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  tablealight,thatwasall——sometimesoneorotherwouldflareupintoatall,lean,astonishedflameforaspace。Andqueerthingshappened。
  ’Ican’t,’hesaid;’Ishallnever——!’Andsuddenlyhesatdownonalittlechairatthefootofthebedandbegantosobandsob。
  Lord!whataharrowing,whimperingthingheseemed!
  “’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaid,andtriedtopathimontheback,and……myconfoundedhandwentthroughhim!Bythattime,youknow,Iwasn’tnearlyso——massiveasIhadbeenonthelanding。
  Igotthequeernessofitfull。Iremembersnatchingbackmyhandoutofhim,asitwere,withalittlethrill,andwalkingovertothedressing-table。’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaidtohim,’andtry。’AndinordertoencourageandhelphimIbegantotryaswell。“
  “What!“saidSanderson,“thepasses?“
  “Yes,thepasses。“
  “But——“Isaid,movedbyanideathateludedmeforaspace。
  “Thisisinteresting,“saidSanderson,withhisfingerinhispipe-
  bowl。“Youmeantosaythisghostofyoursgaveaway——“
  “Didhislevelbesttogiveawaythewholeconfoundedbarrier?YES。“
  “Hedidn’t,“saidWish;“hecouldn’t。Oryou’dhavegonetheretoo。“
  “That’spreciselyit,“Isaid,findingmyelusiveideaputintowordsforme。
  “ThatISpreciselyit,“saidClayton,withthoughtfuleyesuponthefire。
  Forjustalittlewhiletherewassilence。
  “Andatlasthedidit?“saidSanderson。
  “Atlasthedidit。Ihadtokeephimuptoithard,buthediditatlast——rathersuddenly。Hedespaired,wehadascene,andthenhegotupabruptlyandaskedmetogothroughthewholeperformance,slowly,sothathemightsee。’Ibelieve,’hesaid,’ifIcouldSEE
  Ishouldspotwhatwaswrongatonce。’Andhedid。’_I_know,’
  hesaid。’Whatdoyouknow?’saidI。’_I_know,’herepeated。
  Thenhesaid,peevishly,’ICAN’Tdoitifyoulookatme——IreallyCAN’T;it’sbeenthat,partly,allalong。I’msuchanervousfellowthatyouputmeout。’Well,wehadabitofanargument。NaturallyIwantedtosee;buthewasasobstinateasamule,andsuddenlyIhadcomeoverastiredasadog——hetiredmeout。’Allright,’
  Isaid,’_I_won’tlookatyou,’andturnedtowardsthemirror,onthewardrobe,bythebed。
  Hestartedoffveryfast。Itriedtofollowhimbylookinginthelooking-glass,toseejustwhatitwashadhung。Roundwenthisarmsandhishands,so,andso,andso,andthenwitharushcametothelastgestureofall——youstanderectandopenoutyourarms——andso,don’tyouknow,hestood。Andthenhedidn’t!Hedidn’t!
  Hewasn’t!Iwheeledroundfromthelooking-glasstohim。TherewasnothinglIwasalone,withtheflaringcandlesandastaggeringmind。
  Whathadhappened?Hadanythinghappened?HadIbeendreaming?……
  Andthen,withanabsurdnoteoffinalityaboutit,theclockuponthelandingdiscoveredthemomentwasripeforstrikingONE。So!——Ping!
