ThesightofLondonwarmedmyheartwithvariousemotions,suchasacordialmanmustdrawfromtheheartofallhumanity。Heretherearequickwaysandmanners,andtherapidsenseofknowledge,andthepowerofunderstanding,ereawordbespoken。WhereasatOare,youmustsayathingthreetimes,veryslowly,beforeitgetsinsidetheskullofthegoodmanyouareaddressing。Andyetwearefarmoreclevertherethaninanyparishforfifteenmiles。
Butwhatmovedmemost,whenIsawagainthenobleoilandtallowoftheLondonlights,andthedrippingtorchesatalmosteverycorner,andthehandsomesignboards,wasthethoughtthatheremyLornalived,andwalked,andtooktheair,andperhapsthoughtnowandthenoftheolddaysinthegoodfarm-house。
AlthoughIwouldmakenoapproachtoher,anymorethanshehaddonetomeuponwhichgriefIhavenotdwelt,forfearofseemingselfish,yettheremustbesomelargechance,orthelittlechancemightbeenlarged,offallinginwiththemaidensomehow,andlearninghowhermindwasset。Ifagainstme,allshouldbeover。
Iwasnotthemantosighandcryforlove,likeaRomeo:noneshouldevenguessmygrief,exceptmysisterAnnie。
ButifLornalovedmestill——asinmyheartofheartsI
hoped——thenwouldIfornoonecare,exceptherowndeliciousself。Rankandtitle,wealthandgrandeur,allshouldgotothewinds,beforetheyscaredmefrommyowntruelove。
Thinkingthus,IwenttobedinthecentreofLondontown,andwasbittensogrievouslybycreatureswhosenameis’legion,’madwiththedelightofgettingawholesomefarmeramongthem,thatverilyIwasashamedtowalkinthecourtlypartsofthetownnextday,havinglumpsuponmyfaceofthesizeofapicklingwalnut。Thelandlordsaidthatthiswasnothing;andthatheexpected,intwodaysattheutmost,averyfreshyoungIrishman,forwhomtheywouldallforsakeme。Nevertheless,Ideclinedtowait,unlesshecouldfindmeahayricktosleepin;fortheinsectsofgrassonlytickle。HeassuredmethatnohayrickcouldnowbefoundinLondon;uponwhichIwasforcedtoleavehim,andwithmutualesteemweparted。
ThenextnightIhadbetterluck,beingintroducedtoadecentwidow,ofveryhighScotchorigin。Thathousewassweptandgarnishedso,thatnotabitwaslefttoeat,foreithermanorinsect。Thechangeofairhavingmademehungry,Iwantedsomethingaftersupper;
beingquitereadytopayforit,andshowingmypurseasasymptom。ButthefaceofWidowMacAlister,whenI
proposedtohavesomemorefood,wasathingtobedrawnifitcouldbedrawnfurtherbyournewcaricaturist。
ThereforeIleftheralso;forlieferwouldIbeeatenmyselfthanhavenothingtoeat;andsoIcamebacktomyoldfurrier;thewhichwasathoroughlyheartyman,andwelcomedmetomyroomagain,withtwoshillingsaddedtotherent,inthejoyofhisheartatseeingme。BeingunderparoletoMasterStickles,Ionlywentoutbetwixtcertainhours;becauseIwasaccountedasliabletobecalledupon;forwhatpurposeIknewnot,buthopeditmightbeagoodone。Ifeltitaloss,andahindrancetome,thatIwassoboundtoremainathomeduringthesessionofthecourtsoflaw;fortherebythechanceofeverbeholdingLornawasverygreatlycontracted,ifnotaltogetherannihilated。Fortheseweretheveryhoursinwhichthepeopleoffashion,andthehighworld,werewonttoappeartotherestofmankind,soastoencouragethem。Andofcoursebythistime,theLadyLornawashighamongpeopleoffashion,andwasnotlikelytobeseenoutoffashionablehours。Itistruethatthereweresomeplacesofexpensiveentertainment,atwhichthebettersortofmankindmightbeseenandstudied,intheirhoursofrelaxation,bythoseofthelowerorder,whocouldpaysufficiently。Butalas,mymoneywasgettinglow;andtheprivilegeofseeingmybetterswasmoreandmoredeniedtome,asmycashdrewshorter。Foramanmusthaveagoodcoatatleast,andthepocketsnotwhollyempty,beforehecanlookatthosewhomGodhascreatedforhisensample。
