tablealight,thatwasall——sometimesoneorotherwouldflareupintoatall,lean,astonishedflameforaspace。Andqueerthingshappened。
’Ican’t,’hesaid;’Ishallnever——!’Andsuddenlyhesatdownonalittlechairatthefootofthebedandbegantosobandsob。
Lord!whataharrowing,whimperingthingheseemed!
“’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaid,andtriedtopathimontheback,and……myconfoundedhandwentthroughhim!Bythattime,youknow,Iwasn’tnearlyso——massiveasIhadbeenonthelanding。
Igotthequeernessofitfull。Iremembersnatchingbackmyhandoutofhim,asitwere,withalittlethrill,andwalkingovertothedressing-table。’Youpullyourselftogether,’Isaidtohim,’andtry。’AndinordertoencourageandhelphimIbegantotryaswell。“
“What!“saidSanderson,“thepasses?“
“Yes,thepasses。“
“But——“Isaid,movedbyanideathateludedmeforaspace。
“Thisisinteresting,“saidSanderson,withhisfingerinhispipe-
bowl。“Youmeantosaythisghostofyoursgaveaway——“
“Didhislevelbesttogiveawaythewholeconfoundedbarrier?YES。“
“Hedidn’t,“saidWish;“hecouldn’t。Oryou’dhavegonetheretoo。“
“That’spreciselyit,“Isaid,findingmyelusiveideaputintowordsforme。
“ThatISpreciselyit,“saidClayton,withthoughtfuleyesuponthefire。
Forjustalittlewhiletherewassilence。
“Andatlasthedidit?“saidSanderson。
“Atlasthedidit。Ihadtokeephimuptoithard,buthediditatlast——rathersuddenly。Hedespaired,wehadascene,andthenhegotupabruptlyandaskedmetogothroughthewholeperformance,slowly,sothathemightsee。’Ibelieve,’hesaid,’ifIcouldSEE
Ishouldspotwhatwaswrongatonce。’Andhedid。’_I_know,’
hesaid。’Whatdoyouknow?’saidI。’_I_know,’herepeated。
Thenhesaid,peevishly,’ICAN’Tdoitifyoulookatme——IreallyCAN’T;it’sbeenthat,partly,allalong。I’msuchanervousfellowthatyouputmeout。’Well,wehadabitofanargument。NaturallyIwantedtosee;buthewasasobstinateasamule,andsuddenlyIhadcomeoverastiredasadog——hetiredmeout。’Allright,’
Isaid,’_I_won’tlookatyou,’andturnedtowardsthemirror,onthewardrobe,bythebed。
Hestartedoffveryfast。Itriedtofollowhimbylookinginthelooking-glass,toseejustwhatitwashadhung。Roundwenthisarmsandhishands,so,andso,andso,andthenwitharushcametothelastgestureofall——youstanderectandopenoutyourarms——andso,don’tyouknow,hestood。Andthenhedidn’t!Hedidn’t!
Hewasn’t!Iwheeledroundfromthelooking-glasstohim。TherewasnothinglIwasalone,withtheflaringcandlesandastaggeringmind。
Whathadhappened?Hadanythinghappened?HadIbeendreaming?……
Andthen,withanabsurdnoteoffinalityaboutit,theclockuponthelandingdiscoveredthemomentwasripeforstrikingONE。So!——Ping!
