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第9章

  Butperchanceitwouldbewisestnevertoputone’spawintoit。
  Iwouldobserve,bytheway,thatitcostsmenothingforcurtains,forIhavenogazerstoshutoutbutthesunandmoon,andIamwillingthattheyshouldlookin。Themoonwillnotsourmilknortaintmeatofmine,norwillthesuninjuremyfurnitureorfademycarpet;andifheissometimestoowarmafriend,Ifinditstillbettereconomytoretreatbehindsomecurtainwhichnaturehasprovided,thantoaddasingleitemtothedetailsofhousekeeping。
  Aladyonceofferedmeamat,butasIhadnoroomtosparewithinthehouse,nortimetosparewithinorwithouttoshakeit,I
  declinedit,preferringtowipemyfeetonthesodbeforemydoor。
  Itisbesttoavoidthebeginningsofevil。
  NotlongsinceIwaspresentattheauctionofadeacon’seffects,forhislifehadnotbeenineffectual:——
  “Theevilthatmendolivesafterthem。“
  Asusual,agreatproportionwastrumperywhichhadbeguntoaccumulateinhisfather’sday。Amongtherestwasadriedtapeworm。Andnow,afterlyinghalfacenturyinhisgarretandotherdustholes,thesethingswerenotburned;insteadofabonfire,orpurifyingdestructionofthem,therewasanauction,orincreasingofthem。Theneighborseagerlycollectedtoviewthem,boughtthemall,andcarefullytransportedthemtotheirgarretsanddustholes,tolietheretilltheirestatesaresettled,whentheywillstartagain。Whenamandieshekicksthedust。
  Thecustomsofsomesavagenationsmight,perchance,beprofitablyimitatedbyus,fortheyatleastgothroughthesemblanceofcastingtheirsloughannually;theyhavetheideaofthething,whethertheyhavetherealityornot。Woulditnotbewellifweweretocelebratesucha“busk,“or“feastoffirstfruits,“asBartramdescribestohavebeenthecustomoftheMucclasseIndians?“Whenatowncelebratesthebusk,“sayshe,“havingpreviouslyprovidedthemselveswithnewclothes,newpots,pans,andotherhouseholdutensilsandfurniture,theycollectalltheirwornoutclothesandotherdespicablethings,sweepandcleansetheirhouses,squares,andthewholetownoftheirfilth,whichwithalltheremaininggrainandotheroldprovisionstheycasttogetherintoonecommonheap,andconsumeitwithfire。Afterhavingtakenmedicine,andfastedforthreedays,allthefireinthetownisextinguished。Duringthisfasttheyabstainfromthegratificationofeveryappetiteandpassionwhatever。Ageneralamnestyisproclaimed;allmalefactorsmayreturntotheirtown。“
  “Onthefourthmorning,thehighpriest,byrubbingdrywoodtogether,producesnewfireinthepublicsquare,fromwhenceeveryhabitationinthetownissuppliedwiththenewandpureflame。“
  Theythenfeastonthenewcornandfruits,anddanceandsingforthreedays,“andthefourfollowingdaystheyreceivevisitsandrejoicewiththeirfriendsfromneighboringtownswhohaveinlikemannerpurifiedandpreparedthemselves。“
  TheMexicansalsopractisedasimilarpurificationattheendofeveryfifty-twoyears,inthebeliefthatitwastimefortheworldtocometoanend。
  Ihavescarcelyheardofatruersacrament,thatis,asthedictionarydefinesit,“outwardandvisiblesignofaninwardandspiritualgrace,“thanthis,andIhavenodoubtthattheywereoriginallyinspireddirectlyfromHeaventodothus,thoughtheyhavenoBiblicalrecordoftherevelation。
  FormorethanfiveyearsImaintainedmyselfthussolelybythelaborofmyhands,andIfoundthat,byworkingaboutsixweeksinayear,Icouldmeetalltheexpensesofliving。Thewholeofmywinters,aswellasmostofmysummers,Ihadfreeandclearforstudy。Ihavethoroughlytriedschool-keeping,andfoundthatmyexpenseswereinproportion,orratheroutofproportion,tomyincome,forIwasobligedtodressandtrain,nottosaythinkandbelieve,accordingly,andIlostmytimeintothebargain。AsIdidnotteachforthegoodofmyfellow-men,butsimplyforalivelihood,thiswasafailure。IhavetriedtradebutIfoundthatitwouldtaketenyearstogetunderwayinthat,andthatthenI
  shouldprobablybeonmywaytothedevil。IwasactuallyafraidthatImightbythattimebedoingwhatiscalledagoodbusiness。
  WhenformerlyIwaslookingabouttoseewhatIcoulddoforaliving,somesadexperienceinconformingtothewishesoffriendsbeingfreshinmymindtotaxmyingenuity,Ithoughtoftenandseriouslyofpickinghuckleberries;thatsurelyIcoulddo,anditssmallprofitsmightsuffice——formygreatestskillhasbeentowantbutlittle——solittlecapitalitrequired,solittledistractionfrommywontedmoods,Ifoolishlythought。Whilemyacquaintanceswentunhesitatinglyintotradeortheprofessions,I
