andgriefbeginstocloseonpeople,astheirpoweroflifedeclines。Wesaidthatshewashardofhearing;
butmyopinionwas,thatseeingmeinclinedformarriagemadeherthinkofmyfather,andsoperhapsalittletoomuch,todwellonthecourtingofthirtyyearsagone。Anyhow,shewastheverybestofmothers;
andwouldsmileandcommandherself;andbeortrytobelieveherselfashappyascouldbe,inthedoingsoftheyoungerfolk,andherownskillindetectingthem。
Yet,withthewisdomofage,renouncinganyopinionuponthematter;sincenonecouldseetheendofit。
ButLornainherbrightyoungbeauty,andherknowledgeofmyheart,wasnottobecheckedbyanythoughtsofhaplycomingevil。Inthemorningshewasup,evensoonerthanIwas,andthroughallthecornersofthehens,rememberingeveryoneofthem。Icaughtherandsalutedherwithsuchwarmthbeingnownonetolookatus,thatshevowedshewouldnevercomeoutagain;andyetshecamethenextmorning。
Thesethingsoughtnottobechronicled。YetIamofsuchnature,thatfindingmanypartsoflifeadversetoourwishes,Imustnowandthendrawpleasurefromtheblessedportions。Andwhatportioncanbemoreblessedthanwithyouth,andhealth,andstrength,tobelovedbyavirtuousmaid,andtoloveherwithallone’sheart?Neitherwasmypridediminished,whenIfoundwhatshehaddone,onlyfromherloveofme。
EarlBrandir’sancientsteward,inwhosechargeshehadtravelled,withaproperescort,lookeduponherasalovelymaniac;andthemixtureofpityandadmirationwherewithheregardedher,wasastrangethingtoobserve;especiallyafterhehadseenoursimplehouseandmanners。Ontheotherhand,Lornaconsideredhimaworthybutfoolisholdgentleman;towhomtruehappinessmeantnomorethanmoneyandhighposition。
Thesetwolastshehadbeenreadytoabandonwholly,andhadinpartescapedfromthem,astheenemiesofherhappiness。Andshetookadvantageofthetimes,inatrulyclevermanner。Forthathappenedtobeatime——asindeedalltimeshithertosofarasmyknowledgeextends,have,somehow,orother,happenedtobe——wheneverybodywasonlytoogladtotakemoneyfordoinganything。Andthegreatestmoney-takerinthekingdomnexttotheKingandQueen,ofcourse,whohadduepre-eminence,andhadtaughtthemaidsofhonourwasgenerallyacknowledgedtobetheLordChiefJusticeJeffreys。
Uponhisreturnfromthebloodyassizes,withtriumphandgreatglory,afterhangingeverymanwhowastoopoortohelpit,hepleasedhisGraciousMajestysopurelywiththedescriptionoftheirdelightfulagonies,thattheKingexclaimed,’Thismanaloneisworthytobeattheheadofthelaw。’AccordinglyinhishandwasplacedtheGreatSealofEngland。
SoitcametopassthatLorna’sdestinyhunguponLordJeffreys;foratthistimeEarlBrandirdied,beingtakenwithgoutintheheart,soonafterIleftLondon。
Lornawasverysorryforhim;butashehadneverbeenabletohearonetoneofhersweetsilveryvoice,itisnottobesupposedthatsheweptwithoutconsolation。
Shegrievedforhimasweoughttogrieveforanygoodmangoing;andyetwithacomfortingsenseofthebenefitwhichtheblessedexchangemustbringtohim。
NowtheLadyLornaDugalappearedtoLordChancellorJeffreyssoexceedingwealthyawardthatthelockwouldpayforturning。Thereforehecame,ofhisownaccord,tovisither,andtotreatwithher;havingheardforthemanwasasbigagossipasnevercaredforanybody,yetlovedtoknowallabouteverybody
