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第40章

  BesidethisIgotararemessofgoldenandsilverandbrightcupreousfishes,whichlookedlikeastringofjewels。Ah!Ihavepenetratedtothosemeadowsonthemorningofmanyafirstspringday,jumpingfromhummocktohummock,fromwillowroottowillowroot,whenthewildrivervalleyandthewoodswerebathedinsopureandbrightalightaswouldhavewakedthedead,iftheyhadbeenslumberingintheirgraves,assomesuppose。Thereneedsnostrongerproofofimmortality。Allthingsmustliveinsuchalight。ODeath,wherewasthysting?OGrave,wherewasthyvictory,then?
  Ourvillagelifewouldstagnateifitwerenotfortheunexploredforestsandmeadowswhichsurroundit。Weneedthetonicofwildness——towadesometimesinmarsheswherethebitternandthemeadow-henlurk,andheartheboomingofthesnipe;tosmellthewhisperingsedgewhereonlysomewilderandmoresolitaryfowlbuildshernest,andtheminkcrawlswithitsbellyclosetotheground。Atthesametimethatweareearnesttoexploreandlearnallthings,werequirethatallthingsbemysteriousandunexplorable,thatlandandseabeinfinitelywild,unsurveyedandunfathomedbyusbecauseunfathomable。Wecanneverhaveenoughofnature。Wemustberefreshedbythesightofinexhaustiblevigor,vastandtitanicfeatures,thesea-coastwithitswrecks,thewildernesswithitslivinganditsdecayingtrees,thethunder-cloud,andtherainwhichlaststhreeweeksandproducesfreshets。Weneedtowitnessourownlimitstransgressed,andsomelifepasturingfreelywhereweneverwander。Wearecheeredwhenweobservethevulturefeedingonthecarrionwhichdisgustsanddisheartensus,andderivinghealthandstrengthfromtherepast。
  Therewasadeadhorseinthehollowbythepathtomyhouse,whichcompelledmesometimestogooutofmyway,especiallyinthenightwhentheairwasheavy,buttheassuranceitgavemeofthestrongappetiteandinviolablehealthofNaturewasmycompensationforthis。IlovetoseethatNatureissorifewithlifethatmyriadscanbeaffordedtobesacrificedandsufferedtopreyononeanother;thattenderorganizationscanbesoserenelysquashedoutofexistencelikepulp——tadpoleswhichheronsgobbleup,andtortoisesandtoadsrunoverintheroad;andthatsometimesithasrainedfleshandblood!Withtheliabilitytoaccident,wemustseehowlittleaccountistobemadeofit。Theimpressionmadeonawisemanisthatofuniversalinnocence。Poisonisnotpoisonousafterall,norareanywoundsfatal。Compassionisaveryuntenableground。Itmustbeexpeditious。Itspleadingswillnotbeartobestereotyped。
  EarlyinMay,theoaks,hickories,maples,andothertrees,justputtingoutamidstthepinewoodsaroundthepond,impartedabrightnesslikesunshinetothelandscape,especiallyincloudydays,asifthesunwerebreakingthroughmistsandshiningfaintlyonthehillsideshereandthere。OnthethirdorfourthofMayI
  sawalooninthepond,andduringthefirstweekofthemonthI
  heardthewhip-poor-will,thebrownthrasher,theveery,thewoodpewee,thechewink,andotherbirds。Ihadheardthewoodthrushlongbefore。Thephoebehadalreadycomeoncemoreandlookedinatmydoorandwindow,toseeifmyhousewascavern-likeenoughforher,sustainingherselfonhummingwingswithclinchedtalons,asifsheheldbytheair,whileshesurveyedthepremises。Thesulphur-likepollenofthepitchpinesooncoveredthepondandthestonesandrottenwoodalongtheshore,sothatyoucouldhavecollectedabarrelful。Thisisthe“sulphurshowers“webearof。
  EveninCalidas’dramaofSacontala,wereadof“rillsdyedyellowwiththegoldendustofthelotus。“Andsotheseasonswentrollingonintosummer,asoneramblesintohigherandhighergrass。
  Thuswasmyfirstyear’slifeinthewoodscompleted;andthesecondyearwassimilartoit。IfinallyleftWaldenSeptember6th,1847。
  ConclusionTothesickthedoctorswiselyrecommendachangeofairandscenery。ThankHeaven,hereisnotalltheworld。ThebuckeyedoesnotgrowinNewEngland,andthemockingbirdisrarelyheardhere。