  contemplatedthisoccupationasmostliketheirs;rangingthehillsallsummertopicktheberrieswhichcameinmyway,andthereaftercarelesslydisposeofthem;so,tokeeptheflocksofAdmetus。I
  alsodreamedthatImightgatherthewildherbs,orcarryevergreenstosuchvillagersaslovedtoberemindedofthewoods,eventothecity,byhay-cartloads。ButIhavesincelearnedthattradecurseseverythingithandles;andthoughyoutradeinmessagesfromheaven,thewholecurseoftradeattachestothebusiness。
  AsIpreferredsomethingstoothers,andespeciallyvaluedmyfreedom,asIcouldfarehardandyetsucceedwell,Ididnotwishtospendmytimeinearningrichcarpetsorotherfinefurniture,ordelicatecookery,orahouseintheGrecianortheGothicstylejustyet。Ifthereareanytowhomitisnointerruptiontoacquirethesethings,andwhoknowhowtousethemwhenacquired,I
  relinquishtothemthepursuit。Someare“industrious,“andappeartolovelaborforitsownsake,orperhapsbecauseitkeepsthemoutofworsemischief;tosuchIhaveatpresentnothingtosay。Thosewhowouldnotknowwhattodowithmoreleisurethantheynowenjoy,Imightadvisetoworktwiceashardastheydo——worktilltheypayforthemselves,andgettheirfreepapers。FormyselfIfoundthattheoccupationofaday-laborerwasthemostindependentofany,especiallyasitrequiredonlythirtyorfortydaysinayeartosupportone。Thelaborer’sdayendswiththegoingdownofthesun,andheisthenfreetodevotehimselftohischosenpursuit,independentofhislabor;buthisemployer,whospeculatesfrommonthtomonth,hasnorespitefromoneendoftheyeartotheother。
  Inshort,Iamconvinced,bothbyfaithandexperience,thattomaintainone’sselfonthisearthisnotahardshipbutapastime,ifwewilllivesimplyandwisely;asthepursuitsofthesimplernationsarestillthesportsofthemoreartificial。Itisnotnecessarythatamanshouldearnhislivingbythesweatofhisbrow,unlesshesweatseasierthanIdo。
  Oneyoungmanofmyacquaintance,whohasinheritedsomeacres,toldmethathethoughtheshouldliveasIdid,ifhehadthemeans。Iwouldnothaveanyoneadoptmymodeoflivingonanyaccount;for,besidethatbeforehehasfairlylearneditImayhavefoundoutanotherformyself,Idesirethattheremaybeasmanydifferentpersonsintheworldaspossible;butIwouldhaveeachonebeverycarefultofindoutandpursuehisownway,andnothisfather’sorhismother’sorhisneighbor’sinstead。Theyouthmaybuildorplantorsail,onlylethimnotbehinderedfromdoingthatwhichhetellsmehewouldliketodo。Itisbyamathematicalpointonlythatwearewise,asthesailororthefugitiveslavekeepsthepolestarinhiseye;butthatissufficientguidanceforallourlife。Wemaynotarriveatourportwithinacalculableperiod,butwewouldpreservethetruecourse。
  Undoubtedly,inthiscase,whatistrueforoneistruerstillforathousand,asalargehouseisnotproportionallymoreexpensivethanasmallone,sinceoneroofmaycover,onecellarunderlie,andonewallseparateseveralapartments。Butformypart,Ipreferredthesolitarydwelling。Moreover,itwillcommonlybecheapertobuildthewholeyourselfthantoconvinceanotheroftheadvantageofthecommonwall;andwhenyouhavedonethis,thecommonpartition,tobemuchcheaper,mustbeathinone,andthatothermayproveabadneighbor,andalsonotkeephissideinrepair。Theonlyco-operationwhichiscommonlypossibleisexceedinglypartialandsuperficial;andwhatlittletrueco-operationthereis,isasifitwerenot,beingaharmonyinaudibletomen。Ifamanhasfaith,hewillco-operatewithequalfaitheverywhere;ifhehasnotfaith,hewillcontinuetoliveliketherestoftheworld,whatevercompanyheisjoinedto。Toco-operateinthehighestaswellasthelowestsense,meanstogetourlivingtogether。Ihearditproposedlatelythattwoyoungmenshouldtraveltogetherovertheworld,theonewithoutmoney,earninghismeansashewent,beforethemastandbehindtheplow,theothercarryingabillofexchangeinhispocket。Itwaseasytoseethattheycouldnotlongbecompanionsorco-operate,sinceonewouldnotoperateatall。Theywouldpartatthefirstinterestingcrisisintheiradventures。Aboveall,asIhaveimplied,themanwhogoesalonecanstarttoday;buthewhotravelswithanothermustwaittillthatotherisready,anditmaybealongtimebeforetheygetoff。
