WhenmycomradeandDamianhadseenthebearknockmedownandbeginworryingme,theyrushedtotherescue。Mycomrade,inhishaste,blundered,andinsteadoffollowingthetroddenpath,ranintothedeepsnowandfelldown。Whilehewasstrugglingoutofthesnow,thebearwasgnawingatme。ButDamianjustashewas,withoutagun,andwithonlyastickinhishand,rushedalongthepathshouting:
’He’seatingthemaster!He’seatingthemaster!’
Andasheran,hecalledtothebear:
’Ohyouidiot!Whatareyoudoing?Leaveoff!Leaveoff!’
Thebearobeyedhim,andleavingmeranaway。WhenIrose,therewasasmuchbloodonthesnowasifasheephadbeenkilled,andthefleshhunginragsabovemyeyes,thoughinmyexcitementIfeltnopain。
Mycomradehadcomeupbythistime,andtheotherpeoplecollectedround:theylookedatmywound,andputsnowonit。
ButI,forgettingaboutmywounds,onlyasked:
’Where’sthebear?Whichwayhashegone?’
SuddenlyIheard:
’Hereheis!Hereheis!’
Andwesawthebearagainrunningatus。Weseizedourguns,butbeforeanyonehadtimetofirehehadrunpast。Hehadgrownferocious,andwantedtognawmeagain,butseeingsomanypeoplehetookfright。Wesawbyhistrackthathisheadwasbleedingandwewantedtofollowhimup;but,asmywoundshadbecomeverypainful,wewent,instead,tothetowntofindadoctor。
Thedoctorstitchedupmywoundswithsilk,andtheysoonbegantoheal。
Amonthlaterwewenttohuntthatbearagain,butIdidnotgetachanceoffinishinghim。Hewouldnotcomeoutofthecircle,butwentroundandroundgrowlinginaterriblevoice。
Damiankilledhim。Thebear’slowerjawhadbeenbroken,andoneofhisteethknockedoutbymybullet。
Hewasahugecreature,andhadsplendidblackfur。
Ihadhimstuffed,andhenowliesinmyroom。Thewoundsonmyforeheadhealedupsothatthescarscanscarcelybeseen。
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whaymenlivebyWHATMENLIVEBY
’Weknowthatwehavepassedoutofdeathintolife,becausewelovethebrethren。Hethatlovethnotabidethindeath。’——I
EpistleSt。Johniii。14。
’Whosohaththeworld’sgoods,andbeholdethhisbrotherinneed,andshuttethuphiscompassionfromhim,howdoththeloveofGodabideinhim?Mylittlechildren,letusnotloveinword,neitherwiththetongue;butindeedandtruth。’——iii。17-18。
’LoveisofGod;andeveryonethatlovethisbegottenofGod,andknowethGod。HethatlovethnotknowethnotGod;forGodislove。’——iv。7-8。
’NomanhathbeheldGodatanytime;ifweloveoneanother,Godabidethinus。’——iv。12。
’Godislove;andhethatabidethinloveabidethinGod,andGodabidethinhim。’——iv。16。
’Ifamansay,IloveGod,andhatethhisbrother,heisaliar;forhethatlovethnothisbrotherwhomhehathseen,howcanheloveGodwhomhehathnotseen?’——iv。20。
ASHOEMAKERnamedSimon,whohadneitherhousenorlandofhisown,livedwithhiswifeandchildreninapeasant’shut,andearnedhislivingbyhiswork。Workwascheapbutbreadwasdear,andwhatheearnedhespentforfood。Themanandhiswifehadbutonesheepskincoatbetweenthemforwinterwear,andeventhatwasworntotatters,andthiswasthesecondyearhehadbeenwantingtobuysheep-skinsforanewcoat。BeforewinterSimonsavedupalittlemoney:athree-roublenotelayhiddeninhiswife’sbox,andfiveroublesandtwentykopeks[6]
wereowedhimbycustomersinthevillage。
Soonemorninghepreparedtogotothevillagetobuythesheep-skins。
Heputonoverhisshirthiswife’swaddednankeenjacket,andoverthatheputhisownclothcoat。Hetookthethree-roublenoteinhispocket,cuthimselfasticktoserveasastaff,andstartedoffafterbreakfast。’I’llcollectthefiveroublesthatareduetome,’thoughthe,’addthethreeIhavegot,andthatwillbeenoughtobuysheep-skinsforthewintercoat。’
Hecametothevillageandcalledatapeasant’shut,butthemanwasnotathome。Thepeasant’swifepromisedthatthemoneyshouldbepaidnextweek,butshewouldnotpayitherself。ThenSimoncalledonanotherpeasant,butthisonesworehehadnomoney,andwouldonlypaytwentykopekswhichheowedforapairofbootsSimonhadmended。Simonthentriedtobuythesheep-skinsoncredit,butthedeaderwouldnottrusthim。
’Bringyourmoney,’saidhe,’thenyoumayhaveyourpickoftheskins。
Weknowwhatdebt-collectingislike。’
Soallthebusinesstheshoemakerdidwastogetthetwentykopeksforbootshehadmended,andtotakeapairoffeltbootsapeasantgavehimtosolewithleather。
Simonfeltdownhearted。Hespentthetwentykopeksonvó;dka,andstartedhomewardswithouthavingboughtanyskins。Inthemorninghehadfeltthefrost;butnow,afterdrinkingthevó;dka,hefeltwarmevenwithoutasheep-skincoat。Hetrudgedalong,strikinghisstickonthefrozenearthwithonehand,swingingthefeltbootswiththeother,andtalkingtohimself。
’I’mquitewarm,’saidhe,’thoughIhavenosheepskincoat。I’vehadadrop,anditrunsthroughallmyveins。Ineednosheepskins。Igoalonganddon’tworryaboutanything。That’sthesortofmanIam!WhatdoIcare?Icanlivewithoutsheepskins。Idon’tneedthem。Mywifewillfret,tobesure。And,trueenough,it’sashame;oneworksalldaylong,andthendoesnotgetpaid。Stopabit!Ifyoudon’tbringthatmoneyalong,sureenoughI’llskinyou,blessedifIdon’t。How’sthat?Hepaystwentykopeksatatime!WhatcanIdowithtwentykopeks:Drinkit——that’sallonecando!Hardup,hesaysheis!Sohemaybe——butwhataboutme?Youhavehouse,andcattle,andeverything;
I’veonlywhatIstandupin!Youhavecornofyourowngrowing;Ihavetobuyeverygrain。DowhatIwill,Imustspendthreeroubleseveryweekforbreadalone。Icomehomeandfindthebreadallusedup,andIhavetoforkoutanotherroubleandahalf。Sojustyoupayupwhatyouowe,andnononsenseaboutit!’