thatthiswealthyandbeautifulmaidenwouldnotlistentoanyyounglord,havingpledgedherfaithtotheplainJohnRidd。
Thereupon,ourLornamanagedsotoholdoutgoldenhopestotheLordHighChancellor,thathe,beingnotmorethanthreepartsdrunk,sawhiswaytoaheapofmoney。Andthereandthenforhewasnotthemantodailylongaboutanythinguponsuretyofacertainroundsum——theamountofwhichIwillnotmention,becauseofhiskindnesstowardsme——hegavetohisfairwardpermission,undersignandseal,tomarrythatloyalknight,JohnRidd;uponconditiononlythattheKing’sconsentshouldbeobtained。
HisMajesty,well-disposedtowardsmeformypreviousservice,andregardingmeasagoodCatholic,beingmovedmoreoverbytheQueen,whodesiredtopleaseLorna,consented,withoutmuchhesitation,upontheunderstandingthatLorna,whenshebecameoffullage,andthemistressofherpropertywhichwasstillunderguardianship,shouldpayaheavyfinetotheCrown,anddevoteafixedportionofherestatetothepromotionoftheholyCatholicfaith,inamannertobedictatedbytheKinghimself。Inasmuch,however,asKingJameswasdrivenoutofhiskingdombeforethisarrangementcouldtakeeffect,andanotherkingsucceeded,whodesirednotthepromotionoftheCatholicreligion,neitherhankeredaftersubsidies,whetherFrenchorEnglish,thatagreementwaspronouncedinvalid,improper,andcontemptible。
However,therewasnogettingbackthemoneyoncepaidtoLordChancellorJeffreys。
Butwhatthoughtweofmoneyatthispresentmoment;orofposition,oranythingelse,exceptindeedoneanother?Lornatoldme,withthesweetestsmile,thatifIweremindedtotakeheratall,Imusttakeherwithoutanything;inasmuchasshemeant,uponcomingofage,tomakeovertheresidueofherestatestothenext-of-kin,asbeingunfitforafarmer’swife。AndI
repliedwiththegreatestwarmthandareadinesstoworshipher,thatthiswasexactlywhatIlongedfor,buthadneverdaredtoproposeit。Butdearmotherlookedmostexceedinggrave;andsaidthattobesureheropinioncouldnotbeexpectedtocountformuch,butshereallyhopedthatinthreeyears’timeweshouldbothhealittlewiser,andhavemoreregardforourinterests,andperhapsthoseofothersbythattime;andMasterSnowehavingdaughtersonly,andnobodycomingtomarrythem,ifanythinghappenedtothegoodoldman——andwhocouldtellinthreeyears’
timewhatmighthappentoalloranyofus?——whyperhapshisfarmwouldbeforsale,andperhapsLadyLorna’sestatesinScotlandwouldfetchenoughmoneytobuyit,andsothrowthetwofarmsintoone,andsaveallthetroubleaboutthebrook,asmypoorfatherhadlongedtodomanyandmanyatime,butnothavingatitlecouldnotdoallquiteashewanted。Andthenifweyoungpeoplegrewtiredoftheoldmother,asseemedonlytoolikely,andwasaccordingtonature,whywecouldsendheroverthere,andLizzietokeephercompany。
Whenmotherhadfinished,andwipedhereyes,Lorna,whohadbeenblushingrosilyatsomeportionsofthisgreatspeech,flungherfairarmsaroundmother’sneck,andkissedherveryheartily,andscoldedherasshewelldeservedforherwantofconfidenceinus。MymotherrepliedthatifanybodycoulddeserveherJohn,itwasLorna;butthatshecouldnotholdwiththerashnessofgivingupmoneysoeasily;whilehernext-of-kinwouldbeJohnhimself,andwhocouldtellwhatothers,bythetimeshewasone-and-twenty?
