OnedayatthebeginningofJuly,Icamehomefrommowingaboutnoon,oralittlelater,tofetchsomeciderforallofus,andtoeatamorselofbacon。Formowingwasnojokethatyear,thesummerbeingwonderfullywetevenforourwetcountry,andtheswathefallingheavieroverthescythethaneverIcouldrememberit。Weweredrenchedwithrainalmosteveryday;butthemowingmustbedonesomehow;andwemusttrusttoGodforthehaymaking。
InthecourtyardIsawalittlecart,withironbrakesunderneathit,suchasfastidiouspeopleusetodeadenthejoltingoftheroad;butfewmenunderalordorbaronetwouldbesoparticular。ThereforeIwonderedwhoournoblevisitorcouldbe。ButwhenIenteredthekitchen-place,brushingupmyhairforsomebody,beholditwasnoonegreaterthanourAnnie,withmygodsoninherarms,andlookingpaleandtear-begone。Andatfirstshecouldnotspeaktome。Butpresentlyhavingsatdownalittle,andreceivedmuchpraiseforherbaby,shesmiledandblushed,andfoundhertongueasifshehadnevergonefromus。
’Hownaturalitalllooksagain!Oh,Ilovethisoldkitchenso!Babydear,onlylookatitwidhimpitty,pittyeyes,andhimtongueoutofhismousy!Butwhoputtheflour-riddleupthere。Andlookatthepestleandmortar,andrustIdeclareinthepattypans!Andabook,positivelyadirtybook,wherethecleanskewersoughttohang!Oh,Lizzie,Lizzie,Lizzie!’
’Youmayjustaswellceaselamenting,’Isaid,’foryoucan’talterLizzie’snature,andyouwillonlymakemotheruncomfortable,andperhapshaveaquarrelwithLizzie,whoisproudasPunchofherhousekeeping。’
’She,’criedAnnie,withallthecontemptthatcouldbecompressedinasyllable。’Well,John,nodoubtyouarerightaboutit。Iwilltrynottonoticethings。
Butitisahardthing,afterallmycare,toseeeverythinggoingtoruin。ButwhatcanbeexpectedofagirlwhoknowsallthekingsofCarthage?’
’TherewerenokingsofCarthage,Annie。Theywerecalled,whyletmesee——theywerecalled——oh,somethingelse。’
’Nevermindwhattheywerecalled,’saidAnnie;’willtheycookourdinnerforus?Butnow,John,Iaminsuchtrouble。Allthistalkismake-believe。’
’Don’tyoucry,mydear:don’tcry,mydarlingsister,’
Ianswered,asshedroppedintothewornplaceofthesettle,andbentaboveherinfant,rockingasifboththeirheartswereone:’don’tyouknow,Annie,Icannottell,butIknow,oratleastImean,Ihaveheardthemenofexperiencesay,itissobadforthebaby。’
’PerhapsIknowthataswellasyoudo,John,’saidAnnie,lookingupatmewithagleamofheroldlaughing:’buthowcanIhelpcrying;Iaminsuchtrouble。’
’Tellmewhatitis,mydear。Anygriefofyourswillvexmegreatly;butIwilltrytobearit。’
’Then,John,itisjustthis。Tomhasgoneoffwiththerebels;andyoumust,oh,youmustgoafterhim。’
MovedasIwasbyAnnie’stears,andgentlestyleofcoaxing,andmostofallbymyloveforher,IyetdeclaredthatIcouldnotgo,andleaveourhouseandhomestead,farlessmydearmotherandLizzie,atthemercyofthemercilessDoones。
’Isthatallyourobjection,John?’askedAnnie,inherquickpantingway:’wouldyougobutforthat,John?’
’Now,’Isaid,’beinnosuchhurry’——forwhileIwasgraduallyyielding,Ilikedtopassitthroughmyfingers,asifmyfingersshapedit:’therearemanythingstobethoughtabout,andmanywaysofviewingit。’
’Oh,younevercanhavelovedLorna!Nowonderyougaveherupso!John,youcanlovenobody,butyouroat-ricks,andyourhay-ricks。’
’Sistermine,becauseIrantnot,neitherraveofwhatIfeel,canyoubesoshallowastodreamthatIfeelnothing?WhatisyourloveforTomFaggus?Whatisyourloveforyourbabyprettydarlingasheistocomparewithsuchaloveasforeverdwellswithme?
BecauseIdonotprateofit;becauseitisbeyondme,notonlytoexpress,butevenformtomyownheartinthoughts;becauseIdonotshapemyface,andwouldscorntoplaytoit,asathingofacting,andlayitoutbeforeyou,areyoufoolsenoughtothink——’buthereIstopped,havingsaidmorethanwasusualwithme。
’Iamverysorry,John。DearJohn,Iamsosorry。
WhatashallowfoolIam!’
