Arthurpressedhishand,andafteramoment’ssilencewenton,“Yousay,Tom,youwanttopleasetheDoctor。Now,doyouwanttopleasehimbywhathethinksyoudo,orbywhatyoureallydo?“
“BywhatIreallydo,ofcourse。“
“Doeshethinkyouusecribsandvulgus-books?“
Tomfeltatoncethathisflankwasturned,buthecouldn’tgivein。“HewasatWinchesterhimself,“saidhe;“heknowsallaboutit。“
“Yes;butdoeshethinkyouusethem?Doyouthinkheapprovesofit?“
“Youyoungvillain!“saidTom,shakinghisfistatArthur,halfvexedandhalfpleased,“Ineverthinkaboutit。Hangit!
there,perhapshedon’t。Well,Isupposehedon’t。“
Arthursawthathehadgothispoint;heknewhisfriendwell,andwaswiseinsilenceasinspeech。Heonlysaid,“Iwouldsoonerhavethedoctor’sgoodopinionofmeasIreallyamthananyman’sintheworld。“
Afteranotherminute,Tombeganagain,“Lookhere,youngun。
HowonearthamItogettimetoplaythematchesthishalfifI
giveupcribs?We’reinthemiddleofthatlongcrabbedchorusintheAgamemnon。Icanonlyjustmakeheadortailofitwiththecrib。Thenthere’sPericles’sspeechcomingoninThucydides,and’TheBirds’togetupfortheexamination,besidestheTacitus。“Tomgroanedatthethoughtofhisaccumulatedlabours。“Isay,youngun,there’sonlyfiveweeksorsolefttoholidays。Mayn’tIgoonasusualforthishalf?
I’lltelltheDoctoraboutitsomeday,oryoumay。“
Arthurlookedoutofthewindow。Thetwilighthadcomeon,andallwassilent。Herepeatedinalowvoice:“InthisthingtheLordpardonthyservant,thatwhenmymastergoethintothehouseofRimmontoworshipthere,andheleanethonmyhand,andIbowdownmyselfinthehouseofRimmon,whenIbowdownmyselfinthehouseofRimmon,theLordpardonthyservantinthisthing。“
Notawordmorewassaidonthesubject,andtheboyswereagainsilent——oneofthoseblessed,shortsilencesinwhichtheresolveswhichcolouralifearesooftentaken。
Tomwasthefirsttobreakit。“You’vebeenveryillindeed,haven’tyou,Geordie?“saidhe,withamixtureofaweandcuriosity,feelingasifhisfriendhadbeen1nsomestrangeplaceorscene,ofwhichhecouldformnoidea,andfullofthememoryofhisownthoughtsduringthelastweek。
“Yes,very。I’msuretheDoctorthoughtIwasgoingtodie。HegavemetheSacramentlastSunday,andyoucan’tthinkwhatheiswhenoneisill。Hesaidsuchbrave,andtender,andgentlethingstome,Ifeltquitelightandstrongafterit,andneverhadanymorefear。Mymotherbroughtouroldmedicalman,whoattendedmewhenIwasapoorsicklychild。Hesaidmyconstitutionwasquitechanged,andthatI’mfitforanythingnow。Ifithadn’t,Icouldn’thavestoodthreedaysofthisillness。That’sallthankstoyou,andthegamesyou’vemademefondof。“
“MorethankstooldMartin,“saidTom;“he’sbeenyourrealfriend。“
“Nonsense,Tom;henevercouldhavedoneformewhatyouhave。“
“Well,Idon’tknow;Ididlittleenough。Didtheytellyou——
youwon’tmindhearingitnow,Iknow——thatpoorThompsondiedlastweek?Theotherthreeboysaregettingquiteround,likeyou。“
“Ohyes,Iheardofit。“
ThenTom,whowasquitefullofit,toldArthuroftheburial-
serviceinthechapel,andhowithadimpressedhim,and,hebelieved,alltheotherboys。“AndthoughtheDoctorneversaidawordaboutit,“saidhe,“anditwasahalf-holidayandmatch-
day,therewasn’tagameplayedintheclosealltheafternoon,andtheboysallwentaboutasifitwereSunday。“
“I’mverygladofit,“saidArthur。“But,Tom,I’vehadsuchstrangethoughtsaboutdeathlately。I’venevertoldasoulofthem,notevenmymother。SometimesIthinkthey’rewrong,but,doyouknow,Idon’tthinkinmyheartIcouldbesorryatthedeathofanyofmyfriends。“
Tomwastakenquiteaback。“Whatintheworldistheyoungunafternow?“thoughthe;“I’veswallowedagoodmanyofhiscrotchets,butthisaltogetherbeatsme。Hecan’tbequiterightinhishead。“Hedidn’twanttosayaword,andshiftedaboutuneasilyinthedark;however,Arthurseemedtobewaitingforananswer,soatlasthesaid,“Idon’tthinkIquiteseewhatyoumean,Geordie。One’stoldsooftentothinkaboutdeaththatI’vetrieditonsometimes,especiallythislastweek。Butwewon’ttalkofitnow。I’dbettergo。You’regettingtired,andIshalldoyouharm。“
“No,no;indeedIain’t,Tom。Youmuststoptillnine;there’sonlytwentyminutes。I’vesettledyoushallstoptillnine。
Andoh!doletmetalktoyou——Imusttalktoyou。Iseeit’sjustasIfeared。YouthinkI’mhalfmad。Don’tyou,now?“
“Well,Ididthinkitoddwhatyousaid,Geordie,asyouaskme。“
Arthurpausedamoment,andthensaidquickly,“I’lltellyouhowitallhappened。Atfirst,whenIwassenttothesick-