Hereupon,Ifeltthatafterallmymotherhadcommonsenseonherside;forifMasterSnowe’sfarmshouldbeforsale,itwouldbefarmoretothepurposethanmycoatofarms,togetit;fortherewasadifferentpasturethere,justsuitedforchangeofdiettooursheepaswellaslargecattle。Andbesidethis,evenwithallAnnie’sskillandofcourseyetmorenowshewasgone,theirbutterwouldalwayscommandinthemarketfromonetothreefarthingsapoundmorethanwecouldgetforours。Andfewthingsvexedusmorethanthis。Whereas,ifwegotpossessionofthefarm,wemight,withoutbreachofthemarket-laws,oranyharmdonetoanyonethepricebeingbutaprejudice,sellallourbutterasSnowebutter,anddogoodtoallourcustomers。
Thinkingthus,yetrememberingthatFarmerNicholasmightholdoutforanotherscoreofyears——asI
heartilyhopedhemight——orthatone,ifnotall,ofhiscomelydaughtersmightmarryagoodyoungfarmerorfarmers,ifthecasewereso——orthat,evenwithoutthat,thefarmmightneverbeputupforsale;
IbeggedmyLornatodoassheliked;orrathertowaitandthinkofit;forasyetshecoulddonothing。
[AlsoknownasBLOODUPONTHEALTARinothereditions]
Everythingwassettledsmoothly,andwithoutanyfearorfuss,thatLornamightfindendoftroubles,andmyselfofeagerwaiting,withthehelpofParsonBowden,andthegoodwishesoftwocounties。Icouldscarcebelievemyfortune,whenIlookeduponherbeauty,gentleness,andsweetness,mingledwithenoughofhumourandwarmwoman’sfeeling,nevertobedullortiring;neverthemselvestobeweary。
Forshemightbecalledawomannow;althoughaveryyoungone,andasfullofplayfulways,orperhapsI
maysaytentimesasfull,asifshehadknownnotrouble。Towit,thespiritofbrightchildhood,havingbeensocurbedandstraitened,ereitstimewasover,nowbrokeforth,enrichedandvariedwiththegarbofconsciousmaidenhood。Andthesenseofsteadfastlove,andeagerloveenfoldingher,colouredwithsomanytingesallherlooks,andwords,andthoughts,thattomeitwasthenoblestvisioneventothinkabouther。
Butthiswasfartoobrighttolast,withoutbitterbreak,andtheplungingofhappinessinhorror,andofpassionatejoyinagony。Mydarlinginhersoftestmoments,whenshewasalonewithme,whenthesparkofdefianteyeswasveiledbeneathdarklashes,andthechallengeofgaybeautypassedintosweetestinvitation;atsuchtimesofherpurestloveandwarmestfaithinme,adeepabidingfearwouldflutterinherboundingheart,asofdeadlyfate’sapproach。
Shewouldclingtome,andnestletome,beingscaredofcoyishness,andlayonearmaroundmyneck,andaskifIcoulddowithouther。
Hence,asallemotionshaply,ofthosewhoaremoretousthanourselves,findwithinusstrongerecho,andmoreperfectanswer,soIcouldnotberegardlessofsomehiddenevil;andmydarkmisgivingsdeepenedasthetimedrewnearer。IkeptasteadfastwatchonLorna,neglectingafieldofbeansentirely,aswellasalitterofyoungpigs,andacowsomewhatgiventojaundice。AndIletJemSlocombegotosleepinthetallat,alloneafternoon,andBillDaddsdrawoffabucketofcider,withoutsomuchasa’byyourleave。’
Forthesemenknewthatmyknighthood,andmycoatofarms,andmostofallmylove,weregreatlyagainstgoodfarming;thesenseofourcountrybeing——andperhapsitmaybesensible——thatamanwhosticksuptobeanything,mustallowhimselftobecheated。