  AndIwasasgraveandsoberasajudge,withallmychampagneandwhiskygoneintothevastserene。Feelingqueer,youknow——confoundedlyQUEER!Queer!GoodLord!“
  Heregardedhiscigar-ashforamoment。“That’sallthathappened,“hesaid。
  “Andthenyouwenttobed?“askedEvans。
  “Whatelsewastheretodo?“
  IlookedWishintheeye。Wewantedtoscoff,andtherewassomething,somethingperhapsinClayton’svoiceandmanner,thathamperedourdesire。
  “Andaboutthesepasses?“saidSanderson。
  “IbelieveIcoulddothemnow。“
  “Oh!“saidSanderson,andproducedapenknifeandsethimselftogrubthedotteloutofthebowlofhisclay。
  “Whydon’tyoudothemnow?“saidSanderson,shuttinghispen-knifewithaclick。
  “That’swhatI’mgoingtodo,“saidClayton。
  “Theywon’twork,“saidEvans。
  “Iftheydo——“Isuggested。
  “Youknow,I’dratheryoudidn’t,“saidWish,stretchingouthislegs。
  “Why?“askedEvans。
  “I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。
  “Buthehasn’tgot’emright,“saidSanderson,pluggingtoomuchtobaccoinhispipe。
  “Allthesame,I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。
  WearguedwithWish。HesaidthatforClaytontogothroughthosegestureswaslikemockingaseriousmatter。“Butyoudon’tbelieve——?“
  Isaid。WishglancedatClayton,whowasstaringintothefire,weighingsomethinginhismind。“Ido——morethanhalf,anyhow,Ido,“saidWish。
  “Clayton,“saidI,“you’retoogoodaliarforus。Mostofitwasallright。Butthatdisappearance……happenedtobeconvincing。
  Tellus,it’sataleofcockandbull。“
  Hestoodupwithoutheedingme,tookthemiddleofthehearthrug,andfacedme。Foramomentheregardedhisfeetthoughtfully,andthenforalltherestofthetimehiseyeswereontheoppositewall,withanintentexpression。Heraisedhistwohandsslowlytothelevelofhiseyesandsobegan……
  Now,SandersonisaFreemason,amemberofthelodgeoftheFourKings,whichdevotesitselfsoablytothestudyandelucidationofallthemysteriesofMasonrypastandpresent,andamongthestudentsofthislodgeSandersonisbynomeanstheleast。HefollowedClayton’smotionswithasingularinterestinhisreddisheye。“That’snotbad,“hesaid,whenitwasdone。“Youreallydo,youknow,putthingstogether,Clayton,inamostamazingfashion。Butthere’sonelittledetailout。“
  “Iknow,“saidClayton。“IbelieveIcouldtellyouwhich。“
  “Well?“
  “This,“saidClayton,anddidaqueerlittletwistandwrithingandthrustofthehands。
  “Yes。“
  “That,youknow,waswhatHEcouldn’tgetright,“saidClayton。
  “ButhowdoYOU——?“
  “Mostofthisbusiness,andparticularlyhowyouinventedit,Idon’tunderstandatall,“saidSanderson,“butjustthatphase——Ido。“
  Hereflected。“Thesehappentobeaseriesofgestures——connectedwithacertainbranchofesotericMasonry。Probablyyouknow。
  Orelse——HOW?“Hereflectedstillfurther。“IdonotseeIcandoanyharmintellingyoujustthepropertwist。Afterall,ifyouknow,youknow;ifyoudon’t,youdon’t。“
  “Iknownothing,“saidClayton,“exceptwhatthepoordevilletoutlastnight。“
  “Well,anyhow,“saidSanderson,andplacedhischurchwardenverycarefullyupontheshelfoverthefireplace。Thenveryrapidlyhegesticulatedwithhishands。
  “So?“saidClayton,repeating。
  “So,“saidSanderson,andtookhispipeinhandagain。
  “Ah,NOW,“saidClayton,“Icandothewholething——right。“
  Hestoodupbeforethewaningfireandsmiledatusall。ButIthinktherewasjustalittlehesitationinhissmile。“IfIbegin——“
  hesaid。
  “Iwouldn’tbegin,“saidWish。
  “It’sallright!“saidEvans。“Matterisindestructible。Youdon’tthinkanyjiggery-pokeryofthissortisgoingtosnatchClaytonintotheworldofshades。Notit!Youmaytry,Clayton,sofarasI’mconcerned,untilyourarmsdropoffatthewrists。“
  “Idon’tbelievethat,“saidWish,andstoodupandputhisarmonClayton’sshoulder。“You’vemademehalfbelieveinthatstorysomehow,andIdon’twanttoseethethingdone!“
  “Goodness!“saidI,“here’sWishfrightened!“
  “Iam,“saidWish,withrealoradmirablyfeignedintensity。“I
  believethatifhegoesthroughthesemotionsrighthe’llGO。“
  “He’llnotdoanythingofthesort,“Icried。“There’sonlyonewayoutofthisworldformen,andClaytonisthirtyyearsfromthat。