首页 >出版文学> Lord Jim>第1章

第1章

  wasaninch,perhapstwo,undersixfeet,powerfullybuilt,andheadvancedstraightatyouwithaslightstoopoftheshoulders,headforward,andafixedfrom-understarewhichmadeyouthinkofachargingbull。Hisvoicewasdeep,loud,andhismannerdisplayedakindofdoggedself-assertionwhichhadnothingaggressiveinit。Itseemedanecessity,anditwasdirectedapparentlyasmuchathimselfasatanybodyelse。Hewasspotlesslyneat,apparelledinimmaculatewhitefromshoestohat,andinthevariousEasternportswherehegothislivingasship-chandler’swater-clerkhewasverypopular。
  Awater-clerkneednotpassanexaminationinanythingunderthesun,buthemusthaveAbilityintheabstractanddemonstrateitpractically。
  Hisworkconsistsinracingundersail,steam,oroarsagainstotherwater-clerksforanyshipabouttoanchor,greetinghercaptaincheerily,forcinguponhimacard——thebusinesscardoftheship-chandler——andonhisfirstvisitonshorepilotinghimfirmlybutwithoutostentationtoavast,cavern-likeshopwhichisfullofthingsthatareeatenanddrunkonboardship;whereyoucangeteverythingtomakehersea-worthyandbeautiful,fromasetofchain-hooksforhercabletoabookofgold-leafforthecarvingsofherstern;andwherehercommanderisreceivedlikeabrotherbyaship-chandlerhehasneverseenbefore。Thereisacoolparlour,easy-chairs,bottles,cigars,writingimplements,acopyofharbourregulations,andawarmthofwelcomethatmeltsthesaltofathreemonths’passageoutofaseaman’sheart。Theconnectionthusbeguniskeptup,aslongastheshipremainsinharbour,bythedailyvisitsofthewater-clerk。Tothecaptainheisfaithfullikeafriendandattentivelikeason,withthepatienceofJob,theunselfishdevotionofawoman,andthejollityofabooncompanion。
  Lateronthebillissentin。Itisabeautifulandhumaneoccupation。
  Thereforegoodwater-clerksarescarce。Whenawater-clerkwhopossessesAbilityintheabstracthasalsotheadvantageofhavingbeenbroughtuptothesea,heisworthtohisemployeralotofmoneyandsomehumouring。
  Jimhadalwaysgoodwagesandasmuchhumouringaswouldhaveboughtthefidelityofafiend。Nevertheless,withblackingratitudehewouldthrowupthejobsuddenlyanddepart。Tohisemployersthereasonshegavewereobviouslyinadequate。Theysaid`Confoundedfool!’assoonashisbackwasturned。Thiswastheircriticismonhisexquisitesensibility。
  TothewhitemeninthewatersidebusinessandtothecaptainsofshipshewasjustJim——nothingmore。Hehad,ofcourse,anothername,buthewasanxiousthatitshouldnotbepronounced。Hisincognito,whichhadasmanyholesasasieve,wasnotmeanttohideapersonalitybutafact。
  Whenthefactbrokethroughtheincognitohewouldleavesuddenlytheseaportwherehehappenedtobeatthetimeandgotoanother——generallyfarthereast。Hekepttoseaportsbecausehewasaseamaninexilefromthesea,andhadAbilityintheabstract,whichisgoodfornootherworkbutthatofawater-clerk。Heretreatedingoodordertowardstherisingsun,andthefactfollowedhimcasuallybutinevitably。ThusinthecourseofyearshewasknownsuccessivelyinBombay,inCalcutta,inRangoon,inPenang,inBatavia——andineachofthesehalting-placeswasjustJimthewater-clerk。
  Afterwards,whenhiskeenperceptionoftheIntolerabledrovehimawayforgoodfromseaportsandwhitemen,evenintothevirginforest,theMalaysofthejunglevillage,wherehehadelectedtoconcealhisdeplorablefaculty,addedawordtothemonosyllableofhisincognito。TheycalledhimTuanJim:asonemightsay——LordJim。