ButIneverdidstickup,norwould,thoughalltheparishbademe;andIwhistledthesametunestomyhorses,andheldmyplough-tree,justthesameasifnoKing,norQueen,hadevercometospoilmytuneorhand。Forthisthing,nearlyallthemenaroundourpartsupbraidedme;butthewomenpraisedme:andforthemostparttheseareright,whenthemselvesarenotconcerned。
HoweverhumbleImightbe,nooneknowinganythingofourpartofthecountry,wouldforamomentdoubtthatnowherewasagreattodoandtalkofJohnRiddandhiswedding。ThefiercefightwiththeDoonessolately,andmyleadingofthecombatthoughIfoughtnotmorethanneedbe,andthevanishingofSirCounsellor,andthegallopingmadnessofCarver,andthereligiousfearofthewomenthatthislastwasgonetohell——forhehimselfhaddeclaredthathisaim,whilehecutthroughtheyeomanry——alsotheirremorse,thatheshouldhavebeenmadetogothitherwithallhischildrenleftbehind——thesethings,IsayifeverIcanagaincontrivetosayanything,hadledtothebroadestexcitementaboutmyweddingofLorna。Weheardthatpeoplemeanttocomefrommorethanthirtymilesaround,uponexcuseofseeingmystatureandLorna’sbeauty;butingoodtruthoutofsheercuriosity,andtheloveofmeddling。
Ourclerkhadgivennotice,thatnotamanshouldcomeinsidethedoorofhischurchwithoutshilling-fee;andwomenassuretoseetwiceasmuchmusteveryonepaytwoshillings。Ithoughtthiswrong;andaschurch-warden,beggedthatthemoneymightbepaidintomineownhands,whentaken。Buttheclerksaidthatwasagainstalllaw;andhehadordersfromtheparsontopayittohimwithoutanydelay。SoasIalwaysobeytheparson,whenIcarenotmuchaboutathing,I
letthemhaveittheirownway;thoughfeelinginclinedtobelieve,sometimes,thatIoughttohavesomeofthemoney。
Dearmotherarrangedalltheinsandoutsofthewayinwhichitwastobedone;andAnnieandLizzie,andalltheSnowes,andevenRuthHuckabackwhowasthere,aftergreatpersuasion,madesuchasweepingofdressesthatIscarcelyknewwheretoplacemyfeet,andlongedforastaff,toputbytheirgowns。ThenLornacameoutofapewhalf-way,inamannerwhichquiteastonishedme,andtookmylefthandinherright,andIprayedGodthatitweredonewith。
Mydarlinglookedsoglorious,thatIwasafraidofglancingather,yettookinallherbeauty。Shewasinafright,nodoubt;butnobodyshouldseeit;
whereasIsaidtomyselfatleast,’Iwillgothroughitlikeagrave-digger。’
Lorna’sdresswasofpurewhite,cloudedwithfaintlavenderforthesakeoftheoldEarlBrandir,andassimpleasneedbe,exceptforperfectloveliness。###第104章
wasafraidtolookather,asIsaidbefore,exceptwheneachofussaid,’Iwill,’andtheneachdwelledupontheother。
ItisimpossibleforanywhohavenotlovedasIhavetoconceivemyjoyandpride,whenafterringandallwasdone,andtheparsonhadblessedus,Lornaturnedtolookatmewithherglancesofsubtlefunsubduedbythisgreatact。
Hereyes,whichnoneonearthmayeverequal,orcomparewith,toldmesuchadepthofcomfort,yetawaitingfurthercommune,thatIwasalmostamazed,thoroughlyasIknewthem。Darlingeyes,thesweetesteyes,theloveliest,themostlovingeyes——thesoundofashotrangthroughthechurch,andthoseeyeswerefilledwithdeath。
