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第40章

  Bythistime,theharvestbeingdone,andthethatchingofthericksmadesureagainstsouth-westerntempests,andallthereapersbeinggone,withgoodmoneyandthankfulness,IbegantoburninspiritforthesightofLorna。IhadbeggedmysisterAnnietoletSallySnoweknow,onceforall,thatitwasnotinmypowertohaveanythingmoretodowithher。OfcourseourAnniewasnottogrieveSally,neithertoletitappearforamomentthatIsuspectedherkindviewsuponme,andherstrongregardforourdairy:onlyIthoughtitrightuponourpartnottowasteSally’stimeanylonger,beingahandsomewenchasshewas,andmanyyoungfellowsgladtomarryher。
  AndAnniedidthisuncommonlywell,assheherselftoldmeafterwards,havingtakenSallyinthesweetestmannerintoherpureconfidence,andopenedhalfherbosomtoher,aboutmyverysadloveaffair。NotthatsheletSallyknow,ofcourse,whoitwas,orwhatitwas;onlythatshemadeherunderstand,withouthintingatanydesireofit,thattherewasnochancenowofhavingme。Sallychangedcolouralittleatthis,andthenwentonaboutaredcowwhichhadpassedsevenneedlesatmilkingtime。
  Inasmuchastherearetwosortsofmonthwellrecognisedbythecalendar,towitthelunarandthesolar,Imadeboldtoregardbothmymonths,intheabsenceofanyprovision,asintendedtobestrictlylunar。ThereforeupontheverydaywhentheeightweekswereexpiringforthIwentinsearchofLorna,takingthepearlringhopefully,andallthenew-laideggsIcouldfind,andadozenandahalfofsmalltroutfromourbrook。Andthepleasureitgavemetocatchthosetrout,thinkingaseveryonecameforthanddanceduponthegrass,howmuchshewouldenjoyhim,ismorethanIcannowdescribe,althoughIwellrememberit。Anditstruckmethatafteracceptingmyring,andsayinghowmuchshelovedme,itwaspossiblethatmyQueenmightinvitemeeventostayandsupwithher:
  andsoIarrangedwithdearAnniebeforehand,whowasnowthegreatestcomforttome,toaccountformyabsenceifIshouldbelate。
  Butalas,Iwasutterlydisappointed;foralthoughI
  waitedandwaitedforhours,withanequalamountbothofpatienceandperil,noLornaeverappearedatall,noreventhefaintestsignofher。Andanotherthingoccurredaswell,whichvexedmemorethanitneedhavedone,forsosmallamatter。Andthiswasthatmylittleofferingofthetroutandthenew-laideggswascarriedoffinthecoolestmannerbythatvileCarverDoone。Forthinkingtokeepthemthefresherandnicer,awayfromsomuchhandling,Ilaidtheminalittlebedofreedsbythesideofthewater,andplacedsomedog-leavesoverthem。
  AndwhenIhadquiteforgottenaboutthem,andwaswatchingfrommyhiding-placebeneaththewillow-treeforIlikednottoenterLorna’sbower,withoutherpermission;exceptjusttopeepthatshewasnotthere,andwhileIwasturningtheringinmypocket,havingjustseenthenewmoon,I
  becameawareofagreatmancomingeisurelydownthevalley。
  Hehadabroad-brimmedhat,andaleatherjerkin,andheavyjack-bootstohismiddlethigh,andwhatwasworstofallforme,onhisshoulderheborealongcarbine。Havingnothingtomeethimwithalbutmystaff,anddesiringtoavoiddisturbance,Iretiredpromptlyintothechasm,keepingthetreebetwixtusthathemightnotdescryme,andwatchingfrombehindthejutofarock,wherenowI
  hadscrapedmyselfaneatlittleholeforthepurpose。
  Presentlythegreatmanreappeared,beingnowwithinfiftyyardsofme,andthelightstillgoodenough,ashedrewnearerformetodescryhisfeatures:andthoughIamnotajudgeofmen’sfaces,therewassomethinginhiswhichturnedmecold,asthoughwithakindofhorror。Notthatitwasanuglyface;nay,ratheritseemedahandsomeone,sofarasmereformandlinemightgo,fullofstrength,andvigour,andwill,andsteadfastresolution。Fromtheshortblackhairabovethebroadforehead,tothelongblackbearddescendingbelowthecurt,boldchin,therewasnotanycurveorglimpseofweaknessorofafterthought。
  Nothingplayful,nothingpleasant,nothingwithatrackofsmiles;nothingwhichafriendcouldlike,andlaughathimforhaving。AndyethemighthavebeenagoodmanforIhaveknownverygoodmensofortifiedbytheirownstrangeideasofGod:Isaythathemighthaveseemedagoodman,butforthecoldandcruelhankeringofhissteel-blueeyes。
