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第44章

  havingboundmefirstbyoath,nottoimparttoanyone,withouthisownpermission,untilallwasover。
  Butatthispresenttimeofwriting,allisoverlongago;ayandforgottentoo,Iween,exceptbythosewhosuffered。ThereforemayItellthewholewithoutanybreachofconfidence。MasterStickleswasgoingforthuponhisusualnightjourney,whenhemetmecominghome,andIsaidsomethinghalfinjest,abouthiszealandsecrecy;uponwhichhelookedallroundtheyard,andledmetoanopenspaceinthecloverfieldadjoining。
  ’John,’hesaid,’youhavesomerighttoknowthemeaningofallthis,beingtrustedasyouwerebytheLordChiefJustice。Buthefoundyouscarcelysuppleenough,neithergiftedwithduebrains。’
  ’ThankGodforthatsame,’Ianswered,whilehetappedhishead,tosignifyhisownmuchlargerallowance。
  Thenhemademebindmyself,whichinanevilhourI
  did,toretainhissecret;andafterthathewentonsolemnly,andwithmuchimportance,——
  ’Therebesomepeoplefittoplot,andotherstobeplottedagainst,andotherstounravelplots,whichisthehighestgiftofall。Thislasthathfallentomyshare,andaverythanklessgiftitis,althougharareandchoiceone。Muchofperiltooattendsit;daringcourageandgreatcoolnessareasneedfulfortheworkasreadywitandspotlesshonour。
  ThereforeHisMajesty’sadvisershavechosenmeforthishightask,andtheycouldnothavechosenabetterman。AlthoughyouhavebeeninLondon,Jack,muchlongerthanyouwishedit,youarewhollyignorant,ofcourse,inmattersofstate,andthepublicweal。’
  ’Well,’saidI,’nodoubtbutIam,andallthebetterforme。AlthoughIheardadealofthem;foreverybodywastalking,andreadytocometoblows;ifonlyitcouldbedonewithoutdanger。Butonesaidthis,andonesaidthat;andtheytalkedsomuchaboutBirminghams,andTantivies,andWhigsandTories,andProtestantflailsandsuchlike,thatIwasonlytoogladtohavemyglassandclinkmyspoonforanswer。’
  ’Right,John,thouartrightasusual。LettheKinggohisowngait。HehathtoomanymistressestobeeverEngland’smaster。Nobodyneedfearhim,forheisnotlikehisfather:hewillhavehisownway,’tistrue,butwithoutstoppingotherfolkoftheirs:andwellheknowswhatwomenare,forheneverasksthemquestions。
  NowheardyoumuchinLondontownabouttheDukeofMonmouth?’
  ’Notsoverymuch,’Ianswered;’nothalfsomuchasinDevonshire:onlythathewasaheartyman,andaveryhandsomeone,andnowwasbanishedbytheTories;andmostpeoplewishedhewascomingback,insteadoftheDukeofYork,whowastryingbootsinScotland。’
  ’Thingsarechangedsinceyouwereintown。TheWhigsaregettingupagain,throughthefollyoftheTorieskillingpoorLordRussell;andnowthisMasterSidneyifmyLordcondemnshimwillmakeitworseagain。
  Thereismuchdisaffectioneverywhere,anditmustgrowtoanoutbreak。TheKinghathmanytroopsinLondon,andmeanethtobringmorefromTangier;buthecannotcommandthesecountryplaces;andthetrainedbandscannothelphimmuch,eveniftheywould。Now,doyouunderstandme,John?’
  ’Intruth,notI。IseenotwhatTangierhathtodowithExmoor;northeDukeofMonmouthwithJeremyStickles。’
  ’Thougreatclod,putittheotherway。JeremySticklesmayhavemuchtodoabouttheDukeofMonmouth。TheWhigshavingfailedofExclusion,andhavingbeenpunishedbitterlyforthebloodtheyshed,areripeforanyviolence。Andtheturnofthebalanceisnowtothem。See-sawisthefashionofEnglandalways;andtheWhigswillsoonbethetop-sawyers。’
  ’But,’saidI,stillmoreconfused,’“TheKingisthetop-sawyer,“accordingtoourproverb。HowthencantheWhigsbe?’