  Thewildgooseismoreofacosmopolitethanwe;hebreakshisfastinCanada,takesaluncheonintheOhio,andplumeshimselfforthenightinasouthernbayou。Eventhebison,tosomeextent,keepspacewiththeseasonscroppingthepasturesoftheColoradoonlytillagreenerandsweetergrassawaitshimbytheYellowstone。Yetwethinkthatifrailfencesarepulleddown,andstonewallspileduponourfarms,boundsarehenceforthsettoourlivesandourfatesdecided。Ifyouarechosentownclerk,forsooth,youcannotgotoTierradelFuegothissummer:butyoumaygotothelandofinfernalfirenevertheless。Theuniverseiswiderthanourviewsofit。
  Yetweshouldoftenerlookoverthetafferelofourcraft,likecuriouspassengers,andnotmakethevoyagelikestupidsailorspickingoakum。Theothersideoftheglobeisbutthehomeofourcorrespondent。Ourvoyagingisonlygreat-circlesailing,andthedoctorsprescribefordiseasesoftheskinmerely。OnehastenstosouthernAfricatochasethegiraffe;butsurelythatisnotthegamehewouldbeafter。Howlong,pray,wouldamanhuntgiraffesifhecould?Snipesandwoodcocksalsomayaffordraresport;butI
  trustitwouldbenoblergametoshootone’sself——
  “Directyoureyerightinward,andyou’llfindAthousandregionsinyourmindYetundiscovered。Travelthem,andbeExpertinhome-cosmography。“
  WhatdoesAfrica——whatdoestheWeststandfor?Isnotourowninteriorwhiteonthechart?blackthoughitmayprove,likethecoast,whendiscovered。IsitthesourceoftheNile,ortheNiger,ortheMississippi,oraNorthwestPassagearoundthiscontinent,thatwewouldfind?Arethesetheproblemswhichmostconcernmankind?IsFranklintheonlymanwhoislost,thathiswifeshouldbesoearnesttofindhim?DoesMr。Grinnellknowwherehehimselfis?BerathertheMungoPark,theLewisandClarkandFrobisher,ofyourownstreamsandoceans;exploreyourownhigherlatitudes——
  withshiploadsofpreservedmeatstosupportyou,iftheybenecessary;andpiletheemptycanssky-highforasign。Werepreservedmeatsinventedtopreservemeatmerely?Nay,beaColumbustowholenewcontinentsandworldswithinyou,openingnewchannels,notoftrade,butofthought。EverymanisthelordofarealmbesidewhichtheearthlyempireoftheCzarisbutapettystate,ahummockleftbytheice。Yetsomecanbepatrioticwhohavenoself-respect,andsacrificethegreatertotheless。Theylovethesoilwhichmakestheirgraves,buthavenosympathywiththespiritwhichmaystillanimatetheirclay。Patriotismisamaggotintheirheads。WhatwasthemeaningofthatSouth-SeaExploringExpedition,withallitsparadeandexpense,butanindirectrecognitionofthefactthattherearecontinentsandseasinthemoralworldtowhicheverymanisanisthmusoraninlet,yetunexploredbyhim,butthatitiseasiertosailmanythousandmilesthroughcoldandstormandcannibals,inagovernmentship,withfivehundredmenandboystoassistone,thanitistoexploretheprivatesea,theAtlanticandPacificOceanofone’sbeingalone。
  “Erret,etextremosalterscruteturIberos。
  Plushabethicvitae,plushabetilleviae。“
  LetthemwanderandscrutinizetheoutlandishAustralians。
  IhavemoreofGod,theymoreoftheroad。
  ItisnotworththewhiletogoroundtheworldtocountthecatsinZanzibar。Yetdothiseventillyoucandobetter,andyoumayperhapsfindsome“Symmes’Hole“bywhichtogetattheinsideatlast。EnglandandFrance,SpainandPortugal,GoldCoastandSlaveCoast,allfrontonthisprivatesea;butnobarkfromthemhasventuredoutofsightofland,thoughitiswithoutdoubtthedirectwaytoIndia。Ifyouwouldlearntospeakalltonguesandconformtothecustomsofallnations,ifyouwouldtravelfartherthanalltravellers,benaturalizedinallclimes,andcausetheSphinxtodashherheadagainstastone,evenobeythepreceptoftheoldphilosopher,andExplorethyself。Hereinaredemandedtheeyeandthenerve。Onlythedefeatedanddesertersgotothewars,cowardsthatrunawayandenlist。Startnowonthatfarthestwesternway,whichdoesnotpauseattheMississippiorthePacific,norconducttowardawornoutChinaorJapan,butleadsondirect,atangenttothissphere,summerandwinter,dayandnight,sundown,moondown,andatlastearthdowntoo。
  ItissaidthatMirabeautooktohighwayrobbery“toascertainwhatdegreeofresolutionwasnecessaryinordertoplaceone’sselfinformaloppositiontothemostsacredlawsofsociety。“Hedeclaredthat“asoldierwhofightsintheranksdoesnotrequirehalfsomuchcourageasafootpad“——“thathonorandreligionhaveneverstoodinthewayofawell-consideredandafirmresolve。“