’Iwillgoseekyourhusband,’Isaid,tochangethesubject,foreventoAnnieIwouldnotlayopenallmyheartaboutLorna:’butonlyuponconditionthatyouensurethishouseandpeoplefromtheDoonesmeanwhile。
EvenforthesakeofTom,Icannotleaveallhelpless。
Theoat-ricksandthehay-ricks,whicharemyonlylove,theyarewelcometomakecindersof。ButIwillnothavemothertreatedso;norevenlittleLizzie,althoughyouscornyoursisterso。’
’Oh,John,Idothinkyouarethehardest,aswellasthesoftestofallthemenIknow。Notevenawoman’sbitterwordbutwhatyoupayheroutfor。Willyouneverunderstandthatwearenotlikeyou,John?Wesayallsortsofspitefulthings,withoutabitofmeaning。John,forGod’ssakefetchTomhome;andthenrevilemeasyouplease,andIwillkneelandthankyou。’
’Iwillnotpromisetofetchhimhome,’Ianswered,beingashamedofmyselfforhavinglostcommandso:
’butIwillpromisetodomybest,ifwecanonlyhitonaplanforleavingmotherharmless。’
Anniethoughtforalittlewhile,tryingtogatherhersmoothclearbrowintomaternalwrinkles,andthenshelookedatherchild,andsaid,’Iwillriskit,fordaddy’ssake,darling;youprecioussoul,fordaddy’ssake。’Iaskedherwhatshewasgoingtorisk。Shewouldnottellme;buttookupperhand,andsawtomycider-cansandbacon,andwentfromcornertocupboard,exactlyasifshehadneverbeenmarried;onlywithoutanapronon。Andthenshesaid,’Nowtoyourmowers,John;andmakethemostofthisfineafternoon;kissyourgodsonbeforeyougo。’AndI,beingusedtoobeyher,inlittlethingsofthatsort,kissedthebaby,andtookmycans,andwentbacktomyscytheagain。
BythetimeIcamehomeitwasdarknight,andpouringagainwithafoggyrain,suchaswehaveinJuly,evenmorethaninJanuary。Beingsoakedallthrough,andthrough,andwithwaterquelchinginmyboots,likeapumpwithabadbucket,IwasonlytoogladtofindAnnie’sbrightface,andquickfigure,flittinginandoutthefirelight,insteadofLizziesittinggrandly,withafeastofliterature,andnotadropofgravy。
Motherwasinthecorneralso,withhercheery-colouredribbonsglisteningverynicebycandle-light,lookingatAnnienowandthen,withmemoriesofherbabyhood;
andthenatherhavingababy:yethalfafraidofpraisinghermuch,forfearofthatyoungLizzie。ButLizzieshowednojealousy:shetrulylovedourAnnienowthatshewasgonefromus,andshewantedtoknowallsortsofthings,andsheadoredthebaby。
ThereforeAnniewasallowedtoattendtome,assheusedtodo。
’Now,John,youmuststartthefirstthinginthemorning,’shesaid,whentheothershadlefttheroom,butsomehowshestucktothebaby,’tofetchmebackmyrebel,accordingtoyourpromise。’
’Notso,’Ireplied,mislikingthejob,’allIpromisedwastogo,ifthishousewereassuredagainstanyonslaughtoftheDoones。’
’Justso;andhereisthatassurance。’Withthesewordsshedrewforthapaper,andlaiditonmykneewithtriumph,enjoyingmyamazement。This,asyoumaysupposewasgreat;notonlyatthedocument,butalsoatherpossessionofit。Forintruthitwasnolessthanaformalundertaking,onthepartoftheDoones,nottoattackPlover’sBarrowsfarm,ormolestanyoftheinmates,orcarryoffanychattels,duringtheabsenceofJohnRidduponaspecialerrand。ThisdocumentwassignednotonlybytheCounsellor,butbymanyotherDoones:whetherCarver’snamewerethere,I
couldnotsayforcertain;asofcoursehewouldnotsignitunderhisnameof’Carver,’andIhadneverheardLornasaytowhatifanyhehadbeenbaptized。
Inthefaceofsuchadeedasthis,Icouldnolongerrefusetogo;andhavingreceivedmypromise,Annietoldmeaswasonlyfairhowshehadprocuredthatpaper。Itwasbothacleverandcourageousact;andwouldhaveseemedtome,atfirstsight,farbeyondAnnie’spower。Butnonemaygaugeawoman’spower,whenherloveandfaitharemoved。
ThefirstthingAnniehaddonewasthis:shemadeherselflookugly。Thiswasnotaneasything;butshehadlearnedagreatdealfromherhusband,uponthesubjectofdisguises。Ithurtherfeelingsnotalittletomakesosadafrightofherself;butwhatcoulditmatter?——ifshelostTom,shemustbeafargreaterfrightinearnest,thannowshewasinseeming。
