Butwhenamancamehomeatnight,afterlongday’slabour,knowingthatthedaysincreased,andsohiscareshouldmultiply;stillhefoundenoughoflighttoshowhimwhatthedayhaddoneagainsthiminhisgarden。Everyridgeofnew-turnedearthlookedlikeanoldman’smuscles,honeycombed,andstandingoutvoidofspring,andpowdery。Everyplantthathadrejoicedinpassingsuchawinternowwascowering,turnedaway,unfittomeettheconsequence。Flowingsaphadstoppeditscourse;flutedlinesshowedwantoffood,andifyoupinchedthetopmostspray,therewasnoreboundorfirmness。
Wethinkagooddeal,inaquietway,whenpeopleaskusaboutthem——ofsomefine,upstandingpear-trees,graftedbymygrandfather,whohadbeenverygreatlyrespected。AndhegotthosegraftsbyshelteringapoorItaliansoldier,inthetimeofJamestheFirst,amanwhonevercoulddoenoughtoshowhisgratefulmemories。Howhecametoourplaceisaverydifficultstory,whichIneverunderstoodrightly,havinghearditfrommymother。Atanyrate,therethepear-treeswere,andtheretheyaretothisveryday;andIwisheveryonecouldtastetheirfruit,oldastheyare,andrugged。
Nowthesefinetreeshadtakenadvantageofthewestwinds,andthemoisture,andthepromiseofthespringtime,soastofillthetipsofthespray-woodandtherowelsallupthebrancheswithacrowdofeagerblossom。Notthattheywereyetinbloom,norevenshowingwhiteness,onlythatsomeoftheconeswereopeningatthesideofthecapwhichpinchedthem;andthereyoumightcountperhaps,adozennobs,likeverylittlebuttons,butgrooved,andlined,andhuddlingclose,tomakeroomforoneanother。Andamongthesebudsweregray-greenblades,scarcebiggerthanahairalmost,yetcurvingsoasiftheirpurposewastoshieldtheblossom。
Otherofthespur-points,standingontheolderwoodwherethesapwasnotsoeager,hadnotbursttheirtunicyet,butwereflayedandflakedwithlight,castingoffthehuskofbrowninthree-corneredpatches,asIhaveseenaScotchman’splaid,orashislegsshowsthroughit。Thesebuds,atadistance,lookedasiftheskyhadbeenrainingcreamuponthem。
Nowallthisfairdelighttotheeyes,andgoodpromisetothepalate,wasmarredandbaffledbythewindandcuttingofthenight-frosts。Theopeningconeswerestruckwithbrown,inbetweenthebuttonbuds,andonthescapesthatshieldedthem;whilethefootpartofthecoverhunglikerags,peeledback,andquivering。
Andtherethelittlestalkofeach,whichmighthavebeenapear,Godwilling,hadaringarounditsbase,andsoughtachancetodropanddie。Theotherswhichhadnotopenedcomb,butonlypreparedtodoit,werealittlebetteroff,butstillverybrownandunkid,andshrivellingindoubtofhealth,andneitherpeartnorlusty。
NowthisIhavenottoldbecauseIknowthewaytodoit,forthatIdonot,neitheryethaveseenamanwhodidknow。Itiswonderfulhowwelookatthings,andneverthinktonoticethem;andIamasbadasanybody,unlessthethingtobeobservedisadog,orahorse,oramaiden。AndthelastofthosethreeIlookat,somehow,withoutknowingthatItakenotice,andgreatlyafraidtodoit,onlyIknewafterwardswhenthetimeoflifewasinme,notindeed,whatthemaidenwaslike,buthowshedifferedfromothers。
YetIhavespokenaboutthespring,andthefailureoffairpromise,becauseItookittomyheartastokenofwhatwouldcometomeinthebuddingofmyyearsandhope。Andeventhen,beingmuchpossessed,andfullofafoolishmelancholy,Ifeltasaddelightatbeingdoomedtoblightandloneliness;notbutthatImanagedstillwhenmotherwasurgentuponmetoeatmyshareofvictuals,andcuffamanforlaziness,andseethataploughsharemadenoleaps,andsleepofanightwithoutdreaming。Andmymotherhalf-believing,inherfondnessandaffection,thatwhattheparishsaidwastrueaboutamaddoghavingbittenme,andyetarguingthatitmustbefalsebecauseGodwouldhavepreventedhim,mymothergavemelittlerest,whenIwasintheroomwithher。