Iwasanceadairkwomanmyself,beforemyhairwasgray。Haudyerpeace,Francie,andwatchthecairds。“
IwatchedthecardsasIwastold。Thereweresevenleftonthetable。Myauntremovedtwofromoneendoftherowandtwofromtheother,anddesiredmetocallthetwooutermostofthethreecardsnowleftonthetable。IcalledtheAceofClubsandtheTenofDiamonds。MyauntChanceliftedhereyestotheceilingwithalookofdevoutgratitudewhichsorelytriedmymother’spatience。
TheAceofClubsandtheTenofDiamonds,takentogether,signified——first,goodnewsevidentlythenewsofthegroom’splace;secondly,ajourneythatlaybeforemepointingplainlytomyjourneyto-morrow!;thirdlyandlastly,asumofmoneyprobablythegroom’swages!waitingtofinditswayintomypockets。Havingtoldmyfortuneintheseencouragingterms,myauntdeclinedtocarrytheexperimentanyfurther。“Eh,lad!it’sacleantemptingo’Proavidencetoaskmairo’thecairdsthanthecairdshavetauldusnoo。Gaeyerwaysto-morrowtothegreathoose。Adairkwomanwillmeetyeatthegate;andshe’llhaveahandingettingyethegroom’splace,wi’a’thegratificationsandpairquisitesappertainingtothesame。And,mebbe,whenyerpoaket’sfullo’money,ye’llno’beforgettingyerauntChance,maintainingherainunblemishedwidowhood——wi’Proavidenceassisting——onthrattypundsayear!“
IpromisedtoremembermyauntChancewhohadthedefect,bytheway,ofbeingaterriblygreedypersonaftermoneyonthenexthappyoccasionwhenmypooremptypocketsweretobefilledatlast。Thisdone,Ilookedatmymother。Shehadagreedtotakehersisterforumpirebetweenus,andhersisterhadgivenitinmyfavor。Sheraisednomoreobjections。Silently,shegotonherfeet,andkissedme,andsighedbitterly——andsolefttheroom。MyauntChanceshookherhead。“Idoubt,Francie,yerpuirmitherhasbutaheathennotionofthevairtueofthecairds!“
BydaylightthenextmorningIsetforthonmyjourney。IlookedbackatthecottageasIopenedthegardengate。Atonewindowwasmymother,withherhandkerchieftohereyes。AttheotherstoodmyauntChance,holdinguptheQueenofSpadesbywayofencouragingmeatstarting。Iwavedmyhandstobothofthemintokenoffarewell,andsteppedoutbrisklyintotheroad。ItwasthenthelastdayofFebruary。Bepleasedtoremember,inconnectionwiththis,thatthefirstofMarchwastheday,andtwoo’clockinthemorningthehourofmybirth。
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NowyouknowhowIcametoleavehome。Thenextthingtotellis,whathappenedonthejourney。
Ireachedthegreathouseinreasonablygoodtimeconsideringthedistance。Attheveryfirsttrialofit,theprophecyofthecardsturnedouttobewrong。Thepersonwhometmeatthelodgegatewasnotadarkwoman——infact,notawomanatall——butaboy。Hedirectedmeonthewaytotheservants’offices;andthereagainthecardswereallwrong。Iencountered,notonewoman,butthree——
andnotoneofthethreewasdark。IhavestatedthatIamnotsuperstitious,andIhavetoldthetruth。ButImustownthatI
didfeelacertainflutteringattheheartwhenImademybowtothesteward,andtoldhimwhatbusinesshadbroughtmetothehouse。HisanswercompletedthediscomfitureofauntChance’sfortune-telling。Myill-luckstillpursuedme。Thatverymorninganothermanhadappliedforthegroom’splace,andhadgotit。
IswallowedmydisappointmentaswellasIcould,andthankedthesteward,andwenttotheinninthevillagetogettherestandfoodwhichIsorelyneededbythistime。
BeforestartingonmyhomewardwalkImadesomeinquiriesattheinn,andascertainedthatImightsaveafewmiles,onmyreturn,byfollowinganewroad。Furnishedwithfullinstructions,severaltimesrepeated,astothevariousturningsIwastotake,Isetforth,andwalkedontilltheeveningwithonlyonestoppageforbreadandcheese。Justasitwasgettingtowarddark,theraincameonandthewindbegantorise;andIfoundmyself,tomakemattersworse,inapartofthecountrywithwhichIwasentirelyunacquainted,thoughIguessedmyselftobesomefifteenmilesfromhome。ThefirsthouseIfoundtoinquireat,wasalonelyroadsideinn,standingontheoutskirtsofathickwood。Solitaryastheplacelooked,itwaswelcometoalostmanwhowasalsohungry,thirsty,footsore,andwet。Thelandlordwascivilandrespectable-looking;andthepriceheaskedforabedwasreasonableenough。Iwasgrievedtodisappointmymother。Buttherewasnoconveyancetobehad,andIcouldgonofartherafootthatnight。Mywearinessfairlyforcedmetostopattheinn。