  ’Thouartahopelessass,John。Bettertosewwithachestnutthantoteachtheetheconstitution。Letitbeso,letitbe。Ihaveseenaboyoffiveyearsoldmoreaptatpoliticsthanthou。Nay,looknotoffended,lad。Itismyfaultforbeingover-deeptothee。Ishouldhaveconsideredthyintellect。’
  ’Nay,MasterJeremy,makenoapologies。ItisIthatshouldexcusemyself;but,Godknows,Ihavenopolitics。’
  ’Sticktothat,mylad,’heanswered;’soshaltthoudieeasier。Now,intenwordswithoutparties,ortryingthypoorbraintoomuch,Iamheretowatchthegatheringofasecretplot,notsomuchagainsttheKingasagainsttheduesuccession。’
  ’NowIunderstandatlast。But,MasterStickles,youmighthavesaidallthatanhouragoalmost。’
  ’Itwouldhavebeenbetter,ifIhad,tothee,’herepliedwithmuchcompassion;’thyhatisnearlyoffthyheadwiththeswellingofbrainIhavegiventhee。
  Blows,blows,arethybusiness,Jack。Therethouartinthineelement。And,haply,thisbusinesswillbringtheeplentyevenforthygreatheadtotake。Nowhearkentoonewhowishestheewell,andplainlyseestheendofit——stickthoutothewinningside,andhavenaughttodowiththeotherone。’
  ’That,’saidI,ingreathasteandhurry,’istheverythingIwanttodo,ifIonlyknewwhichwasthewinningside,forthesakeofLorna——thatistosay,forthesakeofmydearmotherandsisters,andthefarm。’
  ’Ha!’criedJeremyStickles,laughingattherednessofmyface——’Lorna,saidstthou;nowwhatLorna?Isitthenameofamaiden,oralight-o’-love?’
  ’Keeptoyourownbusiness,’Ianswered,veryproudly;
  ’spyasmuchase’erthouwilt,anduseourhousefordoingit,withoutaskingleaveortelling;butifI
  everfindtheespyingintomyaffairs,alltheKing’slifeguardsinLondon,andthedragoonsthoubringesthither,shallnotsavetheefrommyhand——oronefingerisenoughforthee。’
  BeingcarriedbeyondmyselfbyhisinsolenceaboutLorna,IlookedatMasterSticklesso,andspakeinsuchavoice,thatallhisdaringcourageandhisspotlesshonourquailedwithinhim,andheshrank——asifIwouldstrikesosmallaman。
  ThenIlefthim,andwenttoworkatthesacksuponthecorn-floor,totakemyevilspiritfrommebeforeI
  shouldseemother。Fortotellthetruthnowmystrengthwasfull,andtroublesweregatheringroundme,andpeopletookadvantagesomuchofmyeasytemper,sometimeswhenIwasover-tried,asuddenheatranoverme,andaglowingofallmymuscles,andatinglingforamightythrow,suchasmyutmostself-command,andfearofhurtinganyone,couldbutillrefrain。Afterwards,Iwasalwaysverysadlyashamedofmyself,knowinghowpoorathingbodilystrengthis,ascomparedwithpowerofmind,andthatitisacoward’sparttomisuseituponweakerfolk。
  ForthepresenttherewasalittlebreachbetweenMasterSticklesandme,forwhichIblamedmyselfverysorely。Butthough,infullmemoryofhiskindnessandfaithfulnessinLondon,Iaskedhispardonmanytimesformyfoolishangerwithhim,andofferedtoundergoanypenaltyhewouldlayuponme,heonlysaiditwasnomatter,therewasnothingtoforgive。Whenpeoplesaythat,thetruthoftenisthattheycanforgivenothing。
  SoforthepresentabreachwasmadebetweenMasterJeremyandmyself,whichtomeseemednogreatloss,inasmuchasitrelievedmefromanyprivitytohisdealings,forwhichIhadsmallliking。AllIfearedwaslestImight,inanyway,beungratefultohim;butwhenhewouldhavenomoreofme,whatcouldIdotohelpit?However,inafewdays’timeIwasofgoodservicetohim,asyoushallseeinitsproperplace。
  ButnowmyownaffairswerethrownintosuchdisorderthatIcouldthinkofnothingelse,andhadthegreatestdifficultyinhidingmyuneasiness。Forsuddenly,withoutanywarning,orawordofmessage,allmyLorna’ssignalsceased,whichIhadbeenaccustomedtowatchfordaily,andasitweretofeeduponthem,withaglowingheart。ThefirsttimeI