Hence,andfrommanyothercauses——partofwhichwasmyownpride——ithappenedthatIabodeinLondonbetwixtamonthandfiveweeks’time,ereeverIsawLorna。ItseemedunfitthatIshouldgo,andwaylayher,andspyonher,andsayormeantosay,’Lo,hereisyourpoorfaithfulfarmer,amanwhoisunworthyofyou,bymeansofhiscommonbirth;andyetwhodarestocrawlacrossyourpath,thatyoumaypityhim。ForGod’ssakeshowalittlepity,thoughyoumaynotfeelit。’
Suchbehaviourmightbecomelyinalove-lornboy,apagetosomegrandprincess;butI,JohnRidd,wouldneverstooptotheloweringofloveso。
NeverthelessIheardofLorna,frommyworthyfurrier,almosteveryday,andwithafineexaggeration。Thishonestmanwasoneofthosewhoinvirtueoftheirtrade,andnicetyofbehaviour,areadmittedintonoblelife,totakemeasurements,andshowpatterns。Andwhilesodoing,theycontrivetoacquirewhatistotheEnglishmindatoncethemostimportantandmostinterestingofallknowledge,——thescienceofbeingabletotalkaboutthetitledpeople。SomyfurrierwhosenamewasRamsack,havingtomakerobesforpeers,andcloaksfortheirwivesandotherwise,knewthegreatfolk,shamorreal,aswellasheknewafoxorskunkfromawolverineskin。
Andwhen,withsomefencingandfoilsofinquiry,I
hintedaboutLadyLornaDugal,theoldman’sfacebecamesopleasantthatIknewherbirthmustbewondroushigh。Atthismyowncountenancefell,I
suppose,——forthebettershewasborn,thehardershewouldbetomarry——andmistakingmyobject,hetookmeup:——
’Perhapsyouthink,MasterRidd,thatbecauseherladyship,LadyLornaDugal,isofScottishorigin,thereforeherbirthisnotashighasofourEnglishnobility。Ifyouthinksoyouarewrong,sir。ShecomesnotofthesandyScotchrace,withhighcheek-bones,andrawshoulder-blades,whosetuppillarsintheircourtyards。ButshecomesoftheverybestScotchblood,descendedfromtheNorsemen。Hermotherwasoftheverynoblestrace,theLordsofLorne;highereventhanthegreatArgyle,whohaslatelymadeasadmistake,andpaidforitmostsadly。
AndherfatherwasdescendedfromtheKingDugal,whofoughtagainstAlexandertheGreat。No,no,MasterRidd;noneofyourpromiscuousblood,suchasrunsintheveinsofhalfourmodernpeerage。’
’Whyshouldyoutroubleyourselfaboutit,MasterRamsack?’Ireplied:’letthemallgotheirownways:
andletusalllookuptothem,whethertheycomebyhookorcrook。’
’Notatall,notatall,mylad。Thatisnotthewaytoregardit。Welookupatthewell-bornmen,andside-waysatthebase-born。’
’Thenweareallbase-bornourselves。Iwilllookuptonoman,exceptforwhathimselfhasdone。’
’Come,MasterRidd,youmightbelashedfromNew-gatetoTyburnandbackagain,onceaweek,foratwelvemonth,ifsomepeopleheardyou。Keepyourtonguemoreclose,youngman;orhereyoulodgenolonger;albeitIloveyourcompany,whichsmellstomeofthehayfield。Ah,Ihavenotseenahayfieldfornine-and-twentyyears,JohnRidd。Thecursedmothskeepmeathome,everydayofthesummer。’
’Spreadyourfursonthehaycocks,’Iansweredveryboldly:’theindoormothcannotabidethepresenceoftheoutdoorones。’
’Isitso?’heanswered:’Ineverthoughtofthatbefore。AndyetIhaveknownsuchstrangethingshappeninthewayoffur,thatIcanwellbelieveit。
Ifyouonlyknew,John,thewayinwhichtheylaytheireggs,andhowtheyworktail-foremost——’
’Tellmenothingofthekind,’Ireplied,withequalconfidence:’theycannotworktail-foremost;andtheyhavenotailstoworkwith。’ForIknewalittleaboutgrubs,andtheignoranceconcerningthem,whichwehavenorighttoputupwith。However,nottogointothatfortheargumentlastedafortnight;andthenwasonlycomesofarastobeginagain,MasterRamsacksoonconvincedmeofthethingsIknewalready;theexcellenceofLorna’sbirth,aswellasherloftyplaceatCourt,andbeauty,andwealth,andelegance。Butalltheseonlymademesigh,andwishthatIwereborntothem。