ImaysayformyselfthatIamatemperateman。Mysuppersimplyconsistedofsomerashersofbacon,asliceofhome-madebread,andapintofale。Ididnotgotobedimmediatelyafterthismoderatemeal,butsatupwiththelandlord,talkingaboutmybadprospectsandmylongrunofill-luck,anddivergingfromthesetopicstothesubjectsofhorse-fleshandracing。Nothingwassaid,eitherbymyself,myhost,orthefewlaborerswhostrayedintothetap-room,whichcould,intheslightestdegree,excitemymind,orsetmyfancy——whichisonlyasmallfancyatthebestoftimes——playingtrickswithmycommonsense。
Atalittleaftereleventhehousewasclosed。Iwentroundwiththelandlord,andheldthecandlewhilethedoorsandlowerwindowswerebeingsecured。Inoticedwithsurprisethestrengthofthebolts,bars,andiron-sheathedshutters。
“Yousee,weareratherlonelyhere,“saidthelandlord。“Weneverhavehadanyattemptstobreakinyet,butit’salwaysaswelltobeonthesafeside。Whennobodyissleepinghere,Iamtheonlymaninthehouse。Mywifeanddaughteraretimid,andtheservantgirltakesafterhermissuses。Anotherglassofale,beforeyouturnin?——No!——Well,howsuchasobermanasyoucomestobeoutofaplaceismorethanIcanunderstandforone——Here’swhereyou’retosleep。You’retheonlylodgerto-night,andIthinkyou’llsaymymissushasdoneherbesttomakeyoucomfortable。You’requitesureyouwon’thaveanotherglassofale?——Verywell。Goodnight。“
Itwashalf-pastelevenbytheclockinthepassageaswewentupstairstothebedroom。Thewindowlookedoutonthewoodatthebackofthehouse。
Ilockedmydoor,setmycandleonthechestofdrawers,andwearilygotmereadyforbed。Thebleakwindwasstillblowing,andthesolemn,surgingmoanofitinthewoodwasverydrearytohearthroughthenightsilence。Feelingstrangelywakeful,I
resolvedtokeepthecandlealightuntilIbegantogrowsleepy。
Thetruthis,Iwasnotquitemyself。Iwasdepressedinmindbymydisappointmentofthemorning;andIwaswornoutinbodybymylongwalk。Betweenthetwo,IownIcouldn’tfacetheprospectoflyingawakeinthedarkness,listeningtothedismalmoanofthewindinthewood。
SleepstoleonmebeforeIwasawareofit;myeyesclosed,andI
fellofftorest,withouthavingsomuchasthoughtofextinguishingthecandle。
ThenextthingthatIrememberwasafaintshiveringthatranthroughmefromheadtofoot,andadreadfulsinkingpainatmyheart,suchasIhadneverfeltbefore。Theshiveringonlydisturbedmyslumbers——thepainwokemeinstantly。InonemomentI
passedfromastateofsleeptoastateofwakefulness——myeyeswideopen——mymindclearonasuddenasifbyamiracle。Thecandlehadburneddownnearlytothelastmorseloftallow,buttheunsnuffedwickhadjustfallenoff,andthelightwas,forthemoment,fairandfull。
Betweenthefootofthebedandtheclosetdoor,Isawapersoninmyroom。Thepersonwasawoman,standinglookingatme,withaknifeinherhand。Itdoesnocredittomycouragetoconfessit——
butthetruthISthetruth。Iwasstruckspeechlesswithterror。
ThereIlaywithmyeyesonthewoman;therethewomanstoodwiththeknifeinherhandwithHEReyesonME。
Shesaidnotawordaswestaredeachotherintheface;butshemovedafteralittle——movedslowlytowardtheleft-handsideofthebed。
Thelightfellfullonherface。Afair,finewoman,withyellowishflaxenhair,andlightgrayeyes,withadroopinthelefteyelid。Inoticedthesethingsandfixedtheminmymind,beforeshewasquiteroundatthesideofthebed。Withoutsayingaword;withoutanychangeinthestonystillnessofherface;
withoutanynoisefollowingherfootfall,shecamecloserandcloser;stoppedatthebed-head;andliftedtheknifetostabme。
Ilaidmyarmovermythroattosaveit;but,asIsawtheblowcoming,Ithrewmyhandacrossthebedtotherightside,andjerkedmybodyoverthatway,justastheknifecamedown,likelightning,withinahair’sbreadthofmyshoulder。
Myeyesfixedonherarmandherhand——shegavemetimetolookatthemassheslowlydrewtheknifeoutofthebed。Awhite,well-
shapedarm,withaprettydownlyinglightlyoverthefairskin。A
delicatelady’shand,withapinkflushroundthefingernails。
Shedrewtheknifeout,andpassedbackagainslowlytothefootofthebed;shestoppedthereforamomentlookingatme;thenshecameonwithoutsayingaword;withoutanychangeinthestonystillnessofherface;withoutanynoisefollowingherfootfall——