  NowletnoonesupposeforaminutethatIsawallthisinamoment;forIamveryslow,andtakealongtimetodigestthings;onlyIliketosetdown,andhavedonewithit,alltheresultsofmyknowledge,thoughtheybenotmanifold。ButwhatIsaidtomyself,justthen,wasnomorethanthis:’WhatafellowtohaveLorna!’Havingmysenseofrightsooutragedalthough,ofcourse,Iwouldneverallowhertogosofarasthat,Ialmostlongedthathemightthrusthisheadintolookafterme。ForthereIwas,withmyashstaffclubbed,readytohaveathim,andnotillinclinedtodoso;ifonlyhewouldcomewherestrength,notfirearms,mustdecideit。However,hesuspectednothingofmydangerousneighbourhood,butwalkedhisroundlikeasentinel,andturnedatthebrinkofthewater。
  Thenashemarchedbackagain,alongthemarginofthestream,heespiedmylittlehoard,coveredupwithdog-leaves。Hesawthattheleaveswereupsidedown,andthisofcoursedrewhisattention。Isawhimstoop,andlaybarethefish,andtheeggssetalittlewayfromthemandinmysimpleheart,Ithoughtthatnowheknewallaboutme。Buttomysurprise,heseemedwell-pleased;andhisharshshortlaughtercametomewithoutecho,——
  ’Ha,ha!Charlieboy!FishermanCharlie,haveIcaughttheesettingbaitforLorna?Now,Iunderstandthyfishings,andtherobbingofCounsellor’shenroost。
  MayIneverhavegoodroasting,ifIhaveitnotto-nightandroastthee,Charlie,afterwards!’
  Withthishecalmlypackedupmyfish,andallthebestofdearAnnie’seggs;andwentawaychucklingsteadfastly,tohishome,ifonemaycallitso。ButI
  wassothoroughlygrievedandmortifiedbythismostimpudentrobbery,thatIstartedforthfrommyrockyscreenwiththeintentionofpursuinghim,untilmybettersensearrestedme,barelyintimetoescapehiseyes。ForI
  saidtomyself,thatevensupposingIcouldcontendunarmedwithhim,itwouldbethegreatestfollyintheworldtohavemysecretaccessknown,andperhapsafatalbarrierplacedbetweenLornaandmyself,andI
  knewnotwhattroublebroughtuponher,allforthesakeofafeweggsandfishes。Itwasbettertobearthistriflingloss,howeverignominiousandgoadingtothespirit,thantoriskmyloveandLorna’swelfare,andperhapsbeshotintothebargain。AndIthinkthatallwillagreewithme,thatIactedforthewisest,inwithdrawingtomyshelter,thoughdeprivedofeggsandfishes。
  HavingwaitedasIsaiduntiltherewasnochancewhateverofmyloveappearing,Ihastenedhomewardverysadly;andthewindofearlyautumnmoanedacrossthemoorland。Allthebeautyoftheharvest,allthegaietywasgone,andtheearlyfallofduskwaslikeaweightuponme。Nevertheless,Iwenteveryeveningthenceforwardforafortnight;hoping,everytimeinvaintofindmyhopeandcomfort。Andmeanwhile,whatperplexedmemostwasthatthesignalswerereplaced,inorderasagreedupon,sothatLornacouldscarcelyberestrainedbyanyrigour。
  OnetimeIhadanarrowchanceofbeingshotandsettledwith;anditbefellmethus。Iwaswaitingverycarelessly,beingnowalittledesperate,attheentrancetotheglen,insteadofwatchingthroughmysight-hole,astheproperpracticewas。Suddenlyaballwentbyme,withawhizzandwhistle,passingthroughmyhatandsweepingitawayallfoldedup。Mysofthatflutteredfardownthestream,beforeIhadtimetogoafterit,andwiththehelpofbothwindandwater,wasfiftyyardsgoneinamoment。AtthisIhadjustenoughmindlefttoshrinkbackverysuddenly,andlurkverystillandclosely;forIknewwhatanarrowescapeithadbeen,asIheardthebullet,hardsetbythepowder,singmournfullydownthechasm,likeadronebanishedoutofthehive。AndasIpeeredthroughmylittlecranny,Isawawreathofsmokestillfloatingwherethethicknesswasofthewithy-bed;andpresentlyCarverDoonecameforth,havingstoppedtoreloadhispieceperhaps,andranveryswiftlytotheentrancetoseewhathehadshot。