Notthatsheworriedmewithquestions,noropenlyregardedmewithanyunusualmeaning,butthatIknewshewaswatchingslylywheneverItookaspoonup;andeveryhourorsoshemanagedtoplaceapanofwaterbyme,quiteasifbyaccident,andsometimeseventospillalittleuponmyshoeorcoat-sleeve。ButBettyMuxworthywasworst;for,havingnofearaboutmyhealth,shemadeavillainousjokeofit,andusedtorushintothekitchen,barkinglikeadog,andpanting,exclaimingthatIhadbittenher,andjusticeshewouldhaveonme,ifitcostheratwelvemonth’swages。AndshealwaystookcaretodothisthingjustwhenIhadcrossedmylegsinthecorneraftersupper,andleanedmyheadagainsttheoven,tobegintothinkofLorna。
However,inallthingsthereiscomfort,ifwedonotlooktoohardforit;andnowIhadmuchsatisfaction,inmyuncouthstate,fromlabouring,bythehourtogether,atthehedgingandtheditching,meetingthebitterwindfacetoface,feelingmystrengthincrease,andhopingthatsomeonewouldbeproudofit。Intherustlingrushofeverygust,inthegracefulbendofeverytree,eveninthe’lordsandladies,’clumpedinthescoopsofthehedgerow,andmostofallinthesoftprimrose,wrungbythewind,butstealingback,andsmilingwhenthewrathwaspassed——inallofthese,andmanyotherstherewasachingecstasy,deliciouspangofLorna。
Buthowevercoldtheweatherwas,andhoweverhardthewindblew,onethingmorethanalltherestworriedandperplexedme。Thiswas,thatIcouldnotsettle,turnandtwistasImight,howsoonIoughttogoagainuponavisittoGlenDoone。ForIlikednotatallthefalsenessofitalbeitagainstmurderers,thecreepingoutofsight,andhiding,andfeelingasaspymight。Andevenmorethanthis。IfearedhowLornamightregardit;whetherImightseemtoheraproneandbluntintruder,acountryyouthnotskilledinmanners,asamongthequality,evenwhentheyrobus。
ForIwasnotsuremyself,butthatitmightbeverybadmannerstogoagaintooearlywithoutaninvitation;andmyhandsandfacewerechappedsobadlybythebitterwind,thatLornamightcountthemunsightlythings,andwishtoseenomoreofthem。
However,Icouldnotbringmyselftoconsultanyoneuponthispoint,atleastinourownneighbourhood,noreventospeakofitnearhome。Buttheeastwindholdingthroughthemonth,myhandsandfacegrowingworseandworse,andithavingoccurredtomebythistimethatpossiblyLornamighthavechaps,ifshecameabroadatall,andsomightliketotalkaboutthemandshowherlittlehandstome,Iresolvedtotakeanotheropinion,sofarasmightbeuponthismatter,withoutdisclosingthecircumstances。
Nowthewisestpersoninallourpartswasreckonedtobeacertainwisewoman,wellknownalloverExmoorbythenameofMotherMelldrum。HerrealnamewasMapleDurham,asIlearnedlongafterwards;andshecameofanancientfamily,butneitherofDevonnorSomerset。
Neverthelessshewasquiteathomewithourpropermodesofdivination;andknowingthatwelikedthembest——aseachmandoeshisownreligion——shewouldalwayspractisethemforthepeopleofthecountry。
Andallthewhile,shewouldletusknowthatshekeptahigherandnoblermodeforthosewholookeddownuponthisone,nothavingbeenbredandborntoit。
MotherMelldrumhadtwohouses,orrathershehadnoneatall,buttwohomeswhereintofindher,accordingtothetimeofyear。Insummershelivedinapleasantcave,facingthecoolsideofthehill,farinlandnearHawkridgeandcloseaboveTarr-steps,awonderfulcrossingofBarleriver,madeaseverybodyknowsbySatan,forawager。Butthroughoutthewinter,shefoundsea-airagreeable,andaplacewherethingscouldbehadoncredit,andmoreoccasionoftalking。NotbutwhatshecouldhavecreditforeveryonewasafraidofherintheneighbourhoodofTarr-steps;onlytherewasnoonehandyowningthingsworthtaking。
