Thusuncertainlytheweekpassedon;tillonemorningStockdalesaidtoher:’Ihavehadaletter,Lizzy。ImustcallyouthattillI
amgone。’
’Gone?’saidsheblankly。
’Yes,’hesaid。’Iamgoingfromthisplace。IfeltitwouldbebetterforusboththatIshouldnotstayafterwhathashappened。
Infact,Icouldn’tstayhere,andlookonyoufromdaytoday,withoutbecomingweakandfalteringinmycourse。Ihavejustheardofanarrangementbywhichtheotherministercanarrivehereinaboutaweek;andletmegoelsewhere。’
Thathehadallthistimecontinuedsofirmlyfixedinhisresolutioncameuponherasagrievoussurprise。’Youneverlovedme!’shesaidbitterly。
’Imightsaythesame,’hereturned;’butIwillnot。Grantmeonefavour。ComeandhearmylastsermononthedaybeforeIgo。’
Lizzy,whowasachurch-goeronSundaymornings,frequentlyattendedStockdale’schapelintheeveningwiththerestofthedouble-
minded;andshepromised。
ItbecameknownthatStockdalewasgoingtoleave,andagoodmanypeopleoutsidehisownsectweresorrytohearit。Theinterveningdaysflewrapidlyaway,andontheeveningoftheSundaywhichprecededthemorningofhisdepartureLizzysatinthechapeltohearhimforthelasttime。Thelittlebuildingwasfulltooverflowing,andhetookupthesubjectwhichallhadexpected,thatofthecontrabandtradesoextensivelypractisedamongthem。Hishearers,inlayinghiswordstotheirownhearts,didnotperceivethattheyweremostparticularlydirectedagainstLizzy,tillthesermonwaxedwarm,andStockdalenearlybrokedownwithemotion。Intruthhisownearnestness,andhersadeyeslookingupathim,weretoomuchfortheyoungman’sequanimity。Hehardlyknewhowheended。HesawLizzy,asthroughamist,turnandgoawaywiththerestofthecongregation;andshortlyafterwardsfollowedherhome。
Sheinvitedhimtosupper,andtheysatdownalone,hermotherhaving,aswasusualwithheronSundaynights,gonetobedearly。
’Wewillpartfriends,won’twe?’saidLizzy,withforcedgaiety,andneveralludingtothesermon:areticencewhichratherdisappointedhim。
’Wewill,’hesaid,withaforcedsmileonhispart;andtheysatdown。
Itwasthefirstmealthattheyhadeversharedtogetherintheirlives,andprobablythelastthattheywouldsoshare。Whenitwasover,andtheindifferentconversationcouldnolongerbecontinued,hearoseandtookherhand。’Lizzy,’hesaid,’doyousaywemustpart——doyou?’
’Youdo,’shesaidsolemnly。’Icansaynomore。’
’NorI,’saidhe。’Ifthatisyouranswer,good-bye!’
Stockdalebentoverherandkissedher,andsheinvoluntarilyreturnedhiskiss。’Ishallgoearly,’hesaidhurriedly。’Ishallnotseeyouagain。’
Andhedidleaveearly。Hefancied,whensteppingforthintothegreymorninglight,tomountthevanwhichwastocarryhimaway,thathesawafacebetweenthepartedcurtainsofLizzy’swindow,butthelightwasfaint,andthepanesglistenedwithwet;sohecouldnotbesure。Stockdalemountedthevehicle,andwasgone;andonthefollowingSundaythenewministerpreachedinthechapeloftheMoyntonWesleyans。
Oneday,twoyearsaftertheparting,Stockdale,nowsettledinamidlandtown,cameintoNether-Moyntonbycarrierintheoriginalway。Joggingalonginthevanthatafternoonhehadputquestionstothedriver,andtheanswersthathereceivedinterestedtheministerdeeply。Theresultofthemwasthathewentwithouttheleasthesitationtothedoorofhisformerlodging。Itwasaboutsixo’clockintheevening,andthesametimeofyearaswhenhehadleft;now,too,thegroundwasdampandglistening,thewestwasbright,andLizzy’ssnowdropswereraisingtheirheadsintheborderunderthewall。
Lizzymusthavecaughtsightofhimfromthewindow,forbythetimethathereachedthedoorshewasthereholdingitopen:andthen,asifshehadnotsufficientlyconsideredheractofcomingout,shedrewherselfback,sayingwithsomeconstraint,’Mr。Stockdale!’
’Youknewitwas,’saidStockdale,takingherhand。’IwrotetosayIshouldcall。’
’Yes,butyoudidnotsaywhen,’sheanswered。
’Ididnot。Iwasnotquitesurewhenmybusinesswouldleadmetotheseparts。’
’Youonlycamebecausebusinessbroughtyounear?’
’Well,thatisthefact;butIhaveoftenthoughtIshouldliketocomeonpurposetoseeyou……Butwhat’sallthisthathashappened?Itoldyouhowitwouldbe,Lizzy,andyouwouldnotlistentome。’
’Iwouldnot,’shesaidsadly。’ButIhadbeenbroughtuptothatlife;anditwassecondnaturetome。However,itisallovernow。
Theofficershaveblood-moneyfortakingamandeadoralive,andthetradeisgoingtonothing。Wewerehunteddownlikerats。’
’Owlettisquitegone,Ihear。’
’Yes。HeisinAmerica。Wehadadreadfulstrugglethatlasttime,whentheytriedtotakehim。Itisaperfectmiraclethathelivedthroughit;anditisawonderthatIwasnotkilled。Iwasshotinthehand。Itwasnotbyaim;theshotwasreallymeantformycousin;butIwasbehind,lookingonasusual,andthebulletcametome。Itbledterribly,butIgothomewithoutfainting;andithealedafteratime。Youknowhowhesuffered?’
’No,’saidStockdale。’Ionlyheardthathejustescapedwithhislife。’
’Hewasshotintheback;butaribturnedtheball。Hewasbadlyhurt。Wewouldnotlethimbetook。ThemencarriedhimallnightacrossthemeadstoKingsbere,andhidhiminabarn,dressinghiswoundaswellastheycould,tillhewassofarrecoveredastobeabletogetabout。Hehadgieduphismillforsometime;andatlasthegottoBristol,andtookapassagetoAmerica,andhe’ssettledinWisconsin。’
’Whatdoyouthinkofsmugglingnow?’saidtheministergravely。
’Iownthatwewerewrong,’saidshe。’ButIhavesufferedforit。
Iamverypoornow,andmymotherhasbeendeadthesetwelvemonths……Butwon’tyoucomein,Mr。Stockdale?’
Stockdalewentin;anditistobesupposedthattheycametoanunderstanding;forafortnightlatertherewasasaleofLizzy’sfurniture,andafterthataweddingatachapelinaneighbouringtown。
Hetookherawayfromheroldhauntstothehomethathehadmadeforhimselfinhisnativecounty,whereshestudiedherdutiesasaminister’swifewithpraiseworthyassiduity。ItissaidthatinafteryearsshewroteanexcellenttractcalledRenderuntoCaesar;
or,TheRepentantVillagers,inwhichherownexperiencewasanonymouslyusedastheintroductorystory。Stockdalegotitprinted,aftermakingsomecorrections,andputtinginafewpowerfulsentencesofhisown;andmanyhundredsofcopiesweredistributedbythecoupleinthecourseoftheirmarriedlife。
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