cameontothesideofthebedwhereInowlay。
Gettingnearme,sheliftedtheknifeagain,andIdrewmyselfawaytotheleftside。Shestruck,asbeforerightintothemattress,withaswiftdownwardactionofherarm;andshemissedme,asbefore;byahair’sbreadth。ThistimemyeyeswanderedfromHER
totheknife。Itwaslikethelargeclaspkniveswhichlaboringmenusetocuttheirbreadandbaconwith。Herdelicatelittlefingersdidnothidemorethantwothirdsofthehandle;Inoticedthatitwasmadeofbuckhorn,cleanandshiningasthebladewas,andlookinglikenew。
Forthesecondtimeshedrewtheknifeoutofthebed,andsuddenlyhiditawayinthewidesleeveofhergown。Thatdone,shestoppedbythebedsidewatchingme。ForaninstantIsawherstandinginthatposition——thenthewickofthespentcandlefelloverintothesocket。Theflamedwindledtoalittlebluepoint,andtheroomgrewdark。
Amoment,orless,ifpossible,passedso——andthenthewickflaredup,smokily,forthelasttime。Myeyeswerestilllookingforherovertheright-handsideofthebedwhenthelastflashoflightcame。LookasImight,Icouldseenothing。Thewomanwiththeknifewasgone。
Ibegantogetbacktomyselfagain。Icouldfeelmyheartbeating;Icouldhearthewoefulmoaningofthewindinthewood;I
couldleapupinbed,andgivethealarmbeforesheescapedfromthehouse。“Murder!Wakeupthere!Murder!“
Nobodyansweredtothealarm。Iroseandgropedmywaythroughthedarknesstothedooroftheroom。Bythatwayshemusthavegotin。Bythatwayshemusthavegoneout。
Thedooroftheroomwasfastlocked,exactlyasIhadleftitongoingtobed!Ilookedatthewindow。Fastlockedtoo!
Hearingavoiceoutside,Iopenedthedoor。Therewasthelandlord,comingtowardmealongthepassage,withhisburningcandleinonehand,andhisgunintheother。
“Whatisit?“hesays,lookingatmeinnoveryfriendlyway。
Icouldonlyanswerinawhisper,“Awoman,withaknifeinherhand。Inmyroom。Afair,yellow-hairedwoman。Shejabbedatmewiththeknife,twiceover。“
Heliftedhiscandle,andlookedatmesteadilyfromheadtofoot。
“Sheseemstohavemissedyou——twiceover。“
“Idodgedtheknifeasitcamedown。Itstruckthebedeachtime。
Goin,andsee。“
Thelandlordtookhiscandleintothebedroomimmediately。Inlessthanaminutehecameoutagainintothepassageinaviolentpassion。
“Thedevilflyawaywithyouandyourwomanwiththeknife!Thereisn’tamarkinthebedclothesanywhere。Whatdoyoumeanbycomingintoaman’splaceandfrighteninghisfamilyoutoftheirwitsbyadream?“
Adream?Thewomanwhohadtriedtostabme,notalivinghumanbeinglikemyself?Ibegantoshakeandshiver。Thehorrorsgotholdofmeatthebarethoughtofit。
“I’llleavethehouse,“Isaid。“Betterbeoutontheroadintherainanddark,thanbackinthatroom,afterwhatI’veseeninit。
Lendmethelighttogetmyclothesby,andtellmewhatI’mtopay。“
Thelandlordledthewaybackwithhislightintothebedroom。
“Pay?“sayshe。“You’llfindyourscoreontheslatewhenyougodownstairs。Iwouldn’thavetakenyouinforallthemoneyyou’vegotaboutyou,ifIhadknownyourdreaming,screechingwaysbeforehand。Lookatthebed——where’sthecutofaknifeinit?
Lookatthewindow——isthelockbursted?LookatthedoorwhichI
heardyoufastenyourself——isitbrokein?Amurderingwomanwithaknifeinmyhouse!Yououghttobeashamedofyourself!“
Myeyesfollowedhishandasitpointedfirsttothebed——thentothewindow——thentothedoor。Therewasnogainsayingit。Thebedsheetwasassoundasonthedayitwasmade。Thewindowwasfast。
Thedoorhungonitshingesassteadyasever。Ihuddledmyclothesonwithoutspeaking。Wewentdownstairstogether。I
lookedattheclockinthebar-room。Thetimewastwentyminutespasttwointhemorning。Ipaidmybill,andthelandlordletmeout。Therainhadceased;butthenightwasdark,andthewindwasbleakerthanever。Littledidthedarkness,orthecold,orthedoubtaboutthewayhomemattertoME。Mymindwasawayfromallthesethings。Mymindwasfixedonthevisioninthebedroom。
WhathadIseentryingtomurderme?Thecreatureofadream?Orthatothercreaturefromtheworldbeyondthegrave,whommencallghost?IcouldmakenothingofitasIwalkedalonginthenight;
Ihadmadenothingbyitbymidday——whenIstoodatlast,aftermanytimesmissingmyroad,onthedoorstepofhome。
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