LornafellacrossmykneeswhenIwasgoingtokissher,asthebridegroomisallowedtodo,andencouraged,ifheneedsit;afloodofbloodcameoutupontheyellowwoodofthealtarsteps,andatmyfeetlayLorna,tryingtotellmesomelastmessageoutofherfaithfuleyes。Iliftedherup,andpettedher,andcoaxedher,butitwasnogood;theonlysignofliferemainingwasaspirtofbrightredblood。
Somemenknowwhatthingsbefalltheminthesupremetimeoftheirlife——farabovethetimeofdeath——buttomecomesbackasahazydream,withoutanyknowledgeinit,whatIdid,orfelt,orthought,withmywife’sarmsflagging,flagging,aroundmyneck,asIraisedherup,andsoftlyputthemthere。Shesighedalongsighonmybreast,forherlastfarewelltolife,andthenshegrewsocold,andcold,thatIaskedthetimeofyear。
ItwasWhit-Tuesday,andthelilacsallinblossom;andwhyIthoughtofthetimeofyear,withtheyoungdeathinmyarms,GodorHisangels,maydecide,havingsostrangelygivenus。EnoughthatsoIdid,andlooked;
andourwhitelilacswerebeautiful。ThenIlaidmywifeinmymother’sarms,andbeggingthatnoonewouldmakeanoise,wentforthformyrevenge。
Ofcourse,Iknewwhohaddoneit。Therewasbutonemanintheworld,oratanyrate,inourpartofit,whocouldhavedonesuchathing——suchathing。Iusenoharsherwordaboutit,whileIleapeduponourbesthorse,withbridlebutnosaddle,andsettheheadofKickumstowardsthecoursenowpointedouttome。Whoshowedmethecourse,Icannottell。IonlyknowthatItookit。Andthemenfellbackbeforeme。
WeaponofnosorthadI。Unarmed,andwonderingatmystrangeattirewithabridalvest,wroughtbyourAnnie,andredwiththebloodofthebride,Iwentforthjusttofindoutthis;whetherinthisworldtherebeorbenotGodofjustice。
Withmyvicioushorseatafuriousspeed,IcameuponBlackBarrowDown,directedbysomeshoutofmen,whichseemedtomebutawhisper。Andthere,aboutafurlongbeforeme,rodeamanonagreatblackhorse,andI
knewthatthemanwasCarverDoone。
’Yourlifeormine,’Isaidtomyself;’asthewillofGodmaybe。Butwetwolivenotuponthisearth,onemorehourtogether。’
Iknewthestrengthofthisgreatman;andIknewthathewasarmedwithagun——ifhehadtimetoloadagain,aftershootingmyLorna——oratanyratewithpistols,andahorseman’sswordaswell。Nevertheless,Ihadnomoredoubtofkillingthemanbeforemethanacookhasofspittingaheadlessfowl。
Sometimesseeingnogroundbeneathme,andsometimesheedingeveryleaf,andthecrossingofthegrass-blades,Ifollowedoverthelongmoor,recklesswhetherseenornot。Butonlyoncetheothermanturnedroundandlookedbackagain,andthenIwasbesidearock,withareedyswampbehindme。
Althoughhewassofarbeforeme,andridingashardasridehemight,Isawthathehadsomethingonthehorseinfrontofhim;somethingwhichneededcare,andstoppedhimfromlookingbackward。Inthewhirlingofmywits,IfanciedfirstthatthiswasLorna;untilthesceneIhadbeenthroughfellacrosshotbrainandheart,likethedropatthecloseofatragedy。
Rushingtherethroughcragandquag,atutmostspeedofamaddenedhorse,Isaw,asofanother’sfate,calmlyasoncanvaslaid,thebrutaldeed,thepiteousanguish,andthecolddespair。
ThemanturnedupthegullyleadingfromthemoortoClovenRocks,throughwhichJohnFryhadtrackedUncleBen,asofoldrelated。ButasCarverenteredit,heturnedround,andbeheldmenotahundredyardsbehind;
andIsawthathewasbearinghischild,littleEnsie,beforehim。Ensiealsodescriedme,andstretchedhishandsandcriedtome;forthefaceofhisfatherfrightenedhim。
