首页 >出版文学> Trent’s Trust and Other Stories>第1章
  RandolphTrentsteppedfromtheStocktonboatontheSanFranciscowharf,penniless,friendless,andunknown。Hungermighthavebeenaddedtohistrials,for,havingpaidhislastcoininpassagemoney,hehadbeenadayandahalfwithoutfood。Yetheknewitonlybyanoccasionallapseintoweaknessasmuchmentalasphysical。Nevertheless,hewasfirstonthegangplanktoland,andhurriedfeverishlyashore,inthatvaguedesireforactionandchangeofscenecommontosuchirritation;yetaftermixingforafewmomentswiththedepartingpassengers,eachselfishlyhurryingtosomerendezvousofrestorbusiness,heinsensiblydrewapartfromthem,withtheinstinctofavagabondandoutcast。Althoughhewasconsciousthathewasneither,butmerelyanunsuccessfulminersuddenlyreducedtothepointofsolicitingworkoralmsofanykind,hetookadvantageofthefirstcrossingtoplungeintoasidestreet,withavaguesenseofhidinghisshame。
  Arisingwind,whichhadrockedtheboatforthelastfewhours,hadnowdevelopedintoastrongsou’wester,withtorrentsofrainwhichswepttheroadway。Hiswell-wornworkingclothes,fittedtothewarmerSouthernmines,gavehimmoreconcernfromtheirvisible,absurdcontrasttotheclimatethanfromanyactualsenseofdiscomfort,andhisfeverishnessdefiedthechillofhissoakinggarments,ashehurriedlyfacedtheblastthroughthedimlylightedstreet。Atthenextcornerhepaused;hehadreachedanother,and,fromitsdilapidatedappearance,apparentlyanolderwharfthanthatwherehehadlanded,but,likethefirst,itwasstillastragglingavenueleadingtowardthehigherandmoreanimatedpartofthecity。Heagainmechanically——forapartofhistroublewasavague,undefinedpurpose——turnedtowardit。
  Inhisfeverishexaltationhispowersofperceptionseemedtobequickened:hewasvividlyalivetotheincongruous,half-marine,half-backwoodscharacterofthewarehousesandcommercialbuildings;tothehullofastrandedshipalreadybuiltintoablockofrudetenements;tothedarkstockadedwallofahouseframedofcorrugatediron,anditsweirdcontiguitytoaSwisschalet,whosegallerieswereusedonlytobearthesignsoftheshops,andwhoseframehadbeencarriedacrossseasinsectionstobesetupatrandomhere。
  Movingpastthese,asinanightmaredream,ofwhicheventheturbulencyoftheweatherseemedtobeapart,hestumbled,blinded,panting,andunexpectedly,withnoconsciousnessofhisrapidpacebeyondhisbreathlessness,uponthedazzlingmainthoroughfareofthecity。Inspiteoftheweather,theslipperypavementswerethrongedbyhurryingcrowdsofwell-dressedpeople,againallintentontheirownpurposes,——purposesthatseemedsotriflingandunimportantbesidehisown。Theshopswerebrilliantlylighted,exposingtheirbrightestwaresthroughplate-
  glasswindows;ajeweler’sglitteredwithpreciousstones;afashionableapothecary’snexttoitalmostoutrivaleditwithitsgorgeousglobes,thegoldandgreenprecisionofitsshelves,andthemarbleandsilversodafountainlikeashrinebeforeit。Allthisspeciousshowofopulencecameuponhimwiththeshockofcontrast,andwithitabitterrevulsionoffeelingmorehopelessthanhisfeverishanxiety,——thebitternessofdisappointment。
  Forduringhisjourneyhehadbeenbuoyedupwiththeprospectoffindingworkandsympathyinthisyouthfulcity,——aprospectfoundedsolelyonhisinexperiencedhopes。Forthishehadexchangedthepovertyoftheminingdistrict,——apovertythathadnothingignobleaboutit,thatwasapartoftheeconomyofnature,andsharedwithhisfellowmenandthebirdsandbeastsintheirrudeencampments。Hehadgivenupthebrotherhoodoftheminer,andthatpracticalhelpandsympathywhichbroughtnodegradationwithit,forthisrudeshockofself-interested,self-satisfiedcivilization。He,whowouldnothaveshrunkfromaskingrest,food,oranight’slodgingatthecabinofabrotherminerorwoodsman,nowrecoiledsuddenlyfromthesewell-dressedcitizens。
