ThenMatryó;najoinedin。Shewonderedwhothiswomanwas,andwhosethechildrenwere,soshesaid:’Arenotyoutheirmother,then?’
’No,mygoodwoman,Iamneithertheirmothernoranyrelationtothem。
Theywerequitestrangerstome,butIadoptedthem。’
’Theyarenotyourchildrenandyetyouaresofondofthem?’
’HowcanIhelpbeingfondofthem?Ifedthembothatmyownbreasts。
Ihadachildofmyown,butGodtookhim。IwasnotsofondofhimasInowamofthem。’
’Thenwhosechildrenarethey?’
Thewoman,havingbeguntalking,toldthemthewholestory。
’Itisaboutsixyearssincetheirparentsdied,bothinoneweek:theirfatherwasburiedontheTuesday,andtheirmotherdiedontheFriday。Theseorphanswerebornthreedaysaftertheirfather’sdeath,andtheirmotherdidnotliveanotherday。MyhusbandandIwerethenlivingaspeasantsinthevillage。Wewereneighboursoftheirs,ouryardbeingnexttotheirs。Theirfatherwasalonelyman;awood-cutterintheforest。Whenfellingtreesoneday,theyletonefallonhim。Itfellacrosshisbodyandcrushedhisbowelsout。TheyhardlygothimhomebeforehissoulwenttoGod;andthatsameweekhiswifegavebirthtotwins——theselittlegirls。Shewaspoorandalone;shehadnoone,youngorold,withher。Aloneshegavethembirth,andaloneshemetherdeath。
’ThenextmorningIwenttoseeher,butwhenIenteredthehut,she,poorthing,wasalreadystarkandcold。Indyingshehadrolledontothischildandcrushedherleg。Thevillagefolkcametothehutwashedthebody,laidherout,madeacoffin,andburiedher。Theyweregoodfolk。Thebabieswereleftalone。Whatwastobedonewiththem?Iwastheonlywomantherewhohadababyatthetime。Iwasnursingmyfirst-born——eightweeksold。SoItookthemforatime。Thepeasantscametogether,andthoughtandthoughtwhattodowiththem,andatlasttheysaidtome:“Forthepresent,Mary,youhadbetterkeepthegirls,andlateronwewillarrangewhattodoforthem。“
SoInursedthesoundoneatmybreast,butatfirstIdidnotfeedthiscrippledone。Ididnotsupposeshewouldlive。ButthenIthoughttomyself,whyshouldthepoorinnocentsuffer?I
pitiedher,andbegantofeedher。AndsoIfedmyownboyandthesetwo——thethreeofthem——atmyownbreast。Iwasyoungandstrong,andhadgoodfood,andGodgavemesomuchmilkthatattimesitevenoverflowed。Iusedsometimestofeedtwoatatime,whilethethirdwaswaiting。WhenonehadhadenoughInursedthethird。AndGodsoordereditthatthesegrewup,whilemyownwasburiedbeforehewastwoyearsold。AndI
hadnomorechildren,thoughweprospered。Nowmyhusbandisworkingforthecornmerchantatthemill。Thepayisgoodandwearewelloff。ButIhavenochildrenofmyown,andhowlonelyIshouldbewithouttheselittlegirls!HowcanIhelplovingthem!Theyarethejoyofmylife!’
Shepressedthelamelittlegirltoherwithonehandwhilewiththeothershewipedthetearsfromhercheeks。
AndMatryó;nasighed,andsaid:’Theproverbistruethatsays,“Onemaylivewithoutfatherormother,butonecannotlivewithoutGod。“’
Sotheytalkedtogether,whensuddenlythewholehutwaslightedupasthoughbysummerlightningfromthecornerwhereMichaelsat。Theyalllookedtowardshimandsawhimsitting,hishandsfoldedonhisknees,gazingupwardsandsmiling。
Thewomanwentawaywiththegirls。Michaelrosefromthebench,putdownhiswork,andtookoffhisapron。Then,bowinglowtoSimonandhiswife,hesaid:’Farewell,masters。Godhasforgivenme。Iaskyourforgiveness,too,foranythingdoneamiss。’
AndtheysawthatalightshonefromMichael。AndSimonrose,boweddowntoMichael,andsaid:’Isee,Michael,thatyouarenocommonman,andIcanneitherkeepyounorquestionyou。Onlytellmethis:howisitthatwhenIfoundyouandbroughtyouhome,youweregloomy,andwhenmywifegaveyoufoodyousmiledatherandbecamebrighter?Thenwhenthegentlemancametoordertheboots,yousmiledagainandbecamebrighterstill?Andnow,whenthiswomanbroughtthelittlegirls,yousmiledathirdtime,andhavebecomeasbrightasday?Tellme,Michael,whydoesyourfaceshineso,andwhydidyousmilethosethreetimes?’
