FiftyfarmslikeourscannevermakeitgoodtoLorna。’
Hereuponensuedgrimsilence。MotherlookedatLizzie’sface,forshecouldnotlookatme;andLizzielookedatme,toknow:andasforme,Icouldhavestampedalmostontheheartofanyone。Itwasnotthevalueofthenecklace——Iamnotsolowahoundasthat——norwasiteventhedamnedfollyshownbyeveryoneofus——itwasthethoughtofLorna’ssorrowforherancientplaything;andevenmore,myfuryatthebreachofhospitality。
ButLornacameuptomesoftly,asawomanshouldalwayscome;andshelaidonehanduponmyshoulder;
andsheonlylookedatme。Sheevenseemedtofeartolook,anddroppedhereyes,andsighedatme。Withoutaword,Iknewbythat,howImusthavelookedlikeSatan;andtheevilspiritleftmyheart;whenshehadmademethinkofit。
’DarlingJohn,didyouwantmetothinkthatyoucaredformymoney,morethanforme?’
Iledherawayfromtherestofthem,beingdesirousofexplainingthings,whenIsawthedepthofhernatureopened,likeaneverlastingwell,tome。Butshewouldnotletmesayaword,ordoanythingbyourselves,asitwere:shesaid,’Yourdutyistoyourmother:thisblowisonher,andnotonme。’
Isawthatshewasright;thoughhowsheknewitisbeyondme;andIaskedherjusttogoinfront,andbringmymotherroundalittle。ForImustletmypassionpass:itmaydropitsweaponsquickly;butitcannotcomeandgo,beforeamanhastimetothink。
ThenLornawentuptomymother,whowasstillinthechairofelegance;andshetookherbybothhands,andsaid,——
’Dearestmother,Ishallfretso,ifIseeyoufretting。Andtofretwillkillme,mother。Theyhavealwaystoldmeso。’
PoormotherbentonLorna’sshoulder,withoutthoughtofattitude,andlaidhercheekonLorna’sbreast,andsobbedtillLizziewasjealous,andcamewithtwopocket-handkerchiefs。Asforme,myheartwaslighteriftheywouldonlydrytheireyes,andcomeroundbydinnertimethanithadbeensincethedayonwhichTomFaggusdiscoveredthevalueofthatblessedandcursednecklace。NonecouldsaythatIwantedLornaforhermoneynow。AndperhapstheDooneswouldletmehaveher;nowthatherpropertywasgone。
ButwhoshalltellofAnnie’sgrief?Thepoorlittlethingwouldhavestakedherlifeuponfindingthetrinket,inallitsbeauty,lyingunderthepannikin。
Sheproudlychallengedmetoliftit——whichIhaddone,longerethat,ofcourse——ifonlyIwouldtaketheriskofthespellformyincredulity。Itoldhernottotalkofspells,untilshecouldspellawordbackwards;andthentolookintothepanwherethecharmedcreamshouldbe。Shewouldnotacknowledgethatthecreamwasthesameasalltherestwas:andindeeditwasnotquitethesame,forthepointsofpoorLorna’sdiamondshadmadeafewstar-raysacrosstherichfirmcrustofyellow。
Butwhenweraisedthepannikin,andtherewasnothingunderit,poorAnniefellagainstthewall,whichhadbeenwhitenedlately;andherfaceputallthewhitetoscorn。Mylove,whowasasfondofher,asifshehadknownherforfiftyyears,hereuponranupandcaughther,andabusedalldiamonds。IwilldwellnomoreuponAnnie’sgrief,becausewefeltitallsomuch。
ButIcouldnothelptellingher,ifshewantedawitch,toseekgoodMotherMelldrum,alegitimateperformer。
ThatsamenightMasterJeremySticklesofwhoseabsencetheCounsellormusthaveknowncameback,withallequipmentreadyforthegrandattack。NowtheDoonesknew,quiteaswellaswedid,thatthisattackwasthreatening;andthatbutforthewonderfulweatheritwouldhavebeenmadelongago。Thereforewe,oratleastourpeopleforIwasdoubtfulaboutgoing,weresuretomeetwithagoodresistance,andduepreparation。
Itwasverystrangetohearandsee,andquiteimpossibletoaccountfor,thatnowsomehundredsofcountrypeoplewhofearedtowhispersomuchasawordagainsttheDoonesayearago,andwouldsoonerhavethoughtofattackingachurch,inservicetime,thanGlenDoonenowsharpenedtheiroldcutlasses,andlaidpitch-forksonthegrindstone,andbraggedateveryvillagecross,asifeachwouldkilltenDooneshimself,neithercaretowipehishandsafterwards。
Andthisfiercebravery,andtallcontempt,hadbeengrowingeversincethenewsoftheattackuponourpremiseshadtakengoodpeoplebysurprise;atleastasconcernedtheissue。
JeremyStickleslaughedheartilyaboutAnnie’snewmannerofcharmingthecream;buthelookedverygraveatthelossofthejewels,sosoonasheknewtheirvalue。
’Myson,’heexclaimed,’thisisveryheavy。Itwillgoillwithallofyoutomakegoodthisloss,asI
fearthatyouwillhavetodo。’
’What!’criedI,withmybloodrunningcold。’Wemakegoodtheloss,MasterStickles!Everyfarthingwehaveintheworld,andthelabourofourlivestoboot,willnevermakegoodthetenthofit。’
’Itwouldcutmetotheheart,’heanswered,layinghishandonmine,’tohearofsuchadeadlyblowtoyouandyourgoodmother。Andthisfarm;howlong,John,hasitbeeninyourfamily?’