  Whatmadnesshadsenthimhere,anintruder,or,even,asitseemedtohiminhisdrippingclothes,animpostor?Andyetthesewerethepeopletowhomhehadconfidentlyexpectedtotellhisstory,andwhowouldcheerfullyassisthimwithwork!Hecouldalmostanticipatethehardlaughorbrutalhurriednegativeintheirfaces。InhisfoolishhearthethankedGodhehadnottriedit。
  Thentheapatheticrecoilwhichisapttofollowanykeenemotionovertookhim。Hewasdazedlyconsciousofbeingrudelyshovedonceortwice,andevenheardtheepithet“drunkenlout“fromonewhohadrunagainsthim。
  Hefoundhimselfpresentlystaringvacantlyintheapothecary’swindow。Howlonghestoodtherehecouldnottell,forhewasarousedonlybythedooropeninginfrontofhim,andayounggirlemergingwithsomepurchaseinherhand。Hecouldseethatshewashandsomelydressedandquitepretty,andasshepassedoutsheliftedtohiswithdrawingfigureapairofcalm,inquiringeyes,which,however,changedtoalookofhalf-wondering,half-amusedpityasshegazed。Yetthatlookofpitystunghispridemoredeeplythanall。Withadeliberateeffortherecoveredhisenergy。
  No,hewouldnotbeg,hewouldnotaskassistancefromthesepeople;hewouldgoback——anywhere!Tothesteamboatfirst;theymightlethimsleepthere,givehimameal,andallowhimtoworkhispassagebacktoStockton。Hemightberefused。Well,whatthen?Well,beyond,therewasthebay!Helaughedbitterly——hismindwassaneenoughforthat——buthekeptonrepeatingitvaguelytohimself,ashecrossedthestreetagain,andoncemoremadehiswaytothewharf。
  Thewindandrainhadincreased,buthenolongerheededtheminhisfeverishhasteandhisconsciousnessthatmotioncouldalonekeepawaythatdreadfulapathywhichthreatenedtoovercloudhisjudgment。Andhewishedwhilehewasabletoreasonlogicallytomakeuphismindtoendthisunsupportablesituationthatnight。
  Hewasscarcelytwenty,yetitseemedtohimthatithadalreadybeendemonstratedthathislifewasafailure;hewasanorphan,andwhenheleftcollegetoseekhisownfortuneinCalifornia,hebelievedhehadstakedhisalluponthatventure——andlost。
  Thatbitternesswhichisthesuddenrecoilofboyishenthusiasm,andisnonethelessterribleforbeingwithoutexperiencetojustifyit,——thatmelancholywearetooapttolookbackuponwithcynicaljeersandlaughterinmiddleage,——ismorepotentthanwedaretothink,anditwasinnomereposeofyouthfulpessimismthatRandolphTrentnowcontemplatedsuicide。Suchscrapsofphilosophyashiseducationhadgivenhimpointedtothatoneconclusion。Anditwastheonlyrefugethatpride——realorfalse——
  offeredhimfromtheonesupremeterrorofyouth——shame。
  Thestreetwasdeserted,andthefewlightshehadpreviouslynotedinwarehousesandshopswereextinguished。Ithadgrowndarkerwiththestorm;theincongruousbuildingsoneithersidehadbecomemisshapenshadows;thelongperspectiveofthewharfwasastrangegloomfromwhichthesparsofashipstoodoutlikethecrossherememberedasaboytohaveonceseeninapictureofthetempest-
  smittenCalvary。Itwashisonlyfancyconnectedwiththefuture——
  itmighthavebeenhislast,forsuddenlyoneoftheplanksoftherottenwharfgavewaybeneathhisfeet,andhefelthimselfviolentlyprecipitatedtowardthegurglingandoozingtidebelow。
