TheheartofBarnetwassufficientlyimpressionabletobeinfluencedbyDowne’spartingprophecythathemightnotbesounwelcomehomeasheimagined:thedrearynightmight,atleastonthisoneoccasion,makeDowne’sforecasttrue。Henceitwasinasuspensethathecouldhardlyhavebelievedpossiblethathehaltedathisdoor。Onenteringhiswifewasnowheretobeseen,andheinquiredforher。Theservantinformedhimthathermistresshadthedressmakerwithher,andwouldbeengagedforsometime。
’Dressmakeratthistimeofday!’
’Shedinedearly,sir,andhopesyouwillexcuseherjoiningyouthisevening。’
’ButsheknewIwascomingto-night?’
’Oyes,sir。’
’GoupandtellherIamcome。’
Theservantdidso;butthemistressofthehousemerelytransmittedherformerwords。
Barnetsaidnothingmore,andpresentlysatdowntohislonelymeal,whichwaseatenabstractedly,thedomesticscenehehadlatelywitnessedstillimpressinghimbyitscontrastwiththesituationhere。Hismindfellbackintopastyearsuponacertainpleasingandgentlebeingwhosefacewouldloomoutoftheirshadesatsuchtimesasthese。Barnetturnedinhischair,andlookedwithunfocusedeyesinadirectionsouthwardfromwherehesat,asifhesawnottheroombutalongwaybeyond。’Iwonderifshelivestherestill!’hesaid。
Herosewithasuddenrebelliousness,putonhishatandcoat,andwentoutofthehouse,pursuinghiswayalongtheglisteningpavementwhileeighto’clockwasstrikingfromSt。Mary’stower,andtheapprenticesandshopmenwereslamminguptheshuttersfromendtoendofthetown。Intwominutesonlythoseshopswhichcouldboastofnoattendantsavethemasterorthemistressremainedwithopeneyes。Thesewereeversomewhatlessprompttoexcludecustomersthantheothers:fortheirowners’earstheclosinghourhadscarcelythecheerfulnessthatitpossessedforthehiredservantsoftherest。Yetthenightbeingdrearythedelaywasnotforlong,andtheirwindows,too,blinkedtogetheronebyone。
DuringthistimeBarnethadproceededwithdecidedstepinadirectionatrightanglestothebroadmainthoroughfareofthetown,byalongstreetleadingduesouthward。Here,thoughhisfamilyhadnomoretodowiththeflaxmanufacture,hisownnameoccasionallygreetedhimongatesandwarehouses,beingusedallusivelybysmallrisingtradesmenasarecommendation,insuchwordsas’Smith,fromBarnet&Co。’——’Robinson,latemanageratBarnet’s。’Thesightledhimtoreflectuponhisfather’sbusylife,andhequestionedifithadnotbeenfarhappierthanhisown。
Thehousesalongtheroadbecamefewer,andpresentlyopengroundappearedbetweenthemoneitherside,thetrackontherighthandrisingtoahigherleveltillitmergedinaknoll。Onthesummitarowofbuilders’scaffold-polesprobedtheindistinctskylikespears,andattheirbasescouldbediscernedthelowercoursesofabuildinglatelybegun。Barnetslackenedhispaceandstoodforafewmomentswithoutleavingthecentreoftheroad,apparentlynotmuchinterestedinthesight,tillsuddenlyhiseyewascaughtbyapostintheforepartofthegroundbearingawhiteboardatthetop。Hewenttotherails,vaultedover,andwalkedinfarenoughtodiscernpaintedupontheboard’ChateauRingdale。’
Adismalironyseemedtolieinthewords,anditseffectwastoirritatehim。Downe,then,hadspokentruly。Hestuckhisumbrellaintothesod,andseizedthepostwithbothhands,asifintendingtoloosenandthrowitdown。Then,likeonebewilderedbyanoppositionwhichwouldexistnonethelessthoughitsmanifestationswereremoved,heallowedhisarmstosinktohisside。
’Letitbe,’hesaidtohimself。’Ihavedeclaredthereshallbepeace——ifpossible。’
Takinguphisumbrellahequietlylefttheenclosure,andwentonhisway,stillkeepinghisbacktothetown。Hehadadvancedwithmoredecisionsincepassingthenewbuilding,andsoonahoarsemurmurroseuponthegloom;itwasthesoundofthesea。Theroadledtotheharbour,atadistanceofamilefromthetown,fromwhichthetradeofthedistrictwasfed。Afterseeingtheobnoxiousname-boardBarnethadforgottentoopenhisumbrella,andtheraintappedsmartlyonhishat,andoccasionallystrokedhisfaceashewenton。
Thoughthelampswerestillcontinuedattheroadside,theystoodatwiderintervalsthanbefore,andthepavementhadgivenplacetocommonroad。Everytimehecametoalampanincreasingshinemadeitselfvisibleuponhisshoulders,tillatlasttheyquiteglistenedwithwet。Themurmurfromtheshoregrewstronger,butitwasstillsomedistanceoffwhenhepausedbeforeoneofthesmallestofthedetachedhousesbythewayside,standinginitsowngarden,thelatterbeingdividedfromtheroadbyarowofwoodenpalings。
Scrutinizingthespottoensurethathewasnotmistaken,heopenedthegateandgentlyknockedatthecottagedoor。
Whenhehadpatientlywaitedminutesenoughtoleadanymaninordinarycasestoknockagain,thedoorwasheardtoopen,thoughitwasimpossibletoseebywhosehand,therebeingnolightinthepassage。Barnetsaidatrandom,’DoesMissSavilelivehere?’