  Originallyhecamefromaparsonage。Manycommandersoffinemerchant-shipscomefromtheseabodesofpietyandpeace。Jim’sfatherpossessedsuchcertainknowledgeoftheUnknowableasmadefortherighteousnessofpeopleincottageswithoutdisturbingtheeaseofmindofthosewhomanunerringProvidenceenablestoliveinmansions。Thelittlechurchonahillhadthemossygreynessofarockseenthrougharaggedscreenofleaves。Ithadstoodthereforcenturies,butthetreesaroundprobablyrememberedthelayingofthefirststone。Below,theredfrontoftherectorygleamedwithawarmtintinthemidstofgrass-plots,flower-beds,andfirtrees,withanorchardattheback,apavedstable-yardtotheleft,andtheslopingglassofgreenhousestackedalongawallofbricks。Thelivinghadbelongedtothefamilyforgenerations;butJimwasoneoffivesons,andwhenafteracourseoflightholidayliteraturehisvocationfortheseahaddeclareditself,hewassentatoncetoa`training-shipforofficersofthemercantilemarine。’
  Helearnedtherealittletrigonometryandhowtocrosstop-gallantyards。Hewasgenerallyliked。Hehadthethirdplaceinnavigationandpulledstrokeinthefirstcutter。Havingasteadyheadwithanexcellentphysique,hewasverysmartaloft。Hisstationwasinthefore-top,andoftenfromtherehelookeddown,withthecontemptofamandestinedtoshineinthemidstofdangers,atthepeacefulmultitudeofroofscutintwobythebrowntideofthestream,whilescatteredontheoutskirtsofthesurroundingplainthefactorychimneysroseperpendicularagainstagrimysky,eachslenderlikeapencil,andbelchingoutsmokelikeavolcano。
  Hecouldseethebigshipsdeparting,thebroad-beamedferriesconstantlyonthemove,thelittleboatsfloatingfarbelowhisfeet,withthehazysplendouroftheseainthedistance,andthehopeofastirringlifeintheworldofadventure。
  Onthelowerdeckinthebabeloftwohundredvoiceshewouldforgethimself,andbeforehandliveinhismindthesea-lifeoflightliterature。
  Hesawhimselfsavingpeoplefromsinkingships,cuttingawaymastsinahurricane,swimmingthroughasurfwithaline;orasalonelycastaway,barefootedandhalfnaked,walkingonuncoveredreefsinsearchofshellfishtostaveoffstarvation。Heconfrontedsavagesontropicalshores,quelledmutiniesonthehighseas,andinasmallboatupontheoceankeptuptheheartsofdespairingmen——alwaysanexampleofdevotiontoduty,andasunflinchingasaheroinabook。
  `Something’sup。Comealong。’
  Heleapedtohisfeet。Theboyswerestreaminguptheladders。Abovecouldbeheardagreatscurryingaboutandshouting,andwhenhegotthroughthehatchwayhestoodstill——asifconfounded。
  Itwastheduskofawinter’sday。Thegalehadfreshenedsincenoon,stoppingthetrafficontheriver,andnowblewwiththestrengthofahurricaneinfitfulburststhatboomedlikesalvoesofgreatgunsfiringovertheocean。Therainslantedinsheetsthatflickedandsubsided,andbetweenwhilesJimhadthreateningglimpsesofthetumblingtide,thesmallcraftjumbledandtossingalongtheshore,themotionlessbuildingsinthedrivingmist,thebroadferry-boatspitchingponderouslyatanchor,thevastlanding-stagesheavingupanddownandsmotheredinsprays。Thenextgustseemedtoblowallthisaway。Theairwasfullofflyingwater。
  Therewasafiercepurposeinthegale,afuriousearnestnessinthescreechofthewind,inthebrutaltumultofearthandsky,thatseemeddirectedathim,andmadehimholdhisbreathinawe。Hestoodstill。Itseemedtohimhewaswhirledaround。
  Hewasjostled。`Manthecutter!’Boysrushedpasthim。Acoasterrunninginforshelterhadcrashedthroughaschooneratanchor,andoneoftheship’sinstructorshadseentheaccident。Amobofboysclamberedontherails,clusteredroundthedavits。`Collision。Justaheadofus。Mr。Symonssawit。’Apushmadehimstaggeragainstthemizzen-mast,andhecaughtholdofarope。Theoldtraining-shipchainedtohermooringsquiveredallover,bowinggentlyheadtowind,andwithherscantyrigginghumminginadeepbassthebreathlesssongofheryouthatsea。`Loweraway!’Hesawtheboat,manned,dropswiftlybelowtherail,andrushedafterher。
  Heheardasplash。`Letgo;clearthefalls!’Heleanedover。Theriveralongsideseethedinfrothystreaks。Thecuttercouldbeseeninthefallingdarknessunderthespelloftideandwind,thatforamomentheldherbound,andtossingabreastoftheship。Ayellingvoiceinherreachedhimfaintly:
  `Keepstroke,youyoungwhelps,ifyouwanttosaveanybody!Keepstroke!’