  stoodonthewoodedcrest,andfoundnochangefromyesterday,Icouldhardlybelievemyeyes,orthoughtatleastthatitmustbesomegreatmistakeonthepartofmylove。However,eventhatoppressedmewithaheavyheart,whichgrewheavier,asIfoundfromdaytodaynotoken。
  ThreetimesIwentandwaitedlongatthebottomofthevalley,wherenowthestreamwasbrownandangrywiththerainsofautumn,andtheweepingtreeshungleafless。ButthoughIwaitedateveryhourofday,andfarintothenight,nolightfootstepcametomeetme,nosweetvoicewasintheair;allwaslonely,drear,anddrenchedwithsoddendesolation。Itseemedasifmylovewasdead,andthewindswereatherfuneral。
  OnceIsoughtfarupthevalley,whereIhadneverbeenbefore,evenbeyondthecopsewhereLornahadfoundandlostherbraveyoungcousin。Followinguptheriverchannel,inshelteroftheeveningfog,Igainedacornerwithinstone’sthrowofthelastoutlyingcot。
  Thiswasagloomy,low,squarehouse,withoutanylightinthewindows,roughlybuiltofwoodandstone,asI
  sawwhenIdrewnearer。ForknowingittobeCarver’sdwellingoratleastsuspectingso,fromsomewordsofLorna’s,Iwasledbycuriosity,andperhapsbyjealousy,tohaveacloserlookatit。Therefore,Icreptupthestream,losinghalfmysenseoffear,byreasonofanxiety。
  Andintruththerewasnotmuchtofear,theskybeingnowtoodarkforevenashooterofwildfowltomakegoodaim。
  Andnothingelsebutgunscouldhurtme,asintheprideofmystrengthIthought,andinmyskillofsingle-stick。
  Nevertheless,Iwentwarily,beingnowalmostamongthisnestofcockatrices。ThebackofCarver’shouseabuttedonthewavesoftherushingstream;andseeingaloop-hole,vacantformuskets,Ilookedin,butallwasquiet。SofarasIcouldjudgebylistening,therewasnoonenowinside,andmyheartforamomentleapedwithjoy,forIhadfearedtofindLornathere。ThenI
  tookacarefulsurveyofthedwelling,anditswindows,anditsdoor,andaspect,asifIhadbeenarobbermeaningtomakeprivyentrance。ItwaswellformethatIdidthis,asyouwillfindhereafter。
  Havingimpresseduponmymindaslowbut,perhapsretentivemind,allthebearingsoftheplace,andallitsopportunities,andeventhecurveofthestreamalongit,andthebushesnearthedoor,Iwasmuchinclinedtogofartherup,andunderstandallthevillage。Butabarofredlightacrosstheriver,somefortyyardsonaboveme,andcrossingfromtheoppositesidelikeachain,preventedme。Inthatsecondhousetherewasagatheringofloudandmerryoutlaws,makingasmuchnoiseasiftheyhadthelawupontheirside。
  Some,indeed,asIapproached,werelayingdownbothrightandwrong,aspurely,andwithashighasense,asiftheyknewthedifference。ColdandtroubledasI
  was,Icouldhardlykeepfromlaughing。
  BeforeIbetookmyselfhomethatnight,andeaseddearmother’sheartsomuch,andmadeherpalefacespreadwithsmiles,IhadresolvedtopenetrateGlenDoonefromtheupperend,andlearnallaboutmyLorna。NotbutwhatImighthaveenteredfrommyunsuspectedchannel,assooftenIhaddone;butthatIsawfearfulneedforknowingsomethingmorethanthat。Herewaseverysortoftroublegatheringuponme,herewasJeremySticklesstealinguponeveryoneinthedark;
  herewasUncleReubenplottingSatanonlycouldtellwhat;herewasawhitenight-cappedmancomingbodilyfromthegrave;herewasmyownsisterAnniecommittedtoahighwayman,andmotherindistraction;mostofall——here,there,andwhere——wasmyLornastolen,dungeoned,perhapsoutraged。Itwasnotimeforshillyshally,forthebalanceofthisandthat,orforamanwithbloodandmuscletopathisnoseandponder。IfI
  leftmyLornaso;ifIletthoseblack-soul’dvillainsworktheirpleasureonmylove;iftheheartthatclavetominecouldfindnovigourinit——thenletmaidensceasefrommen,andresttheirfaithintabby-cats。
  RudelyrollingtheseideasinmyheavyheadandbrainI
  resolvedtoletthemorrowputthemintoformandorder,butnotcontradictthem。Andthen,asmyconstitutionwilledbeinglikethatofEngland,I
  slept,andtherewasnostoppingme。