’Foratleastsixhundredyears,’Isaid,withafoolishpridethatwasonlytooliketoendingroans;
’andsomepeoplesay,byaRoyalgrant,inthetimeofthegreatKingAlfred。Atanyrate,aRiddwaswithhimthroughoutallhishiding-time。WehavealwaysheldbytheKingandcrown:surelynonewillturnusout,unlessweareguiltyoftreason?’
’Myson,’repliedJeremyverygently,sothatIcouldlovehimforit,’notawordtoyourgoodmotherofthisunluckymatter。Keepittoyourself,myboy,andtrytothinkbutlittleofit。Afterall,Imaybewrong:atanyrate,leastsaidbestmended。’
’ButJeremy,dearJeremy,howcanIbeartoleaveitso?DoyousupposethatIcansleep,andeatmyfood,andgoabout,andlookatotherpeople,asifnothingatallhadhappened?Andallthetimehaveitonmymind,thatnotanacreofalltheland,norevenouroldsheep-dog,belongstous,ofrightatall!ItismorethanIcando,Jeremy。Letmetalk,andknowtheworstofit。’
’Verywell,’repliedMasterStickles,seeingthatboththedoorswereclosed;’Ithoughtthatnothingcouldmoveyou,John;orIneverwouldhavetoldyou。LikelyenoughIamquitewrong;andGodsendthatIbeso。
ButwhatIguessedatsometimebackseemsmorethanaguess,nowthatyouhavetoldmeaboutthesewondrousjewels。Nowwillyoukeep,ascloseasdeath,everywordItellyou?’
’Bythehonourofaman,Iwill。Untilyouyourselfreleaseme。’
’Thatisquiteenough,John。FromyouIwantnooath;
which,accordingtomyexperience,temptsamantoliethemore,bymakingitmoreimportant。Iknowyounowtoowelltoswearyou,thoughIhavethepower。Now,mylad,whatIhavetosaywillscareyourmindinoneway,andeaseitinanother。Ithinkthatyouhavebeenhardpressed——Icanreadyoulikeabook,John——bysomethingwhichthatoldvillainsaid,beforehestolethenecklace。Youhavetriednottodwelluponit;youhaveeventriedtomakelightofitforthesakeofthewomen:butonthewholeithasgrievedyoumorethaneventhisdastardrobbery。’
’Itwouldhavedoneso,JeremyStickles,ifIcouldoncehavebelievedit。Andevenwithoutmuchbelief,itissoagainstourmanners,thatitmakesmemiserable。OnlythinkoflovingLorna,onlythinkofkissingher;andthenrememberingthatherfatherhaddestroyedthelifeofmine!’
’Onlythink,’saidMasterStickles,imitatingmyveryvoice,’ofLornalovingyou,John,ofLornakissingyou,John;andallthewhilesayingtoherself,“thisman’sfathermurderedmine。“NowlookatitinLorna’swayaswellasinyourownway。Howone-sidedallmenare!’
’Imaylookatitinfiftyways,andyetnogoodwillcomeofit。Jeremy,Iconfesstoyou,thatItriedtomakethebestofit;partlytobaffletheCounsellor,andpartlybecausemydarlingneededmyhelp,andboreitso,andbehavedtomesonobly。Buttoyouinsecret,Iamnotashamedtosaythatawomanmaylookoverthiseasierthanamanmay。’
’Becausehernatureislarger,myson,whenshetrulyloves;althoughhermindbesmaller。Now,ifIcaneaseyoufromthissecretburden,willyoubear,withstrengthandcourage,theotherwhichIplantonyou?’
