeloveitself,Ifeltthatshemustdoexactlyasshepleasedwitheveryone。Fornow,inturn,andelegance,andrichness,andvariety,therewasnothingtocomparewithherface,unlessitwereherfigure。
ThereforeIgavein,andsaid,——
’Darling,dojustwhatyouplease。Onlymakenorogueofme。’
Forthatshegavemethesimplest,kindest,andsweetestofallkisses;andIwentdownthegreatstairsgrandly,thinkingofnothingelsebutthat。
ItwouldbehardformetotellthestateofmindinwhichIlivedforalongtimeafterthis。Iputawayfrommealltorment,andthethoughtoffuturecares,andthesightofdifficulty;andtomyselfappeared,whichmeansthatIbecametheluckiestofluckyfellows,sincetheworlditselfbegan。Ithoughtnotoftheharvesteven,norofthemenwhowouldgettheirwageswithouthavingearnedthem,norofmymother’sanxietyandworryaboutJohnFry’sgreatfatnesswhichwasgrowinguponhim,andhowshewouldcryfiftytimesinaday,’Ah,ifourJohnwouldonlycomehome,howdifferenteverythingwouldlook!’
AlthoughtherewerenosoldiersnowquarteredatPlover’sBarrows,allbeingbusiedinharassingthecountry,andhangingthepeoplewheretherebellionhadthrivenmost,mymother,havingreceivedfrommeamessagecontainingmyplaceofabode,contrivedtosendme,bythepack-horses,asfineamaundasneedbeofprovisions,andmoney,andothercomforts。ThereinI
foundaddressedtoColonelJeremiahStickles,inLizzie’sbesthandwriting,halfasideofthedrieddeer’sflesh,inwhichherejoicedsogreatly。Also,forLorna,afinegreengoose,withalittlesalttowardsthetail,andnew-laideggsinsideit,aswellasabottleofbrandiedcherries,andseven,oritmayhavebeeneightpoundsoffreshhomemadebutter。
Moreover,tomyselftherewasaletterfullofgoodadvice,excellentlywellexpressed,andwouldhavebeenofthegreatestvalue,ifIhadcaredtoreadit。ButIreadallaboutthefarmaffairs,andthemanwhehadofferedhimselftoourBettyforthefivepoundsinherstocking;aswellastheanticsofSallySnowe,andhowshehadalmostthrownherselfatParsonBowden’sheadoldenoughtobehergrandfather,becauseontheSundayafterthehangingofaCountisburyman,hehadpreachedabeautifulsermonaboutChristianlove;whichLizzie,withhersharpeyes,foundtobetheworkofgoodBishopKen。AlsoIreadthattheDooneswerequiet;theparishesroundabouthavingunitedtofeedthemwellthroughtheharvesttime,sothataftertheday’shardwork,thefarmersmightgotobedatnight。
Andthisplanhadbeenfoundtoanswerwell,andtosavemuchtroubleonbothsides,sothateverybodywonderedithadnotbeendonebefore。ButLizziethoughtthattheDoonescouldhardlybeexpectedmuchlongertoputupwithit,andprobablywouldnothavedonesonow,butforalittleadversity;towit,thatthefamousColonelKirkehad,inthemostoutrageousmanner,hangednolessthansixofthem,whowerecapturedamongtherebels;forhesaidthatmenoftheirrankandbreeding,andabovealloftheirreligion,shouldhaveknownbetterthantojoinplough-boys,andcarters,andpickaxemen,againstourLordtheKing,andhisHolinessthePope。ThishangingofsomanyDoonescausedsomeindignationamongpeoplewhowereusedtothem;anditseemedforawhiletochecktherestfromanyspiritofenterprise。
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