Andthensheleftherchildasleep,underBettyMuxworthy’stendance——forBettytooktothatchild,asifthereneverhadbeenachildbefore——andawayshewentinherown’spring-cart’asthenameofthatengineprovedtobe,withoutawordtoanyone,excepttheoldmanwhohaddrivenherfromMollandparishthatmorning,andwhocoollytookoneofourbesthorses,without’byyourleave’toanyone。
AnniemadetheoldmandriveherwithineasyreachoftheDoone-gate,whosepositionsheknewwellenough,fromallourtalkaboutit。Andthereshebadetheoldmanstay,untilsheshouldreturntohim。Thenwithhercomelyfigurehiddenbyadirtyoldwoman’scloak,andherfairyoungfacedefacedbypatchesandbyliniments,sothatnonemightcovether,sheaddressedtheyoungmanatthegateinacrackedandtremblingvoice;andtheywerescarcelyciviltothe’oldhag,’
astheycalledher。ShesaidthatsheboreimportanttidingsforSirCounsellorhimself,andmustbeconductedtohim。Tohimaccordinglyshewasled,withoutevenanyhoodwinking,forshehadspectaclesoverhereyes,andmadebelievenottoseetenyards。
ShefoundSirCounsellorathome,andwhentherestwereoutofsight,threwoffalldisguisetohim,flashingforthasalovelyyoungwoman,fromallherwrapsanddisfigurements。Sheflungherpatchesonthefloor,amidtheoldman’slaughter,andlethertucked-uphaircomedown;andthenwentupandkissedhim。
’WorthyandreverendCounsellor,Ihaveafavourtoask,’shebegan。
’SoIshouldthinkfromyourproceedings,’——theoldmaninterrupted——’ah,ifIwerehalfmyage’——
’Ifyouwere,Iwouldnotsueso。ButmostexcellentCounsellor,youowemesomeamends,youknow,forthewayinwhichyourobbedme。’
’BeyondadoubtIdo,mydear。Youhaveputitratherstrongly;anditmightoffendsomepeople。
NeverthelessIownmydebt,havingsofairacreditor。’
’Anddoyourememberhowyouslept,andhowmuchwemadeofyou,andwouldhaveseenyouhome,sir;onlyyoudidnotwishit?’
’Andforexcellentreasons,child。Mybestescortwasinmycloak,afterwemadethecreamtorise。Ha,ha!
Theunholyspell。Myprettychild,hasitinjuredyou?’
’Yes,Ifearithas,saidAnnie;’orwhencecanallmyillluckcome?’Andheresheshowedsomesignsofcrying,knowingthatCounsellorhatedit。
’Youshallnothaveillluck,mydear。Ihaveheardallaboutyourmarriagetoaverynoblehighwayman。
Ah,youmadeamistakeinthat;youwereworthyofaDoone,mychild;yourfryingwasablessingmeantforthosewhocanappreciate。’
’Myhusbandcanappreciate,’sheansweredveryproudly;
’butwhatIwishtoknowisthis,willyoutrytohelpme?’
TheCounselloransweredthathewoulddoso,ifherneedsweremoderate;whereuponsheopenedhermeaningtohim,andtoldofallheranxieties。ConsideringthatLornawasgone,andhernecklaceinhispossession,andthatIagainstwhomaloneofustheDoonescouldbearanymalicewouldbeoutofthewayallthewhile,theoldmanreadilyundertookthatourhouseshouldnotbeassaulted,norourpropertymolested,untilmyreturn。Andtothepromptitudeofhispledge,twothingsperhapscontributed,namely,thatheknewnothowwewerestrippedofalldefenders,andthatsomeofhisownforceswereawayintherebelcamp。ForasIlearnedthereaftertheDoonesbeingnowindirectfeudwiththepresentGovernment,andsuretobecrushedifthatprevailed,hadresolvedtodropallreligiousquestions,andcastintheirlotwithMonmouth。Andtheturbulentyouths,beinglongrestrainedfromtheirwontedoutletforvehemence,bythetroopersintheneighbourhood,wereonlytoogladtorushforthuponanypromiseofblowsandexcitement。
However,Annieknewlittleofthis,buttooktheCounsellor’spledgeasamarkofespecialfavourinherbehalfwhichitmayhavebeentosomeextent,andthankedhimforitmostheartily,andfeltthathehadearnedthenecklace;whilehe,likeanancientgentleman,disclaimedallobligation,andsentherunderanescortsafetoherowncartagain。ButAnnie,repassingthesentinels,withheryouthrestoredandbloomingwiththeflushoftriumph,wentuptothemverygravely,andsaid,’Theoldhagwishesyougood-evening,gentlemen’;andsomadeherbestcurtsey。
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