  Butallthisisveryselfish,Ihaveheardsomeofmytownsmensay。IconfessthatIhavehithertoindulgedverylittleinphilanthropicenterprises。Ihavemadesomesacrificestoasenseofduty,andamongothershavesacrificedthispleasurealso。Therearethosewhohaveusedalltheirartstopersuademetoundertakethesupportofsomepoorfamilyinthetown;andifIhadnothingtodo——forthedevilfindsemploymentfortheidle——Imighttrymyhandatsomesuchpastimeasthat。However,whenIhavethoughttoindulgemyselfinthisrespect,andlaytheirHeavenunderanobligationbymaintainingcertainpoorpersonsinallrespectsascomfortablyasImaintainmyself,andhaveevenventuredsofarastomakethemtheoffer,theyhaveoneandallunhesitatinglypreferredtoremainpoor。Whilemytownsmenandwomenaredevotedinsomanywaystothegoodoftheirfellows,Itrustthatoneatleastmaybesparedtootherandlesshumanepursuits。Youmusthaveageniusforcharityaswellasforanythingelse。AsforDoing-good,thatisoneoftheprofessionswhicharefull。
  Moreover,Ihavetrieditfairly,and,strangeasitmayseem,amsatisfiedthatitdoesnotagreewithmyconstitution。ProbablyI
  shouldnotconsciouslyanddeliberatelyforsakemyparticularcallingtodothegoodwhichsocietydemandsofme,tosavetheuniversefromannihilation;andIbelievethatalikebutinfinitelygreatersteadfastnesselsewhereisallthatnowpreservesit。ButI
  wouldnotstandbetweenanymanandhisgenius;andtohimwhodoesthiswork,whichIdecline,withhiswholeheartandsoulandlife,Iwouldsay,Persevere,eveniftheworldcallitdoingevil,asitismostlikelytheywill。
  Iamfarfromsupposingthatmycaseisapeculiarone;nodoubtmanyofmyreaderswouldmakeasimilardefence。Atdoingsomething——Iwillnotengagethatmyneighborsshallpronounceitgood——I
  donothesitatetosaythatIshouldbeacapitalfellowtohire;
  butwhatthatis,itisformyemployertofindout。WhatgoodI
  do,inthecommonsenseofthatword,mustbeasidefrommymainpath,andforthemostpartwhollyunintended。Mensay,practically,Beginwhereyouareandsuchasyouare,withoutaimingmainlytobecomeofmoreworth,andwithkindnessaforethoughtgoaboutdoinggood。IfIweretopreachatallinthisstrain,I
  shouldsayrather,Setaboutbeinggood。Asifthesunshouldstopwhenhehadkindledhisfiresuptothesplendorofamoonorastarofthesixthmagnitude,andgoaboutlikeaRobinGoodfellow,peepinginateverycottagewindow,inspiringlunatics,andtaintingmeats,andmakingdarknessvisible,insteadofsteadilyincreasinghisgenialheatandbeneficencetillheisofsuchbrightnessthatnomortalcanlookhimintheface,andthen,andinthemeanwhiletoo,goingabouttheworldinhisownorbit,doingitgood,orrather,asatruerphilosophyhasdiscovered,theworldgoingabouthimgettinggood。WhenPhaeton,wishingtoprovehisheavenlybirthbyhisbeneficence,hadthesun’schariotbutoneday,anddroveoutofthebeatentrack,heburnedseveralblocksofhousesinthelowerstreetsofheaven,andscorchedthesurfaceoftheearth,anddriedupeveryspring,andmadethegreatdesertofSahara,tillatlengthJupiterhurledhimheadlongtotheearthwithathunderbolt,andthesun,throughgriefathisdeath,didnotshineforayear。
  Thereisnoodorsobadasthatwhicharisesfromgoodnesstainted。Itishuman,itisdivine,carrion。IfIknewforacertaintythatamanwascomingtomyhousewiththeconsciousdesignofdoingmegood,Ishouldrunformylife,asfromthatdryandparchingwindoftheAfricandesertscalledthesimoom,whichfillsthemouthandnoseandearsandeyeswithdusttillyouaresuffocated,forfearthatIshouldgetsomeofhisgooddonetome——someofitsvirusmingledwithmyblood。No——inthiscaseI
  wouldrathersufferevilthenaturalway。AmanisnotagoodmantomebecausehewillfeedmeifIshouldbestarving,orwarmmeifIshouldbefreezing,orpullmeoutofaditchifIshouldeverfallintoone。IcanfindyouaNewfoundlanddogthatwilldoasmuch。Philanthropyisnotloveforone’sfellow-maninthebroadestsense。Howardwasnodoubtanexceedinglykindandworthymaninhisway,andhashisreward;but,comparativelyspeaking,whatareahundredHowardstous,iftheirphilanthropydonothelpusinourbestestate,whenwearemostworthytobehelped?Ineverheardofaphilanthropicmeetinginwhichitwassincerelyproposedtodoanygoodtome,orthelikeofme。