room,andfoundIhadreallygotthefever,Iwasterriblyfrightened。IthoughtIshoulddie,andIcouldnotfaceitforamoment。Idon’tthinkitwassheercowardiceatfirst,butI
thoughthowharditwastobetakenawayfrommymotherandsistersandyouall,justasIwasbeginningtoseemywaytomanythings,andtofeelthatImightbeamananddoaman’swork。Todiewithouthavingfought,andworked,andgivenone’slifeaway,wastoohardtobear。Igotterriblyimpatient,andaccusedGodofinjustice,andstrovetojustifymyself。AndtheharderIstrovethedeeperIsank。Thentheimageofmydearfatheroftencameacrossme,butIturnedfromit。Wheneveritcame,aheavy,numbingthrobseemedtotakeholdofmyheart,andsay,’Dead-dead-dead。’AndIcriedout,’Theliving,thelivingshallpraiseThee,OGod;thedeadcannotpraisethee。
Thereisnoworkinthegrave;inthenightnomancanwork。
ButIcanwork。Icandogreatthings。Iwilldogreatthings。
Whywiltthouslayme?’AndsoIstruggledandplunged,deeperanddeeper,andwentdownintoalivingblacktomb。Iwasalonethere,withnopowertostirorthink;alonewithmyself;beyondthereachofallhumanfellowship;beyondChrist’sreach,I
thought,inmynightmare。You,whoarebraveandbrightandstrong,canhavenoideaofthatagony。PraytoGodyounevermay。Prayasforyourlife。“
Arthurstopped——fromexhaustion,Tomthought;butwhatbetweenhisfearlestArthurshouldhurthimself,hisawe,andhislongingforhimtogoon,hecouldn’task,orstirtohelphim。
Presentlyhewenton,butquitecalmandslow。“Idon’tknowhowlongIwasinthatstate——formorethanaday,Iknow;forIwasquiteconscious,andlivedmyouterlifeallthetime,andtookmymedicines,andspoketomymother,andheardwhattheysaid。ButIdidn’ttakemuchnoteoftime。Ithoughttimewasoverforme,andthatthattombwaswhatwasbeyond。Well,onlastSundaymorning,asIseemedtolieinthattomb,alone,asIthought,foreverandever,theblack,deadwallwascleftintwo,andIwascaughtupandbornethroughintothelightbysomegreatpower,someliving,mightyspirit。Tom,doyourememberthelivingcreaturesandthewheelsinEzekiel?Itwasjustlikethat。’Whentheywent,Iheardthenoiseoftheirwings,likethenoiseofgreatwaters,asthevoiceoftheAlmighty,thevoiceofspeech,asthenoiseofanhost;whentheystood,theyletdowntheirwings。’’Andtheywenteveryonestraightforward:whitherthespiritwastogo,theywent;
andtheyturnednotwhentheywent。’Andwerushedthroughthebrightair,whichwasfullofmyriadsoflivingcreatures,andpausedonthebrinkofagreatriver。Andthepowerheldmeup,andIknewthatthatgreatriverwasthegrave,anddeathdweltthere,butnotthedeathIhadmetintheblacktomb。That,I
felt,wasgoneforever。ForontheotherbankofthegreatriverIsawmenandwomenandchildrenrisinguppureandbright,andthetearswerewipedfromtheireyes,andtheyputongloryandstrength,andallwearinessandpainfellaway。
Andbeyondwereamultitudewhichnomancouldnumber,andtheyworkedatsomegreatwork;andtheywhorosefromtheriverwentonandjoinedinthework。Theyallworked,andeachworkedinadifferentway,butallatthesamework。AndIsawtheremyfather,andthemenintheoldtownwhomIknewwhenIwasachild——manyahard,sternman,whonevercametochurch,andwhomtheycalledatheistandinfidel。Theretheywere,sidebysidewithmyfather,whomIhadseentoilanddieforthem,andwomenandlittlechildren,andthesealwasontheforeheadsofall。AndIlongedtoseewhattheworkwas,andcouldnot;soI
triedtoplungeintheriver,forIthoughtIwouldjointhem,butIcouldnot。ThenIlookedabouttoseehowtheygotintotheriver。AndthisIcouldnotsee,butIsawmyriadsonthisside,andtheytooworked,andIknewthatitwasthesamework,andthesamesealwasontheirforeheads。AndthoughIsawthattherewastoilandanguishintheworkofthese,andthatmostthatwereworkingwereblindandfeeble,yetIlongednomoretoplungeintotheriver,butmoreandmoretoknowwhattheworkwas。AndasIlookedIsawmymotherandmysisters,andIsawtheDoctor,andyou,Tom,andhundredsmorewhomIknew;andatlastIsawmyselftoo,andIwastoilinganddoingeversolittleapieceofthegreatwork。Thenitallmeltedaway,andthepowerleftme,andasitleftmeIthoughtIheardavoicesay,’Thevisionisforanappointedtime;thoughittarry,waitforit,forintheenditshallspeakandnotlie,itshallsurelycome,itshallnottarry。’ItwasearlymorningIknow,then——itwassoquietandcool,andmymotherwasfastasleepinthechairbymybedside;butitwasn’tonlyadreamofmine。
Iknowitwasn’tadream。ThenIfellintoadeepsleep,andonlywokeafterafternoonchapel;andtheDoctorcameandgavemetheSacrament,asItoldyou。ItoldhimandmymotherI
shouldgetwell——IknewIshould;butIcouldn’ttellthemwhy。