CarverDoone,withavileoath,thrustspursintohisflagginghorse,andlaidonehandonapistol-stock;
whenceIknewthathisslungcarbinehadreceivednobulletsincetheonethathadpiercedLorna。Andacryoftriumphrosefromtheblackdepthsofmyheart。
WhatcaredIforpistols?Ihadnospurs,neitherwasmyhorseonetoneedtherowel;Iratherheldhiminthanurgedhim,forhewasfreshasever;andIknewthattheblacksteedinfront,ifhebreastedthesteepascent,wherethetrackdivided,mustbeinourreachatonce。
Hisriderknewthis;and,havingnoroomintherockychanneltoturnandfire,drewreinatthecrosswayssharply,andplungedintotheblackravineleadingtotheWizard’sSlough。’Isitso?’Isaidtomyselfwithabrainandheadcoldasiron;’thoughthefoulfiendcomefromtheslough,tosavethee;thoushaltcarveit,Carver。’
Ifollowedmyenemycarefully,steadily,evenleisurely;forIhadhim,asinapitfall,whencenoescapemightbe。HethoughtthatIfearedtoapproachhim,forheknewnotwherehewas:andhislowdisdainfullaughcameback。’Laughhewhowins,’
thoughtI。
Agnarledandhalf-starvedoak,asstubbornasmyownresolve,andsmittenbysomestormofold,hungfromthecragaboveme。Risingfrommyhorse’sback,althoughIhadnostirrups,Icaughtalimb,andtoreitlikeamerewheat-awnfromthesocket。Menshowtherentevennow,withwonder;nonewithmorewonderthanmyself。
CarverDooneturnedthecornersuddenlyontheblackandbottomlessbog;withastartoffearhereinedbackhishorse,andIthoughthewouldhaveturneduponme。
Butinsteadofthat,heagainrodeon;hopingtofindawayroundtheside。
Nowthereisawaybetweencliffandsloughforthosewhoknowthegroundthoroughly,orhavetimeenoughtosearchit;butforhimtherewasnoroad,andhelostsometimeinseekingit。Uponthishemadeuphismind;andwheeling,fired,andthenrodeatme。
Hisbulletstruckmesomewhere,butItooknoheedofthat。Fearingonlyhisescape,Ilaidmyhorseacrosstheway,andwiththelimboftheoakstruckfullontheforeheadhischargingsteed。Eretheslashoftheswordcamenighme,manandhorserolledover,andwellnighboremyownhorsedown,withthepoweroftheironset。
CarverDoonewassomewhatstunned,andcouldnotariseforamoment。MeanwhileIleapedonthegroundandawaited,smoothingmyhairback,andbaringmyarms,asthoughintheringforwrestling。Thenthelittleboyrantome,claspedmyleg,andlookedupatme,andtheterrorinhiseyesmademealmostfearmyself。
’Ensie,dear,’Isaidquitegently,grievingthatheshouldseehiswickedfatherkilled,’runupyonderroundthecornerandtrytofindaprettybunchofbluebellsforthelady。’Thechildobeyedme,hangingback,andlookingback,andthenlaughing,whileI
preparedforbusiness。ThereandthenImighthavekilledmineenemy,withasingleblow,whilehelayunconscious;butitwouldhavebeenfoulplay。
Withasullenandblackscowl,theCarvergatheredhismightylimbs,andarose,andlookedroundforhisweapons;butIhadputthemwellaway。Thenhecametomeandgazed;beingwonttofrightenthusyoungmen。
’Iwouldnotharmyou,lad,’hesaid,withaloftystyleofsneering:’Ihavepunishedyouenough,formostofyourimpertinence。FortherestIforgiveyou;
becauseyouhavebeengoodandgracioustomylittleson。Go,andbecontented。’