FromMasterRamsackIdiscoveredthatthenoblemantowhosechargeLadyLornahadbeencommitted,bytheCourtofChancery,wasEarlBrandirofLochawe,herpoormother’suncle。FortheCountessofDugalwasdaughter,andonlychild,ofthelastLordLorne,whosesisterhadmarriedSirEnsorDoone;whilehehimselfhadmarriedthesisterofEarlBrandir。ThisnoblemanhadacountryhousenearthevillageofKensington;andherehisniecedwelledwithhim,whenshewasnotinattendanceonHerMajestytheQueen,whohadtakenalikingtoher。NowsincetheKinghadbeguntoattendthecelebrationofmass,inthechapelatWhitehall——andnotatWestminsterAbbey,asourgossipshadaverred——hehadgivenorderthatthedoorsshouldbethrownopen,sothatallwhocouldmakeinteresttogetintotheantechamber,mightseethisformofworship。MasterRamsacktoldmethatLornawastherealmosteverySunday;theirMajestiesbeingmostanxioustohavethepresenceofallthenobilityoftheCatholicpersuasion,soastomakeagoodlyshow。Andtheworthyfurrier,havinginfluencewiththedoor-keepers,kindlyobtainedadmittanceforme,oneSunday,intotheantechamber。
HereItookcaretobeinwaiting,beforetheRoyalprocessionentered;butbeingunknown,andofnohighrank,Iwasnotallowedtostandforwardamongthebetterpeople,butorderedbackintoacornerverydarkanddismal;thevergerremarking,withagrin,thatI
couldseeoverallotherheads,andmustnotsetmyownsohigh。Beingfrightenedtofindmyselfamongsomanypeopleofgreatrankandgorgeousapparel,Iblushedatthenoticedrawnuponmebythisuncourteousfellow;
andsilentlyfellbackintothecornerbythehangings。
Youmaysupposethatmyheartbeathigh,whentheKingandQueenappeared,andentered,followedbytheDukeofNorfolk,bearingtheswordofstate,andbyseveralothernoblemen,andpeopleofrepute。Thenthedoorsofthechapelwerethrownwideopen;andthoughIcouldonlyseealittle,beinginthecornerso,Ithoughtthatitwasbeautiful。Bowersofrichsilkwerethere,andplentyofmetalshining,andpolishedwoodwithlovelycarving;flowerstooofthenoblestkind,andcandlesmadebysomebodywhohadlearnedhowtoclarifytallow。Thislastthingamazedmemorethanall,forourdipsneverwillcomeclear,meltthemutton-fathowyouwill。Andmethoughtthatthishangingofflowersaboutwasaprettything;forifamancanworshipGodbestofallbeneathatree,asthenaturalinstinctis,surelywhenbyfaultofclimatethetreewouldbetooapttodrip,theverybestmake-believeistohaveenoughandtospareofflowers;whichtothedwellersinLondonseemtohavegrownonthetreedeniedthem。
Bethatasitmay,whentheKingandQueencrossedthethreshold,amightyflourishoftrumpetsarose,andawavingofbanners。TheKnightsoftheGarterwhoevertheybeweretoattendthatdayinstate;andsomewentin,andsomestayedout,anditmademethinkofthedifferencebetwixttheewesandthewethers。Fortheeweswillgowhereveryouleadthem;butthewetherswillnot,havingstrongopinions,andmeaningtoabidebythem。AndonemanInoticedwasofthewethers,towittheDukeofNorfolk;whostoppedoutsidewiththeswordofstate,likeabeadlewitharapping-rod。Thishastakenmoretotellthanthetimeithappenedin。Forafterallthemenweregone,sometothisside,sometothat,accordingtotheirfeelings,anumberofladies,beautifullydressed,beingoftheQueen’sretinue,begantoenter,andwerestaredatthreetimesasmuchasthemenhadbeen。Andindeedtheywereworthlookingatwhichmenneveraretomyideas,whentheytrickthemselveswithgewgaws,butnonewassowellwortheye-serviceasmyownbelovedLorna。Sheenteredmodestlyandshyly,withhereyesupontheground,knowingtherudenessofthegallants,andthelargesumshewaspricedat。Herdresswasofthepurestwhite,verysweetandsimple,withoutalineofornament,forsheherselfadornedit。
Thewayshewalked。andtouchedherskirtratherthanseemedtoholditupwithawhitehandbeamingoneredrose,thisandherstatelysuppleneck,andtheflowingofherhairwouldshow,atadistanceofahundredyards,thatshecouldbenonebutLornaDoone。LornaDooneofmyearlylove;inthedayswhensheblushedforhernamebeforemebyreasonofdishonesty;butnowtheLadyLornaDugalasfarbeyondreproachasabovemypooraffection。Allmyheart,andallmymind,gatheredthemselvesuponher。Wouldsheseeme,orwouldshepass?Wasthereinstinctinourlove?
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