Ayouthfulvoiceassuredhimthatshedidlivethere,andbyasuddenafterthoughtaskedhimtocomein。Itwouldsoongetalight,itsaid:butthenightbeingwet,motherhadnotthoughtitworthwhiletotrimthepassagelamp。
’Don’ttroubleyourselftogetalightforme,’saidBarnethastily;
’itisnotnecessaryatall。WhichisMissSavile’ssitting-room?’
Theyoungperson,whosewhitepinaforecouldjustbediscerned,signifiedadoorinthesideofthepassage,andBarnetwentforwardatthesamemoment,sothatnolightshouldfalluponhisface。Onenteringtheroomheclosedthedoorbehindhim,pausingtillheheardtheretreatingfootstepsofthechild。
Hefoundhimselfinanapartmentwhichwassimplyandneatly,thoughnotpoorlyfurnished;everything,fromtheminiaturechiffonniertotheshininglittledaguerreotypewhichformedthecentralornamentofthemantelpiece,beinginscrupulousorder。Thepicturewasenclosedbyaframeofembroideredcard-board——evidentlytheworkoffemininehands——anditwastheportraitofathinfaced,elderlylieutenantinthenavy。Frombehindthelamponthetableafemaleformnowroseintoview,thatofayounggirl,andaresemblancebetweenherandtheportraitwasearlydiscoverable。Shehadbeensoabsorbedinsomeoccupationontheothersideofthelampastohavebarelyfoundtimetorealizehervisitor’spresence。
Theybothremainedstandingforafewsecondswithoutspeaking。ThefacethatconfrontedBarnethadabeautifuloutline;theRaffaelesqueovalofitscontourwasremarkableforanEnglishcountenance,andthatcountenancehousedinaremotecountry-roadtoanunheard-ofharbour。Butherfeaturesdidnotdojusticetothissplendidbeginning:NaturehadrecollectedthatshewasnotinItaly;andtheyounglady’slineaments,thoughnotsoinconsistentastomakeherplain,wouldhavebeenacceptedratheraspleasingthanascorrect。Thepreoccupiedexpressionwhich,likeimagesontheretina,remainedwithherforamomentafterthestatethatcausedithadceased,nowchangedintoareserved,half-proud,andslightlyindignantlook,inwhichtheblooddiffuseditselfquicklyacrosshercheek,andadditionalbrightnessbroketheshadeofherratherheavyeyes。
’IknowIhavenobusinesshere,’hesaid,answeringthelook。’ButIhadagreatwishtoseeyou,andinquirehowyouwere。Youcangiveyourhandtome,seeinghowoftenIhavehelditinpastdays?’
’Iwouldratherforgetthanrememberallthat,Mr。Barnet,’sheanswered,asshecoldlycompliedwiththerequest。’WhenIthinkofthecircumstancesofourlastmeeting,Icanhardlyconsideritkindofyoutoalludetosuchathingasourpast——or,indeed,tocomehereatall。’
’Therewasnoharminitsurely?Idon’ttroubleyouoften,Lucy。’
’Ihavenothadthehonourofavisitfromyouforaverylongtime,certainly,andIdidnotexpectitnow,’shesaid,withthesamestiffnessinherair。’IhopeMrs。Barnetisverywell?’
’Yes,yes!’heimpatientlyreturned。’AtleastIsupposeso——thoughIonlyspeakfrominference!’
’Butsheisyourwife,sir,’saidtheyounggirltremulously。
Theunwontedtonesofaman’svoiceinthatfemininechamberhadstartledacanarythatwasroostinginitscagebythewindow;thebirdawokehastily,andflutteredagainstthebars。Shewentandstilleditbylayingherfaceagainstthecageandmurmuringacoaxingsound。Itmightpartlyhavebeendonetostillherself。
’Ididn’tcometotalkofMrs。Barnet,’hepursued;’Icametotalkofyou,ofyourselfalone;toinquirehowyouaregettingonsinceyourgreatloss。’Andheturnedtowardstheportraitofherfather。
’Iamgettingonfairlywell,thankyou。’
Theforceofherutterancewasscarcelyborneoutbyherlook;butBarnetcourteouslyreproachedhimselffornothavingguessedathingsonatural;andtodissipateallembarrassment,added,ashebentoverthetable,’WhatwereyoudoingwhenIcame?——paintingflowers,andbycandlelight?’
’Ono,’shesaid,’notpaintingthem——onlysketchingtheoutlines。
Idothatatnighttosavetime——Ihavetogetthreedozendonebytheendofthemonth。’
Barnetlookedasifheregretteditdeeply。’Youwillwearyourpooreyesout,’hesaid,withmoresentimentthanhehadhithertoshown。’Yououghtnottodoit。TherewasatimewhenIshouldhavesaidyoumustnot。Well——IalmostwishIhadneverseenlightwithmyowneyeswhenIthinkofthat!’
’Isthisatimeorplaceforrecallingsuchmatters?’sheasked,withdignity。’Youusedtohaveagentlemanlyrespectforme,andforyourself。Don’tspeakanymoreasyouhavespoken,anddon’tcomeagain。Icannotthinkthatthisvisitisserious,orwascloselyconsideredbyyou。’
’Considered:well,Icametoseeyouasanoldandgoodfriend——nottomincematters,tovisitawomanIloved。Don’tbeangry!I
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