OneSeptemberevening,fourmonthslater,whenMrs。Barnetwasinperfecthealth,andMrs。Downebutaweakeningmemory,anerrand-boypausedtoresthimselfinfrontofMr。Barnet’soldhouse,depositinghisbasketononeofthewindow-sills。Thestreetwasnotyetlighted,buttherewerelightsinthehouse,andatintervalsaflittingshadowfellupontheblindathiselbow。Wordsalsowereaudiblefromthesameapartment,andtheyseemedtobethoseofpersonsinviolentaltercation。Buttheboycouldnotgathertheirpurport,andhewentonhisway。
TenminutesafterwardsthedoorofBarnet’shouseopened,andatallclosely-veiledladyinatravelling-dresscameoutanddescendedthefreestonesteps。Theservantstoodinthedoorwaywatchingherasshewentwithameasuredtreaddownthestreet。WhenshehadbeenoutofsightforsomeminutesBarnetappearedatthedoorfromwithin。
’Didyourmistressleavewordwhereshewasgoing?’heasked。
’No,sir。’
’Isthecarriageorderedtomeetheranywhere?’
’No,sir。’
’Didshetakealatch-key?’
’No,sir。’
Barnetwentinagain,satdowninhischair,andleanedback。Theninsolitudeandsilencehebroodedoverthebitteremotionsthatfilledhisheart。Itwasforthisthathehadgratuitouslyrestoredhertolife,andmadehisunionwithanotherimpossible!Theeveningdrewon,andnobodycametodisturbhim。Atbedtimehetoldtheservantstoretire,thathewouldsitupforMrs。Barnethimself;andwhentheyweregoneheleanedhisheaduponhishandandmusedforhours。
Theclockstruckone,two;stillhiswifecamenot,and,withimpatienceaddedtodepression,hewentfromroomtoroomtillanotherwearyhourhadpassed。ThiswasnotaltogetheranewexperienceforBarnet;butshehadneverbeforesoprolongedherabsence。Atlasthesatdownagainandfellasleep。
Heawokeatsixo’clocktofindthatshehadnotreturned。Insearchingabouttheroomshediscoveredthatshehadtakenacaseofjewelswhichhadbeenhersbeforehermarriage。Ateightanotewasbroughthim;itwasfromhiswife,inwhichshestatedthatshehadgonebythecoachtothehouseofadistantrelativenearLondon,andexpressedawishthatcertainboxes,articlesofclothing,andsoon,mightbesenttoherforthwith。ThenotewasbroughttohimbyawaiterattheBlack-BullHotel,andhadbeenwrittenbyMrs。
Barnetimmediatelybeforeshetookherplaceinthestage。
Bytheeveningthisorderwascarriedout,andBarnet,withasenseofrelief,walkedoutintothetown。Afairhadbeenheldduringtheday,andthelargeclearmoonwhichroseoverthemostprominenthillflungitslightupontheboothsandstandingsthatstillremainedinthestreet,mixingitsrayscuriouslywiththosefromtheflaringnaphthalamps。Thetownwasfullofcountry-peoplewhohadcomeintoenjoythemselves,andonthisaccountBarnetstrolledthroughthestreetsunobserved。Withacertainrecklessnesshemadefortheharbour-road,andpresentlyfoundhimselfbytheshore,wherehewalkedontillhecametothespotnearwhichhisfriendthekindlyMrs。Downehadlostherlife,andhisownwife’slifehadbeenpreserved。Atremulouspathwayofbrightmoonshinenowstretchedoverthewaterwhichhadengulfedthem,andnotalivingsoulwasnear。
Hereheruminatedontheircharacters,andnextontheyounggirlinwhomhenowtookamoresensitiveinterestthanatthetimewhenhehadbeenfreetomarryher。Nothing,sofarashewasaware,hadeverappearedinhisownconducttoshowthatsuchaninterestexisted。Hehadmadeitapointoftheutmoststrictnesstohinderthatfeelingfrominfluencinginthefaintestdegreehisattitudetowardshiswife;andthiswasmadeallthemoreeasyforhimbythesmalldemandMrs。Barnetmadeuponhisattentions,forwhichsheeverevincedthegreatestcontempt;thusunwittinglygivinghimthesatisfactionofknowingthattheirseveranceowednothingtojealousy,or,indeed,toanypersonalbehaviourofhisatall。Herconcernwasnotwithhimorhisfeelings,asshefrequentlytoldhim;butthatshehad,inamomentofweakness,thrownherselfawayuponacommonburgherwhenshemighthaveaimedat,andpossiblybroughtdown,apeeroftherealm。HerfrequentdepreciationofBarnetinthesetermshadattimesbeensointensethathewassorelytemptedtoretaliateonheregotismbyowningthathelovedatthesamelowlevelonwhichhelived;butprudencehadprevailed,forwhichhewasnowthankful。
Somethingseemedtosoundupontheshinglebehindhimoverandabovetherakingofthewave。Helookedround,andaslightgirlishshapeappearedquiteclosetohim,Hecouldnotseeherfacebecauseitwasinthedirectionofthemoon。
’Mr。Barnet?’theramblersaid,intimidsurprise。ThevoicewasthevoiceofLucySavile。
’Yes,’saidBarnet。’HowcanIrepayyouforthispleasure?’
