Theraindropsnowwerefallingmoregently,andinfinerlinesandmoretransparentnetwork,sothatonecouldoncemoredescrythegreattrunksoftheblackenedoaks,withthegreenandgoldoftheirleaves。Also,ourownhollowhadgrownlessdark,andtherecouldbediscerneditssmoky,satin-brightwalls。FromthosewallsKalininpickedabitofcharcoalwithfingerandthumb,saying:
“Itwasshepherdsthatfiredtheplace。Seewheretheydraggedinhayanddeadleaves!Ashepherd’sfifehereaboutsmustbeatrulygloriousone!“
Lastly,claspinghisheadasthoughhewereabouttofallasleep,hesankhischinbetweenhisknees,andrelapsedintosilence。
Presentlyabrilliant,sinuouslittlerivuletwhichhadlongbeenlavingthebarerootsofourtreebroughtfloatingpastusaredandfawnleaf。
“Howpretty,“Ithought,“thatleafwilllookfromadistancewhenreposingonthesurfaceofthesea!For,likethesunwhenheisinsolitarypossessionoftheheavens,thatleafwillstandoutagainsttheblue,silkyexpanselikealonelyredstar。“
Afterawhilemycompanionbegan,catlike,topurrtohimselfasong。Itsmelody,themelodyof“themoonwithdrewbehindacloud,“wasfamiliarenough,butnotsothewords,whichran:
0hValentina,wondrousmaid,Morecomelythouthane’eraflow’r!
Thenurse’ssondothpineforthee,Andyearntoservetheeeveryhour!
“Whatdoesthatdittymean?“Iinquired。
Kalininstraightenedhimself,gaveawriggletoaformthatwasaslitheasalizard’s,andpassedonehandoverhisface。
“Itisacertaincomposition,“herepliedpresently。“Itisacompositionthatwascomposedbyamilitaryclerkwhoafterwardsdiedofconsumption。Hewasmyfriendhislifelong,andmyonlyfriend,andatrueone,besidesbeingamanoutofthecommon。“
“AndwhowasValentina?“
“Myone-timemistress,“Kalininspokeunwillingly。
“Andhe,theclerk——washeinlovewithher?“
“Ohdearno!“
EvidentlyKalininhadnoparticularwishtodiscussthesubject,forhehuggedhimselftogether,buriedhisfaceinhishands,andmuttered:
“Ishouldliketokindleafire,wereitnotthateverythingintheplaceistoodampforthepurpose。“
Thewindshookthetrees,andwhistleddespondently,whilethefine,persistentrainstillwhippedtheearth。
“Ibuthumbleam,andpoor,Norfatedtobeotherwise,“
sangKalininsoftlyas,flinginguphisheadwithanunexpectedmovement,headdedmeaningly:
“Yes,itisamournfulsong,asongwhichcouldmovetotears。
Onlytotwopersonshasiteverbeenknown;tomyfriendtheclerkandtomyself。Yes,andtoHER,thoughIneedhardlyaddthatatoncesheforgotit。“
AndKalinin’seyesflashedintoasmileasheadded:
“Ithinkthat,asayoungman,youhadbetterlearnforthwithwherethegreatestdangerlurksinlife。Letmetellyouastory。“
Anduponthataveryhumantalefilteredthroughthesilkenmonotonousswishofthedownpour,with,forlistenerstoit,onlytherainandmyself。
“LukianovwasNEVERinlovewithher,“henarrated。“OnlyIwasthat。AllthatLukianovdidinthematterwastowrite,atmyrequest,someverses。WhenshefirstappearedonthesceneI
meanValentinaIgnatievnaIwasjustturnednineteenyearsofage;andtheinstantthatmyeyesfelluponherformIrealisedthatinheralonelaymyfate,andmyheartalmoststoppedbeating,andmyvitalitystretchedouttowardsherasaspeckofdustfliestowardsafire。YetallthisIhadtoconcealasbestImight;withtheresultthatinthecompany’spresenceIfeltlikeasentrydoingguarddutyinthepresenceofhiscommandingofficer。Butatlast,thoughIstrovetopullmyselftogether,tosteadymyselfagainstthefermentthatwasraginginmybreast,somethinghappened。ValentinaIgnatievnawasthenagedabouttwenty-five,andverybeautiful——marvellous,infact!Also,shewasanorphan,sinceherfatherhadbeenkilledbytheChechentzes,andhermotherhaddiedofsmallpoxatSamarkand。AsregardsherkinshipwiththeGeneral,shestoodtohimintherelationofniecebymarriage。Golden-locked,andasskin-fairasenamelledporcelain,shehadeyeslikeemeralds,andafigurewhollysymmetrical,thoughasslimasawafer。ForbedroomshehadalittlecornerapartmentsituatednexttothekitchentheGeneralpossessedhisownhouse,ofcourse,while,inaddition,theyallottedherabrightlittleboudoirinwhichshedisposedhercuriosandknickknacks,fromcut-glassbottlesandgobletstoacopperpipeandaglassringmountedoncopper。Thisring,whenturned,usedtoemitshowersofglitteringsparks,thoughshewasinnowayafraidofthem,butwouldsingasshemadethemdance:
“Notformethespringwilldawn!