Bythistimehehadnearlyreachedtheshrineatthebendoftheroad。
Lookingup,hesawsomethingwhitishbehindtheshrine。
Thedaylightwasfading,andtheshoemakerpeeredatthethingwithoutbeingabletomakeoutwhatitwas。’Therewasnowhitestoneherebefore。Canitbeanox?It’snotlikeanox。Ithasaheadlikeaman,butit’stoowhite;andwhatcouldamanbedoingthere?’
Hecamecloser,sothatitwasclearlyvisible。Tohissurpriseitreallywasaman,aliveordead,sittingnaked,leaningmotionlessagainsttheshrine。Terrorseizedtheshoemaker,andhethought,’Someonehaskilledhim,strippedhim,andlefthimhere。IfI
meddleIshallsurelygetintotrouble。’
Sotheshoemakerwenton。Hepassedinfrontoftheshrinesothathecouldnotseetheman。Whenhehadgonesomeway,helookedback,andsawthatthemanwasnolongerleaningagainsttheshrine,butwasmovingasiflookingtowardshim。Theshoemakerfeltmorefrightenedthanbefore,andthought,’ShallIgobacktohim,orshallIgoon?IfIgonearhimsomethingdreadfulmayhappen。Whoknowswhothefellowis?Hehasnotcomehereforanygood。IfIgonearhimhemayjumpupandthrottleme,andtherewillbenogettingaway。Orifnot,he’dstillbeaburdenonone’shands。WhatcouldIdowithanakedman?Icouldn’tgivehimmylastclothes。Heavenonlyhelpmetogetaway!’
Sotheshoemakerhurriedon,leavingtheshrinebehindhim——whensuddenlyhisconsciencesmotehimandhestoppedintheroad。
’Whatareyoudoing,Simon?’saidhetohimself。’Themanmaybedyingofwant,andyouslippastafraid。Haveyougrownsorichastobeafraidofrobbers?Ah,Simon,shameonyou!’
Soheturnedbackandwentuptotheman。
Simonapproachedthestranger,lookedathim,andsawthathewasayoungman,fit,withnobruisesonhisbody,onlyevidentlyfreezingandfrightened,andhesatthereleaningbackwithoutlookingupatSimon,asiftoofainttolifthiseyes。Simonwentclosetohim,andthenthemanseemedtowakeup。Turninghishead,heopenedhiseyesandlookedintoSimon’sface。
ThatonelookwasenoughtomakeSimonfondoftheman。Hethrewthefeltbootsonthegroundundidhissash,laiditontheboots,andtookoffhisclothcoat。
’It’snotatimefortalking,’saidhe。’Come,putthiscoatonatonce!’
AndSimontookthemanbytheelbowsandhelpedhimtorise。Ashestoodthere,Simonsawthathisbodywascleanandingoodcondition,hishandsandfeetshapely,andhisfacegoodandkind。Hethrewhiscoatovertheman’sshouldersbutthelattercouldnotfindthesleeves。Simonguidedhisarmsintothem,anddrawingthecoatwellontrappeditcloselyabouthim,tyingthesashroundtheman’swaist。
Simoneventookoffhistorncaptoputitontheman’shead,butthenhisownheadfeltcold,andhethought:’I’mquitebald,whilehehaslongcurlyhair。’Soheputhiscaponhisownheadagain。
’Itwillbebettertogivehimsomethingforhisfeet,’
thoughthe;andhemadethemansitdown,andhelpedhimtoputonthefeltboots,saying,’There,friend,nowmoveaboutandwarmyourself。Othermatterscanbesettledlateron。Canyouwalk?’
ThemanstoodupandlookedkindlyatSimon,butcouldnotsayaword。
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