  Andsuddenlysheliftedhighherbow,and,leapingwithraisedoarsoverawave,brokethespellcastuponherbythewindandtide。
  Jimfelthisshouldergrippedfirmly。`Toolate,youngster。’Thecaptainoftheshiplaidarestraininghandonthatboy,whoseemedonthepointofleapingoverboard,andJimlookedupwiththepainofconsciousdefeatinhiseyes。Thecaptainsmiledsympathetically。`Betterlucknexttime。
  Thiswillteachyoutobesmart。’
  Ashrillcheergreetedthecutter。Shecamedancingbackhalffullofwater,andwithtwoexhaustedmenwashingaboutonherbottomboards。ThetumultandthemenaceofwindandseanowappearedverycontemptibletoJim,increasingtheregretofhisaweattheirinefficientmenace。Nowheknewwhattothinkofit。Itseemedtohimhecarednothingforthegale。Hecouldaffrontgreaterperils。Hewoulddoso——betterthananybody。
  Notaparticleoffearwasleft。Neverthelesshebroodedapartthateveningwhilethebowmanofthecutter——aboywithafacelikeagirl’sandbiggreyeyes——wastheheroofthelowerdeck。Eagerquestionerscrowdedroundhim。Henarrated:`Ijustsawhisheadbobbing,andIdashedmyboat-hookinthewater。ItcaughtinhisbreechesandInearlywentoverboard,asIthoughtIwould,onlyoldSymonsletgothetillerandgrabbedmylegs——theboatnearlyswamped。OldSymonsisafineoldchap。Idon’tmindabithimbeinggrumpywithus。Hesworeatmeallthetimeheheldmyleg,butthatwasonlyhiswayoftellingmetosticktotheboat-hook。OldSymonsisawfullyexcitable——isn’the?No——notthelittlefairchap——theother,thebigonewithabeard。Whenwepulledhiminhegroaned,`Oh,myleg!
  oh,myleg!’andturneduphiseyes。Fancysuchabigchapfaintinglikeagirl。Wouldanyofyoufellowsfaintforajabwithaboat-hook?——Iwouldn’t。
  Itwentintohislegsofar。’Heshowedtheboat-hook,whichhehadcarriedbelowforthepurpose,andproducedasensation。`No,silly!Itwasnothisfleshthatheldhim——hisbreechesdid。Lotsofblood,ofcourse。’
  Jimthoughtitapitifuldisplayofvanity。Thegalehadministeredtoaheroismasspuriousasitsownpretenceofterror。Hefeltangrywiththebrutaltumultofearthandskyfortakinghimunawaresandcheckingunfairlyagenerousreadinessfornarrowescapes。Otherwisehewasrathergladhehadnotgoneintothecutter,sincealowerachievementhadservedtheturn。Hehadenlargedhisknowledgemorethanthosewhohaddonethework。Whenallmenflinched,then——hefeltsure——healonewouldknowhowtodealwiththespuriousmenaceofwindandseas。Heknewwhattothinkofit。Seendispassionately,itseemedcontemptible。Hecoulddetectnotraceofemotioninhimself,andthefinaleffectofastaggeringeventwasthat,unnoticedandapartfromthenoisycrowdofboys,heexultedwithfreshcertitudeinhisavidityforadventure,andinasenseofmany-sidedcourage。
  AFTERtwoyearsoftraininghewenttosea,andenteringtheregionssowellknowntohisimagination,foundthemstrangelybarrenofadventure。Hemademanyvoyages。Heknewthemagicmonotonyofexistencebetweenskyandwater:hehadtobearthecriticismofmen,theexactionsofthesea,andtheprosaicseverityofthedailytaskthatgivesbread——butwhoseonlyrewardisintheperfectloveofthework。Thisrewardeludedhim。Yethecouldnotgoback,becausethereisnothingmoreenticing,disenchanting,andenslavingthanthelifeatsea。Besides,hisprospectsweregood。Hewasgentlemanly,steady,tractable,withathoroughknowledgeofhisduties;andintime,whenveryyoung,hebecamechiefmateofafineship,withouteverhavingbeentestedbythoseeventsoftheseathatshowinthelightofdaytheinnerworthofaman,theedgeofhistemper,andthefibreofhisstuff;thatrevealthequalityofhisresistanceandthesecrettruthofhispretences,notonlytoothersbutalsotohimself。
