TherealattractionsoftheHollowellfarm,tome,were:itscompleteretirement,being,abouttwomilesfromthevillage,halfamilefromthenearestneighbor,andseparatedfromthehighwaybyabroadfield;itsboundingontheriver,whichtheownersaidprotecteditbyitsfogsfromfrostsinthespring,thoughthatwasnothingtome;thegraycolorandruinousstateofthehouseandbarn,andthedilapidatedfences,whichputsuchanintervalbetweenmeandthelastoccupant;thehollowandlichen-coveredappletrees,nawedbyrabbits,showingwhatkindofneighborsIshouldhave;butaboveall,therecollectionIhadofitfrommyearliestvoyagesuptheriver,whenthehousewasconcealedbehindadensegroveofredmaples,throughwhichIheardthehouse-dogbark。Iwasinhastetobuyit,beforetheproprietorfinishedgettingoutsomerocks,cuttingdownthehollowappletrees,andgrubbingupsomeyoungbircheswhichhadsprungupinthepasture,or,inshort,hadmadeanymoreofhisimprovements。ToenjoytheseadvantagesIwasreadytocarryiton;likeAtlas,totaketheworldonmyshoulders——I
neverheardwhatcompensationhereceivedforthat——anddoallthosethingswhichhadnoothermotiveorexcusebutthatImightpayforitandbeunmolestedinmypossessionofit;forIknewallthewhilethatitwouldyieldthemostabundantcropofthekindI
wanted,ifIcouldonlyaffordtoletitalone。ButitturnedoutasIhavesaid。
AllthatIcouldsay,then,withrespecttofarmingonalargescale——Ihavealwayscultivatedagarden——was,thatIhadhadmyseedsready。Manythinkthatseedsimprovewithage。Ihavenodoubtthattimediscriminatesbetweenthegoodandthebad;andwhenatlastIshallplant,Ishallbelesslikelytobedisappointed。
ButIwouldsaytomyfellows,onceforall,Aslongaspossiblelivefreeanduncommitted。Itmakesbutlittledifferencewhetheryouarecommittedtoafarmorthecountyjail。
OldCato,whose“DeReRustica“ismy“Cultivator,“says——andtheonlytranslationIhaveseenmakessheernonsenseofthepassage——“Whenyouthinkofgettingafarmturnitthusinyourmind,nottobuygreedily;norspareyourpainstolookatit,anddonotthinkitenoughtogorounditonce。Theofteneryougotherethemoreitwillpleaseyou,ifitisgood。“IthinkIshallnotbuygreedily,butgoroundandrounditaslongasIlive,andbeburiedinitfirst,thatitmaypleasemethemoreatlast。
Thepresentwasmynextexperimentofthiskind,whichIpurposetodescribemoreatlength,forconvenienceputtingtheexperienceoftwoyearsintoone。AsIhavesaid,Idonotproposetowriteanodetodejection,buttobragaslustilyaschanticleerinthemorning,standingonhisroost,ifonlytowakemyneighborsup。
WhenfirstItookupmyabodeinthewoods,thatis,begantospendmynightsaswellasdaysthere,which,byaccident,wasonIndependenceDay,ortheFourthofJuly,1845,myhousewasnotfinishedforwinter,butwasmerelyadefenceagainsttherain,withoutplasteringorchimney,thewallsbeingofrough,weather-stainedboards,withwidechinks,whichmadeitcoolatnight。Theuprightwhitehewnstudsandfreshlyplaneddoorandwindowcasingsgaveitacleanandairylook,especiallyinthemorning,whenitstimbersweresaturatedwithdew,sothatIfanciedthatbynoonsomesweetgumwouldexudefromthem。Tomyimaginationitretainedthroughoutthedaymoreorlessofthisauroralcharacter,remindingmeofacertainhouseonamountainwhichIhadvisitedayearbefore。Thiswasanairyandunplasteredcabin,fittoentertainatravellinggod,andwhereagoddessmighttrailhergarments。Thewindswhichpassedovermydwellingweresuchassweepovertheridgesofmountains,bearingthebrokenstrains,orcelestialpartsonly,ofterrestrialmusic。Themorningwindforeverblows,thepoemofcreationisuninterrupted;butfewaretheearsthathearit。Olympusisbuttheoutsideoftheeartheverywhere。
TheonlyhouseIhadbeentheownerofbefore,ifIexceptaboat,wasatent,whichIusedoccasionallywhenmakingexcursionsinthesummer,andthisisstillrolledupinmygarret;buttheboat,afterpassingfromhandtohand,hasgonedownthestreamoftime。Withthismoresubstantialshelteraboutme,Ihadmadesomeprogresstowardsettlingintheworld。Thisframe,soslightlyclad,wasasortofcrystallizationaroundme,andreactedonthebuilder。Itwassuggestivesomewhatasapictureinoutlines。I
didnotneedtogooutdoorstotaketheair,fortheatmospherewithinhadlostnoneofitsfreshness。ItwasnotsomuchwithindoorsasbehindadoorwhereIsat,evenintherainiestweather。