Therefore,atthefalloftheleaf,whenthewoodsgrewdampandirksome,thewisewomanalwayssetherfacetothewarmercliffsoftheChannel;whereshelterwas,anddryfernbedding,andfolktobeseeninthedistance,fromabankuponwhichthesunshone。Andthere,asIknewfromourJohnFrywhohadbeentoheraboutrheumatism,andsheeppossessedwithanevilspirit,andwartsonthehandofhisson,youngJohn,anyonewhochosemightfindher,towardsthecloseofawinterday,gatheringsticksandbrownfernforfuel,andtalkingtoherselfthewhile,inahollowstretchbehindthecliffs;whichforeigners,whocomeandgowithoutseeingmuchofExmoor,havecalledtheValleyofRocks。
Thisvalley,orgoyal,aswetermit,beingsmallforavalley,liestothewestofLinton,aboutamilefromthetownperhaps,andawaytowardsLeyManor。OurhomefolkalwayscallittheDanes,ortheDenes,whichisnomore,theytellme,thanahollowplace,evenastheword’den’is。However,letthatpass,forIknowverylittleaboutit;buttheplaceitselfisaprettyone,thoughnothingtofrightenanybody,unlesshehathlivedinagallipot。Itisagreenrough-sidedhollow,bendingatthemiddle,touchedwithstoneateithercrest,anddottedhereandtherewithslabsinandoutthebrambles。Ontherighthandisanupwardcrag,calledbysometheCastle,easyenoughtoscale,andgivinggreatviewoftheChannel。Facingthis,fromtheinlandsideandtheelbowofthevalley,aqueeroldpileofrockarises,boldbehindoneanother,andquiteenoughtoaffrightaman,ifitonlyweretentimeslarger。ThisiscalledtheDevil’sCheese-ring,ortheDevil’sCheese-knife,whichmeanthesamething,asourfatherswereusedtoeattheircheesefromascoop;andperhapsinoldtimetheupmostrockwhichhasfallenawaysinceIknewitwasliketosuchanimplement,ifSataneatcheeseuntoasted。
Butallthemiddleofthisvalleywasaplacetorestin;tositandthinkthattroubleswerenot,ifwewouldnotmakethem。Toknowtheseaoutsidethehills,butnevertobeholdit;onlybythesoundofwavestopitysailorslabouring。Thentowatchtheshelteredsun,comingwarmlyroundtheturn,likeaguestexpected,fullofgentleglowandgladness,castingshadowfarawayasathingtohugitself,andawakeninglifefromdew,andhopefromeveryspreadingbud。Andthentofallasleepanddreamthatthefernwasallasparagus。
Alas,Iwastooyounginthosedaysmuchtocareforcreaturecomforts,ortoletpurepalatehavethingsthatwouldimproveit。Anythingwentdownwithme,asitdoeswithmostofus。Toolateweknowthegoodfrombad;theknowledgeisnopleasurethen;beingmemory’smedicineratherthanthewineofhope。
NowMotherMelldrumkeptherwinterinthisvaleofrocks,shelteringfromthewindandrainwithintheDevil’sCheese-ring,whichaddedgreatlytoherfamebecauseallelse,formilesaround,wereafraidtogonearitafterdark,orevenonagloomyday。Undereavesoflichenedrockshehadawindingpassage,whichnonethateverIknewofdurstenterbutherself。AndtothisplaceIwenttoseekher,inspiteofallmisgivings,uponaSundayinLentenseason,whenthesheepwerefolded。
OurparsonasifhehadknownmyintenthadpreachedabeautifulsermonabouttheWitchofEndor,andtheperilsofthemthatmeddlewantonlywiththeunseenPowers;andthereinhereferredespeciallytothestrangenoiseintheneighbourhood,andupbraidedusforwantoffaith,andmanyotherbackslidings。Welistenedtohimveryearnestly,forweliketohearfromourbettersaboutthingsthatarebeyondus,andtoberousedupnowandthen,likesheepwithagooddogafterthem,whocanpullsomewoolwithoutbiting。
Neverthelesswecouldnotseehowourwantoffaithcouldhavemadethatnoise,especiallyatnighttime,notwithstandingwhichwebelievedit,andhopedtodoalittlebetter。
Andsoweallcamehomefromchurch;andmostofthepeopledinedwithus,astheyalwaysdoonSundays,becauseofthedistancetogohome,withonlywordsinsidethem。Theparson,whoalwayssatnexttomother,wasafraidthathemighthavevexedus,andwouldnothavethebestpieceofmeat,accordingtohiscustom。Butsoonweputhimathisease,andshowedhimwewereproudofhim;andthenhemadenomoretodo,butacceptedthebestofthesirloin。
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