  Hethrewouthisarmsdesperately,caughtatastronggirder,drewhimselfupwiththeenergyofdesperation,andstaggeredtohisfeetagain,safe——andsane。Forwiththisterribleautomaticstruggletoavoidthatdeathhewascourtingcameaflashofreason。Ifhehadresolutelythrownhimselffromthepierheadasheintended,wouldhehaveundergoneahopelessrevulsionlikethis?Washesurethatthismightnotbe,afterall,theterriblepenaltyofself-destruction——thisinevitablefierceprotestofmindandbodywhenTOOLATE?Hewasmomentarilytouchedwithasenseofgratitudeathisescape,buthisreasontoldhimitwasnotfromhisACCIDENT,butfromhisintention。
  Hewastryingcarefullytoretracehissteps,butashedidsohesawthefigureofamandimlylurchingtowardhimoutofthedarknessofthewharfandthecrossedyardsoftheship。Agleamofhopecameoverhim,fortheemotionofthelastfewminuteshadrudelydisplacedhisprideandself-love。Hewouldappealtothisstranger,whoeverhewas;therewasmorechancethatinthisrudelocalityhewouldbeabelatedsailororsomehumblerwayfarer,andthedarknessandsolitudemadehimfeellessashamed。Bythelastflickeringstreetlamphecouldseethathewasamanabouthisownsize,withsomethingoftherollinggaitofasailor,whichwasincreasedbytheweightofatravelingportmanteauhewasswinginginhishand。AsheapproachedheevidentlydetectedRandolph’swaitingfigure,slackenedhisspeedslightly,andchangedhisportmanteaufromhisrighthandtohisleftasaprecautionfordefense。
  Randolphfeltthebloodflushhischeekatthissignificantproofofhisdisreputableappearance,butdeterminedtoaccosthim。Hescarcelyrecognizedthesoundofhisownvoicenowfirstbreakingthesilenceforhours,buthemadehisappeal。Themanlistened,madeaslightgestureforwardwithhisdisengagedhand,andimpelledRandolphslowlyuptothestreetlampuntilitshoneonboththeirfaces。Randolphsawamanafewyearshissenior,withaslightlytrimmedbeardonhisdark,weather-beatencheeks,well-
  cutfeatures,aquick,observanteye,andasailor’supwardglanceandbearing。Thestrangersawathin,youthful,anxious,yetrefinedandhandsomefacebeneathstragglingdampcurls,anddarkeyespreternaturallybrightwithsuffering。Perhapshisexperiencedear,too,detectedsomeharmonywithallthisinRandolph’svoice。
  “Andyouwantsomethingtoeat,anight’slodging,andachanceofworkafterward,“thestrangerrepeatedwithgood-humoreddeliberation。
  “Yes,“saidRandolph。
  “Youlookit。“
  Randolphcoloredfaintly。
  “Doyoueverdrink?“
  “Yes,“saidRandolphwonderingly。
  “IthoughtI’dask,“saidthestranger,“asitmightplayhellwithyoujustnowifyouwerenotaccustomedtoit。Takethat。Justaswallow,youknow——that’sasgoodasajugful。“
  Hehandedhimaheavyflask。Randolphfelttheburningliquorscaldhisthroatandfirehisemptystomach。Thestrangerturnedandlookeddownthevacantwharftothedarknessfromwhichhecame。ThenheturnedtoRandolphagainandsaidabruptly,——
  “Strongenoughtocarrythisbag?“
  “Yes,“saidRandolph。Thewhiskey——possiblytherelief——hadgivenhimnewstrength。Besides,hemightearnhisalms。
  “Takeituptoroom74,NianticHotel——topofnextstreettothis,oneblockthatway——andwaittillIcome。“
  “WhatnameshallIsay?“askedRandolph。
  “Needn’tsayany。Iorderedtheroomaweekago。Stop;there’sthekey。Goin;changeyourtogs;you’llfindsomethinginthatbagthat’llfityou。Waitforme。Stop——no;you’dbettergetsomegrubtherefirst。“Hefumbledinhispockets,butfruitlessly。
  “Nomatter。You’llfindabuckskinpurse,withsomescadsinit,inthebag。Solong。“AndbeforeRandolphcouldthankhim,helurchedawayagainintothesemi-darknessofthewharf。
  Overflowingwithgratitudeatahospitalitysolikethatofhisrecklessbrethrenofthemines,Randolphpickeduptheportmanteauandstartedforthehotel。Hewalkedwarilynow,withanewinterestinlife,andthen,suddenlythinkingofhisownmiraculousescape,hepaused,wonderingifheoughtnottowarnhisbenefactoroftheperilsoftherottenwharf;buthehadalreadydisappeared。