TheHarivansasays,“Anabodewithoutbirdsislikeameatwithoutseasoning。“Suchwasnotmyabode,forIfoundmyselfsuddenlyneighbortothebirds;notbyhavingimprisonedone,buthavingcagedmyselfnearthem。Iwasnotonlynearertosomeofthosewhichcommonlyfrequentthegardenandtheorchard,buttothosesmallerandmorethrillingsongstersoftheforestwhichnever,orrarely,serenadeavillager——thewoodthrush,theveery,thescarlettanager,thefieldsparrow,thewhip-poor-will,andmanyothers。
Iwasseatedbytheshoreofasmallpond,aboutamileandahalfsouthofthevillageofConcordandsomewhathigherthanit,inthemidstofanextensivewoodbetweenthattownandLincoln,andabouttwomilessouthofthatouronlyfieldknowntofame,ConcordBattleGround;butIwassolowinthewoodsthattheoppositeshore,halfamileoff,liketherest,coveredwithwood,wasmymostdistanthorizon。Forthefirstweek,wheneverIlookedoutontheponditimpressedmelikeatarnhighuponthesideofamountain,itsbottomfarabovethesurfaceofotherlakes,and,asthesunarose,Isawitthrowingoffitsnightlyclothingofmist,andhereandthere,bydegrees,itssoftripplesoritssmoothreflectingsurfacewasrevealed,whilethemists,likeghosts,werestealthilywithdrawingineverydirectionintothewoods,asatthebreakingupofsomenocturnalconventicle。Theverydewseemedtohanguponthetreeslaterintothedaythanusual,asonthesidesofmountains。
Thissmalllakewasofmostvalueasaneighborintheintervalsofagentlerain-storminAugust,when,bothairandwaterbeingperfectlystill,buttheskyovercast,mid-afternoonhadalltheserenityofevening,andthewoodthrushsangaround,andwasheardfromshoretoshore。Alakelikethisisneversmootherthanatsuchatime;andtheclearportionoftheairaboveitbeing,shallowanddarkenedbyclouds,thewater,fulloflightandreflections,becomesalowerheavenitselfsomuchthemoreimportant。Fromahill-topnearby,wherethewoodhadbeenrecentlycutoff,therewasapleasingvistasouthwardacrossthepond,throughawideindentationinthehillswhichformtheshorethere,wheretheiroppositesidesslopingtowardeachothersuggestedastreamflowingoutinthatdirectionthroughawoodedvalley,butstreamtherewasnone。ThatwayIlookedbetweenandovertheneargreenhillstosomedistantandhigheronesinthehorizon,tingedwithblue。Indeed,bystandingontiptoeIcouldcatchaglimpseofsomeofthepeaksofthestillbluerandmoredistantmountainrangesinthenorthwest,thosetrue-bluecoinsfromheaven’sownmint,andalsoofsomeportionofthevillage。Butinotherdirections,evenfromthispoint,Icouldnotseeoverorbeyondthewoodswhichsurroundedme。Itiswelltohavesomewaterinyourneighborhood,togivebuoyancytoandfloattheearth。Onevalueevenofthesmallestwellis,thatwhenyoulookintoityouseethatearthisnotcontinentbutinsular。Thisisasimportantasthatitkeepsbuttercool。WhenIlookedacrossthepondfromthispeaktowardtheSudburymeadows,whichintimeoffloodI
distinguishedelevatedperhapsbyamirageintheirseethingvalley,likeacoininabasin,alltheearthbeyondthepondappearedlikeathincrustinsulatedandfloatedevenbythissmallsheetofintervertingwater,andIwasremindedthatthisonwhichIdweltwasbutdryland。
Thoughtheviewfrommydoorwasstillmorecontracted,Ididnotfeelcrowdedorconfinedintheleast。Therewaspastureenoughformyimagination。ThelowshruboakplateautowhichtheoppositeshorearosestretchedawaytowardtheprairiesoftheWestandthesteppesofTartary,affordingampleroomforalltherovingfamiliesofmen。“Therearenonehappyintheworldbutbeingswhoenjoyfreelyavasthorizon“——saidDamodara,whenhisherdsrequirednewandlargerpastures。
Bothplaceandtimewerechanged,andIdweltnearertothosepartsoftheuniverseandtothoseerasinhistorywhichhadmostattractedme。WhereIlivedwasasfaroffasmanyaregionviewednightlybyastronomers。Wearewonttoimaginerareanddelectableplacesinsomeremoteandmorecelestialcornerofthesystem,behindtheconstellationofCassiopeia’sChair,farfromnoiseanddisturbance。Idiscoveredthatmyhouseactuallyhaditssiteinsuchawithdrawn,butforevernewandunprofaned,partoftheuniverse。IfitwereworththewhiletosettleinthosepartsneartothePleiadesortheHyades,toAldebaranorAltair,thenIwasreallythere,oratanequalremotenessfromthelifewhichIhadleftbehind,dwindledandtwinklingwithasfinearaytomynearestneighbor,andtobeseenonlyinmoonlessnightsbyhim。SuchwasthatpartofcreationwhereIhadsquatted;
“Therewasashepherdthatdidlive,AndheldhisthoughtsashighAswerethemountswhereonhisflocksDidhourlyfeedhimby。“
Whatshouldwethinkoftheshepherd’slifeifhisflocksalwayswanderedtohigherpasturesthanhisthoughts?