Foranswer,Ismotehimonthecheek,lightly,andnottohurthim:buttomakehisbloodleapup。Iwouldnotsullymytonguebyspeakingtoamanlikethis。
Therewasalevelspaceofswardbetweenusandtheslough。WiththecourtesyderivedfromLondon,andtheprocessionsIhadseen,tothisplaceIledhim。Andthathemightbreathehimself,andhaveeveryfibrecool,andeverymuscleready,myholduponhiscoatI
loosed,andlefthimtobeginwithme,wheneverhethoughtproper。
Ithinkthathefeltthathistimewascome。Ithinkheknewfrommyknittedmuscles,andthefirmarchofmybreast,andthewayinwhichIstood;butmostofallfrommysternblueeyes;thathehadfoundhismaster。Atanyrateapalenesscame,anashypalenessonhischeeks,andthevastcalvesofhislegsbowedin,asifhewereoutoftraining。
Seeingthis,villainashewas,Iofferedhimfirstchance。Istretchedforthmylefthand,asIdotoaweakerantagonist,andIlethimhavethehugofme。
ButinthisIwastoogenerous;havingforgottenmypistol-wound,andthecrackingofoneofmyshortlowerribs。CarverDoonecaughtmeroundthewaist,withsuchagripasneveryethadbeenlaiduponme。
Iheardmyribgo;Igraspedhisarm,andtorethemuscleoutofit*asthestringcomesoutofanorange;thenItookhimbythethroat,whichisnotallowedinwrestling;buthehadsnatchedatmine;andnowwasnotimeofdalliance。Invainhetugged,andstrained,andwrithed,dashedhisbleedingfistintomyface,andflunghimselfonmewithgnashingjaws。
Beneaththeironofmystrength——forGodthatdaywaswithme——Ihadhimhelplessintwominutes,andhisfieryeyeslolledout。
*Afarmoreterribleclutchthanthisishandeddown,toweakerages,ofthegreatJohnRidd——Ed。
’Iwillnotharmtheeanymore,’Icried,sofarasI
couldforpanting,theworkbeingveryfurious:’CarverDoone,thouartbeaten:ownit,andthankGodforit;
andgothyway,andrepentthyself。’
Itwasalltoolate。Evenifhehadyieldedinhisraveningfrenzy——forhisbeardwaslikeamaddog’sjowl——evenifhewouldhaveownedthat,forthefirsttimeinhislife,hehadfoundhismaster;itwasalltoolate。
Theblackboghadhimbythefeet;thesuckingofthegrounddrewonhim,likethethirstylipsofdeath。Inourfury,wehadheededneitherwetnordry;northoughtofearthbeneathus。Imyselfmightscarcelyleap,withthelastspringofo’er-labouredlegs,fromtheengulfinggraveofslime。Hefellback,withhisswarthybreastfromwhichmygripehadrentallclothing,likeahummockofbog-oak,standingoutthequagmire;andthenhetossedhisarmstoheaven,andtheywereblacktotheelbow,andtheglareofhiseyeswasghastly。Icouldonlygazeandpant;formystrengthwasnomorethananinfant’s,fromthefuryandthehorror。ScarcelycouldIturnaway,while,jointbyjoint,hesankfromsight。
Whenthelittleboycamebackwiththebluebells,whichhehadmanagedtofind——aschildrenalwaysdofindflowers,whenoldereyesseenone——theonlysignofhisfatherleftwasadarkbrownbubble,uponanewlyformedpatchofblackness。Buttothecenterofitspulpygorgethegreedysloughwasheaving,andsullenlygrindingitswelteringjawsamongtheflagsandthesedges。
Withpain,andache,bothofmindandbody,andshameatmyownfury,Iheavilymountedmyhorseagain,and,lookeddownattheinnocentEnsie。Wouldthisplayful,lovingchildgrowuplikehiscruelfather,andendagodlesslifeofhatredwithadeathofviolence?Heliftedhisnobleforeheadtowardsme,asiftoanswer,“Nay,Iwillnot“:butthewordshespokewerethese:——