  Thiswasmanly,astheworldgoes;andyetitwasidle,ifnotdesperate。Asanermanwouldhavefoundhimselfoftenenough“informalopposition“towhataredeemed“themostsacredlawsofsociety,“throughobediencetoyetmoresacredlaws,andsohavetestedhisresolutionwithoutgoingoutofhisway。Itisnotforamantoputhimselfinsuchanattitudetosociety,buttomaintainhimselfinwhateverattitudehefindhimselfthroughobediencetothelawsofhisbeing,whichwillneverbeoneofoppositiontoajustgovernment,ifheshouldchancetomeetwithsuch。
  IleftthewoodsforasgoodareasonasIwentthere。PerhapsitseemedtomethatIhadseveralmorelivestolive,andcouldnotspareanymoretimeforthatone。Itisremarkablehoweasilyandinsensiblywefallintoaparticularroute,andmakeabeatentrackforourselves。Ihadnotlivedthereaweekbeforemyfeetworeapathfrommydoortothepond-side;andthoughitisfiveorsixyearssinceItrodit,itisstillquitedistinct。Itistrue,I
  fear,thatothersmayhavefallenintoit,andsohelpedtokeepitopen。Thesurfaceoftheearthissoftandimpressiblebythefeetofmen;andsowiththepathswhichthemindtravels。Howwornanddusty,then,mustbethehighwaysoftheworld,howdeeptherutsoftraditionandconformity!Ididnotwishtotakeacabinpassage,butrathertogobeforethemastandonthedeckoftheworld,forthereIcouldbestseethemoonlightamidthemountains。Idonotwishtogobelownow。
  Ilearnedthis,atleast,bymyexperiment:thatifoneadvancesconfidentlyinthedirectionofhisdreams,andendeavorstolivethelifewhichhehasimagined,hewillmeetwithasuccessunexpectedincommonhours。Hewillputsomethingsbehind,willpassaninvisibleboundary;new,universal,andmoreliberallawswillbegintoestablishthemselvesaroundandwithinhim;ortheoldlawsbeexpanded,andinterpretedinhisfavorinamoreliberalsense,andhewilllivewiththelicenseofahigherorderofbeings。Inproportionashesimplifieshislife,thelawsoftheuniversewillappearlesscomplex,andsolitudewillnotbesolitude,norpovertypoverty,norweaknessweakness。Ifyouhavebuiltcastlesintheair,yourworkneednotbelost;thatiswheretheyshouldbe。Nowputthefoundationsunderthem。
  ItisaridiculousdemandwhichEnglandandAmericamake,thatyoushallspeaksothattheycanunderstandyou。Neithermennortoadstoolsgrowso。Asifthatwereimportant,andtherewerenotenoughtounderstandyouwithoutthem。AsifNaturecouldsupportbutoneorderofunderstandings,couldnotsustainbirdsaswellasquadrupeds,flyingaswellascreepingthings,andhushandwhoa,whichBrightcanunderstand,werethebestEnglish。Asifthereweresafetyinstupidityalone。Ifearchieflylestmyexpressionmaynotbeextravagantenough,maynotwanderfarenoughbeyondthenarrowlimitsofmydailyexperience,soastobeadequatetothetruthofwhichIhavebeenconvinced。Extravagance!itdependsonhowyouareyarded。Themigratingbuffalo,whichseeksnewpasturesinanotherlatitude,isnotextravagantlikethecowwhichkicksoverthepail,leapsthecowyardfence,andrunsafterhercalf,inmilkingtime。Idesiretospeaksomewherewithoutbounds;likeamaninawakingmoment,tomenintheirwakingmoments;forIamconvincedthatIcannotexaggerateenougheventolaythefoundationofatrueexpression。Whothathasheardastrainofmusicfearedthenlestheshouldspeakextravagantlyanymoreforever?Inviewofthefutureorpossible,weshouldlivequitelaxlyandundefinedinfront,ouroutlinesdimandmistyonthatside;asourshadowsrevealaninsensibleperspirationtowardthesun。Thevolatiletruthofourwordsshouldcontinuallybetraytheinadequacyoftheresidualstatement。Theirtruthisinstantlytranslated;itsliteralmonumentaloneremains。Thewordswhichexpressourfaithandpietyarenotdefinite;yettheyaresignificantandfragrantlikefrankincensetosuperiornatures。
  Whyleveldownwardtoourdullestperceptionalways,andpraisethatascommonsense?Thecommonestsenseisthesenseofmenasleep,whichtheyexpressbysnoring。Sometimesweareinclinedtoclassthosewhoareonce-and-a-half-wittedwiththehalf-witted,becauseweappreciateonlyathirdpartoftheirwit。Somewouldfindfaultwiththemorningred,iftheyevergotupearlyenough。