  Onlyonceinallthattimehehadagaintheglimpseoftheearnestnessintheangerofthesea。Thattruthisnotsooftenmadeapparentaspeoplemightthink。Therearemanyshadesinthedangerofadventuresandgales,anditisonlynowandthenthatthereappearsonthefaceoffactsasinisterviolenceofintention——thatindefinablesomethingwhichforcesituponthemindandtheheartofaman,thatthiscomplicationofaccidentsortheseelementalfuriesarecomingathimwithapurposeofmalice,withastrengthbeyondcontrol,withanunbridledcrueltythatmeanstotearoutofhimhishopeandhisfear,thepainofhisfatigueandhislongingforrest:whichmeanstosmash,todestroy,toannihilateallhehadseen,known,loved,enjoyed,orhated;allthatispricelessandnecessary——thesunshine,thememories,thefuture,——whichmeanstosweepthewholepreciousworldutterlyawayfromhissightbythesimpleandappallingactoftakinghislife。
  Jim,disabledbyafallingsparatthebeginningofaweekofwhichhisScottishcaptainusedtosayafterwards:`Man!it’saperfectmeeracletomehowshelivedthroughit!’spentmanydaysstretchedonhisback,dazed,battered,hopeless,andtormentedasifatthebottomofanabyssofunrest。Hedidnotcarewhattheendwouldbe,andinhislucidmomentsover-valuedhisindifference。Thedanger,whennotseen,hastheimperfectvaguenessofhumanthought。Thefeargrowsshadowy;andImagination,theenemyofmen,thefatherofallterrors,unstimulated,sinkstorestinthedullnessofexhaustedemotion。Jimsawnothingbutthedisorderofhistossedcabin。Helaytherebatteneddowninthemidstofasmalldevastation,andfeltsecretlygladhehadnottogoondeck。Butnowandagainanuncontrollablerushofanguishwouldgriphimbodily,makehimgaspandwritheundertheblankets,andthentheunintelligentbrutalityofanexistenceliabletotheagonyofsuchsensationsfilledhimwithadespairingdesiretoescapeatanycost。Thenfineweatherreturned,andhethoughtnomoreaboutit。
  Hislameness,however,persisted,andwhentheshiparrivedatanEasternporthehadtogotothehospital。Hisrecoverywasslow,andhewasleftbehind。
  Therewereonlytwootherpatientsinthewhitemen’sward:thepurserofagunboat,whohadbrokenhislegfallingdownahatchway;andakindofrailwaycontractorfromaneighbouringprovince,afflictedbysomemysterioustropicaldisease,whoheldthedoctorforanass,andindulgedinsecretdebaucheriesofpatentmedicinewhichhisTamilservantusedtosmuggleinwithunwearieddevotion。Theytoldeachotherthestoryoftheirlives,playedcardsalittle,or,yawningandinpyjamas,loungedthroughthedayineasy-chairswithoutsayingaword。Thehospitalstoodonahill,andagentlebreezeenteringthroughthewindows,alwaysflungwideopen,broughtintothebareroomthesoftnessofthesky,thelanguoroftheearth,thebewitchingbreathoftheEasternwaters。Therewereperfumesinit,suggestionsofinfiniterepose,thegiftofendlessdreams。Jimlookedeverydayoverthethicketsofgardens,beyondtheroofsofthetown,overthefrondsofpalmsgrowingontheshore,atthatroadsteadwhichisathoroughfaretotheEast——attheroadsteaddottedbygarlandedislets,lightedbyfestalsunshine,itsshipsliketoys,itsbrilliantactivityresemblingaholidaypageant,withtheeternalserenityoftheEasternskyoverheadandthesmilingpeaceoftheEasternseaspossessingthespaceasfarasthehorizon。