Everymorningwasacheerfulinvitationtomakemylifeofequalsimplicity,andImaysayinnocence,withNatureherself。IhavebeenassincereaworshipperofAuroraastheGreeks。Igotupearlyandbathedinthepond;thatwasareligiousexercise,andoneofthebestthingswhichIdid。TheysaythatcharacterswereengravenonthebathingtubofKingTchingthangtothiseffect:
“Renewthyselfcompletelyeachday;doitagain,andagain,andforeveragain。“Icanunderstandthat。Morningbringsbacktheheroicages。Iwasasmuchaffectedbythefainthumofamosquitomakingitsinvisibleandunimaginabletourthroughmyapartmentatearliestdawn,whenIwassittingwithdoorandwindowsopen,asI
couldbebyanytrumpetthateversangoffame。ItwasHomer’srequiem;itselfanIliadandOdysseyintheair,singingitsownwrathandwanderings。Therewassomethingcosmicalaboutit;astandingadvertisement,tillforbidden,oftheeverlastingvigorandfertilityoftheworld。Themorning,whichisthemostmemorableseasonoftheday,istheawakeninghour。Thenthereisleastsomnolenceinus;andforanhour,atleast,somepartofusawakeswhichslumbersalltherestofthedayandnight。Littleistobeexpectedofthatday,ifitcanbecalledaday,towhichwearenotawakenedbyourGenius,butbythemechanicalnudgingsofsomeservitor,arenotawakenedbyourownnewlyacquiredforceandaspirationsfromwithin,accompaniedbytheundulationsofcelestialmusic,insteadoffactorybells,andafragrancefillingtheair——
toahigherlifethanwefellasleepfrom;andthusthedarknessbearitsfruit,andproveitselftobegood,nolessthanthelight。
Thatmanwhodoesnotbelievethateachdaycontainsanearlier,moresacred,andauroralhourthanhehasyetprofaned,hasdespairedoflife,andispursuingadescendinganddarkeningway。
Afterapartialcessationofhissensuouslife,thesoulofman,oritsorgansrather,arereinvigoratedeachday,andhisGeniustriesagainwhatnoblelifeitcanmake。Allmemorableevents,Ishouldsay,transpireinmorningtimeandinamorningatmosphere。TheVedassay,“Allintelligencesawakewiththemorning。“Poetryandart,andthefairestandmostmemorableoftheactionsofmen,datefromsuchanhour。Allpoetsandheroes,likeMemnon,arethechildrenofAurora,andemittheirmusicatsunrise。Tohimwhoseelasticandvigorousthoughtkeepspacewiththesun,thedayisaperpetualmorning。Itmattersnotwhattheclockssayortheattitudesandlaborsofmen。MorningiswhenIamawakeandthereisadawninme。Moralreformistheefforttothrowoffsleep。
Whyisitthatmengivesopooranaccountoftheirdayiftheyhavenotbeenslumbering?Theyarenotsuchpoorcalculators。Iftheyhadnotbeenovercomewithdrowsiness,theywouldhaveperformedsomething。Themillionsareawakeenoughforphysicallabor;butonlyoneinamillionisawakeenoughforeffectiveintellectualexertion,onlyoneinahundredmillionstoapoeticordivinelife。
Tobeawakeistobealive。Ihaveneveryetmetamanwhowasquiteawake。HowcouldIhavelookedhimintheface?
Wemustlearntoreawakenandkeepourselvesawake,notbymechanicalaids,butbyaninfiniteexpectationofthedawn,whichdoesnotforsakeusinoursoundestsleep。Iknowofnomoreencouragingfactthantheunquestionableabilityofmantoelevatehislifebyaconsciousendeavor。Itissomethingtobeabletopaintaparticularpicture,ortocarveastatue,andsotomakeafewobjectsbeautiful;butitisfarmoreglorioustocarveandpainttheveryatmosphereandmediumthroughwhichwelook,whichmorallywecando。Toaffectthequalityoftheday,thatisthehighestofarts。Everymanistaskedtomakehislife,eveninitsdetails,worthyofthecontemplationofhismostelevatedandcriticalhour。Ifwerefused,orratherusedup,suchpaltryinformationasweget,theoracleswoulddistinctlyinformushowthismightbedone。
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