AndMichaelanswered:’LightshinesfrommebecauseIhavebeenpunished,butnowGodhaspardonedme。AndIsmiledthreetimes,becauseGodsentmetolearnthreetruths,andIhavelearntthem。OneIlearntwhenyourwifepitiedmeandthatiswhyIsmiledthefirsttime。ThesecondIlearntwhentherichmanorderedthebootsandthenIsmiledagain。Andnow,whenI
sawthoselittlegirls,Ilearntthethirdandlasttruth,andIsmiledthethirdtime。’
AndSimonsaid,’Tellme,Michael,whatdidGodpunishyoufor?andwhatwerethethreetruths?thatI,too,mayknowthem。’
AndMichaelanswered:’GodpunishedmefordisobeyingHim。IwasanangelinheavenanddisobeyedGod。Godsentmetofetchawoman’ssoul。Iflewtoearth,andsawasickwomanlyingalone,whohadjustgivenbirthtotwingirls。Theymovedfeeblyattheirmother’sside,butshecouldnotliftthemtoherbreast。
Whenshesawme,sheunderstoodthatGodhadsentmeforhersoul,andsheweptandsaid:“AngelofGod!Myhusbandhasjustbeenburied,killedbyafallingtree。Ihaveneithersister,noraunt,normother:noonetocareformyorphans。Donottakemysoul!Letmenursemybabes,feedthem,andsetthemontheirfeetbeforeIdie。Childrencannotlivewithoutfatherormother。“AndIhearkenedtoher。Iplacedonechildatherbreastandgavetheotherintoherarms,andreturnedtotheLordinheaven。IflewtotheLord,andsaid:“Icouldnottakethesoulofthemother。Herhusbandwaskilledbyatree;thewomanhastwins,andpraysthathersoulmaynotbetaken。Shesays:
’Letmenurseandfeedmychildren,andsetthemontheirfeet。Childrencannotlivewithoutfatherormother。’Ihavenottakenhersoul。“AndGodsaid:“Go——takethemother’ssoul,andlearnthreetruths:LearnWhatdwellsinman,Whatisnotgiventoman,andWhatmenliveby。Whenthouhastlearntthesethings,thoushaltreturntoheaven。“SoIflewagaintoearthandtookthemother’ssoul。Thebabesdroppedfromherbreasts。Herbodyrolledoveronthebedandcrushedonebabe,twistingitsleg。Iroseabovethevillage,wishingtotakehersoultoGod;
butawindseizedme,andmywingsdroopedanddroppedoff。
HersoulrosealonetoGod,whileIfelltoearthbytheroadside。’
AndSimonandMatryó;naunderstoodwhoitwasthathadlivedwiththem,andwhomtheyhadclothedandfed。Andtheyweptwithaweandwithjoy。Andtheangelsaid:’Iwasaloneinthefield,naked。Ihadneverknownhumanneeds,coldandhunger,tillIbecameaman。Iwasfamished,frozen,anddidnotknowwhattodo。Isaw,nearthefieldIwasin,ashrinebuiltforGod,andIwenttoithopingtofindshelter。Buttheshrinewaslocked,andIcouldnotenter。SoIsatdownbehindtheshrinetosheltermyselfatleastfromthewind。Eveningdrewon。Iwashungry,frozen,andinpain。SuddenlyIheardamancomingalongtheroad。Hecarriedapairofboots,andwastalkingtohimself。ForthefirsttimesinceIbecameamanIsawthemortalfaceofaman,andhisfaceseemedterribletomeandIturnedfromit。AndIheardthemantalkingtohimselfofhowtocoverhisbodyfromthecoldinwinter,andhowtofeedwifeandchildren。AndIthought:
“Iamperishingofcoldandhunger,andhereisamanthinkingonlyofhowtoclothehimselfandhiswife,andhowtogetbreadforthemselves。Hecannothelpme。Whenthemansawmehefrownedandbecamestillmoreterrible,andpassedmebyontheotherside。Idespaired,butsuddenlyIheardhimcomingback。Ilookedup,anddidnotrecognizethesameman:before,Ihadseendeathinhisface;butnowhewasalive,andIrecognizedinhimthepresenceofGod。Hecameuptome,clothedme,tookmewithhimandbroughtmetohishome。I
enteredthehouseawomancametomeetusandbegantospeak。Thewomanwasstillmoreterriblethanthemanhadbeen;
thespiritofdeathcamefromhermouth;Icouldnotbreatheforthestenchofdeaththatspreadaroundher。Shewishedtodrivemeoutintothecold,andIknewthatifshedidsoshewoulddie。
SuddenlyherhusbandspoketoherofGod,andthewomanchangedatonce。Andwhenshebroughtmefoodandlookedatme,Iglancedatherandsawthatdeathnolongerdweltinher;
shehadbecomealive,andinhertooIsawGod。
’ThenIrememberedthefirstlessonGodhadsetme:“Learnwhatdwellsinman。“AndIunderstoodthatinmandwellsLove!
IwasgladthatGodhadalreadybeguntoshowmewhatHehadpromised,andIsmiledforthefirsttime。ButIhadnotyetlearntall。IdidnotyetknowWhatisnotgiventoman,andWhatmenliveby。
’Ilivedwithyou,andayearpassed。Amancametoorderbootsthatshouldwearforayearwithoutlosingshapeorcracking。I
lookedathim,andsuddenly,behindhisshoulder,Isawmycomrade——theangelofdeath。Nonebutmesawthatangel;butI
knewhim,andknewthatbeforethesunsethewouldtakethatrichman’ssoul。AndIthoughttomyself,“Themanismakingpreparationsforayear,anddoesnotknowthathewilldiebeforeevening。“AndIrememberedGod’ssecondsaying,“Learnwhatisnotgiventoman。“
’WhatdwellsinmanIalreadyknew。NowIlearntwhatisnotgivenhim。
Itisnotgiventomantoknowhisownneeds。AndI
smiledforthesecondtime。Iwasgladtohaveseenmycomradeangel——gladalsothatGodhadrevealedtomethesecondsaying。
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