’Ionlycamebecausethenightwassoclear。Iamnowonmywayhome。’
’Iamgladwehavemet。Iwanttoknowifyouwillletmedosomethingforyou,togivemeanoccupation,asanidleman?IamsureIoughttohelpyou,forIknowyouarealmostwithoutfriends。’
Shehesitated。’Whyshouldyoutellmethat?’shesaid。
’Inthehopethatyouwillbefrankwithme。’
’Iamnotaltogetherwithoutfriendshere。ButIamgoingtomakealittlechangeinmylife——togooutasateacheroffreehanddrawingandpracticalperspective,ofcourseImeanonacomparativelyhumblescale,becauseIhavenotbeenspeciallyeducatedforthatprofession。ButIamsureIshalllikeitmuch。’
’Youhaveanopening?’
’Ihavenotexactlygotit,butIhaveadvertisedforone。’
’Lucy,youmustletmehelpyou!’
’Notatall。’
’Youneednotthinkitwouldcompromiseyou,orthatIamindifferenttodelicacy。Ibearinmindhowwestand。Itisveryunlikelythatyouwillsucceedasteacheroftheclassyoumention,soletmedosomethingofadifferentkindforyou。Saywhatyouwouldlike,anditshallbedone。’
’No;ifIcan’tbeadrawing-mistressorgoverness,orsomethingofthatsort,IshallgotoIndiaandjoinmybrother。’
’IwishIcouldgoabroad,anywhere,everywherewithyou,Lucy,andleavethisplaceanditsassociationsforever!’
Sheplayedwiththeendofherbonnet-string,andhastilyturnedaside。’Don’tevertouchuponthatkindoftopicagain,’shesaid,withaquickseveritynotfreefromanger。’Itsimplymakesitimpossibleformetoseeyou,muchlessreceiveanyguidancefromyou。No,thankyou,Mr。Barnet;youcandonothingformeatpresent;andasIsupposemyuncertaintywillendinmyleavingforIndia,Ifearyouneverwill。IfeverIthinkyouCANdoanything,Iwilltakethetroubletoaskyou。Tillthen,good-bye。’
Thetoneofherlatterwordswasequivocal,andwhileheremainedindoubtwhetheragentleironywasorwasnotinwroughtwiththeirsound,shesweptlightlyroundandlefthimalone。Hesawherformgetsmallerandsmalleralongthedampbeltofsea-sandbetweenebbandflood;andwhenshehadvanishedroundthecliffintotheharbour-road,hehimselffollowedinthesamedirection。
ThatherhopesfromanadvertisementshouldbethesinglethreadwhichheldLucySavileinEnglandwastoomuchforBarnet。OnreachingthetownhewentstraighttotheresidenceofDowne,nowawidowerwithfourchildren。Theyoungmotherlessbroodhadbeensenttobedaboutaquarterofanhourearlier,andwhenBarnetenteredhefoundDownesittingalone。ItwasthesameroomasthatfromwhichthefamilyhadbeenlookingoutforDowneatthebeginningoftheyear,whenDownehadslippedintothegutterandhiswifehadbeensoenviablytendertowardshim。Theoldneatnesshadgonefromthehouse;articleslayinplaceswhichcouldshownoreasonfortheirpresence,asifmomentarilydepositedtheresomemonthsago,andforgotteneversince;therewerenoflowers;thingswerejumbledtogetheronthefurniturewhichshouldhavebeenincupboards;andtheplaceingeneralhadthatstagnant,unrenovatedairwhichusuallypervadesthemaimedhomeofthewidower。
Downesoonrenewedhiscustomaryfull-wordedlamentoverhiswife,andevenwhenhehadworkedhimselfuptotears,wentonvolubly,asifalistenerwerealuxurytobeenjoyedwheneverhecouldbecaught。
’Shewasatreasurebeyondcompare,Mr。Barnet!Ishallneverseesuchanother。Nobodynowtonurseme——nobodytoconsolemeinthosedailytroubles,youknow,Barnet,whichmakeconsolationsonecessarytoanaturelikemine。Itwouldbeunbecomingtorepine,forherspirit’shomewaselsewhere——thetenderlightinhereyesalwaysshowedit;butitisalongdrearytimethatIhavebeforeme,andnobodyelsecaneverfillthevoidleftinmyheartbyherloss——nobody——nobody!’AndDownewipedhiseyesagain。
’Shewasagoodwomaninthehighestsense,’gravelyansweredBarnet,who,thoughDowne’swordsdrewgenuinecompassionfromhisheart,couldnothelpfeelingthatatenderreticencewouldhavebeenafinertributetoMrs。Downe’sreallysterlingvirtuesthansuchasecond-classlamentasthis。
’Ihavesomethingtoshowyou,’Downeresumed,producingfromadrawerasheetofpaperonwhichwasanelaboratedesignforacanopiedtomb。’Thishasbeensentmebythearchitect,butitisnotexactlywhatIwant。’
’YouhavegotJonestodoit,Isee,themanwhoiscarryingoutmyhouse,’saidBarnet,asheglancedatthesignaturetothedrawing。
’Yes,butitisnotquitewhatIwant。Iwantsomethingmorestriking——morelikeatombIhaveseeninSt。Paul’sCathedral。
Nothinglesswilldojusticetomyfeelings,andhowfarshortofthemthatwillfall!’
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