AndIwasasgraveandsoberasajudge,withallmychampagneandwhiskygoneintothevastserene。Feelingqueer,youknow——confoundedlyQUEER!Queer!GoodLord!“
Heregardedhiscigar-ashforamoment。“That’sallthathappened,“hesaid。
“Andthenyouwenttobed?“askedEvans。
“Whatelsewastheretodo?“
IlookedWishintheeye。Wewantedtoscoff,andtherewassomething,somethingperhapsinClayton’svoiceandmanner,thathamperedourdesire。
“Andaboutthesepasses?“saidSanderson。
“IbelieveIcoulddothemnow。“
“Oh!“saidSanderson,andproducedapenknifeandsethimselftogrubthedotteloutofthebowlofhisclay。
“Whydon’tyoudothemnow?“saidSanderson,shuttinghispen-knifewithaclick。
“That’swhatI’mgoingtodo,“saidClayton。
“Theywon’twork,“saidEvans。
“Iftheydo——“Isuggested。
“Youknow,I’dratheryoudidn’t,“saidWish,stretchingouthislegs。
“Why?“askedEvans。
“I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。
“Buthehasn’tgot’emright,“saidSanderson,pluggingtoomuchtobaccoinhispipe。
“Allthesame,I’dratherhedidn’t,“saidWish。
WearguedwithWish。HesaidthatforClaytontogothroughthosegestureswaslikemockingaseriousmatter。“Butyoudon’tbelieve——?“
Isaid。WishglancedatClayton,whowasstaringintothefire,weighingsomethinginhismind。“Ido——morethanhalf,anyhow,Ido,“saidWish。
“Clayton,“saidI,“you’retoogoodaliarforus。Mostofitwasallright。Butthatdisappearance……happenedtobeconvincing。
Tellus,it’sataleofcockandbull。“
Hestoodupwithoutheedingme,tookthemiddleofthehearthrug,andfacedme。Foramomentheregardedhisfeetthoughtfully,andthenforalltherestofthetimehiseyeswereontheoppositewall,withanintentexpression。Heraisedhistwohandsslowlytothelevelofhiseyesandsobegan……
Now,SandersonisaFreemason,amemberofthelodgeoftheFourKings,whichdevotesitselfsoablytothestudyandelucidationofallthemysteriesofMasonrypastandpresent,andamongthestudentsofthislodgeSandersonisbynomeanstheleast。HefollowedClayton’smotionswithasingularinterestinhisreddisheye。“That’snotbad,“hesaid,whenitwasdone。“Youreallydo,youknow,putthingstogether,Clayton,inamostamazingfashion。Butthere’sonelittledetailout。“
“Iknow,“saidClayton。“IbelieveIcouldtellyouwhich。“
“Well?“
“This,“saidClayton,anddidaqueerlittletwistandwrithingandthrustofthehands。
“Yes。“
“That,youknow,waswhatHEcouldn’tgetright,“saidClayton。
“ButhowdoYOU——?“
“Mostofthisbusiness,andparticularlyhowyouinventedit,Idon’tunderstandatall,“saidSanderson,“butjustthatphase——Ido。“
Hereflected。“Thesehappentobeaseriesofgestures——connectedwithacertainbranchofesotericMasonry。Probablyyouknow。
Orelse——HOW?“Hereflectedstillfurther。“IdonotseeIcandoanyharmintellingyoujustthepropertwist。Afterall,ifyouknow,youknow;ifyoudon’t,youdon’t。“
“Iknownothing,“saidClayton,“exceptwhatthepoordevilletoutlastnight。“
“Well,anyhow,“saidSanderson,andplacedhischurchwardenverycarefullyupontheshelfoverthefireplace。Thenveryrapidlyhegesticulatedwithhishands。
“So?“saidClayton,repeating。
“So,“saidSanderson,andtookhispipeinhandagain。
“Ah,NOW,“saidClayton,“Icandothewholething——right。“
Hestoodupbeforethewaningfireandsmiledatusall。ButIthinktherewasjustalittlehesitationinhissmile。“IfIbegin——“
hesaid。
“Iwouldn’tbegin,“saidWish。
“It’sallright!“saidEvans。“Matterisindestructible。Youdon’tthinkanyjiggery-pokeryofthissortisgoingtosnatchClaytonintotheworldofshades。Notit!Youmaytry,Clayton,sofarasI’mconcerned,untilyourarmsdropoffatthewrists。“
“Idon’tbelievethat,“saidWish,andstoodupandputhisarmonClayton’sshoulder。“You’vemademehalfbelieveinthatstorysomehow,andIdon’twanttoseethethingdone!“
“Goodness!“saidI,“here’sWishfrightened!“
“Iam,“saidWish,withrealoradmirablyfeignedintensity。“I
believethatifhegoesthroughthesemotionsrighthe’llGO。“
“He’llnotdoanythingofthesort,“Icried。“There’sonlyonewayoutofthisworldformen,andClaytonisthirtyyearsfromthat。