’Don,’——forhecouldneversay’John’——’oh,Don,Iamsogladthatnastynaughtymanisgoneaway。Takemehome,Don。Takemehome。’
Ithasbeensaidofthewicked,’noteventheirownchildrenlovethem。’AndIcouldeasilybelievethatCarverDoone’scold-heartedwayshadscaredfromhimevenhisfavoritechild。NomanwouldIcalltrulywicked,unlesshisheartbecold。
Ithurtme,morethanIcantell,eventhroughallothergrief,totakeintomyarmsthechildofthemanjustslainbyme。Thefeelingwasafoolishone,andawrongone,asthethinghasbeen——forIwouldfainhavesavedthatman,afterhewasconquered——
neverthelessmyarmswentcoldlyroundthatlittlefellow;neitherwouldtheyhavegoneatall,iftherehadbeenanyhelpforit。ButIcouldnotleavehimthere,tillsomeoneelsemightfetchhim;onaccountofthecruelslough,andtheravenswhichhadcomehoveringoverthedeadhorse;neithercouldI,withmywound,tiehimonmyhorseandwalk。
FornowIhadspentagreatdealofblood,andwasratherfaintandweary。AnditwasluckyformethatKickumshadlostspirit,likehismaster,andwenthomeasmildlyasalamb。For,whenwecametowardsthefarm,Iseemedtoberidinginadreamalmost;andthevoicesbothofmanandwomenwhohadhurriedforthuponmytrack,astheymetme,seemedtowanderfromadistantmufflingcloud。OnlythethoughtofLorna’sdeath,likeaheavyknell,wastollinginthebelfryofmybrain。
Whenwecametothestabledoor,Iratherfellfrommyhorsethangotoff;andJohnFry,withalookofwondertookKickum’shead,andledhimin。IntotheoldfarmhouseItottered,likeaweanlingchild,withmotherinhercommonclothes,helpingmealong,yetfearing,exceptbystealth,tolookatme。
’Ihavekilledhim,’wasallIsaid;’evenashekilledLorna。Nowletmeseemywife,mother。Shebelongstomenonetheless,thoughdead。’
’Youcannotseehernow,dearJohn,’saidRuthHuckaback,comingforward;sincenooneelsehadthecourage。’Annieiswithhernow,John。’
’Whathasthattodowithit?Letmeseemydeadone;
andpraymyselftodie。’
Allthewomenfellaway,andwhispered,andlookedatme,withsideglances,andsomesobbing;formyfacewashardasflint。Ruthalonestoodbyme,anddroppedhereyes,andtrembled。Thenonelittlehandofhersstoleintomygreatshakingpalm,andtheotherwaslaidonmytatteredcoat:yetwithherclothessheshunnedmyblood,whileshewhisperedgently,——
’John,sheisnotyourdeadone。Shemayevenbeyourlivingoneyet,yourwife,yourhome,andyourhappiness。Butyoumustnotseehernow。’
’Isthereanychanceforher?Forme,Imean;forme,Imean?’
’Godinheavenknows,dearJohn。Butthesightofyou,andinthissadplight,wouldbecertaindeathtoher。
Nowcomefirst,andbehealedyourself。’
Iobeyedher,likeachild,whisperingonlyasIwent,fornonebutmyselfknewhergoodness——’AlmightyGodwillblessyou,darling,forthegoodyouaredoingnow。’
Tenfold,ayandathousandfold,IprayedandIbelievedit,whenIcametoknowthetruth。Ifithadnotbeenforthislittlemaid,Lornamusthavediedatonce,asinmyarmsshelayfordead,fromthedastardandmurderouscruelty。ButthemomentIleftherRuthcameforwardandtookthecommandofeveryone,inrightofherfirmnessandreadiness。
Shemadethembearherhomeatonceuponthedoorofthepulpit,withthecushionunderthedroopinghead。
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