NotformetheBugwillspate!
Notformelove’ssmilewillwait!
Notforme,ah,notforme!
“Constantlywouldshewarblethis。
“Also,oncesheflashedanappealatmewithhereyes,andsaid:
“’Alexei,pleasenevertouchanythinginmyroom,formythingsaretoofragile。’
“Sureenough,inHERpresenceANYTHINGmighthavefallenfrommyhands!
“Meanwhilehersongabout’Notforme’usedtomakemefeelsorryforher。’Notforyou?’Iusedtosaytomyself。’OughtnotEVERYTHINGtobeforyou?’Andthisreflectionwouldcausemyhearttoyearnandstretchtowardsher。Next,Iboughtaguitar,aninstrumentwhichIcouldnotplay,andtookitforinstructiontoLukianov,theclerkoftheDivisionalStaff,whichhaditsheadquartersinourstreet。InpassingImaysaythatLukianovwasalittleJewishconvertwithdarkhair,sallowfeatures,andgimlet-sharpeyes,butbeyondallthingsafellowwithbrains,andonewhocouldplaytheguitarunforgettably。
“Oncehesaid:’Inlifeallthingsareattainable——nothingneedweloseforwantoftrying。Forwhencedoeseverythingcome?Fromtheplainestofmankind。AmanmaynotbeBORNintherankofageneral,butatleasthemayattaintothatposition。Also,thebeginningandendingofallthingsiswoman。Allthatsherequiresforhercaptivationispoetry。Hence,letmewriteyousomeverses,thatyoumaytenderthemtoherasanoffering。’
“These,mindyou,werethewordsofamaninwhomtheheartwasabsolutelysingle,absolutelydispassionate。“
UntilthenKalininhadtoldhisstoryswiftly,withanimation;
butthereafterheseemed,asitwere,tobecomeextinguished。
Afterapauseofafewsecondshecontinued——continuedinslower,toallappearancesmoreunwilling,accents——
“AtthetimeIbelievedwhatLukianovsaid,butsubsequentlyI
cametoseethatthingswerenotaltogetherashehadrepresented——thatwomanismerelyadelusion,andpoetrymerelyfiddle-faddle;andthatamancannotescapehisfate,andthat,thoughgoodinwar,boldnessis,inpeaceaffairs,butnakedeffrontery。Inthis,brother,liesthechief,thefundamentallawoflife。Fortheworldcontainscertainpeopleofhighstation,andcertainpeopleoflow;andsolongasthesetwocategoriesretaintheirrespectivepositions,allgoeswell;butassoonaseveramanseekstopassfromtheuppercategorytotheinferiorcategory,orfromtheinferiortotheupper,thefatfallsintothefire,andthatmanfindshimselfstuckmidway,stuckneitherherenorthere,andboundtoabidetherefortheremainderofhislife,fortheremainderofhislife……Alwayskeeptoyourownposition,tothepositionassignedyoubyfate……WilltherainNEVERcease,thinkyou?“
Bythistime,asamatteroffact,theraindrops。werefallinglessheavilyanddenselythanhitherto,andthewetcloudswerebeginningtorevealbrightpatchesinthemoisture-soakedfirmament,asevidencethatthesunwasstillinexistence。
“Continue,“Isaid。
Kalininlaughed。
“Thenyoufindthestoryaninterestingone,“heremarked。
Presentlyheresumed:
“AsIhavesaid,ItrustedLukianovimplicitly,andbeggedofhimtowritetheverses。Andwritethemhedid——hewrotethemtheverynextday。True,atthisdistanceoftimeIhaveforgottenthewordsintheirentirety,butatleastIrememberthatthereoccurredinthemaphrasetotheeffectthat’fordaysandweekshaveyoureyesbeenconsumingmyheartinthefireoflove,sopityme,Ipray。’Ithenproceededtocopyoutthepoem,andtremblinglytoleaveitonhertable。
“Thenextmorning,whenIwastidyingherboudoir,shemadeanunexpectedentry,and,cladinaloose,reddressing-gown,andholdingacigarettebetweenherlips,saidtomewithakindlysmileassheproducedmypreciouspaperofverses:
“’Alexei,didYOUwritethese?’
“’Yes,’wasmyreply。’AndforChrist’ssakepardonmeforthesame。’
“’Whatapitythatsuchafancyshouldhaveenteredyourhead!
For,yousee,Iamengagedalready——myuncleisintendingtomarrymetoDoctorKliachka,andIampowerlessinthematter。’
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