  SoretroublehadItokeepclosequarters,fromtheslipperinessofthestonebeneathmewiththewaterslidingoverit。Myfoecamequitetothevergeofthefall,wheretheriverbegantocombover;andtherehestoppedforaminuteortwo,ontheutmostedgeofdryland,upontheveryspotindeedwhereIhadfallensenselesswhenIclombitinmyboyhood。Icouldhearhimbreathinghardandgrunting,asindoubtanddiscontent,forhestoodwithinayardofme,andI
  keptmyrightfistreadyforhim,ifheshoulddiscoverme。Thenatthefootofthewaterslide,myblackhatsuddenlyappeared,tossinginwhitefoam,andflutteringlikearavenwounded。NowIhaddoubtedwhichhattotake,whenIlefthomethatday;tillI
  thoughtthattheblackbecamemebest,andmightseemkindertoLorna。
  ’HaveIkilledthee,oldbird,atlast?’myenemycriedintriumph;’’tisthethirdtimeIhaveshotatthee,andthouwastbeginningtomockme。Nomoreofthycursedcroakingnow,towakemeinthemorning。Ha,ha!therearenotmanywhogetthreechancesfromCarverDoone;andnoneevergobeyondit。’
  Ilaughedwithinmyselfatthis,ashestrodeawayinhistriumph;forwasnotthishisthirdchanceofme,andhenowhitthewiser?AndthenIthoughtthatperhapsthechancemightsomedaybeontheotherside。
  Fortotellthetruth,Iwasheartilytiredoflurkingandplayingbo-peepsolong;towhichnothingcouldhavereconciledme,exceptmyfearforLorna。AndhereIsawwasamanofstrengthfitformetoencounter,suchasIhadnevermet,butwouldbegladtomeetwith;havingfoundnomanoflatewhoneedednotmymercyatwrestling,oratsingle-stick。Andgrowingmoreandmoreuneasy,asIfoundnoLorna,IwouldhavetriedtoforcetheDooneGlenfromtheupperend,andtakemychanceofgettingback,butforAnnieandherprayers。
  NowthatsamenightIthinkitwas,oratanyratethenextone,thatInoticedBettyMuxworthygoingonmoststrangely。Shemadethequeerestsignstome,whennobodywaslooking,andlaidherfingersonherlips,andpointedoverhershoulder。ButItooklittleheedofher,beinginakindofdudgeon,andoppressedwithevilluck;believingtoothatallshewantedwastohavesomelittlegrumbleaboutsomepettygrievance。
  Butpresentlyshepokedmewiththeheelofafire-bundle,andpassingclosetomyearwhispered,sothatnoneelsecouldhearher,’LarnaDoo-un。’
  BythesewordsIwassostartled,thatIturnedroundandstaredather;butshepretendednottoknowit,andbeganwithallhermighttoscouranemptycrockwithabesom。
  ’Oh,Betty,letmehelpyou!Thatworkismuchtoohardforyou,’Icriedwithasuddenchivalry,whichonlywonrudeanswer。
  ’Zeedmeadooingofthic,everynaightlasttenyear,Jan,wioutvindin’outhowharditwor。Butifzobeetheewantstohelp,carrpeg’sbucketforme。Massy,ifIain’tforgottentofadethepegstillnow。’
  Favouringmewithanotherwink,towhichInowpaidthekeenestheed,Bettywentandfetchedthelanthornfromthehookinsidethedoor。Thenwhenshehadkindledit,notallowingmeanytimetoaskwhatshewasafter,shewentoutside,andpointedtothegreatbockofwash,andriddlings,andbrownhulkageforwegroundourowncornalways,andthoughsheknewthatBillDaddsandJemSlocombehadfullworktocarryitonapolewithanothertohelptoslingit,shesaidtomeasquietlyasamaidenmightaskonetocarryaglove,’JanRidd,carrthicthingforme。’
  SoIcarrieditforher,withoutanywords;wonderingwhatshewasuptonext,andwhethershehadeverheardofbeingtoohardonthewillinghorse。Andwhenwecametohog-pound,sheturneduponmesuddenly,withthelanthornshewasbearing,andsawthatIhadthebockbyonehandveryeasily。
  ’JanRidd,’shesaid,’therebenoothermaninEnglandcuda’doodit。NowtheeshalthaveLarna。’
  WhileIwaswonderinghowmychanceofhavingLornacoulddependuponmypowertocarrypig’swash,andhowBettycouldhaveanyvoiceinthematterwhichseemedtodependuponherdecision,andinshort,whileIwasallabroadastoherknowledgeandeverything,thepigs,whohadbeenfastasleepanddreamingintheiremptiness,awokewithoneaccordatthegoodnessofthesmellaroundthem。Theyhadresignedthemselves,asevenpigsdo,toakindoffast,hopingtobreaktheirfastmoresweetlyonthemorrowmorning。Butnowtheytumbledoutallheadlong,pigsbelowandpigsabove,pigspoint-blankandpigsacross,pigscourantandpigsrampant,butallalikepreparedtoeat,andallingoodcadencesqueaking。