’Iwilldomybest,’saidI。
’Nomancandomore,’saidheandsobeganhisstory。
’Youknow,myson,’saidJeremyStickles,withagoodpullathispipe,becausehewasgoingtotalksomuch,andputtinghislegswellalongthesettle;’ithasbeenmyduty,foraweariertimethanIcaretothinkofandwhichwouldhavebeenunbearable,exceptforyourgreatkindness,tosearchthisneighbourhoodnarrowly,andlearneverythingabouteverybody。Nowtheneighbourhooditselfisqueer;andpeoplehavedifferentwaysofthinkingfromwhatweareusedtoinLondon。Forinstancenow,amongyourfolk,whenanypieceofnewsistold,oranyman’sconductspokenof,theveryfirstquestionthatarisesinyourmindisthis——“Wasthisactionkindandgood?“Longafterthat,yousaytoyourselves,“doesthelawenjoinorforbidthisthing?“Nowhereisyourfundamentalerror:foramongalltrulycivilisedpeopletheforemostofallquestionsis,“howstandsthelawherein?“Andifthelawapprove,noneedforanyfurtherquestioning。Thatthisisso,youmaytakemyword:forIknowthelawprettythoroughly。
’Verywell;Ineednotsayanymoreaboutthat,forI
haveshownthatyouareallquitewrong。Ionlyspeakofthissavagetendency,becauseitexplainssomanythingswhichhavepuzzledmeamongyou,andmostofallyourkindnesstomenwhomyouneversawbefore;whichisanutterlyillegalthing。ItalsoexplainsyourtolerationoftheseoutlawDoonessolong。Ifyourviewsoflawhadbeencorrect,andlawanelementofyourlives,theserobberscouldneverhavebeenindulgedforsomanyyearsamongstyou:butyoumusthaveabatedthenuisance。’
’Now,Stickles,’Icried,’thisistoobad!’hewasdeliveringhimselfsograndly。’Whyyouyourselfhavebeenamongstus,asthebalance,andsceptre,andswordoflaw,fornighuponatwelvemonth;andhaveyouabatedthenuisance,orevencaredtodoit,untiltheybegantoshootatyou?’
’Myson,’hereplied,’yourargumentisquitebesidethepurpose,andonlytendstoprovemoreclearlythatwhichIhavesaidofyou。However,ifyouwishtohearmystory,nomoreinterruptions。Imaynothaveachancetotellyou,perhapsforweeks,orIknownotwhen,ifoncethoseyellowsandredsarrive,andbeblessedtothem,thelubbers!Well,itmaybesixmonthsago,oritmaybeseven,atanyrateagoodwhilebeforethatcursedfrostbegan,themerenameofwhichsendsashiverdowneveryboneofmybody,whenI
wasridingoneafternoonfromDulvertontoWatchett’——
’DulvertontoWatchett!’Icried。’Nowwhatdoesthatremindmeof?Iamsure,Iremembersomething——’
’Rememberthis,John,ifanything——thatanotherwordfromthee,andthouhastnomoreofmine。Well,Iwasalittlewearyperhaps,havingbeenplaguedatDulvertonwiththegrossnessofthepeople。Fortheywouldtellmenothingatallabouttheirfellow-townsmen,yourworthyUncleHuckaback,exceptthathewasaGod-fearingman,andtheyonlywishedI
waslikehim。Iblessedmyselfforastupidfool,inthinkingtohavepumpedthem;forbythistimeImighthaveknownthat,throughyourWesternhomeliness,everymaninhisowncountryissomethingmorethanaprophet。AndIfelt,ofcourse,thatIhaddonemoreharmthangoodbyquestioning;inasmuchaseverysoulintheplacewouldrunstraightwayandinformhimthattheKing’smanfromtheothersideoftheforesthadbeensiftingouthiswaysandworks。’
’Ah,’Icried,forIcouldnothelpit;’youbegintounderstandatlast,thatwearenotquitesuchasetofoafs,asyouatfirstbelievedus。’
’IwasridingonfromDulverton,’heresumed,withgreatseverity,yetthreateningmenomore,whichcheckedmemorethanfiftythreats:’anditwaslateintheafternoon,andIwasgrowingweary。Theroadifroaditcouldbecalled’turnedsuddenlydownfromthehigherlandtotheverybrinkofthesea;androundingalittlejutofcliff,Imettheroarofthebreakers。
Myhorsewasscared,andleapedaside;foranortherlywindwaspiping,anddrivinghunksoffoamacross,aschildrenscattersnow-balls。Butheonlysanktohisfetlocksinthedrysand,piledwithpop-weed:andI
triedtomakehimfacethewaves;andthenIlookedaboutme。
’Watchetttownwasnottobeseen,onaccountofalittleforeland,amileormoreuponmycourse,andstandingtotherightofme。Therewasroomenoughbelowthecliffswhicharenothingtheretoyours,John,forhorseandmantogetalong,althoughthetidewasrunninghighwithanortherlygaletobackit。
Butcloseathandandinthecorner,drawnabovetheyellowsandsandlongeye-browsofrackweed,assnugalittlehouseblinkedonmeaseverIsaw,orwishedtosee。
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